Learning to Feel Worthy in God’s Eyes | EP15

Have you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine?

In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness.

It’s not always obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways — in the way we hesitate to speak up, the way we question whether we deserve love, or the way we shrink ourselves around people we think are “above” us.

Through a recent experience and a conversation with a mentor, I began to see how deeply this belief has shaped my life — in relationships, in work, and in how I see myself.

But as I continue growing in my faith, I’m learning to see myself through a different lens — not through performance, comparison, or achievement, but through God’s love.

Because in God’s eyes, worth is not something we earn.
It’s something we are given.

In this episode, I share:

• How unworthiness quietly shows up in everyday moments
• The deeper root behind “not feeling enough”
• What changed when I began to see myself through God’s perspective
• A simple daily practice that’s helping me rebuild a sense of worth from within

If you’ve ever questioned your value — in love, in work, or in life — this episode is for you.

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Transcript

How I Met Jesus — Episode 15

Learning to Feel Worthy in God’s Eyes 

Hi, this is Elena.

Welcome back to How I Met Jesus.

In the last episode, I talked about learning to listen to my own heart.

Leaving Los Angeles and returning to Kansas was not just about changing cities. It was about learning to slow down, to reflect, and to hear the quiet voice inside me.

But as I began listening more carefully to my heart, I also noticed something else that had been quietly living inside me for many years.

A deep sense of unworthiness.

It’s something I’ve carried for a long time. Even as I’ve grown, achieved different things, and healed in many areas of my life, that feeling still appears from time to time — just in different forms.

Recently, I had a moment that helped me see this more clearly.

At a church in California, I met a Hollywood producer. He had worked on many famous films. We talked for a while about life and work. At some point, I shared a little about my live-stream business. And he said something very casually:

“Maybe I can come visit your live-stream space sometime, and we can talk more.”

But the moment he said that, a thought immediately crossed my mind.

Why would someone like him want to visit a small place like mine?

It was such a quick thought that I almost didn’t notice it.

Later, when I shared this story with my life coach, she asked me a simple question.

“Did you notice the feeling of unworthiness in that moment?”

Her question stopped me. Because she was right. That small reaction revealed something much deeper. That quiet voice inside me that still sometimes whispers:

“You’re not enough.”

I began to notice how this feeling shows up in many small moments throughout my life. Not just in big life decisions, but in quiet, everyday situations.

I remember many years ago. A friend once invited me to a large car exhibition he was hosting. It was a huge event, with many impressive cars and many important people there. I walked around the exhibition for a while, but I couldn’t find him anywhere. So after some time, I simply went home.

Later, he called me and asked, “Why didn’t you come?”

I said, “I did come. I just didn’t see you, so I left.”

He sounded surprised and said, “Why didn’t you call me? I could have come to find you and show you around.”

And when he said that, I suddenly asked myself the same question.

Why didn’t I call him?

The answer was simple, but also uncomfortable.

Because I was afraid of bothering him.

Because in that moment, I felt small.

He was hosting such a big event, surrounded by important people.

And somewhere deep inside, I believed I didn’t really belong there.

I didn’t feel worthy of calling him and asking for his time.

That quiet sense of unworthiness has appeared in many areas of my life.

Sometimes it keeps me from getting too close to people I see as “important” or “powerful,” because a part of me feels like I don’t deserve to stand in the same space as them. And I’ve realized that this pattern has also shown up in my work.

There are moments when I hesitate to speak up, to ask for opportunities, or to step forward — not because I don’t have ideas or ability, but because somewhere inside I still question whether I’m worthy of being there.

It also showed up in my relationships. Sometimes, even when someone genuinely cared about me, a quiet question would appear in my mind:

Am I really worthy of being loved?

There were moments when someone showed me kindness, attention, or affection, and instead of simply receiving it, part of me would start questioning it.

Do I deserve this?

What if they see the real me and change their mind?

What if I’m not enough?

So instead of feeling secure in love, I sometimes found myself either holding back emotionally… or seeking reassurance again and again. Because deep inside, that old belief was still there. The belief that love had to be earned. That worthiness had to be proven. Through success. Through achievements. Through becoming someone impressive enough.

But as I stay connected with Jesus and grow in faith, I’ve begun to see this through a completely different lens — through God’s eyes.

God doesn’t ask me to prove my worth before He calls me His own.

He doesn’t measure me by success, beauty, or productivity.

In His eyes, I was already enough the moment He created me.

When I read the stories about Jesus in the Bible, something becomes very clear.

Jesus never waited for people to become “good enough” before loving them.

He loved first. And that love was what transformed them.

That realization has slowly begun to change the way I see myself.

So now, when that old voice of unworthiness shows up, I try to remind myself of something simple: I am worthy not because I have achieved enough, but because I am loved enough.

To help this truth take deeper root, I’ve started a small daily practice.

Every morning, I spend about ten minutes in quiet meditation.

I close my eyes, breathe slowly. And I repeat simple words in my heart.

I am loved.

I am safe.

I am enough.

It’s a small moment, but it allows God’s love to settle deeper than the old fears I’ve carried for so long. And when I really allow that truth to sink in, something inside me becomes quieter. That old voice used to whisper “You’re not enough” slowly begins to lose its power.

Let’s pray: 

Dear Lord,

Thank You for loving us even when we struggle to see our own worth. 

When the voice of doubt tells us that we are not enough, remind us that our value does not come from what we achieve, but from the love You have already given us. 

Help us release the old beliefs that tell us we must prove ourselves in order to be accepted.

Teach us to see ourselves the way You see us — with grace, compassion, and dignity.

And as we continue walking with You, help Your love settle deeper in our hearts than the fears we have carried for so long.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

For so many years, I believed I had to earn my worth.

But faith is teaching me something different.

I am worthy — not because of what I achieve, but because I am loved.

Thank you being here and listening. If you feel this episode might help someone in your life, you’re welcome to share this podcast with them. And if you have your own story, testimony, struggles, or questions, I would truly love to hear from you.

You can find my email and contact information in the description of each episode.

My hope is that by sharing our stories, we can remind each other that we’re not alone on this journey.

Until next time, take care of your heart.