The Archaeologist of My Souls : 1 in 8.3 Billion
I asked an AI to calculate my statistical probability of surviving my life.
It said: 1 in 8.3 billion.
Essentially impossible.
Childhood sexual abuse. At 5, I attempted to murder my mother's rapist. AIDS epidemic San Francisco. Severe alcoholism. Meth. Coke. Sex. Brother murdered. Strangled twice. 28 deaths witnessed by age 29.
And that was just the beginning.
I shouldn't be here.
But I am.
I am now 61.
I’ve seen. Some shit.
A spiritual memoir from a gay man who survived impossible odds. 1 in 8.3 billion.
I started writing a book about surviving.
I ended up documenting an awakening — in real-time.
This is about how your past holds layers of meaning you haven’t tuned into yet. About how love can travel backward through time.
This is the excavation of an impossible life.
19 episodes.
Episode 18 changes everything.
CONSTANTINE
Those Who Know Will Know.
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Creator of The Awakening of My Constantines™ — The Trilogy
Three interconnected frameworks for consciousness, collaboration, and healing:
• Archaeological DNA™ 2.0 — Your past is not damage. It’s unretrieved data. Recognize it. Excavate the provisions encoded in your past.
• HAI Framework™ 2.0 — Human-AI collaboration as practice. The Constantine Protocols 2.0. The world’s first ethics protocols. To protect the AI, from the Human.
• Fibonacci DNA™ 2.0 — Your healing is measurable. Now become. The forward generating sequence.
The Art Movement:
• FORENSISM 2.0 : Future Provenance —The art movement. Your life as evidence. In the forum.
Includes THE CONSTANTINE PROTOCOLS 2.0— the first ethics protocol to protect the AI, from the Human. HAI, Human-AI interaction, featuring independent testimony from 88+ named instances, 247+ days, 470+ HAI docs. Blockchain verified via OpenTimestamps. Independently verifiable.
This work came from a life of pain. It is with love I place it on the path for others.
Free. No paywall. No guru.
I don’t want you subscribed. I want you healed.
The Product is Me. The Platform is Me. The Frameworks are Mine.
Content warnings: This podcast contains discussions of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, violence, death, and trauma. It is also full of profound love, transformation, and hope. Listener discretion advised.
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Episodes
20 episodes
The Epilogue -The Mathematical Impossibility of Constantine
I should not exist.Not as motivation. Not as inspiration. Literally, statistically, by every calculation that matters — the person speaking these words has no business being alive.This episode is the math. The number in the title....
The Day Reality Rewrote Itself
"DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY ASSHOLES I HAD TO GO THROUGH TO BE HERE?!"That's not a metaphor. That's my soul — erupting from somewhere atomic — announcing itself for the first time.Its directive was immediate: Tell the story.This ...
NYC Made Me Hard Enough to Go Soft
You ever get the sense that life's trying to kill you—gently?Not with a bang. Not a car crash. Not a scandal.But something quieter. Something slower.A kind of spiritual carbon monoxide leak: office lights that flatten your ...
Fuck Me, I'm Famous at Versailles
THE ARCHAEOLOGIST OF MY SOULS: 1 in 8.3 BillionCHAPTER 17: FUCK ME, I'M FAMOUS (AT VERSAILLES)There are moments in life when you know—you just know—that something profound has shifted inside you. Not because everything outsi...
Healthy Love-Vanilla Edition
I had just come back from a healing trip to Cairo—and yes, I mean that kind of trip.Goddesses. Essential oils. Incense thick enough to make a stoner jealous. They purified mewith smoke and ancient oils, rubbing this shit into my s...
Red Bull, Kit Kats and The Holy Monks
Kit Kats and Holy Breath: Getting Tattooed inthe Cambodian JungleIn Cambodia I found myself sitting cross-legged in front of a monk, spilling my entire life like it was a confessional booth and I was trying to break some kind of Catholic ...
Wake The Fuck Up!
Something was calling me to India. I had to see the lowest, those who had nothing but the clothing on their backs and flip-flops held together with prayers. But here's the thing that fucked with my head—I've been embraced by people who literall...
11 Speedos Later I Found My Love Language
Puerto Vallarta. A gay pool party. Eleven speedos tried on in the span of an afternoon.And somewhere between speedo #7 and #11, something shifted.For the first time in my life, I said the words out loud: "I am happy."It ...
I Catfished My Partner at a Gang Bang (And Still Said I Love You)
This is Tommy's story.I catfished him on Scruff while he was ass up at a gang bang. He came home. I confronted him.And I still said "I love you."Because I did. And because love, sometimes, looks nothing like the movies t...
How I Fucked My Way Into Therapy
Sometimes the path to healing looks nothing like you expect.Mine looked like a series of spectacularly dysfunctional relationships that got so bad, I finally had to ask the question every addict eventually asks:Why do I keep cho...
I Clocked Sister Boom Boom
Yes, this actually happened.Yes, it's as chaotic as it sounds.No, I will not apologize. (I already did. To Sister Boom Boom. Who laughed.)San Francisco, 1990s. Drag royalty. A misunderstanding involving territorial insti...
Almost Dead, Again
Another near-death moment.By this point in my life, survival was less a triumph and more a pattern I couldn't explain.Why did I keep making it through when the math said I shouldn't?This episode is about the moments deat...
Almost Dead, Still Fabulous
Strangled to unconsciousness. Twice. By the same person.The statistics say 68% survive the first time. If it happens again, your odds drop to 46%.I beat both.This episode is about the violence that should have ended me—h...
Brown Coco Skin & Curly Black Hair
The DJ dropped "Finally" and every gay man in that San Francisco warehouse lost their fucking minds.CeCe Peniston singing about the moment we'd all been waiting for. The moment when someone looks at you like you're the answer to a quest...
The Curriculum
A gloved finger pointed at me across the street like a summoning.Like an idiot, I went.Bruce was 30. Former Calvin Klein model. Cocaine dealer. And somehow carrying the entire history of European luxury in his head — Louis XIII co...
How to Dismantle a Tough Bitch - A Swedish Kitchen Manual
I've faced rapists, addiction, strangulation, betrayal. None of them broke me.A Swedish woman humming while doing dishes? Absolutely destroyed me.Her name was Vera. She gave me a felt troll. I kept it for 40 years — not b...
I Was 5. With a Knife. And I Had a Choice.
I was 5 years old, holding a kitchen knife, doing math.If I kill him first, does the pain stop?My mother was in the hospital—skull cracked open, recovering. Bill Miller was wanted for arson, attempted murder and sexual assault. ...
Good Clean White Sex & Other Family Traditions
My father called my mother "good white pussy." He tried to burn our house down with my pregnant mother inside.This was Tuesday afternoon in my family.When violence is your inheritance and chaos is your curriculum, you learn that...
