Healing Addiction & Finding Peace of Mind with Coach Andrew Adams

In this episode of Nosedive, Andrew Adams shares his transformative journey from a strict religious upbringing to becoming a high-impact speaker and coach. He opens up about overcoming addiction, finding peace of mind, and the power of self-love in personal growth.

Andrew dives into self-discovery, using mirrors as tools for reflection, embracing discomfort to fuel transformation, and choosing love over fear in every part of life. He also explores the importance of human connection, remembering your true self, and embracing the messiness of life on the path to healing.

Whether you’re navigating personal growth, addiction recovery, or simply seeking guidance on self-awareness and emotional healing, this conversation offers insights, inspiration, and practical wisdom to help you transform your life.

***Content Warning***
4:38 & 58:18, this episode includes a sensitive discussion of sexual abuse and assault. Listener discretion is advised.

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Transcript

Renée Adams (00:00)
Before we dive into this week's Nose Dive episode, I just want to give a trigger warning to some of you listeners out there who may be triggered by some of the topics that we discuss. We talk about substance abuse, sexual abuse, and some other topics that may be a little sensitive for listeners. So just wanted to give a quick disclaimer, also knowing that we are not medical professionals.

Any of the topics that we talk about are for entertainment purposes only. And as always, you can reach out to us if you are in need of any help at all. Thanks and enjoy the episode.

Andrew Adams (00:42)
Should I say it again? I don't like to know what's coming.

Renée Adams (00:44)
Yeah,

we could definitely start there. my God. ⁓ God.

Mara (00:46)
I wrote it down. I wrote it down.

Renée Adams (00:51)
what's up guys? Mara and I are here for another episode of Nose Dive, a show dedicated to highlighting what happens when we numb less and live more. Connecting you with people who are choosing curiosity and play over adult-like rigidity, and today's guest is delivering just that. So please give a warm Nose Dive welcome to Andrew Adams, high-impact speaker, coach and yoga teacher, creator of the Reclamation Wellness Retreats.

Reminding us what peace of mind feels like and the steps to take to adopt it. So welcome, Andrew.

Andrew Adams (01:25)
Thank you guys so much for having me. So excited to be here.

Mara (01:30)
and the crowd goes wild.

Renée Adams (01:32)
Wiley.

Andrew Adams (01:34)
love I love that. I love your intro. I love I love your intro. I love everything about it because that's who I who I am is like, this gets to be fun. This gets to be easy. We get to have play we get to have passion. Fuck can we swear fuck rigidity? Okay.

Renée Adams (01:37)
Thank you. Thanks.

Yes, yeah, absolutely.

Mara (01:51)
Mmm.

Renée Adams (01:53)
Yeah, all the the curse words are welcome. It's funny, Mara. What is what did your mom say? It was like,

Mara (01:54)
Yes.

Andrew Adams (01:55)
Okay.

Mara (01:58)
⁓

with the mindful F-bombs. Yeah, she was like, nice podcasts and nice mindful F-bombs throughout it or something.

Renée Adams (02:01)
I'm the mindful F-bombs.

Andrew Adams (02:09)
happens.

Renée Adams (02:10)
Yeah, it's so true though. They're mindful though. Yeah. So, you know, they're allowed. ⁓ So there we go. ⁓ But yeah, Andrew, I mean, you make it easy. Like just looking at some of the things that you've done and just a little bit about your journey. You know, we've connected through Courtney Johnson, through social media. Again, this is why I like, you know, we are in this weird pendulum swing of going back

Mara (02:10)
Yup. They're mindful though. Okay.

Hmm.

Renée Adams (02:38)
to getting out in nature and kind of being analog, but these are the moments where I'm like, I fucking love social media and I love technology because it's a one way ticket to be able to connect with not just like-minded people, but just to open your perspective to other things. for our listeners who don't know you as well, can you give us just, I feel like this question is always so like.

Where do I start? Because it's like, there's so much to unpack. But if there was like a highlight reel for Andrew, what would that kind of look like? How did you get here?

Andrew Adams (03:13)
Yeah.

There is so much and I get that feedback all the time that I make it look easy. ⁓ And I will say that the highlight reel is this. I was born in a super religious family. My dad was a pastor of a church. I have two older sisters. I was raised middle class, upper middle class. I was never without the things that I needed. ⁓ I grew up in a very, even though we were in the church, very extremely broken home. It was the...

make everything look good on the outside because we had an appearance to keep up. So from a very young age, I learned how to lie and I learned how to do everything that's the complete opposite of emotional intelligence and shut everything down and not talk out things with my parents. So it was very much for show. As a child, I went through, you know, some sexual abuse from very close family member. ⁓

as a child for many years. That's a big part of my healing journey. And then one day my dad is also gay. He came out of the closet when I was 12. So up until that point, like rigidity, rigidity, you can't do this, you can't do this. couldn't date. couldn't do all, like I couldn't do any, like it was so regimented, all the cants, not the cans, the cants. And then literally overnight, it was like night and day.

Renée Adams (04:35)
the cants.

Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (04:45)
We went from, was like 11 or 12 at the time, we went from so, so, so strict to complete freedom. Because my father left, left the church because he felt that it was not proper for him to remain. He moved out and I was living with my mother. She, bless her soul, I love her, went clinically. I look back and know what I know now is like she should have been institutionalized.

Renée Adams (04:54)
Whoa.

Andrew Adams (05:13)
And like, I get it. And the moment I was angry, so that was kind of like my bottle cap for my anger to come out. I lashed out at my mother for many, many years. I did some pretty fucked up shit to my mother ⁓ because I didn't know how to handle my emotions. I was a child that was told to force them down, force them down, force them down. And then like overnight, it was just like pop. So at a very young age, I was always a straight A student. That was one thing my parents like forced us into was honor classes.

Mara (05:16)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (05:41)
And I hated it because I was like the goody two shoe, even though I was like, I wanted to rebel. And, know, I was the person with the eclectic group of friends. And then I started rebelling and drugs and alcohol and house parties from the age of first time I smoked weed was like 12. And then, you know, the ages of 14, 15, 16, it was like house parties every Friday, Saturday, Sunday night, wake up, go to school, get good grades. Still, I'm having this breakthrough now.

still pretending that everything is okay. Still pretending that everything is okay. Fast forward, graduate high school, go through nursing school. ⁓ And that's really when my full-blooded addiction took over where daily opiate use became a thing because I'm a deeply intuitive person and I have realized that I never used drugs. I used drugs to like quiet the voices in my head or like they were used to disconnect me from spirit.

Mara (06:12)
Hmm.

Renée Adams (06:13)
Totally.

