38: If You Are the Cause, You Are the Solution

If you are constantly refreshing your social posts to see how many views you have, nervous for a friends response or overly elated when a client says “yes”, then like me, you are properly putting your worth in other people's hands. 

Your value might be subconsciously tied to outside circumstances. I talk openly about building a past business on low self worth and how I started to shift my identity to take control of my life.

This episode is only for people who are ready to take huge responsibility of everything that has ever happened to them. Only then, can you embody the mindset of someone who can consciously control and create their own life. 

If you're sick of repeating patterns, and would love to have the life you dream of, this one's for you.

Listens to my pre requisite episodes to fully understand this concept:

27: How To Change Your Reality: My Biggest Lesson This Year

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29: You Are the Mirror: When You Change, Everything Changes

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33: The Truth About Manifestation & the Law of Reflections

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Hi everyone and welcome back to Intuitive Diaries with me, Emily Marie. And for this episode, it's quite funny. I always plan my episodes beforehand, and even if I just know a little bit about what I'm going to talk about, and then I just kind of go for it. For this episode, I had like a whole plan, and it's going to be a money episode, and in my head, it was amazing. I checked in with my intuition, and my intuition was like, no, that's not what we want to talk about today. Today, we want to talk about how your life mirrors you and your struggles with your previous business. So I'm gonna go with what my intuition has told me to do. So for this episode, I am going to wind it back and talk about when I was building a design and marketing agency, and I was doing this with a business partner at the time. I've spoken about this in old episodes, how the dynamic was off, it was weird, it wasn't a great business setup, however, I learned so much from it, obviously. So I was in I was in that for around eight years. At the start, we had this office in Wolverhampton. I was singularly just there on my own every single day for years and years and years, as this woman worked for another company, as my business partner, sorry, worked for another company. I would work on my own, on this business, in this office, and in my head, my ego was telling me that I'm building a dream, I'm building a stable business, I'm reaching financial freedom. I am doing all the things that the world basically wants me to do. I'm an entrepreneur, I am a woman, just doing it for women, you know what I mean? And I would just sit at my desk, and guys, I would do the same thing day in, day out, I would do my same routine, and my ego always told me that I was doing the right thing, obviously. That's what the ego's job is to do, and it was always keeping me safe. I thought that I was fucking smashing it, I was fucking smashing it, and everything is a perception of your own reality, of your own beliefs, of your own little universe that you have in your own body, made up of your thoughts, your actions, your own goals and things that you want to achieve. So for somebody else, I lived a dream life, but for another person, that could have been absolutely maddening. Every person on earth is going to have a different perception and interpretation of what I used to do, and every person on earth has a different perception and interpretation of the whole world. How fucking cool is that? So it really means that if someone doesn't have the same opinion as you, that's like literally completely bloody normal. If just if someone doesn't see something like you, that is completely normal. We all have different brains, different conditionings, programmings, wants, desires, and our brains is literally filtering like I think it's like 95% of our reality, filtering it and feeding our reality back to prove our own belief systems to be true, and we all have different brains, different belief systems. So our reality is all going to be filtered back to us differently, even if we are seeing the exact same thing in our own heads, we are perceiving and interpreting it differently. Everybody is just absolutely fascinating. Anyway, I would sit at this desk in a beautiful Victorian building, and I went to the gym in the morning, I did my daily routine, I did my sauna, I did my hip workout. I was slim, I was snatched, I went and worked on my own business, and I literally did the same thing every day. I'd sit in that office that was beautiful. Building, it was lovely. Victorian, high ceilings, white washed bricked walls, beautiful wooden floors, Victorian window panels that were like literally nearly floor to ceiling, so much light coming in. It was really, really, really beautiful. This is all on the external, guys, all on the external. However, internally, I was always waiting for something to happen. I was waiting for my business partner to come over and like help me with the business. I was waiting for a client to say yes to me, to give me like an amazing opportunity, which again it depends on your perceptions. I did make this work for eight years, I did have a wage from this for eight years, I did cover expenses, I did cover networking events and all these other things, design programs, sponsoring events. Like it did work, but on a scale of my perception and view of success now, I had such a small mindset of my version of success then. So I thought I was absolutely smashing it, and now 10 years on, I was