How I Met Jesus
A spiritual diary. A healing journey. A love story between a human heart and a gentle God.
How I Met Jesus is a daily, intimate podcast where Elena —
a lady who grew up in China, now living in America,
once a Buddhist and now a new Christian —
shares the quiet, unexpected, transformative moments that led her closer to Jesus.
Not through religion, but through real life: heartbreak, fear, success, anxiety, faith, loneliness, miracles, and small everyday grace.
Each episode feels like opening a handwritten letter — soft, honest, vulnerable, and deeply human.
Here, you’ll find:
• stories of spiritual awakening across cultures and continents
• how God met her in fear, confusion, ambition, and longing
• emotional healing through prayer and scripture
• lessons learned in uncertainty, waiting, and surrender
• reflections on love, identity, insecurity, and courage
• prayers that speak gently into the soul
This is not a podcast about perfection.
It’s about learning to trust.
Learning to rest.
Learning to hear God in the quiet places.
Learning to let your heart be held — even when life feels messy.
If you’ve ever wondered where God is in your everyday emotions,
or if you’re healing, searching, rebuilding, or longing for peace,
this podcast is for you.
Come walk with me —
one story, one prayer, one gentle revelation at a time —
as I share the journey of how I met Jesus…
and how He keeps finding me, again and again. ✨
Episodes
39 episodes
I Wanted to Quit Tennis Until I Realized This | EP39
Have you ever felt like you were getting better at something, and then suddenly you got worse?In this episode, I share a recent experience with tennis that almost made me want to quit. After weeks of improvement, I took a short break and...
I Was Living in My Head Not My Life | EP38
Have you ever felt like you’re always thinking…but not really living? In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I didn’t fully see before—I was living in my head… not my life. I share how overthinking kept me disconnected from my lif...
Real Safety Doesn’t Come From Control | EP37
Have you ever felt like the only way to feel safe…is to control everything?In this episode, I explore something I’ve been slowly learning—Control doesn’t actually make me feel safe. It gives me the illusion of safety…but underne...
The Fear Behind My Need for Control | EP36
What if your need for control… is actually fear?In this episode, I explore the deeper reason behind control— and why we hold onto it so tightly. Control tries to keep you safe. Trust is what sets you free.
I Don’t Need Clarity… I Need Control | EP35
What if you’re not “preparing”… just trying to control everything?In this episode, I share how my need for clarity was actually a form of control—and why that’s been holding me back from taking action.You don’t need full clarity. ...
Why I Get Stuck in My Head And Don’t Take Action | EP34
Have you ever planned something in your head… so many times… that you felt like you already did it?In this episode, I share a pattern I’ve been noticing in myself— overthinking everything before taking action. And in the process… using u...
I Don’t Know What to Do With My Life Right Now | EP33
Why is it so hard to choose… even when you have options?In this episode, I share what it really feels like to be stuck between paths— and how I’m learning to move forward without a perfect answer.You don’t have to choose perfectly...
Why I Don’t Trust Myself | EP32
Have you ever felt like you know what to do… but still hesitate?In this episode, I explore why we struggle to trust our own voice — and how that’s connected to fear, past experiences, and faith. Through personal experiences, I explore ho...
Fear Is What Keeps Gifts Hidden | EP31
Have you ever felt like you know you can do something… but you still don’t?In this episode, I reflect on a deeper truth I’ve been facing — that what’s been holding me back is not a lack of ability, but fear. Fear of failure. Fear of bein...
The Gifts I Was Afraid to Use | EP30
In this episode, I share how childhood experiences can shape the way we see ourselves — and how we learn to suppress what once came naturally. You were never too much. You were just in places that didn’t know how to receive you.
Becoming Aware of My Gifts | EP29
Have you ever felt like you have something inside you… but you’re not fully using it?In this episode, I reflect on the story of Peter the Apostle — someone far from perfect, yet chosen and used in a powerful way.Through his story,...
Learning to Forgive Myself After Failure | EP28
In this episode, I share a difficult season in my business journey—losing accounts, money, and partnerships—and how it impacted my confidence and mindset. More importantly, I reflect on what these experiences taught me about failure, growth, an...
Money Was My Chasing Goal | EP27
For a long time, money was how I measured everything — my success, my value, even my life. But even when I had more… it never felt like enough.In this episode, I share a personal shift I’ve been experiencing — from chasing money to quest...
Learning to See Money Differently | EP26
What if money was never the real goal?In this episode, I reflect on a personal turning point — from chasing money as a measure of success, to discovering a different kind of fulfillment.Through recent experiences, I share how my r...
I Got Baptized on Easter | EP25
I got baptized on Easter.But this episode isn’t just about what happened— it’s about why it mattered.For a long time, my life was driven by pressure, control, and a quiet fear of not being enough. I thought if I worked harder and ...
Is It Wrong to Want Money? | EP24
Is it wrong to want money?In this episode, I explore the quiet tension between faith and financial desire — the part of us that wants to build, grow, and create… and the part of us that feels uncomfortable about it.Through persona...
Where My Money Fear Comes From | EP23
In this episode, I open up about something I’ve carried quietly for a long time—my fear around money.It’s not just about numbers, income, or stability. It goes deeper than that.I share where this fear really comes from—growing up ...
The Fear I Carry About Money | EP22
Why does money feel so heavy… even when we have enough?In this episode, I reflect on the quiet anxiety I’ve carried around money — the pressure to earn more, the fear of not having enough, and the constant need to feel secure.Beca...
Why Doesn’t God Let Us Do What We Love and Make Money? | EP21
Why does it feel like the things we truly love don’t always make money… and the things that make money don’t always feel meaningful?In this episode, I reflect on the tension between passion and survival — the desire to follow what we fee...
Living From Worth, Not For Worth | EP20
What if you don’t have to prove your worth anymore?In this episode, I reflect on the shift from striving to be enough…to finally living from the truth that you already are.After exploring unworthiness, fear, and identity, this...
Can I Change the Way I See Myself? | EP19
If I already understand where my unworthiness comes from…why is it still so hard to change?In this episode, I explore the tension between awareness and transformation — why old beliefs can still feel real, even when we know they’re n...
Where Does Unworthiness Come From? | EP18
Where does the feeling of “not enough” really come from?In this episode, I reflect on how unworthiness is often not something we were born with — but something we learned.Through personal stories and childhood memories, ...
Why We Push Love Away Even When We Want It | EP17
Have you ever been loved… and still felt uneasy?In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I began to notice in my own relationships — how fear, insecurity, and unworthiness can lead us to push love away, even when we deeply want it....