Andrew Adams (06:39)
because I was so overwhelmed by how deeply I felt that drugs made me feel normal. And then obviously, you know, it's really fun until it's not. Until you're waking up shitting your brains out in cold sweats. And that went on for about a decade. And then in 2000, what year were we in? In 2018 was the last time that I went into a treatment facility, long-term care treatment. And then in that eight years, I have just

Renée Adams (07:01)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (07:09)
I have poured into myself, into self-development, into emotional intelligence, through business coaches, through workshops, seminars, doing everything that I possibly can, the work, right? Doing the work that we're here to talk about. Getting down to the nitty-gritty, purging the guilt, the shame, the apathy, the fear, the anger, all of that physically from my body. So here I am now at the age of 36 talking to two beautiful humans.

standing in my power that I am a high impact speaker and coach. And that's what I'm here to cause and create and to facilitate transformation with other individuals one-on-one in groups. I love teaching yoga. That is like my somatic practice. And continuing to grow to here. Like my goal is to speak on stages and to just continue to grow my impact because people get to know that they are worthy of loving themselves. They are worthy of, my thing is the peace frequency. ⁓ So being unbothered.

being, you know, unfuck with a bull, being untouched because the world is so much chaos, so much chaos, and it's always going to be. people, can have so much money in the world, but if you don't have emotional intelligence and the ability to choose peace like that internally in your body, in my mind, you have nothing. You have nothing. I don't care if you have millions of dollars in the bank. You know, you can't cultivate peace in an instant in your body.

you're constantly on the defense with the world.

Renée Adams (08:40)
Yeah.

Yeah. mean, I, I res, I mean, I know Mara and I, both of our minds are just like racing with so many elements and like pockets of not only vulnerability for you sharing your story, because I think that's where the transformation happens, not only for yourself, but for our listeners and other people that you connect with. ⁓ But one thing that comes to mind for me is your

Mara (08:47)
Hmm.

Renée Adams (09:09)
foundation of peace of mind. ⁓ Eddie Murphy just came out with a documentary and he talks about how he prays for peace of mind. Other people pray for like fortune and fame and whatever success looks like, like the materialistic things. And he prays for peace of mind. And to me, like what you're saying, it goes along that same thing where it's like, ⁓ yeah.

Andrew Adams (09:27)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (09:36)
That's what I want. That is what success looks like. That is what living this like aligned life feels like. So I'm so happy that you highlight that in the work that you do.

Andrew Adams (09:49)
Yeah, because it's like the human connection that we're, you one thing that we all have many things in common, but we, every single human on this planet has a few internal dialogues. One of them is negative and condescending and wants to see you fail. We all have the voice that says, I'm not good enough. You're not good enough. I'm going to fail. I can't hold success. I'm ugly. I'm fat. Like the list goes on and on and on.

There's a study that it's like 80 % of our thoughts on a day to day basis are negative, are ineffective, and 95 % of our thoughts are repetitive. So if 95 % of our thoughts are repetitive and 80 % of our thoughts are negative and life sucking, then that peace of mind is the winning ticket.

Renée Adams (10:24)
Hmm.

Mara (10:28)
Mm.

Andrew Adams (10:46)
Because I can have, I can now in a place where like I have the, I have the thoughts that say, I'm not, you biggest one is that I'm not good enough. I'm not worthy. ⁓ I'm not worthy of success. I'm not worthy of coaching people. I'm not worthy of leading groups of individuals. That's my number one conversation. I am not good enough day after day after day after day, but I receive feedback that I'm confident that I'm all this stuff. It's like, yes. And in my mind, that conversation is still happening. I have just developed.

a greater offense system to quiet it, put that voice in the passenger seat versus driving my life. I live in the mindset of you can make decisions through the lens of fear, or you can make decisions through the lens of love. There is no in between. You are either acting from fear or acting from love. It is black and white. And I like to simplify things as much as humanly possible.

Mara (11:42)
Hmm. I'm just like sitting here because I feel like I'm taking in so much and I love it. I'm just so curious what you have to say in regards to, because you're speaking to these different...

Andrew Adams (11:43)
you

Renée Adams (11:44)
you

Mara (12:06)
there's, you you can say it however you want, parts work or, you know, things that come up within us and these different voices, quote unquote voices. ⁓ And we're talking about the negative kind of storylines or narratives that we can have and be thinking about subconsciously. So I'm, I feel like there have been times in my life where

I would have never assumed or been aware that those are the stories that I'm telling myself. And I'm like, how do you get to a point if you're so obviously someone who is down and out and really struggling with negative self-talk or negative self-beliefs, but you don't think you are? Like, how do you...

How do you actually get to the point where you do have that awareness? Do you think it's something that, like from your own personal experience, was it something that like you just, aha, finally something clicked? Or is it someone that, is there something that someone can actually teach you? You know what I mean? Like pull you out of it? Like, such an interesting.

Andrew Adams (13:19)
I think

knowing what I know now, I would say the simplest way is for someone to hold up a mirror, right? To seek guidance from someone that is where you want to be, right? That someone that can give you the feedback of what you are not currently seeing. Because like you just said, some people are operating in this world as that negative conversation is happening and they think it's normal.

And they think it's normal because it's what's comfortable and it's what has been playing for their whole entire life. They don't know any different. it, it can take, you know, people, places or things or moments in time can be, you know, near death experiences typically have the effect on people to like have that aha wake up moment. But you know, transformation work coaches, all of that, or just having a guide of some sort to be like, Hey, this is what I see.

Renée Adams (13:47)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (14:18)
in between the lines that you may not be seeing is can we talk about that? Right? So it takes a mirror of sorts that can be a person that can be an event ⁓ that could be a, you know, 5D experience because you know, where we've moved in the age of, you know, plant medicine and mushrooms and ayahuasca and Bufo and all of the things that are projecting people into the 5D. Those are our aha moments.

There's so many ways. I don't it's nuts. It's never one size fits all because if you're like me, and really fucking stubborn, I required a lot of mirrors. I required a lot of lows. People you know, in the recovery world, people are like, once you hit rock bottom. No, I I had that shovel and I was going to the earth's core.

Renée Adams (15:12)
Thank

Andrew Adams (15:17)
And I was not going to stop and I was going to keep digging. And that's the thing is that we dig, dig, dig, dig, dig. We can't see the light anymore. And it's, it's hard. It's challenging. That's why people, it's uncomfortable. And we as humans have, know, with technology and everything have become really comfortable with being comfortable and now shy away from disc. If something causes discomfort, people are like, no, that's

Renée Adams (15:17)
Hmm.

Mara (15:29)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (15:46)
That's wrong. Like, I'm the mindset of like, I am not soft with I'm vulnerable and I can be gentle with people. And I'm like, I'm that fucking wake up call of like, you get to just snap the fuck out of it. Because this work isn't comfortable. I mean, last night, I was literally unraveling and I was like bawling my eyes out for for no apparent reason other than like, I'm just

shedding layers of myself, of things that I'm letting go of. And there's a mourning to that. There's a mourning process. And people don't understand that. And people go down this work of transformation and there's so many different lanes, get uncomfortable and then stop. The easiest example is because we're coming up to it and I fucking hate it. I used to be a personal trainer, nutrition coach. I've done a lot of things. The new year, new year, new me, new year's resolution.

Renée Adams (16:40)
You

Andrew Adams (16:40)
I'm gonna get a hot sexy body for the summer. It's the easiest depiction of the human nature. We go to the gym for 30 days straight, we get really fucking sore and uncomfortable and then we stop because it's not comfortable. And it's the same thing with the mind, mind body, it's the same connection. You challenge fear, you meet discomfort, you either run into it or run from it. And

Mara (16:55)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (17:05)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (17:06)
I've just I have cultivated peace and I'm really comfortable being uncomfortable because it has gotten me here and it was worth it all because like the past eight years have not been pretty. It's not always been sunshine and rainbows and Instagram reels and it's it's not pretty. It's ugly. It's brutal. It's it's chaotic. It's it's it's death. It's rebirth. It's transformation.