like, what the fuck was I doing? Not that my previous version of me was wrong, it has just evolved, and my version of success now is completely different. I just sat there and like focused on other things rather than me. Rather than me. Every day I would sit there and do my job list and email people and push, push, push, and put some things out on social and look for tenders and quotes and invoice and do the work. And when somebody said yes, I'd be like, Yes, yes, somebody said yes to me. Like, that's not how I would react now. I would react now from a place of calmness and groundedness, and a place of okay, that's great. I manifested that, I created that, I was an energy match for that. Now, in fair exchange, I'm going to provide the service, knowing that I am, even without that job, I am completely fucking whole. I am amazing, I am special without that person saying yes to me. If that person had said no to me, I am still fucking amazing amazing, completely whole, special, valued, unique. Like my wiring is so fucking different. Beforehand, I would always put my value on how many people said yes to me that month, on how much I brought in that month. It would always be tied, like my worth, my value would be tied to outside circumstances, so it would be tied to money, it would be tied to how people perceived me, how many likes I got on social media, how many quotes people said yes to, how many invoices actually got paid that month. My worthiness as a fucking person was tied to outside people and situations. Oh my god, I can't believe that I used to think like that, but that is how we are programmed to be, and I feel like I was literally just walking around on autopilot every single day doing the same thing, having the same thoughts, like you know, having my same lunch. Oh, I used to have this tuna, like this Timed tuna lunch. What was it called? Oh my god, what was it called? It was like 90 a hundred calories or something. What was I even doing? Oh my life, a hundred calories for lunch, that's nothing. And I would do the same thing on my job list, I would put the same thoughts out, I would look at competitors and be like they got 100 likes, I only got five likes. That means that I am doing something wrong, I am not valuable. Like the again, what I keep saying in all previous episodes, these were all subconscious thoughts. Like, I had no idea that these thoughts were in the background of my mind, my ego, and my conscious thoughts, which is five percent. Your conscious thoughts are five percent of actually what is running in the background of your brain. Five percent, which means that we are only aware of five percent of our beliefs and the thoughts that we have about ourselves and the world. I had no idea that I was putting so much pressure on external things to happen to make me feel good about myself. I have now completely rewired my system and my whole thinking, and now I know you have to feel the feeling first. But also, I know that everything happens for a reason, and we are moving at this moment into a new paradigm. So, beforehand, that was the energy that we were in. We were programmed and we always looked to the external to make us feel something inside, like we wanted, and when I'm saying we, I'm saying bloody me, like you know, the sports car, the marriage, the amazing house on top of the hill. Like, these are again all my thoughts. I wanted like a huge, amazing business to make me feel successful, and now with my understanding of not only spirituality, but my understanding of neuroscience and physics, you have to feel the feeling first, and whatever we actually want. So, I wanted one, I wanted someone to come and bloody save me, like I was just sitting there every day making something work and fucking fair play to me. I was making that business work, I was learning so much, I was putting myself out there and like doing networking events, guys. I was turning up to networking events where it would just be literally a room full of men in suits, and I this is such a funny story. Oh my god, thank you, higher self. I remember this one time, and this was when I was like getting into spirituality. Actually, no, I was getting into business mindset because before I got into spirituality, I got into business mindset first, and when I was reading all these business mindset books, these billionaire books, they always atoned their success to their mindset and their belief systems, and there was like spirituality in there, it was like it's all about your beliefs, all about what you believe. And I'm like, Oh, so it's not that somebody like you just got lucky, and you know, I wanted the blueprint to success. I wanted, like, oh, you put out this email and then you went viral, and then this happened, and you got a million pounds. It's got nothing to do with that, it's got to do with your energy, and your energy is all to do with your belief systems and thoughts. This is all physics as well. Like, our thoughts are electric, they go into our electromagnetic field. Like, I have been researching this for so so long and looking back through my life and realizing that every situation that I was in, I created it because of my own mindset. And once I did that and took really like radical responsibility to fuck, I did create that, like it took a lot for me to actually go into my subconscious mind, and I did this through lots of different techniques, and I still do this process now. I literally go back to that point in time and realize what my belief systems were in my subconscious mind, and then I realized that the reality that I created was literally mirroring my beliefs and thoughts and actions, let's not forget about actions, actions that were embedded in my