How I Met Jesus
A spiritual diary. A healing journey. A love story between a human heart and a gentle God.
How I Met Jesus is a daily, intimate podcast where Elena —
a lady who grew up in China, now living in America,
once a Buddhist and now a new Christian —
shares the quiet, unexpected, transformative moments that led her closer to Jesus.
Not through religion, but through real life: heartbreak, fear, success, anxiety, faith, loneliness, miracles, and small everyday grace.
Each episode feels like opening a handwritten letter — soft, honest, vulnerable, and deeply human.
Here, you’ll find:
• stories of spiritual awakening across cultures and continents
• how God met her in fear, confusion, ambition, and longing
• emotional healing through prayer and scripture
• lessons learned in uncertainty, waiting, and surrender
• reflections on love, identity, insecurity, and courage
• prayers that speak gently into the soul
This is not a podcast about perfection.
It’s about learning to trust.
Learning to rest.
Learning to hear God in the quiet places.
Learning to let your heart be held — even when life feels messy.
If you’ve ever wondered where God is in your everyday emotions,
or if you’re healing, searching, rebuilding, or longing for peace,
this podcast is for you.
Come walk with me —
one story, one prayer, one gentle revelation at a time —
as I share the journey of how I met Jesus…
and how He keeps finding me, again and again. ✨
Episodes
24 episodes
Is It Wrong to Want Money? | EP24
Is it wrong to want money?In this episode, I explore the quiet tension between faith and financial desire — the part of us that wants to build, grow, and create… and the part of us that feels uncomfortable about it.Through persona...
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Episode 24
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7:19
Where My Money Fear Comes From | EP23
In this episode, I open up about something I’ve carried quietly for a long time—my fear around money.It’s not just about numbers, income, or stability. It goes deeper than that.I share where this fear really comes from—growing up ...
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Episode 23
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9:54
The Fear I Carry About Money | EP22
Why does money feel so heavy… even when we have enough?In this episode, I reflect on the quiet anxiety I’ve carried around money — the pressure to earn more, the fear of not having enough, and the constant need to feel secure.Beca...
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Episode 22
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10:03
Why Doesn’t God Let Us Do What We Love and Make Money? | EP21
Why does it feel like the things we truly love don’t always make money… and the things that make money don’t always feel meaningful?In this episode, I reflect on the tension between passion and survival — the desire to follow what we fee...
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Episode 21
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8:00
Living From Worth, Not For Worth | EP20
What if you don’t have to prove your worth anymore?In this episode, I reflect on the shift from striving to be enough…to finally living from the truth that you already are.After exploring unworthiness, fear, and identity, this...
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Episode 20
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7:45
Can I Change the Way I See Myself? | EP19
If I already understand where my unworthiness comes from…why is it still so hard to change?In this episode, I explore the tension between awareness and transformation — why old beliefs can still feel real, even when we know they’re n...
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Episode 19
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9:08
Where Does Unworthiness Come From? | EP18
Where does the feeling of “not enough” really come from?In this episode, I reflect on how unworthiness is often not something we were born with — but something we learned.Through personal stories and childhood memories, ...
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Episode 18
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7:20
Why We Push Love Away Even When We Want It | EP17
Have you ever been loved… and still felt uneasy?In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I began to notice in my own relationships — how fear, insecurity, and unworthiness can lead us to push love away, even when we deeply want it....
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Episode 17
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8:00
Am I Really Worthy of Love? | EP16
Have you ever been loved by someone… and still felt like you didn’t deserve it?Or found yourself questioning a relationship, not because the other person did something wrong — but because something inside you felt uncertain?In thi...
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Episode 16
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7:42
Learning to Feel Worthy in God’s Eyes | EP15
Have you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine?In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness.It’s not always obvious. Sometimes i...
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Episode 15
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10:09
Learning to listen to my own heart | EP14
For a long time, I believed I knew exactly where my life was supposed to be.California represented opportunity, energy, and possibility. After moving to the United States from China, I spent several years there and assumed that it would ...
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Episode 14
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7:11
Surrendering My Life to God | EP13
For most of my life, I believed a simple formula:Work hard → prove your value.Become strong → then you will be safe.Succeed → then you will be respected.But recently, while reading Ephesians 2, I realized the gospel reveal...
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Episode 13
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6:49
Trusting the Process, One Step at a Time | EP12
When I first returned to Los Angeles, I was overwhelmed by uncertainty. The cost of living was high, my livestream business was starting from zero, and many days felt discouraging.In this episode, I share the story of that season — rebui...
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Episode 12
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7:04
Reclaiming My Identity | EP11
After years of questioning my worth and searching for love in the wrong places, I began to realize something important: much of my identity had been shaped by fear, expectations, and old stories about who I was supposed to be.In this epi...
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Episode 11
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7:18
Releasing My Mother With Love | EP10
Today is my birthday. In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about my relationship with my mother.For many years, I carried the belief that she had abandoned me as a child. That belief shaped how I understood love, relationship...
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Episode 10
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8:48
The Day I Learned Not to Say No | EP9
In this episode, I reflect on a childhood memory that shaped my relationship with conflict and boundaries.As a child, I learned that saying no could bring punishment, and that staying quiet was often the safest way to survive. That lesso...
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Episode 9
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6:49
The Courage to Disappoint | EP8
Why is it so hard to say no?In this episode, I share a painful realization: for most of my life, I was more afraid of disappointing others than losing myself.Growing up, I learned to keep the peace, soften my needs, and avoid conf...
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Episode 8
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6:00
The Cost of Suppressing Myself | EP7
In this episode, I share a season of my life when I stopped trusting my own feelings.After a painful conflict in both business and relationship, I found myself suppressing anger, doubting my instincts, and questioning my own reality. On ...
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Episode 7
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8:34
When Fear Was Driving My Life | EP6
In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about a season when fear quietly shaped my decisions — especially in love and business.After meeting Jesus, I thought life would feel safer. I believed faith would protect me from major lo...
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Episode 6
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9:48
Learning to Pray | EP5
In this episode, I share the moment that changed how I understand prayer.Watching a pastor pray for a homeless mother, I realized prayer isn’t about perfect words or spiritual performance. It’s about presence. It’s about honesty. It’s ab...
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Episode 5
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6:05
I Am Beloved | EP4
For most of my life, I didn’t just feel alone — I felt unchosen.In this episode, I share how my understanding of love began to change after encountering Jesus. Growing up in China during a complicated cultural season, I quietly formed th...
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Episode 4
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7:45
The Trip That Changed Everything | EP3
I didn’t go to Dallas to find God.I went because I couldn’t stay in my life anymore.What began as a simple weekend escape — a ten-hour drive to visit a friend — became something I never saw coming.In this episode, I share t...
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Episode 3
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7:50
The Cracks - When Life Looked Like It Was Just Beginning | EP2
From the outside, everything was moving forward.A new country.A growing business.A relationship that felt full of possibility.It looked like the start of a beautiful new chapter.But beneath the momentum… small crack...
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Episode 2
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6:50