Mara (17:19)
Hmm ⁓

Andrew Adams (17:35)
It's you just like, ⁓ like moment to moment to moment. But like on the other side of that, I'm just like, walk into a space and I'm no longer like, I'm not overridden by this person's thinking about me or, my God, do I look okay? I'm just like, fuck this shit. I don't have time. I don't have mental space for that anymore. I don't have mental space to be consumed with other people's thoughts of me. ⁓ Or how I'm, mean, obviously I'm not being an asshole, but I'm not like,

Renée Adams (17:37)
Hahaha

Andrew Adams (18:05)
worried about how I'm showing up because it just, doesn't matter because at the end of the day, die. We all like here's a spoiler alert. We all die. We all die. That's why I love your intro. Have fun, have some play, release. I mean, we're adults. Like, I just tell people to release their butt holes because the whole world is just.

Renée Adams (18:15)
Yeah, mean, yeah.

⁓ Everybody's buttholes are clenched. they are clenched. ⁓

Andrew Adams (18:33)
so uptight and clenched and on edge because everybody is on the defense and the peace frequency is creating the grounded offense. So when the shit starts flying, I'm just like, okay, because like in the past two weeks, I'm in two massive transformation containers. I'm leading a team. I'm learning to be a speaker and a facilitator of transformational works, AKA like to be a keynote speaker.

Mara (18:47)
No.

Andrew Adams (19:00)
I just had a roommate move in, my friend Erin for two months. She has a cat and then we just got a puppy two and a half weeks ago. And then I just had two weekends back to back in training. And I just came back from that retreat in Mexico with Alta Vida. it's, and I'm like, I'm good. I'm like, what's next? Where in the past I would be crippled.

Renée Adams (19:12)
Yeah.

Mara (19:19)
Yeah, yeah. takes, yeah, it takes a while to get to that place to be able to have the capacity to balance all that and manage all that. And I want to go back just a second because you were, or a little bit, ⁓ you were talking about mirrors. I want to go back to this because I'm curious what your thoughts are on.

Renée Adams (19:19)
Yeah, that's a lot to unpack.

Mara (19:42)
Because you even said it, you were like, I was going to keep digging the hole. And I had mirrors. So is it just mirrors? Or what do you feel about receptivity? Like someone can be holding a fucking big sign at your face, and many people can be holding signs for you or mirrors. But in my experience, it was the willingness.

Andrew Adams (19:56)
Mm-hmm.

Mara (20:07)
on my end to actually be receptive to what is being shown to me. And who can do that? Only the person themselves. and that's so, it's so kind of like mind blowing to me that there can be so many mirrors and so many resources for people, but it truly isn't until someone is willing to see their own reflection.

Renée Adams (20:12)
Mm.

Andrew Adams (20:34)
Mm And just and make a new choice

Renée Adams (20:34)
Mm.

Mara (20:37)
Right.

Andrew Adams (20:37)
and then make a new choice and then make a new choice and then make a new choice and then you make a new choice. Love love or fear is love is self love, right? That's a lot of my coaching is choosing yourself because people just don't realize how much power we give away to people, places and things when we are not actively choosing love or

Renée Adams (20:43)
Yeah. Decisions. Yeah.

Mara (20:45)
Yeah.

Renée Adams (20:49)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (21:03)
you know, love of others or loves love of ourselves. It's in the way that we show up the way that we wake up. It's people don't understand that's like the detriment that snoozing an alarm in the morning and not waking up for does for your entire day energetically, because you're it's I've made a declaration I'm waking up at 6am and I'm to go to the gym 6am rolls around I snooze the alarm I break my word I break my integrity. I am in a radical act of self deprecation and I now wake up at seven.

I'm rushing around. I don't make the gym. I barely make it to work on time. I didn't eat breakfast. Right. You see it like how, how quickly a spiral happens. it's the, and people think that it's these, these big moments. well, I don't lie. I don't lie to people or I don't, I don't do this and I don't do that, but it's, it's the little, little things. It's the little, the smallest of things that can cause an avalanche.

Renée Adams (21:39)
sets the tone.

Yeah.

Andrew Adams (22:02)
But yeah, willingness, willingness to make a new choice. And that is, that's self love. It's an act of self love. I am choosing me, right? That's what I, when I came out of addiction this last time, I chose me and continued to choose me over and over and over and over again until I got to a place where I could then begin to focus out on other people and have other people start choosing themselves. Because I mean, I feel like,

Renée Adams (22:02)
Hmph.

Andrew Adams (22:32)
If you've gone through like addiction or anything like that, like you got to choose yourself for at least, you know, a minimum of, that's why I like, you know, an AANA, they're like, don't get in a relationship for the first year. Greatest piece of advice that is never listened to.

Renée Adams (22:48)
Hahaha

Andrew Adams (22:50)
You gotta choose yourself

for a minimum of a year so that you even know. We learn how to love others by how we love ourselves.

Renée Adams (22:55)
Yeah.

Mara (22:58)
Yeah, yeah. And I think too, if you're someone like me who's like a big empath and when I hear these, you hear in the healing space, like choose yourself, love yourself first. I'm like, like, I don't know about that. But I think how I can digest that anyway is by choosing yourself.

Renée Adams (22:58)
Yeah. Yeah.

Mara (23:18)
Well, it doesn't mean you like say fuck off to everyone else. Like you're becoming a more loving person and you're able to have hold capacity for others. by choosing yourself, you are choosing others, too. It's just the emphasis is a little different and the priorities are a little different. You're learning how to care for yourself and really love yourself and treat yourself and learn about, you know, a positive or rather like expansive self-talk, ⁓ wider vocabulary. And that

is ultimately going to love and help other people too. So it's not just like, yeah, be super selfish, fuck off, just love yourself. That's not the message I don't want anyone to ever get confused with.

Renée Adams (24:01)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (24:01)
No. And I

feel like when you begin that journey of self love, I feel like that is a window of time, because you're learning to choose yourself. I feel like that is a process that a lot of people go through, where they go through that window of like, that I'm choosing myself, get away from me. And then they quickly learn, right? It's not about that. But again, you get to your relationship with yourself gets to be number one. I tell my

now husband this on date number two. And I was like, Hey, just to let you know, like you will never be my number one. I am my number one and you are number two. And I continue to breathe life into that conversation on a regular basis because I never want to be his number one. That's giving when someone else is your number one, you're actively giving your power away to somebody else. And that includes God. That includes people that are

Renée Adams (24:50)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (24:59)
You know, nothing against religion, but people that are super religious and give their power away to God. And, you know, God makes all of their decisions. No, God gave us, you I say God, God, universe source, whatever you believe in, gave us free will and gave us the ability to choose. Can you have guidance? Yes. But like, here's the thing where, you know, in the world of recovery, you can get called a, you know, egotistical maniac.