electromagnetic field, like this shit's fucking crazy, and we're not taught this, guys. We are not taught this because the people that run the world, if they allowed us, guys, they have this knowledge. Why do you think that they have like everything that they want in this world? Why do you think that they are on top and control of the world? It's because they use the spiritual universal laws that are out there and that we don't know about, and I'm fucking finding out this shit. I'm finding out this shit. I am taking responsibility for my own life. I'm creating an updated, upgraded, better version of my life. There's so much nuance to this. We live in a universe and a world full of paradox, so yes, I want a better version of myself and a better version of my life because I know that I can achieve that through rewiring my mind and having a different electromagnetic field. However, I also need to have a calm nervous system and to realize that everything that is happening right now in this present moment is bloody perfect, and it is so hard to get that balance. But I know everything that has come into my life that has been amazing, I got it from letting go. And if somebody told me this fucking years ago, oh just let go, I'd be like, fuck you. I what do you mean let go? I want this so fucking bad. Like, how dare you say let go? But now that I really, really realize that that is literally what happened when the moment I met my boyfriend was the day I said to myself that I don't care about having a boyfriend and that I'm fucking perfect on my own. The day that I got a job was the day, oh god, this is so fucking cool. Was the day I said to myself in my brain, because I believe in reincarnation, it's actually not a belief, it's a knowing. A belief is just repetition of thoughts. This is a knowing, I have a true knowing that reincarnation is real. So I remember the day that I got my recent job that if you look back on previous podcasts, I have spoken about it. Uh, very cool. If you want to see how I became an energy match to getting a new job opportunity in my life, but I said to myself, you know what? If I sat on the sidewalk, sidewalk on my American pavement right now, okay, and I didn't have a house, I didn't like I broke up somehow with my fiance, I even didn't have a job, sorry, a job, a dog, my dog sitting right next to me right now, but I'm thinking about job. I didn't have a dog. Like, if I died, now this is super fucking deep. I don't know why it came into my head, but if I died right now, if I fucking died right now, okay, and I went back up to the quantum field, soul land, heaven, whatever you want to call it, whatever your version of whatever it is up there is, I'd be like, shit, that was a fucking good life. I completely fucking let go. I was like, I'm just giving you these tips for free, guys. Like I got into the place where I was like, if I died right now, I would be, I know that reincarnation is real, so I know that I would get implanted back into this game, hologram, earth, planet, realm, dimension, whatever you want to call it. I know that I would just get planted back in on my own timeline, and I would start again. I wouldn't start again as Emily, no, I would start again as someone else with different wants, but I would see the same souls, I would see the same souls, and that has given me so much peace. And it I I don't know why. I just had this thought that I was like, shit, if I died right now, I'd be like, fuck me. That was such an amazing life. Like, I actually don't care about my goals anymore. That's when I got a job, and again, there is so much nuance because we live in a paradox, there is so much other things that happened here. I was working on my electromagnetic field, I was the perfect match, as in the timeline that I was on, so that job actually came in. You know, things do have to be created in the physical world as well, so you do have to be on the right timeline for those things to come in, as in let's say you're wanting a relationship at the moment. Maybe your man is married right now and hasn't got the divorce that he needs to go through, and he hasn't he needs to go through that divorce to like shift his mindset to be an energetic match to where you are right now, to be the perfect man for you. You see what I mean? So sometimes things do take time in the physical to manifest because it hasn't like come about in the physical yet. But we can create this, we can like we can shift timelines, we can make things quicker. There's so much things that we can actually do in this world that we are not taught, and that's what I'm experimenting with right now. I'm learning this shit, like hello, like what the fuck? We can create our own shit. Well, I'm doing that, I'm not just sitting here watching fucking Netflix. Are you mad? Are you actually mad? I'm reprogramming my brain so I can fucking own Netflix. Do you know what I mean? Why would I fucking want to watch it when I can own it? Like, there is so much that I can do in this world. There are billions, trillions, infinite possibilities that I can do, and all I need to do is instead of being the version that I was back then when I was sitting. In that office and just waiting for shit to happen, I can go in my subconscious, shift my subconscious mind, and watch my external change afterwards. I would rather do that. I would rather take a little bit of time out my day, go into my subconscious mind, shift whatever fucking needs to be shifted, and you know, wait a little bit. I don't mind waiting a little bit for my physical reality, for my external reality to catch up with the electromagnetic field that I'm starting to create. And yes, I get that this sounds crazy. Like if this