How I Met Jesus
A spiritual diary. A healing journey. A love story between a human heart and a gentle God.
How I Met Jesus is a daily, intimate podcast where Elena —
a lady who grew up in China, now living in America,
once a Buddhist and now a new Christian —
shares the quiet, unexpected, transformative moments that led her closer to Jesus.
Not through religion, but through real life: heartbreak, fear, success, anxiety, faith, loneliness, miracles, and small everyday grace.
Each episode feels like opening a handwritten letter — soft, honest, vulnerable, and deeply human.
Here, you’ll find:
• stories of spiritual awakening across cultures and continents
• how God met her in fear, confusion, ambition, and longing
• emotional healing through prayer and scripture
• lessons learned in uncertainty, waiting, and surrender
• reflections on love, identity, insecurity, and courage
• prayers that speak gently into the soul
This is not a podcast about perfection.
It’s about learning to trust.
Learning to rest.
Learning to hear God in the quiet places.
Learning to let your heart be held — even when life feels messy.
If you’ve ever wondered where God is in your everyday emotions,
or if you’re healing, searching, rebuilding, or longing for peace,
this podcast is for you.
Come walk with me —
one story, one prayer, one gentle revelation at a time —
as I share the journey of how I met Jesus…
and how He keeps finding me, again and again. ✨
How I Met Jesus
Before Jesus — Lost, But Didn’t Know It | EP1
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From the outside, my life looked strong.
Capable. Independent. Successful.
But beneath the surface, I was carrying a quiet exhaustion —
the kind that sleep doesn’t fix.
In this first episode, I share the story of who I was before faith found me:
a woman striving, achieving, holding everything together…
yet silently wondering:
If I stop being strong, will anything hold me?
This is not just a story about religion.
It’s a human story — about ambition, loneliness, self-reliance,
and the hidden cost of always being “the strong one.”
If you’ve ever felt lost without realizing it…
this episode is for you.
Email: elenaswy@gmail.com
IG: @elenaswenyu
How I Met Jesus — Episode 1
Before Jesus — Lost, But Didn’t Know It
This is not a religious story. It’s a human story.
About exhaustion, searching… and finally, rest.
I didn’t grow up Christian. I didn’t go looking for Jesus.
But somehow… He found me.
Hi, this is Elena. Welcome to How I Met Jesus —
where I share my story of being found…
when I didn’t even know I was lost.
Today is my very first episode,
so I want to begin by introducing myself.
I was born in China,
for the first thirty years of my life,
it was the center of my world..
From the outside, my life looked strong.
I was capable. Responsible.
The good girl — obedient, reliable —
the person everyone knew they could count on.
I worked hard, leading teams at a large e-commerce company.
I took risks.
Carried pressure.
Delivered results.
Slowing down was never an option.
You probably know someone like that.
Maybe… you are that person.
The strong one.
The dependable one.
The independent one.
The one who always seems okay.
Even when she isn’t.
But here’s what people don’t often see:
Strength is heavy.
And for me… it was exhausting.
Not just “tired after a long day” exhausted.
I’m talking about a deeper kind of tired — the kind sleep doesn’t fix.
The kind you carry quietly, deep inside.
And sometimes, a question would rise in my heart:
"If I stop holding everything together… will anything hold me?"
Absolutely not. I didn’t think so. So I never stop.
I pushed harder. I achieved more success. Tried to control every outcome. Planned every detail of my life. Because control made me feel safe. And independence felt safer than relying on anyone else. I looked powerful, but I was not at peace.
In relationships, I became the giver, The fixer. The one who stayed longer, Tried harder, Loved deeper.
Somewhere inside me was a quiet belief:
"If I love enough…
if I prove my worth…
I won’t be abandoned."
So I overgave, Overextended, ignored my own needs.
And when things still didn’t work… I didn’t blame anyone else. I blamed myself. "Maybe I’m still not enough."
My parents were Buddhist, so spirituality was always somewhere in the background of my life.
I grew up believing that life is a path of self-cultivation —
you endure hardship,
you improve yourself,
you become better over time.
So that’s what I did.
I worked on myself constantly.
Tried to grow.
Tried to be stronger.
Tried to be smarter.
Always becoming someone better.
I was always reaching for the next version of myself…
but I never felt held exactly as I was.
I always striving, but rarely felt safe.
Always improving, but never at peace.
I knew how to persevere, but I did not know how to be held.
In 2021, during COVID, an unexpected work opportunity brought me to the United States. At first, it was only supposed to be temporary.
But pretty quickly… something about life here felt different.
Slower. More spacious. Like I could finally breathe.
So I asked my company to sponsor a work visa. Lucky me, I stayed here.
What I didn’t understand back then was this:
Moving to a new country
doesn’t just change your address.
It changes you.
Emotionally. Mentally. Even spiritually.
Looking back now, I can see that I was almost naive.
I truly believed, I was stepping into a beautiful new chapter of my life.
A new country. New opportunities. A life I had worked so hard to build.
But what I didn’t realize was this:
Life wasn’t just being rebuilt.
It was about to break me open.
Because sometimes…
before you find God,
everything you built has to fall apart.
And that…
is where my real story begins.