Renée Adams (25:05)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (25:26)
it's the journey of transformation is coming back to the knowing that I am God and that you are God and by choosing myself I am in fact choosing God. Right? So there's a difference of energy of am I giving my power away because God is number one or am I number one because I know God is part of me therefore there's no separation there's no division I am divine.

Renée Adams (25:51)
Hmm. Yeah.

Andrew Adams (25:52)
And so many

Mara (25:53)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (25:53)
people,

so many people, right? Fucking there's whole books about it. Codependency no more. Codependent attachment styles and all of this other stuff that are, it's just, it's a power conversation. It's, I like to boil things down to the root because I think we live in a world that is addicted to treating symptoms. It's one reason why I got out of nursing other than, you know, being nurse Jackie and stealing all of the drugs. We can go into that after. ⁓ But.

Renée Adams (25:58)
Yeah.

Mara (25:58)
Yeah,

codependency no more.

Renée Adams (26:00)
Codependency, yeah, ⁓ for sure.

Hmm.

Andrew Adams (26:22)
getting down to the root of what's actually happening is where the juice is and where lasting transformation has instead of just throwing fucking medication, pills, treatments. It's just like, you gotta figure out what is at the core of the fear that is being flushed up.

Renée Adams (26:42)
Yeah. Yeah. And we talk about that a lot on this podcast and just in conversations that Mara and I have. I think through your work, you talk a lot about ⁓ remembering certain things. And I think that goes along with what you're saying with getting to the root of things. So

why emphasize that part of the remembering? Because going back to your story and the rug being pulled from underneath you and then having to navigate that situation, you would maybe think, I don't want to remember those aspects of my life. ⁓ I think obviously it's very beneficial to being able to transform, but I'm wondering

why the foundation of remembering, like why is that such an emphasis that you like to make?

Andrew Adams (27:41)
Yeah, because it's, it's not just remembering, you know, what happened for you, you know, what happened to you. It's, it's, it's truly the, the remembering that you are God, that you are divine. mean, that is, that is the end goal. But everything that is within us, it's a, it's a remembering of like love, like it's a remembrance of love. You never lost love. You just, you got covered up by all of the bullshit.

Renée Adams (27:53)
Mmm.

Andrew Adams (28:11)
So as you're shedding layers, you are coming home to yourself. You are simply remembering things. You are remembering that you are loved. You are remembering that you are divine. You are remembering that you get to be number one. You are remembering that all humans are connected and I don't get to be an asshole anymore, right? You come back to that. It's because it's not, you're.

I, live in, again, we live in a world that wants to treat, treat, treat, treat, treat, put on, put on, put on, put on, but in all actuality, it's release, release, release, release, because we're all born into this world of baby. We're not born, we're born with two fears as a child. Do you know the fears that you have as a child, as a baby?

Renée Adams (28:56)
I don't know. Baby, to me.

Andrew Adams (28:57)
fear, fear, fear of falling

Mara (28:59)
We're gonna come back.

Andrew Adams (29:01)
and fear of loud noises. Those are the only fears that you come into this planet with. Therefore every other fear, you know, the irrational ones, obviously, like if you're hanging off the side of a cliff, that's not what we're talking about. But like fear, I'm not good enough. Fear of being judged, fear of being seen. That is all learned. That is all caked on. That is all the junk.

Renée Adams (29:09)
Hmm.

Yeah.

Andrew Adams (29:26)
So when you remove it, you have the opportunity to remember, I am a child of God and I came into this world with two fears. One being loud noises, that's why when someone goes bang, people get scared and fear of falling.

Renée Adams (29:42)
I did not know that.

Mara (29:45)
See you there.

Andrew Adams (29:45)
So it's, it's, it's, it's never adding to it's my mindset. It's always removing what's quote unquote, not working.

Mara (29:54)
Mm-hmm. The path of least resistance.

Renée Adams (29:55)
Yeah, creating the space. Oof. Yeah.

Andrew Adams (29:59)
Letting go, surrender. Shout out to David Hawkins, Letting Go,

The Pathway of Surrender. If you have not read this book, this is a Bible. It sits on my desk. My first business coach, his name is Jeffrey Combs, introduced me to David Hawkins. He has many other books. It is the beginning process that started me seven years ago of being able to just bless and release and surrender.

Renée Adams (30:07)
Yes.

Andrew Adams (30:27)
It's just not, that's the peace frequency. That's the ability to feel tightness and just be like, I'm choosing to let this go because it's not serving me. It's a practice just like going to the gym. People are like, oh, that's woo woo. It's the same as going to the gym. That's the thing. And it's challenging because we can't see it. It's not tangible. You can't touch it. Like where I can go to the gym, I can work out.

Mara (30:41)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (30:42)
Yeah.

Mara (30:45)
Mm-hmm. Can't touch it. Yep.

Andrew Adams (30:50)
and I can get a six pack and I get an eight pack and I get biceps and butt and all of that stuff and I can see the results. People don't always are bearing witness to the results and they're like, it's not working. And I had the same thoughts and I was like, I'm just gonna continue. And I continued to throw myself into, know, I just call it the work of transformation, transcending levels of consciousness. ⁓ And the more I continued to do so, my life has exponentially gotten

better and better. ⁓ I would say it's like I still have aha moments even when I'm on podcasts and the way that I speak in the way that I hold myself in the words that come out of my mouth. Sometimes I'm like, who is this? Who is he?

Mara (31:34)
Who are you?

Renée Adams (31:35)
Who just said that?

Mara (31:40)
The mirror that's being held before you. ⁓

Renée Adams (31:45)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (31:45)
Well, it's

like when I, when I coach, I voice record every single one of my coaching sessions, not only for, know, cause I love, I, I might call chat, GPT chatty daddy. love chatty daddy. Um, and it's a great resource and tool. And I also like despise AI because I think it's the, it's just adding to the disconnection of humans. But I put all of my coaching calls through it because I will coach and I, people were like, what did you just say? And I'm like, I have no idea.

Mara (32:15)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (32:15)
Because I just, I just become a channel and in the work that I do, the teams that I lead, just become a channel for, because of this work, I can intuitively just connect to somebody and, and, and speak what they need to hear. And then I'm just like, forget it. So I re I record it so that there's never that incident with my coaching clients. And it creates a beautiful like, you know, client facing summary where we're going next week, what to do this week that you declared and.

Mara (32:30)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (32:43)
and so on and so forth. So great tool for ⁓ intuitive empaths to just like lock in everything. And then eventually it can just like, you know, create things from it, like create structured programs from my coaching, which is really God divine, right? And I give it's so funny, because I'm like, I grew up so religious, and I catch myself saying things that I'm like, like, but truly I give

Renée Adams (32:46)
Yeah.

Mara (32:57)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (33:10)
all of the glory to I prefer universe like universe and source, but I just say God because it's simple. I owe glory to God because it's not yes, I have free will and like the transmissions that I that we receive as humans like where the fuck do you think it comes from? Come on, all consciousness is universal. So it's like when you think of something you you've you've pulled it from from the you know, the unconscious the unseen.

Everything, every invention, the Tesla, the light bulb, all of that stuff was pulled from a collective conscious.

Renée Adams (33:51)
We are all connected. Yeah, I mean, it's freaking wild. Like when you think about it, when you have these synchronicities, when you feel like you're just so deeply connected to one another, it happens with Mara and I all the time where we're like, my God, I was just thinking that. We're like, what the fuck? I'm a witch. I am a witch, but that's okay.