is your first episode with me, welcome, welcome to the fucking show. Thank you for being here. There are so many other episodes that I have created. Please feel free to go and listen back to those. I have also had an amazing download, like an amazing intuitive hit of what I should do on my website, and I was like, thank you, I will take that. So at this moment in time, I'm working on a plan to talk about these universal laws, and I'm gonna put them on my website. So every time you think, okay, I wasn't quite 100% with that, you can go back on there and listen to it. You can get it in your brain. At this moment, I'm talking about my own struggles, but maybe you don't need to hear that, maybe you just need to hear the concept, the universal laws that are being withheld from us. The CIA know this fucking shit, they know this shit. Why do you think that they like literally run the world? Why do you think that other people are so higher? Like people in Hollywood, they manifested their careers, they didn't just get lucky, guys. There is just so much out there, so much out there, and my mission is to share it all with you because there's a version of me that did this when I was 20 years old. I am now in human years, 37, and in human terms, in my human brain, I didn't need to go through all of this. I am wanting and going to and committing to creating something in this world that I wish a previous version of me had. I wish that I had all of these laws so I could take my whole life into my control in my own hands, and I'm doing this not only for me, so I can create my own reality now, being 37 years old, human years, but in my mind, neuroscience, I'm 29, 29, 29, aging does not exist. Let's talk about that in another episode. I'm doing this for me, and I'm doing this for everybody else out there, and my whole intention to do this is actually to elevate the frequency of the earth. If we don't shift in consciousness, if we don't get higher frequency, if we don't shift the consciousness of the earth, if everyone doesn't actually take control of their own life and realize that life just doesn't happen to you, shit doesn't just fucking happen. Do you know why we've had that in my head in our heads? Do you know why that's an actual saying? Do you know why you can buy that like as souvenirs and you know, oh shit just happens because people out there want us to think that that's real, shit doesn't just happen, we create it, and if when we realize that then we can create something different, something better. I have had so much shit in my life that's happened to me that looking back, I actually created myself. I have been in toxic relationships, like so fucking toxic, guys. Like honestly, I don't think that I have even what's the word, I haven't even told myself how toxic it was. I haven't even uncovered to myself to the extreme of the abuse that I suffered. And my mentor that told me to do this podcast basically said that like this is self-evolution for you, like you are gonna find out some stuff about you, and I really, really have. Like, it is amazing. This is like therapy for me. I have had such crazy, crazy stuff happen, like proper toxic fights, like screaming matches, like people like the so so so close to my face screaming, spitting in my face, telling me that I am literally a cunt. I am such a stupid fucking bitch. I am this, I am that, I need to sit the fuck back down. That my family are fucking stupid, that I'm fucking stupid. I have had the worst of the worst toxic words said to me in the most toxic way from the person that I, in that version of me, in that phase of my life, loved the most, and it was only because okay, so as you just heard, my dog went absolutely mad. That is a reflection, I created that too. Oh man, um, and actually it was pretty good because I went into my kitchen just to calm him down, and I intuitively looked in and asked, should I tell them this? And I got a huge yes. So I was like, Oh my, I do feel like my higher self has given me like these attributes where I am completely okay with telling everyone about my life. Like you've got to be to be on a podcast, really, you know, unless you're not really talking about yourself. Um, so she's definitely given me these attributes for a reason. So to go back to what I was saying, I'm so passionate about this because I was literally always, always thinking to myself, why is this happening? Why is the person I love screaming in my face? Why is why is he stonewalling me? Why is he for three days not speaking to me for something that I haven't even done? Gaslighting. I was gaslighting myself like everything that happened in my life, I created, and it takes so much work to say that out loud, but you can only you can only have the power to create your own reality and really consciously create because we are all subconsciously creating our reality, we are subconsciously doing it with the thoughts and the beliefs that we have on autopilot. Remember, and remember that 95% of our thoughts and our actions and our beliefs are subconscious, which means we don't know about it. So we are subconsciously making up 95% of our reality that we don't really we are not creating properly, we are not consciously creating, we're not we like literally haven't asked for it, you know. This is just a crazy, crazy, amazing concept that I am researching like literally before I even came up on here, I was reaching reaching researching subatomic particles and photons again. I have been doing this for like a whole year, and it's taken me this long to be like okay, this shit's real. This shit's real. Like at the end of the day, guys, girls, peeps, aliens, starseeds, whatever you want to call yourselves. I am just