Not Fixed, Still here
There's a particular kind of exhaustion that sleep doesn't fix. A particular kind of struggle that therapy helps but doesn't solve. A particular kind of life that doesn't follow the recovery arc.
Not Fixed, Still Here is a podcast about mental health—all of it grounded in science, shaped by lived experience, and honest about the gaps in between.
Hosted by someone who has navigated depression, emotional and physical abuse, and over two decades of asking challenging questions about the mind, this show brings together psychology, neuroscience, and the therapeutic frameworks that actually helped—CBT, DBT, EFT, and NLP—not to tell you what to do, but to help you understand what's happening and why.
Every episode moves between the research and the reality. The science is real. The uncertainty is named. And nothing gets wrapped up too cleanly.
This is not a wellness show. It is not therapy. It is not a recovery story with a tidy ending.
This conversation is for those who are intellectually curious, emotionally exhausted, and tired of receiving easy answers.
Not Fixed, Still Here. The science of mental health, without the performance. If this show means something to you, you can support it here: Toren "TY" Ylfa
If you or someone you know is struggling, support is available 24/7. Call or text 988 (Suicide and Crisis Lifeline) or text HOME to 741741 (Crisis Text Line).
Episodes
10 episodes
The Tool That Doesn't Know When to Stop
It is Tuesday at 11pm. The anxiety won't let you sleep. Your therapist's next available slot is three weeks away. And there, immediately available, is an AI chatbot.Over 40 million people worldwide are now using AI-powered m...
Your Gut Knows Something Your Doctor Doesn't
Your gut and your mood move together. You've probably noticed.The stomach that doesn't feel right when you're anxious. The appetite that disappears when the depression is heavy. The physical dimension of something that's sup...
The Pattern Behind the Promise
Last episode we looked at one device. One company. One gap between promise and proof.This episode is the pattern behind it.The mental wellness industry is now worth $166 billion globally — and growing. It is ...
Nurosym — When the Promise Outpaces the Proof
The vagus nerve is real. The research is promising. And neither of those things is the problem.Nurosym is a wearable device that stimulates the vagus nerve through the ear. The science underlying it has genuine potential. Early-stage re...
Do Therapeutic Models Need Improvement?
Sources:Treatment Resistance & Diagnostic Critique McIntyre et al. — Treatment-resistant depression: definition, prevalence, detection, management — World Psychiatry (2023) Karabulut & Düzgün — Treatment-Resistant Depression Rate...
Was I Always Going To Be Like This
Was I always going to be like this?It's the question that shows up at 3am. When nothing else is working. Somewhere between despair and accusation.This episode goes looking for a real answer — not reassurance, not false ho...
CBT Origins, Evidence, and limits as NHS default for Complex Trauma
The origins of CBT through Aaron Beck’s challenge to psychoanalysis summarize where CBT’s evidence base is strongest and examine how CBT became a system default in the UK—sometimes mismatched to complex trauma presentations. The episode closes ...
You Are Not as Alone as It Has Felt
You are not as alone as it has felt.Nearly one in three adults in England and Wales experienced some form of childhood abuse before the age of eighteen. That is 13.6 million people—according to the most recent Crime Surve...
What is Not Fixed,Still Here — Who I Am, Why I'm Here, and What This Show Is
What does it mean to spend twenty years trying to understand your own mind — not just cope with it, but actually understand it?This is Episode 1 of Not Fixed, Still Here. Before the science, before the frameworks, before any...