Andrew Adams (33:52)
So.

Mara (34:10)
We're just sending each other voice notes. Like, my god, this just happened. Blah, blah.

Renée Adams (34:20)
Yeah, so going back to just like, I think your story and kind of what you've gone through, I think a lot of the times, like you said too, with us equating this work to some kind of like outcome, ⁓ I think that's very human of us to attach the work that we do to a specific outcome. So through your just transformative work, like,

how does that play into maybe how you coach or your own journey, removing some of that attachment to outcomes and really just like enjoying the ride, which has been so hard for me personally to separate those two things ⁓ and still honor it. Like, you you still want to be like doing.

good for other people and yourself and community and da da da. But how have you like through your own journey kind of like maybe separated those things? What does that look like for you?

Andrew Adams (35:27)
The number one thing that's coming through is having a clear North Star, a clear vision, a clear why. Because at the root of everything that you're speaking into is attachment. And Buddha said the root of all suffering is attachment. So when we attach to things, we create our own suffering. I live in the mindset of every amount of suffering that you feel as a human being is self-inflicted. All of it, that is my mindset. If I'm experiencing suffering,

Renée Adams (35:34)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (35:57)
It's my doing. No one has the power to make me feel suffering unless I allow that to happen. I love results. I have had, you know, I have deep wounds around being attached to results because I think it goes back to, no, I think I know it goes back to as humans, we love the tangible. We love to see things. So it feels really, yeah.

Renée Adams (36:17)
Yeah.

Mara (36:19)
I fucking love the tangible.

Renée Adams (36:22)
Murr is like,

yes, give me all the tangerines.

Andrew Adams (36:26)
It feels really good to attach to an outcome. And an outcome can be your driving force, but it's the energy that when you hit it or don't hit it, right? If you're like, I'm going for a $10,000 a month, and then you hit 8,000 and you're like, I'm a piece of shit. I'm, I'm an asshole. I give up, right? That is that is attachment to results, dictating your worth.

And that's the deeper level is that I am not worthy until I have a million dollars in my bank account. I am not worthy until I have a podcast that's in the top, you know, 1%. I'm not worthy until until until until until we set all of these make believe boundaries and guidelines for ourselves of what dictates our worth and what breaks through that is just deciding I am worthy just because it doesn't matter what

Renée Adams (37:12)
Hmm

Andrew Adams (37:24)
I create in this, know, it doesn't, none of that stuff matters. What matters in this moment is that I'm worthy because I decided that I'm worthy. And then moving from that space, we're human. Of course the attachment will come up. And again, pathway of surrender. It's all about releasing attachments. We're human. love, again, we love results. We love them to, to, especially that's why I fucking hate social media. And I love it for, you know, what you spoke into.

but it is a vehicle to keep humans trapped in the loop of I am not good enough, I am not worthy, I am not good enough until I have a million followers, I only got two likes, I catch myself, believe me, I still to this day catch myself, I fucking spent so much time on this reel and two people fucking liked it, what the fuck? And I can still go down that road where like I will, I literally in this past week, I've pulled myself from social media.

Renée Adams (38:03)
Hmm.

Mara (38:06)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (38:13)
Ha ha ha.

Andrew Adams (38:22)
and I have not posted because I have boundaries now. I will not give to that space if it is not coming from an overfilling cup. I don't give a flying fuck about an algorithm. My, you know,

real life doesn't happen on social media. Yes, it's a highlight reel, but that's not where fucking life happens. And so many people are living there as it's the only thing and it drives me crazy. So it's like, it's a tool. is a simple tool that I still have, you know, working through the resistance. And it'll be the first thing that I offload when it's time to, you know, bring in

assistance when my business will be social media because I want nothing to do with it. I want nothing. That's why I'm like, I love being podcast guests. I don't I've started two podcasts and they maybe made like six episodes. And I'm just like, this isn't this isn't my jam. This is not I am I like to be in people's faces one on one, hit the streets, gorilla marketing, like

Renée Adams (39:12)
Yeah.

Mara (39:12)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (39:24)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (39:34)
social media and it's like time and time and time again, like I'm reminded like when I put too much time into social media, and the know, universe is like, get the fuck out of your house and go speak to people because as you said, we're making a loop and I've been feeling this since the beginning of you know, the pandemic or COVID I'm like, I have, you know, predicted the past.

six years and my friends thought that I was fucking crazy and I've lost a lot of friends and that's okay. ⁓ But everything that I have thought that was, know, thought in the moment was going to happen has happened. And here we are a full circle moment where people are coming back, seeing, remembering that we are humans and we thrive on connection. And when disconnection happens, right? 2020 disconnection was forced.

Renée Adams (40:15)
Mm.

Andrew Adams (40:26)
I think the whole thing was a ploy and we, you know, different, that's a different podcast. need the, you know, go down the rabbit hole. Go down the rabbit holes. think the whole thing was a test on how to see how humans can be controlled and to create a massive disconnection and separation in the human race of which it worked. created a massive division and it just continued to grow. It was, you know, the

Mara (40:30)
You

Renée Adams (40:31)
no, we like the juicy, so I mean, if you wanna say some conspiracy things, you know, go for it.

Mara (40:34)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (40:53)
Now people are just attacking people and if you're if you don't agree with what I agree with, you're wrong and I'm to kill you. You know, that's being dramatic, but it's actually happening. If you don't vote for the same president that I vote for, you're an asshole and you want me to die. If you don't get vaccinated, then you're saying that you don't care about humans. If you don't wear a mask, then you're saying that you want everyone to get sick and die.

What the fuck? It was all a ploy to create separation and it fucking worked and the people that are waking up and remembering, like you two beautiful souls that we drive on human connection, thank you for the work that you do. We are the front, you know, the fucking frontier men, the people that are coming back to the remembering that we get to be in community and we get to fucking lead with love and that is how we actually heal the world.

Renée Adams (41:38)
Yeah, it's dealing in extremes. Anytime you're dealing with extreme anything, it's usually the outcome is not favorable for anybody. yeah, we need some kind of level of understanding. I think it's so fascinating to me how people can be so quick to

lash out at other people. think there's a lot of healing we need to do as just a society. having people in your circle who don't agree with you is a good thing. That's how you build perspective. Because if you're only looking at something one way, that's not perspective. That's your, I don't know, whatever you want to call it. Yeah, exactly.

Mara (42:20)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (42:24)
Yeah?

Mara (42:33)
chamber.

Renée Adams (42:35)
Exactly. So.

Andrew Adams (42:37)
100

% like it's it's it's it is okay to have a difference of opinions. And somewhere along the way, society made it wrong. Therefore. It's Yeah, 100%. It's so much easier to throw the blame the shame the guilt card, instead of looking inward and again, it's over the same lines of people want to be comfortable and it's more comfortable to be like, you're wrong.

Renée Adams (42:45)
Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Mara (42:45)
Discomfort, discomfort.

Renée Adams (43:02)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (43:02)
You're

an asshole instead of doing the work and looking internally and being like, Hey, what is the perception that I have here? Is it serving me? Is it moving me forward to my vision? My North star? Is it from love or is my god this mic or is it from or is it from fear?