a girl from Warsaw. If you want a laugh, Google the town. If you want the biggest laugh, Google the town. Think post-apocalyptic, think Mad Max. Think if we had a nuclear war, and everybody who survived got radiation poisoning, and we all went back to like bartering, go into Warsaw Town Centre, and that's what you would find. Literally, just people that look like they've got radiation poisoning. Everybody is just like fucking falling apart, just like walking around like fucking like crackers like oh you got 10p love. Oh, I haven't got fucking 10p. Like I haven't got I haven't got 10p. I'm not a barterer, I don't have a fucking goat on me, like I've just got a card, like no one walks around with a coin purse with 10p people of Warsaw. It's okay for me to say that because I grew up there, and I grew up in a beautiful house. We live in a paradox. Yes, there's lovely, nice places and areas of Warsaw. I get that. There's millionaires in Warsaw, I get that. But if you want to laugh, Google the town centre. I am just a girl, a human from that place that is literally gone through loads of shit on purpose, so I can have the experience to help other people. I think my higher self was like, right, girl, sorry, but you're gonna go through 30 years of shit. So that when you go through these experiences and you do help other people with it, they are gonna come to you and be like, Oh, this is what I'm experiencing now, and you're gonna be like, Yeah, that's fine. I've experienced that like eight times in my life. Do you know what I mean? I've experienced that from every single angle, from every single area of my life. It is cool. There is so many other things that I have experienced, like so much, like literally years of drugs. I've actually been raped two times in my life by two different people. I have had physical abuse, sexual abuse, mental abuse, emotional abuse. I have had cheers, higher self, the fuking works, and I am still here sitting here, grounded, telling myself and telling you that I created every single bit of that. I created every single bit of that because of my thoughts, my actions, my belief systems, my electromagnetic field was a match to it. There is always a higher plan, higher purpose for it. But I don't have to. I didn't have to experience all of that if I knew these universal laws. I didn't have to do that. Like, I didn't fucking have to, and I don't want other people out there to have to experience what I went through. I don't want anyone out there to experience 1% of what I went through. I want people to realize the empowerment of being like, okay, we do create our lives, and we can consciously create it if we are self-aware, if we are going into our subconscious. I am going to repeat it and repeat it again. We can rewire our brains, we can change our electromagnetic fields, you can become an energy match to whatever you want out there. I have only done this properly through intuition. Only done this properly through intuition. I tried to do this without intuition and just got completely off my soul path to the point where I was literally having zero months, couldn't sleep at night because I just didn't know what the next day was going to look like. Completely off path on autopilot, pushing and pushing and pushing a business that was not meant to be mine, and I only got back on path because of intuition, and I am only staying on path right now because of intuition. Because every day I wake up, I do my job list intuitively, and throughout the day I check, okay, because different variables have happened, you know. Okay, should I do this now? No, should I do this now? Okay, yes, this is a priority, this is going to make me more profitable today. Yes, I do everything now through intuition, which I have trained my brain to do because I know the fucking power of it. So this episode literally has just so much so much in there, but I want it to come across as so empowering, like the me, the past version of me that was in that beautiful Victorian office doing and building and creating a marketing company. That's not my sole path, however, it was the perfect timing for me to do that to gain all those skills. I um wouldn't be here right now if I hadn't have gone through that. I needed to go through that to learn life lessons. Also, we can only be a version of ourselves if we went through the complete opposite. Like part of my soul path is to empower people. I can only tell people how to feel empowered if I have experienced and felt completely disempowered, which I have in every area of life. My higher self made sure of that one, made fucking sure of that one. Cheers. But how amazing is it? I can only feel empowerment and get the experience of how to be feel empowered every day if I experience the complete opposite. So I'm thankful and grateful for everything that happened to me. But I know that other people don't have to go through all the shit that I went through. If we just take back our control of our lives, and the past version of me started to do this, you don't do this overnight, guys. I think we are really sold the overnight dream, and it just doesn't happen like that. I'm gonna tell you a funny story. When I started to shift my mindset, and I started to read all these business mindset books and realize that all these billionaires had completely different belief systems to me, and they knew that they had to work on set their self-development and their belief systems to become a different version of them to be an energy match for the money that they wanted to create. I was like buying all these business books and thinking to myself, there's like there's no blueprint in here. There's no one. I was waiting for someone to tell me how