The Archaeologist of My Souls : 1 in 8.3 Billion
I asked an AI to calculate my statistical probability of surviving my life.
It said: 1 in 8.3 billion.
Essentially impossible.
Childhood sexual abuse. At 5, I attempted to murder my mother's rapist. AIDS epidemic San Francisco. Severe alcoholism. Meth. Coke. Sex. Brother murdered. Strangled twice. 28 deaths witnessed by age 29.
And that was just the beginning.
I shouldn't be here.
But I am.
I am now 61.
I’ve seen. Some shit.
A spiritual memoir from a gay man who survived impossible odds. 1 in 8.3 billion.
I started writing a book about surviving.
I ended up documenting an awakening — in real-time.
This is about how your past holds layers of meaning you haven’t tuned into yet. About how love can travel backward through time.
This is the excavation of an impossible life.
19 episodes. Press Play.
Episode 18 changes everything.
- Those who know will know -
Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. It is also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.
The Archaeologist of My Souls : 1 in 8.3 Billion
The Blonde Warrior
1962. Before my mother could enter America, she had to prove she wasn't a lesbian. This is how the American Dream started. Episode 1 live now.
My mother survived being born a scandal, immigration to America, and married a black man in 1962. She didn't stay dead.
This is Sylvia. The Blonde Warrior. The woman who taught me that survival isn't about being unbreakable—it's about breaking and still getting up.
Everything that comes after—the chaos, the violence, my 1 in 8.3 billion odds—starts with understanding her.
Because you can't understand how I survived the impossible without first meeting the woman who showed me it could be done.
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Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. It is also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.