Renée Adams (43:21)
Yeah. Can you also maybe share with us one of your stories that maybe is like a little cringy for you? Like, and I don't know what that looks like. And maybe Mara, you can maybe help me articulate this question better. But

Andrew Adams (43:41)
I

don't know, don't, don't, lots of things don't make me cringe anymore. So I mean, I'm all on, I'm all on board.

Renée Adams (43:45)
Mmm.

Mara (43:48)
Well, it would probably be an experience

that you would share from the past, like in an earlier transformational stage maybe.

Andrew Adams (43:59)
I mean, what still makes me cringe and like it's I'm not even attached to is just like the fucked up shit that I did when I was an addict. Like the, you know, it still makes me, I mean, not cringe in the way of like, I'm not, I mean, scared to share it, but before I got clean this last time, I was driving my car on the highway and went to go pick up drugs. I got high, I was driving on the highway home. I fell asleep, had no seatbelt on. I rear ended another car.

Renée Adams (44:07)
Mm.

Andrew Adams (44:27)
Pushed that car off the highway. I smashed my head on the windshield, woke up, regained control of my car, didn't die for like the 10th time. And the first thought when I got to the side of the road was not, are those other people okay? It was, I have to hide my drugs. I have to hide my paraphernalia. There was fucking needles exploded everywhere in my car. I didn't give a shit. I did not give a shit if I had just killed someone.

Mara (44:35)
soon.

Andrew Adams (44:57)
That thought was not the first thought, it was not the second thought, it was not the third thought, it was not the fourth thought, it was not the fifth thought. It was not a thought until like a days later. So that's, mean, that is my level of ⁓ cringe. I mean, there was times that I prostituted a friend of mine. She was fully on board, but that's another like, I'm like, I just like look back and I.

Renée Adams (45:03)
Hmm.

Hmm.

Andrew Adams (45:25)
to get drugs, like you do absolutely insane things. Wanna hear it? It's not as cringy, but it's a fucked up story. I drove from Massachusetts to Florida because I was like, I'm gonna get clean. And my mother lived down there and I was like, I'm gonna remove myself from this environment that I'm in, cause I need to get clean. Went down to Florida, I traveled with drugs, used them all up by the time I got there. ⁓ I was in Florida for...

less than 24 hours. I somehow found a way to get money. had a ⁓ friend, Western Union me money that I was using, abusing for money and manipulating and lying to. And I drove back from Florida to Massachusetts to get drugs. I drove, hold on, gets better. I drove 19 hours in the state of.

Renée Adams (46:14)
Holy shit.

Andrew Adams (46:20)
South Carolina, I stopped at a pit stop to get gas. And because I was so out of it, was dope sick and had it and slept. I like pulled into the wrong way and I didn't see a curb coming. And at the last second I had to like yank my wheel and my car turned sideways and popped up on an embankment. And it sounded like my axle snapped. I got out of the car. My tire had just popped. I drove my car.

Renée Adams (46:44)
Damn.

Andrew Adams (46:48)
put my donut on it, That had already probably had 200 miles on it, put my donut on, drove from South Carolina, I made it to the Connecticut, Rhode Island border, and it popped. This was Thanksgiving. I don't remember what year it was. This was on Thanksgiving. My family did not know that I left Florida. I mean, they figured it out. They didn't know that I was leaving. I said I was going to the grocery store, and that I did to get the Western Union money.

Mara (47:13)
my god.

Andrew Adams (47:14)
And I had contacted my drug dealer and I said, I'm coming back to Massachusetts right now. I'll see you in 20 hours. I call. So now it's, I'm not done. So there's more. So that how the addict brain works is we were fucking relentless is that I, I, I just needed to make it like, like 20 more miles. So I had a bright idea. Once my donut popped, I was like, I'm going to move one of my back tires because I had a front wheel drive car.

Renée Adams (47:20)
⁓ man. You're like, wait, whoa, wait.

Mara (47:25)
Hmm

Yeah, it's so wild.

Andrew Adams (47:43)
one of my back wheels to my front and I'm going to put my blown tire on the back because at least it won't be the cart, the motor. And I did all of that work and like drove like another mile and I was like, I can't do this. Called my family, threw my hands up. That was like the first time that I went into treatment. So this was like 2015. And yeah, and then got towed, it was Thanksgiving day. Got a spare and still managed to get drugs.

Mara (48:14)
Dude, I, no, but that's what's so, I'm so, so I grew up around a lot of substance abuse and people that I love using hard drugs. And I just like, it was interesting last night, my brother and I and my sister-in-law were talking about,

Renée Adams (48:14)
I mean.

Andrew Adams (48:15)
We do some, we do some crazy shit. when people are like.

Mara (48:40)
We were talking about laughing and I was saying how much I love laughing and my brother was kind of like, yeah, but it's not sustainable. I was like, yeah, I know. I was like, but also I probably like, I do, I live in this like, I wish I could be in a euphoric feeling all the fucking time. but also I grew up watching people, you know, suffer through addiction and.

Renée Adams (49:04)
Chase that. Mm-hmm.

Mara (49:07)
So I never went down that road that hard. And we were like, what does it feel like to actually be on heroin? So what does that feel like? And why can't you stop? Because it's so fucking good. Or like, what's the deal?

Andrew Adams (49:21)
I mean it's a-

Yeah, it's it

definitely depends on the type of human you are because I'd like how your brain chemistry works. Because there's people that will use opiates and just throw up and and go to bed. I were like some people are like uppers I am so wired and you know, hyperactive to begin with. So like you give me caffeine, cocaine, like I could fall asleep. Opiates. Opiates gave me energy. Opiates gave me like when I started with you know, pills, oxy.

Renée Adams (49:38)
Hmm.

Hmm.

Andrew Adams (49:56)
it gave me energy like I could, you know, clean my house from top to bottom and scrub it with a toothbrush and like, I would make me it's euphoric. It's warm. It feels like ⁓ a warm embrace. It's it's all of the pain is gone. Your brain goes quiet. You can you it's like it's like it's like a

It's like a big sigh for someone that's wound tight. It's a big sigh. And then you get physically dependent, which is completely different than in my mind, addiction. Physical dependence is very different than addiction because a human being can become physically dependent on pain medication, but not be an addict. Take like a person that has surgery is prescribed pain medication for, I mean, it's like literally after a week, your body becomes physically dependent on it.

Renée Adams (50:26)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (50:56)
they get off of it, they get the flu and they feel like shitty and it lasts for a couple of days and they move on with their life. That's not addiction. Addiction is all of the behaviors that come after the physical dependence of I need more, I need more, I need more, I need more. And I mean, the reason I couldn't stop is that every single morning I'd wake up sick. I'd be shitting my brains out.

Renée Adams (51:00)
Hmph.

Andrew Adams (51:23)
I'd be nauseous. It feels like the flu times a thousand. You're hot, you're cold, you're sweating, you're getting goosebumps, your stomach is flipping. So the second that you do drugs, all of that goes away. And it's because you've exhausted your dopamine. So when you do drugs, it's a dopamine hit, a dopamine spike. And then if you just do drugs once, you come back to normal levels. When you start

Renée Adams (51:27)
Hmph.