you become a millionaire, and all these people who had become a millionaire, they were talking about their story, yes, but they weren't giving the blueprint, they were just talking about their beliefs, and that is the blueprint. The blueprint is you change your beliefs, and they were always talking about how they listened to that voice inside of them, how they always had an inner knowing to go in this direction, to do this, to start again, to do X, Y, and Z. That's their intuition. So they changed their beliefs and they listened to their intuition, and that's when I got into spirituality. That's when I was like, fuck this shit, these guys are all fucking secretly spiritual. That's what I was like, oh, is that the secret to it? Like, I was always waiting for someone to give me the template. Give me I was just so into buying everyone's courses. Oh, the millionaire XE course, that's how you do it. Oh, the Amazon course, that's how you do it. Oh, the agency course, that's how you do it. Oh, it's project by project. Oh no, it's not, it's retainer, oh no, it's not, it's mixing the two together. Oh no, it's not, it's like actually doing a service. No, now you need to scale a product. That's how you become a millionaire. I fucking guys, I've done it all. It's half embarrassing, half hilarious that actually all I needed to do was listen to my own intuition. We all have our own blueprint of how to get to our end goals. It's not somebody else's blueprint, and the people out there that are selling these courses, you know, they are only doing what they think is the best thing because they don't understand, like they really, really believe that that's the how to make a million pounds because that's how it worked for them. It doesn't mean it's going to work for you. Your soul could have a completely different life path, and it probably does because there's like eight billion people out there. So, I'm gonna tell you a funny story about how I started to just change my mindset. Before I'm gonna do that, guys, I'm gonna put my phone on silent. Okay, who is it? Oh, it's my beautiful, beautiful fiance 444 angel number. Hello, guys. Right, so funny story about how I started to change my mindset. I've got loads of these funny stories. I started to change my mindset in so many different ways, but there was something in me that was like reading all these business books, knowing that I had to change my beliefs and knowing that I had to do something different, and it was when I started to be like, okay, I'm gonna stop waiting. I'm gonna stop waiting for someone to come and fix me, for a client to say, yes, I'm going to change something about me rather than waiting for the external to happen to me. I'm going to change something about me. And intuitively, I I started doing these like little small things that were really different, and I did not know back then that I was listening to my intuition. Like, I was so into like the 3D then, and I was so like a completely different version of me, and part of me was like, You're going crazy, Emily, but another part of me was like, just do it. It was also really good that I just worked on my own in a small office, just me there, so I could be a little bit crazy, I could be a little bit weird, and I used to do this on my own, knowing that nobody was watching.

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This is how I changed my mindset slightly, slightly, differently, differently every day. You don't have to take my blueprint, please don't. You listen to your own intuition. I just thought it'd be hilarious to tell you. I started to do like different things, walk a different way to work, order something different. I started to order a different coffee, order a different lunch meal instead of getting my fucking 100 calories tuna salad. I'd be like, okay, what do I actually feel like today? What do I actually feel like today? There was this networking meeting coming up, and I knew that everyone, you know, it'd be 90% men in black suits, and I little old me, I'm so so cute. I just guys, I had a black suit. I bought this black suit from Zara, and that's what I used to turn up to meetings in, and to fit in, to be like, please validate me, please be you know, be my client today. I'm a vibrational match to you. I'm wearing a black suit too. And I'd be like, oh yes, business is doing really, really well today. Like knowing I had like 2p in my bank account. This is so funny. Oh my god. And I remember thinking, Mitch, no, not today. I'm not fucking doing this today. I am not going to a networking meeting and pretending that I am someone that I am not. I'm not doing it. I am not putting that fucking black suit on and going and standing next to 10 guys and being like, oh ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, yeah, it's business politics, sipping this fucking cup of coffee or whatever I was drinking that I didn't even like to drink. Oh my god. So I just had this spur of energy and I was like, fuck that shit. I went and put on my favourite jumper, which at that time was a bright yellow jumper, and it had an embroidery of a grey alien on there. A grey alien head, it was like an alien head, and it said something like, take me to my people, and I just wore jeans. I was like, fuck this shit. I don't even fucking like these people. I and I intuitively know that they are all lying to, they're all there at this networking event, standing up going, yes, business is doing great. Intuitively, I was like, Well, why are you fucking here then? If business is doing great, why are you here then? Like, I actually think that we are all an energetic match, and we are all actually really, really struggling, and we are all pretending that