fitscapades
I went from successful specialist doctor in rural Australia to a homeless addict selling my body for drugs and almost dead to living in full recovery in a three story house 30 meters from the beach with my amazing gorgeous partner, my son, his son, our cat and dog. I am an addict in recovery, my story is quite unique and I didn't live it all only to have it untold as the dusts pass over my grave at the eventual end of my life. I want to give hope to addicts in pain, to their families who worry that true recovery is possible even when you are as bad as I was. I want to try to shift perception in the community that addicts are not a waste of time we are capable of recovery and are not lost causes. I have learned so much and gained so much wisdom walking this pathway to recovery it seems a shame not share this. The lessons I have learned are useful to everyone not just those challenged by addiction.
Episodes
19 episodes
Delaying Hep B and MMR now will cost lives later
A quiet virus today can become a devastating diagnosis decades from now. We dig into the uncomfortable math behind hepatitis B: why a universal birth dose prevents chronic infection and, by extension, a significant share of future liver cancer....
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Season 1
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Episode 19
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30:39
Unmasking the Anti‑Vax Playbook
Fear is faster than facts—and when politics supercharge that fear, public health pays the price. Michelle, a former physician, takes you from the birth of vaccination under Edward Jenner to the modern machine that turns doubt into identity. We ...
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Season 1
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Episode 18
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57:41
Antifa: Myth vs. Reality
Fear thrives when labels replace facts—so we pulled the receipts. We dig into how “Antifa” turned from a historical stance against fascism into a modern political boogeyman, and we test that narrative against hard data from ACLED, CSIS, the ADL...
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Season 1
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Episode 17
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38:06
Why 1,500 Newcomers a Day Keep Australia Afloat
The temperature around migration is high, but the data tells a calmer, sharper story: Australia’s aging population and deep labor shortages mean skilled newcomers are not a luxury—they’re the reason emergency rooms stay open, bridges get built,...
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Season 1
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Episode 16
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22:14
Australia’s Reckoning: Law, Fear, and the Return of the So‑Called “ISIS Brides”
Fear makes big promises. It says if we exile the people we hate, we’ll be safer. Law says something else: take responsibility, manage the risk, and hold your ground. We follow the Australian women once labeled “ISIS brides” from social media gr...
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Season 1
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Episode 15
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29:40
From anger to evidence: unpacking Australia’s refugee myths, media spin, and the real numbers behind safety and crime
The scroll through X got ugly fast—slurs, threats, and sweeping claims about “dangerous immigrants” that would’ve been unthinkable to say out loud not long ago. Instead of trading more heat for heat, we hit pause and went looking for the facts:...
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Season 1
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Episode 14
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47:55
From Outrage To Empathy: How Politics Tests A Relationship And What It Taught Me;
The outrage machine wants you angry and certain. I wanted peace—especially at home. After a long winter of doomscrolling U.S. politics from Australia, I realized my left-leaning convictions were colliding with my partner’s right-leaning worldvi...
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Season 1
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Episode 13
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31:53
Trapped in the Cycle: What No One Tells You About Loving a Narcissist
There's a stark difference between true love and narcissistic supply – something I discovered through brutal personal experience. After hitting rock bottom as an addict without support, I welcomed what seemed like a miraculous rescue when a str...
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Season 1
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Episode 12
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1:05:11
What I learned about intimacy after selling it
There's a strange disconnect that happens when you look back at a version of yourself you barely recognize. Opening my old escort Twitter account recently was like unlocking a time capsule to someone I used to be—a medical specialist who lost e...
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Season 1
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Episode 11
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46:40
Fat Kid to Physician: How Anorexia Nervosa and Disordered Eating Shaped My Life
"You're just sitting there obsessing over what's happening with your fat cells. It's fucking wild." These raw words capture the mental torment of anorexia nervosa—a reality I knew intimately as both patient and physician.My relationship...
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Season 1
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Episode 10
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55:16
Spiritual Bonds with Animals
Spiritual connections with animals have become one of the most unexpected and profound aspects of my recovery journey. As someone who's always had dogs, I never anticipated how becoming more spiritually aware would transform my relationships wi...
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Season 1
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Episode 9
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21:31
Surrendering to Life's Flow After Addiction and Loss
Recovery isn't just about staying clean—it's about rebuilding a life that collapsed beneath you. After decimating my life as a renal medicine specialist through addiction, I found myself at ground zero, wondering how to become functional again....
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Season 1
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Episode 8
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24:04
Karmic Cleanup: How I Stopped Attracting Disasters
Ever wondered why some people seem trapped in endless cycles of bad luck while others effortlessly attract good fortune? In this deeply personal episode, Michelle opens up about her transformative journey from addiction recovery to discovering ...
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Season 1
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Episode 7
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34:16
The Day I Stopped Wanting Drugs
What happens when the drugs you once craved become your worst nightmare? Michelle's powerful account of recovery from methamphetamine and cocaine addiction reveals the profound identity shift that true sobriety demands.Unlike typical re...
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Season 1
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Episode 6
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40:40
The Rising Tide of Hate
When hatred becomes normalized in our society, we all lose. From vicious online commentary to political division, from racism to the stigmatization of vulnerable populations, the rising tide of hate threatens to undermine our shared humanity an...
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Season 1
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Episode 5
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31:22
Taming Emotional Storms- emotional dysregulation and regulation
What if you could stop your emotions from hijacking your life? Michelle takes us on a raw, honest journey through her struggle with emotional dysregulation and the life-changing skills she's developed to break free from destructive patterns.
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Season 1
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Episode 4
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32:42
Relationship Repair After Addiction Destroyed Everything
Relationships shatter under the weight of addiction. I know this firsthand—I burned every bridge with family, friends, and partners during my darkest days of substance abuse. The heartbreaking isolation that followed became a turning point in m...
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Season 1
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Episode 3
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40:49
Spiritual Awakening in Recovery
What does it really mean when recovery programs describe addiction as a "spiritual malady"? In this deeply personal episode, I share my journey from nihilistic atheism to spiritual awakening—a transformation that ultimately saved my life.
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Season 1
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Episode 2
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52:57
From Addiction to Awakening: Michelle's Remarkable Journey
Every morning, I wake up and have to pinch myself. Is this beautiful home by the beach, these loving relationships, this second chance at motherhood—is it all real? The contrast to where I was just a few years ago seems impossible.My jo...
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Season 1
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Episode 1
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26:26