Mara (51:36)
It's the same.

Renée Adams (51:39)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (51:54)
doing it more and more, your brain says, okay, this human being is feeding me dopamine. The brain shuts the dopamine makers off. So then when you stop doing drugs, you start going below baseline and this space right here is active withdrawal. So then you can do a little drugs and you just hit baseline and like you stop getting high. You're just like, okay, I'm just normal. And then you do a little bit more to get high. And that depth or there's the fucking digging.

Renée Adams (52:18)
Hmph.

Andrew Adams (52:24)
goes lower and lower and lower and it takes more and more and more just to hit baseline. The last time I got clean, I didn't sleep for like 75 days.

Mara (52:24)
Hmm.

baseline.

Renée Adams (52:29)
Right.

Mara (52:34)
75.

Renée Adams (52:36)
What?

Andrew Adams (52:36)
I would

sleep for like 20 minutes at a time. It took like seven, it took a full, I went to, I almost went into a psych unit because I was going, I have pushed my brain and my body to the limits of like, to the brink of collapse. Like that's why like I make a joke with my husband. like, if for some reason, like a doctor was like, hey, you're gonna die in two days because of this. Like I'd be like, I'm not surprised. Because I have put.

Renée Adams (52:47)
Yeah.

Like I've

seen it done it all.

Andrew Adams (53:06)
I have pushed my body so far to the brink of death that it wouldn't surprise me. But yeah, it's just that it's a physical dependence. And then it's the lifestyle. It's getting the drugs, getting everything ready. Like that became ⁓ like a ceremony. It became sacred. I would play the same song. Like I would...

Renée Adams (53:09)
Hmm.

Andrew Adams (53:33)
It became a ritual.

Mara (53:34)
Wow.

Renée Adams (53:36)
That's what was going to, that's what was coming through for me when I, when you said that it's like, when people talk about their sleepy time tea ritual, it's like, that's what, that's what it was for you.

Mara (53:40)
Mm-hmm.

Alright.

Andrew Adams (53:50)
Yep, it becomes a ritual. was like the getting of the drugs and the doing the drugs that you then become addicted to. It wasn't even the feeling because again, you get to a point where you're just using to be a normal human.

Renée Adams (53:52)
Yeah.

Right, yeah, just that like base level ⁓ feeling of existing. Well, and I think it's just like, I hope that for listeners, it's not, that it's inspiring because I don't know personally what that's like to go through that type of experience, but to hear what you have been through.

Andrew Adams (54:09)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (54:30)
and now what you're cultivating and you're on the other side of that and experiencing life in a very, very different way and almost embracing all of that mess and the suck and being like, bring it on, baby. Like, let's fucking go. Like, it's just really... ⁓

It's incredible. It's incredible to me because like you from the first second of that first story that you were telling us, like so many different times there could have been like, nope, that's it. Like that's it for you. That's it for your life. I mean, it really is life or death. And ⁓ to see you and what you're doing now, it's just, I hope it gives people hope for wherever they are in their situation.

Andrew Adams (55:25)
it 100 % and it's a thank you for all of that I appreciate you because like sometimes I I forget and I talk about it like it's no big deal and people are like oh my like I'll like make jokes because people are like oh my god your skin it looks amazing and I'm like I wash it with water they're like how is that possible and I'm like it was the heroin and people were like people will be like people will be like ha ha ha and I'm like no seriously sometimes

Renée Adams (55:34)
Hmm.

They're like,

Yeah

Andrew Adams (55:53)
Sometimes I even forget what I've gone through because I've done so much work that it doesn't even, that person doesn't feel like me anymore. I still need the reminder of all that I've accomplished because in the scheme of things, everything that I went through is such a small blip. Like it is 1 % and we as humans love to make that 1 % 100%.

Renée Adams (56:03)
Right.

Yeah.

Mara (56:22)
Mm-hmm.

Andrew Adams (56:22)
and make it be everything. And I think I've just navigated

Mara (56:23)
Mm-hmm. ⁓

Andrew Adams (56:25)
in a way that it's such a small percentage that it, I sometimes I forget. I'm like, I forget when people are like, I'm blown away. And I'm just like, just another day. Just another

Renée Adams (56:35)
Yeah. Well, it's because,

Mara (56:36)
Yeah.

Renée Adams (56:38)
all of the other accomplishments that you and again, not to like do just the attachment or the success or like the things, but where you are now as a human being is so much more celebrated than those elements. But I'm happy to also hear that you're very open in sharing those details because it's difficult. I mean, that shit is hard.

There are some people who can't admit certain things or don't voice certain things and to each their own of how they want to sort of live their life. But I think it's refreshing and also just very important for people to share their story. Yeah. ⁓

Andrew Adams (57:21)
You gotta feel it all. You gotta feel it all.

And when we run, run from it, I mean, that's simply my aim is to be permission for people to remember and just fucking love themselves. So I will scream it from the, I will scream my deepest, darkest traumas from the rooftops, you know, or from the book that I'm currently writing. ⁓ It doesn't, I don't, doesn't, doesn't, like I share openly and honestly, because it gives permission for people to do the same.

Renée Adams (57:50)
Yeah.

Mara (57:50)
Exactly.

Andrew Adams (57:51)
And I live in the mindset of like, the world has gone so soft. And we live in a world where people don't want to feel uncomfortable. And we got a tiptoe around people. I'm just like, feel your feel your fucking trauma and move through it. Because if you're still in a story that it's you know, my god, this happened to me as a your victim, your victim, victim, victim, And yes, fucked up shit.

Mara (58:01)
Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (58:13)
Mm.

Andrew Adams (58:18)
happens. I have again molested, I've been raped, I've been, I've done all of the traumas from A to Z. I've experienced them all. And yes, was I a victim in the certain situation? Sure. And after that point, I have the choice of remaining a victim or choosing responsibility to heal, release, love myself, forgive.

release the guilt, release the shame, release the fear, release the anger, that is also a choice. So I just I don't I don't and people are like, Andrew, you're too brash or too harsh, you're too this, you're too that. And I'm just like, No, I'm, I'm, I'm like, you know, fire starter energy, I will rub, I rub people the wrong way. I have people constantly that say that they're intimidated by me. And I'm like the most fun loving person.

But it because I'm so secure and who I am and where I'm going and what I will take a stand for. don't, if you want to hide behind your trauma, I'm not the person that you'd call for a free coaching call. I am not the person that you, mean, unless you're willing to be in a conversation of what it looks like to walk through it, I'm just not your guy because I'm here for people to, you know, to walk them through the remembrance and it's not comfortable and you gotta remember. ⁓

Mara (59:30)
You

Andrew Adams (59:45)
You got to walk through it all you got to forgive. I mean, there's been moments in time without the use of drugs, you know, 5d drugs where I have purged anger and guilt and shame from my body. Like I have felt it come out and leave my body. It you got to do the work and if you're not willing to do the work, you're being a victim. Same thing, victim responsibility. There's no in between.

Renée Adams (59:49)
Yeah.

Hmm.