everything is great when we are probably all on the verge and borderline of fucking being broke. Oh my god. So I walk in with this bright yellow jumper with an alien head on there going, take me to my people with this energy. Oh fuck you, just fuck it, like oh my god, I'm just going to be myself, and I got the most amount of attention, and it was because of my energy. Yes, maybe a little bit the alien jumper, but also because I walked in there and I was like, I was different. I my electromagnetic field was different, my aura, my frequency, whatever you want to call it, was different. I was like, nah, I am being myself. I got so much interest. I got people were flocking to me. I didn't have to stand in somebody else's little circle and pretend to talk about stuff, or I didn't even talk, guys. I just listened to other people. I created the circle, other people were flocking to me, and I was talking about what I had done that week, and I was being real, I wasn't like, oh yes, this is not, and we made a million pounds, blah blah blah blah. No, I was like, guys, like this happened and it was fucking amazing, but also I'm experiencing this obstacle at the moment. Has anyone else experienced this obstacle? I really would appreciate some advice. And yes, I know that I'm standing here with a fucking and I swore I would swear with a fucking alien jumper, but you know, like this is what I wanted to wear today, and then we're like, oh, I could feel it. I started to do something different every day. I even I got this from Tony Robinson. He said, Oh my god, he's not even called Tony Robinson, it's called Tony Robbins. I love you. Sorry, I got your name wrong. Tony Robbins, right? Where he said that every time he wanted to do a task in the office and he could feel his energy dipping, he would like get energy from like the universe. He'd be like, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, my dog. If you're watching this video now, my dog's like, what the fuck are you doing? And that's what I would be like. I'd be like, what are you doing? But guys, it's a good job. I worked on my own in another in an office on my own because I did that. I would do these weird, crazy things. I even would do press-ups. I would just like stop what I was doing. If I could feel my energy dipping, I'd be like, right, okay, something's not really right here. I'm gonna do 10 press-ups right now, and then I'd be like, right, okay, my energy's back in the room. I'm going, I'm going for it. I'm sitting back down and I'm doing this task. It sounds hilarious. But what I was doing was I was getting more confident with going outside of my comfort zone of doing something different, of bringing joy into my life with the most mundane things, getting coffee, going to a networking event, sitting at a job. That I was like, What the hell? Am I like part of me was like, Yes, this is amazing. Another part of me was like, What am I doing? I would bring joy to it, bring joy to my lunch, do something different, and that is how I started to really smallly, smallly, smallly change my mindset, and I know that this is going to just sound like okay, that's a little bit weird because it is all the amazing people out there. Just think of like three people at the top of your head that are like billionaires. Are they eccentric? Yes, are they a little bit weird? Yes, do they do things differently? Fucking yes, we are programmed to do the mundane things, to be around and walk around and autopilot. They have, they whoever they are, have programmed our brains to be these little fucking ants to do like what I was doing. I was just a robot every day, just doing the same thing, the same thing. The minute I started to think differently, take different actions, not give a flying fuck what other people thought about me. It takes time, like it takes time to do that, and you, if you do want to take that on, freaking hell yeah, take that on, take that shit on, it will come in waves. So one day you'll be like, Uh, yes, I'm doing something different, I'm wearing that fucking yellow alien jumper, and then the day after you'll be like be like, uh, yeah, that was a bit weird. I'm gonna go back to my same robot routine. Not that you're in a robot routine, we we are, but yeah, that's a whole other episode. And then the next day you might be like, Okay, I'm gonna go for it again. It's okay, it's okay that things come in waves, it's okay that some days you might not feel as motivated as the previous. Look for the small stepping stones, the small milestones. That's how you get to the bigger end goals. I'm going to end the episode, guys, with my notes on my diary because I actually channeled this from source, and guys, shit's gonna get fucking weirder. Like, I am at this moment in time really being confronted by how weird I am, and I am going back through my memories, and I am like programming my brain that it is okay to be weird. Yeah, it's only going to get weirder. This podcast started out as like fresh perspectives, it started out with me kind of like just understanding myself more, which is absolutely beautiful, and now that I have just really opened my mind to to how amazing it is to be so fucking weird and unique and crazy and do things differently. Am I weird or am I just being more me? I am definitely being more me, and I am programming my brain to really wire in to how amazing it is to be strange, unique, special. For me to do exactly what I'm doing, I am doing things so differently, and it is amazing. I am learning intuition, I am realizing that I can create my own reality. I'm taking responsibility for my whole life, and you need to do that to create your reality. I am like putting things on my credit card