I Was Living in My Head Not My Life | EP38

Have you ever felt like you’re always thinking…but not really living?  

In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I didn’t fully see before—I was living in my head… not my life. I share how overthinking kept me disconnected from my life—
and what it means to finally start living.

Stop thinking. Start living.

Transcript

How I Met Jesus — Episode 38

I Was Living in My Head Not My Life       

Hi, this is Elena.

Welcome back to How I Met Jesus.

Over the past few episodes, I’ve been talking a lot about my inner world. Overthinking. Control. Fear. And the need to feel safe.

And as I sit here today…I feel like I’m starting to see the bigger picture. For most of my life in the past, I wasn’t really living my life. I was living in my head. I was thinking about things more than I was doing them. Imagining outcomes more than experiencing them. Trying to figure everything out…before I even began.

And I thought that was helping me. I thought thinking more would make things better. That it would protect me. That it would prepare me. But now I see it differently. Thinking feels like progress. But it’s not. Because nothing actually changes  until I move.

And over time…I got stuck in a pattern. A loop I couldn’t break. I didn’t trust myself. So I hesitated. Because I hesitated… I didn’t act. And because I didn’t act…I didn’t get results. And without results…I trusted myself even less. Not trusting myself led to no action. No action led to no results. And no results made me trust myself even less. And that cycle…kept repeating.

And the more I lived like this…the more I realized something. I wasn’t just stuck. I was disconnected. Disconnected from my body. From the present moment. From my life.

And I think this is what I’m learning now. Life is not something you figure out in your head. It’s something you experience. You can’t think your way into living. You have to step into it.

I don’t need to understand everything to begin living my life. I just need to start living it.

And maybe…it doesn’t have to be big. It doesn’t have to be perfect. It doesn’t have to be certain. It can be small. Taking one step. Trying one thing. Showing up… just a little differently. Feeling the moment. Being present. Noticing what’s here… instead of constantly thinking about what’s next.

And for me…this is also where my faith comes into it. Because maybe I don’t need to figure out my whole life. I don’t need to control the outcome. Maybe I just need to trust that God is with me…not just in my thoughts…but in my life.

I was living in my head…but my life was waiting for me outside of it. And maybe… that’s where I want to be now. Not just thinking about life. But actually living it. In the steps I take. In the moments I live. In the things I experience.

Less control. Less overthinking. Less trying to figure everything out.

And more living. More experiencing. More trusting.

You don’t have to think your way into a better life. You can step into it.

Here I want to share a Bible verse with you.

📖 Psalms 119:105

"Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path."

I love this verse. It doesn’t say God lights up the entire road ahead. It doesn’t say He shows us every answer, every step, or every detail of the future. Instead…He gives us enough light for the next step. And we don’t have to be so afraid. We don’t have to know everything. We don’t have to control everything. We don’t have to anxiously figure out our entire future. Because God is like a lamp lighting the path beneath our feet. Walking with us. Guiding us. Gently showing us where to step next.

Let’s pray.

Dear Lord,

Thank You for walking with me through this journey. Through the overthinking. The fear. The need to control. And all the moments I felt stuck in my own mind.

Lord, help me come back to what is real. To this moment. To this life. Teach me how to live— not just in my thoughts…but in the life You’ve given me.

Help me trust You in the steps I take. Even when I don’t have all the answers. Even when things feel uncertain. Remind me that life is not something I need to control. It’s something I get to experience with You.

In Jesus’ name,
Amen.

Now I see faith is not about seeing the whole path. It’s about trusting the light we’ve already been given. So if you’re feeling uncertain today…Take a deep breath. You don’t have to see the entire road. Just take the next step. Because you are not walking alone. God is already holding the light. 

Thank you for being here and listening. If this episode resonated with you, feel free to share it with someone who might need it. And if you have your own story, testimony, or questions, I would truly love to hear from you.

Until next time, take a deep breath…and come back to your life. Because it’s already here. And you are already loved.