Andrew Adams (1:00:13)
you're either in victim or you're either or you're in radical responsibility for your life. There's no in between. I love the no in betweens. I love keeping it so simple. Love, fear, victim responsibility. It just gives people such clear guy get it eliminates the back doors. Because as humans, we love a good back door. We love to be like, I'm escape though real quick. I'm gonna

Renée Adams (1:00:28)
Mm.

Mara (1:00:33)
Mm-hmm.

Renée Adams (1:00:39)
Yeah,

totally.

Mara (1:00:41)
Andrew, for real, heroin made your skin clear?

Andrew Adams (1:00:45)
I will I joke because like chemically, chemically.

Mara (1:00:52)
I'm super

Renée Adams (1:00:52)
⁓

Mara (1:00:53)
gullible, so let's just clear this one up.

Andrew Adams (1:00:56)
Chemically

Renée Adams (1:00:56)
I'm hooked on that.

Andrew Adams (1:00:57)
speaking, opiates slow down every single cellular process in the human body. In a way. It's the lifestyle choices that come with drug addiction, well, with heroin that typically make people unsavory looking. Now, cocaine, crack, meth, which are all uppers, those have severe physical side effects because it

Renée Adams (1:01:04)
So you're like being pickled.

Mm.

Andrew Adams (1:01:26)
that is a it's a stimulant. So it dries up all of your secretions. So like, that's why people start losing teeth, because their mouth is dry all of the time. ⁓ That is those that avenue of drugs is what make people look, you know, their face sunken in ⁓ it, they're hard, I would say they're hard, they're harder on the neurological system, they speed the neurological system up, they speed up the cellular process. So it's like, I made the joke because I'm like,

Ha ha ha, heroin slows down the process of cells. So therefore, for 12 years, I slowed down the process of aging. Therefore, I look super young and I'm 52 years old. Not really, I'm 36.

Mara (1:02:10)
That's so interesting.

Andrew Adams (1:02:12)
It's not truth. just it's my it's truth that it slows down the cellular processes, but that I mean, it's not it's it is not the listeners it is not the fountain of youth do not go

Renée Adams (1:02:14)
Yeah, it's your antidote.

Yeah.

Mara (1:02:21)
Right, right, right.

Yeah.

Renée Adams (1:02:28)
We do not recommend.

Mara (1:02:29)
Do not try this at home.

Renée Adams (1:02:30)
We do not recommend. Yeah.

Andrew Adams (1:02:30)
The fountain of youth is laughing the fountain of youth is

enjoying joy and choosing love and choosing passion and creativity and choosing vision and choosing life. That is the fountain of youth. People are like, how do you have so much energy? Because every single day, every single moment because I am human and I have my days. I choose love I choose love of myself. I choose love of others. I choose joy. I choose play I choose I choose energy. This is a choice.

Mara (1:02:40)
Connection.

Andrew Adams (1:03:00)
just like going to the gym. Because I could choose to be real fucking miserable on this podcast right now. With every, you know, with all of the doings and that's happened in my life in the past couple, you know, week, I could be like, my god, I really don't want to be here, guys. I know I'm really I'm really physically tired. And my god, my dog won't start biting me like

Renée Adams (1:03:11)
Yeah.

Yeah.

Andrew Adams (1:03:22)
Oh my god, I just got out of a training weekend and I cooked for 50 people for 16 hours a day, three days in a row. Like that's a choice. I could choose to be victim to circumstance, victim to everything around me, victim to, you know, I don't know, I have to fucking pay my bills. It's the, you know, in the work that I do, it's a simple change up of speaking. Like people are like, I have to, I have to do this, I have to do that. And changing that to like, I get to, I choose to, I'm blessed to, just that.

Renée Adams (1:03:31)
Yeah.

Right?

Andrew Adams (1:03:50)
catch yourself, here's a practice for you both. In the next 24 hours, catch yourself how many times that you hear yourself saying, I have to, I have to edit this podcast, I have to find more people to be on my podcast, I have to post on Instagram, I have to, I have to go to the grocery store, I have to do the dishes, I have to do the laundry, I have to feed myself. Catch yourself. You'll be amazed and then the simple switch is just whatever resonates more. I choose to, I get to, I'm blessed to.

Renée Adams (1:04:10)
Yeah.

Andrew Adams (1:04:19)
You get to because you woke up this morning. How blessed are you that you have food in your fridge? I woke up like kids.

Mara (1:04:22)
I woke up like this.

Renée Adams (1:04:24)
I woke up like this. I woke

up like this.

Mara (1:04:27)
last basic batch question to you is maybe two. What's your astrology sun sign? And do you know your human design archetype?

Renée Adams (1:04:35)
No

Andrew Adams (1:04:39)
I

am Aries Taurus Cusp.

Mara (1:04:43)
⁓ I fucking knew you were in Aries, cause yeah. Hot coming like a bull, baby. I'm in Aries rising, okay?

Andrew Adams (1:04:48)
April.

Air, Aries, I think I'm cancer rising in Virgo mood. It depends on what system that you're looking at. Like there's the Vedic and then there's the like the Western because in the Vedic I'm Gemini rising. And I don't know what my moon is. But in the other one, I'm cancer rising. ⁓ And I'm a what do you what do you think my human design is? Man manifesting gender.

Mara (1:04:57)
Go Moon. Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, you're a generator.

Renée Adams (1:05:16)
Manifesting

Mara (1:05:16)
Man, done?

Renée Adams (1:05:16)
generator, yeah.

Andrew Adams (1:05:18)
with

I don't know all of the like the four six sacral.

Mara (1:05:21)
Yeah, I don't know. I don't know. Yeah. Yeah.

Renée Adams (1:05:22)
I don't know, I'm not that in depth with it. wish, I mean, I could look it up, but no.

Andrew Adams (1:05:23)
OK.

But yeah,

I am, I am buyer. am energy. I am power. I am fucking force. I am, it's just who I be.

Mara (1:05:38)
Yep, yep. Be you, be weird, be cool, have fun. And we love you and thank you so much for being here.

Renée Adams (1:05:39)
You

Andrew Adams (1:05:43)
Yeah, of course. Thank you.

Renée Adams (1:05:44)
Yeah, thank you so much, Andrew. Like this has just been

eye opening and lovely and fun. And we will be sure to link everything in our show notes with how people can find you, follow you, interact with you. And excited to view this book that you say is coming out later. Mm hmm.

Andrew Adams (1:06:04)
Cut Wolf, it's it's being written. We're working on it. There's

no, there's no title yet. There's, I've, I've, I've started and stopped like, cause I'm just like, I like, you know, I like start and then I'm like, I've had so many breakthroughs. And then I like start again, cause I'm like, you know, there's, there's, the, know, the manifesting generator as an Aries and like, let's do this. Let's make this business. Let's do this. There's always new ideas.

Renée Adams (1:06:11)
It's a work in progress.

Mara (1:06:21)
Yeah.

Renée Adams (1:06:22)
Wait, I gotta start over.

Mara (1:06:28)
Mmm.

Renée Adams (1:06:32)
Yes, totally. That's a perfect place to sign off. Thank you. Thank you. you guys. Till next time. Bye.

Mara (1:06:32)
Yes. Keep it rolling. Yes.

Andrew Adams (1:06:38)
Thank you guys.

Mara (1:06:40)
Cheers!