knowing that it is going to come back to me tenfold. I am doing like I'm not watching Netflix at night, guys. I'm learning physics. I'm not saying that that's what you need to do, I'm saying that I am connecting to how amazing it is to be unique, and we should all do this, we should all find what is unique about us and tap in to how special we are at our core, like, just untap from all the programming that has been infiltrated and pummeled into our bloody brains, and like just discover who we actually are under the layers and layers and layers of childhood shit of marketing from the outside world, guys. You don't need to go and get those fucking matcha latte fucking trainers from Molly May. But do you know what I mean? Like when I saw that one half, you go girl, you fucking go girl. Don't let anyone say that you can't do things in life, like that is an amazing, amazing achievement. But on the other hand, what a distraction from your own soul pull. What a fucking like everything out there is designed to distract us from our own soul journey. If 8 billion people were out there on their soul paths, doing their mission, doing what they were meant to be doing in their lives, listening to their intuition, having the money to create the platforms to help change other people and help change the world, whatever that area of specialty for them is. It might not be teaching, it could be a product, it could be absolutely anything. It could be an employee, you know, you could be like the most amazing intuitive employee and turn a business around, turn it high frequency and help elevate the frequency of the world. There is just so many different soul plans out there, and you can only do that through intuition. And at this moment in time, that is what I am doing. I had a whole other episode planned for today, I had it written down, and then I looked in with my intuition, and source was like, No, no, no, no, no, no, you're not talking about that. I was like, Okay, so this is a little note from Source that I have channeled, and it's very, very small, it's just that Source, God, the universe, your creator, whatever word resonates with you, you have the power to tap into that because you are actually made up of it, whatever you want to call your higher parent energy. We have that energy within us, so obviously, we are tethered to it. If we were made and came from it, we still have that connection, and you can tap in at any time you want. We are just not taught how to do it or trust that we can do it. Uh and source wants you to know that you are the creators of your own blurdy life. This is my interpretation of what Source is saying. Source, I don't know whether Source, but anyway. See how magical the world is when you take control of it. Like it's just so simple, it can be so so magical, can't it, my lovely Duke? Yes, it can. And there's just a tiny little bit of homework for you here, guys. If you choose to do it, you don't have to. Your higher self will always put you in front of information that you are ready to hear, and is the perfect information for you at this moment in time. Whether you choose to accept it and to do something about it, that's on you. We were here to have free will, and we get on our own different timelines because of our own choices and our own decisions, and we make the perfect choice, the perfect decision in our own perfect time. So if you choose to, source wants you to look back through your own life and think of that one thing, that situation. Whatever you think of first is the perfect situation for you. It could be something huge and traumatic, it could be something super, super simple, like just someone I don't know, giving you a dirty glance in the street or something like that, and you're like, Oh, where did that come from? It could be something crazy, it could be something small, it could be something from the past, it could be something from recent times. But then source wants you to look back at what you were thinking of then. What were your mindsets? What's your belief systems? If it's a recent thing, what are your belief systems right now? What do you think that that situation or that person how what is your interpretation of that? Whatever your interpretation of that is, how are you being that to yourself, or what belief systems, what thoughts, what actions are you putting out into the universe? Changes do not happen overnight. Doing this and doing this work does not happen overnight. And there's also see the magic in the everyday. So I know that this is going to land perfectly with the perfect people at the perfect time. And I just want to say thank you so much for your time, for your energy, for your valuable time and energy. And thank you so much for listening. I'm going to leave it there for now. Maybe next time we'll do the episode that I wanted to do. If source allows it, we will see. Please feel free to subscribe, rate, and review. Please feel free to send it over to someone who you feel might really, really need to hear it right now. And if you want more value, pop over to my website emily Marie.co.uk. Get on the email list, guys. Like, I have got so many amazing things planned for the future, free webinars, and get your questions answered live. Like, I have got so many amazing plans. I'm not going to tell you the rest of them because I don't really want to put it out there in the universe. If it hasn't been manifested yet properly, again, that can be another episode of how to keep your manifestations, your goals to yourself, guys, before they are, you know, semi in the in the 3D. Again, thank you so much. Have a beautiful day, whatever you are doing, whatever you are up to, and I will see you in the next one.