Creative block? You and I need to chat

Okay so this one's a bit of a get-it-all-off-my-chest episode  pour a cuppa and pull up a seat.

In-laws gone home, school holidays started, my little one got gastro, and somewhere in all of that I just lost my spark.

You know the feeling. When posting starts to feel like a chore and you're dragging yourself towards it with your whole body.

And if you know me, you know discipline and consistency are basically my middle names. So this was very foreign territory.

So I did something I haven't done in years. And the moment I decided to, I felt this huge pressure release.

This one's for the deadly disciplined ones who don't know how to tell when the spark's gone

👉 Listen to the episode with Leo - he does the most incredible hypnosis
👉 DM me on Instagram - where's your non-performative space?

Transcript

 Hello, my loves. Welcome back to another episode. I'm always so grateful that you're here, so let's catch up. Since we last spoke, my in-laws have gone home. It was a fun couple of weeks, but as I mentioned, it's just like changes up everything. And I don't know why. I, I guess I just didn't look forward enough, but I thought, "Okay, so once they head home, I'll be back in my everyday swing of things." Eh, wrong. Because it's school holidays. I think the last few weeks just kind of got away from me that I literally forgot that my son was gonna go on holidays, which is totally fun. Love hanging out with him. He's just the best dude ever. But it just means that, you know, like, again, it's another shift of daily rhythm and routine, so that's something that I'm currently navigating through. And to make things just... Oh, my gosh, I feel so bad for him, but to make things a little worse for him, he had a bout of gastro for about two days, literally just as school ended. So I've had a couple of sleepless nights and just worrying about him and just being up and making sure he's okay. But it absolutely sucks when a little one goes through it, 'cause you just feel so helpless. Uh, so anyhow, this has kind of brought up a lot of things around just my own ability and, uh, capability is not the right word, and availability, all the abilities, to just double down and focus on content, and to focus on my brand, and to focus on where I actually wanna take things. And I guess what I wanna chat to you all about today is a little different to my usual. So pour the cuppa, pull up a seat, get comfy, because this is, I think, gonna be one of those verbal diarrhea diary episodes where I just need to get stuff off my chest, and whatever falls out of my mouth, you guys are gonna just hear it all. And I know that I cannot be the only one dealing with this right now, where it feels like you can't really get on solid ground, you know, around where it is that you wanna take the direction of the business. I understand it is midyear, that this sort of comes up, but I don't know. Like, it just feels really kinda like I'm in Jell-O at the moment, you know? And if you've been here week on week, some of you have been here for years now, and I love you so much for always tuning in. And you guys genuinely feel like the friends I get to think out loud with. So anyway, this is exactly what we're gonna be doing today. I- I just wanna share something with you in the hopes that it's also inspiring you to think about not just trying to, like, push and grind through the things that feel a little bit yuck or unstable, but what you're actually gonna do about it and how you're gonna bring back a sense of control, a sense of connection to self, which is what really the focus of today is gonna be about, and not feeling so much pressure from the outside world. And that's exactly what I've been sitting with. Like, this is what I've been in, the energy that I've been soaking myself in. I have absolutely been sensing a bit of a creative block, you know, a spark block more than anything. That sense of, "Yes, I can't wait to share this with you guys. I can't wait to put this out to my audience. I know exactly how I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna make a 10-slide carousel, and then in a few days I'm gonna say the same thing but as a talking head. It's gonna go off. People are gonna love it. It's gonna get a ton of shares." I genuinely would say that if I'd felt that in my sacral, you know, just this sense of, "Yep, yep, this is... I'm gonna make it happen." I'd sit down, as you know, for my 90 minutes, smash out a piece of content, put it out there, and just be so freaking proud of it. But lately, I've just sensed this funny little movement coming in, and it's like a strange thing for me to navigate because it... I think if... I quite honestly just wanna toot my own horn for a second, and this is something that I can stand on that I know of, of me, that if you looked up the words discipline and consistency in a dictionary, you would honestly find my full name, my home address printed right there next to the definition. Like, not even joking. I ha- I'm very rarely someone who will say, "Oh, I don't feel like it," or, "I can't." Like, even days where I feel sick and tired and exhausted, there's a part of m- me and my habits now that I just know that this is who I am. You know, I don't miss podcast episodes. I post very consistently. And, uh, that sort of level of habit is the core of me. It's my makeup. But once I'm, you know, feeling a bit blocked, I feel that sense of like I'm locked in disappear, and it becomes less of a joy, like by a lot, and more like a task. And I think a lot of you have shared with me that sometimes feels like we're in... when you're in the world of daily sales and you're posting every day, that it can get to becoming a bit of a task. And I actually talked about that in depth in last week's episode, so please go and listen to that one if this is resonating. But the thing is, if you're like me and you get the thing done, and you don't think twice about it, and you're very like deeply, deeply reliable to yourself, like you're your own boss at this point, so you're deeply reliable to yourself, to your boss. It's genuinely a very weird thing to not have that. Like, it's one of the favorite things that I have about myself. But when that sort of goes because I feel that spark leave me, I feel also that it can kind of blow out into this big thing if you let it. Then it's like, oh my God, you know, like, who am I? Or the business is not working the way that I want it to. So anyway, this is the premise of this, and I think this is very foreign territory to me. And It's not, like, a feeling that I've had a lot of practice with. I know it sounds weird saying that. Like, I don't have a practice... I don't practice the energy of, "I feel unmotivated." I always am. So what tends to happen, because I'm, let's say, now moving into this space of, like, I have to push through it anyway, and this is that push energy that actually dampens the spark more and more, and flow state absolutely hates that, when you start, like, grinding your way through just making it happen. I have to remind myself I am a student of flow state. I've studied flow for years and years with some of the most renowned people who do research papers on flow and flourishing. My coach of many years is a sought-after professor in and around flow state. So I know this now, and I can... I think what's happened is being in many years around flow state, the science of it, understanding my own, you know, my own body around it and the way that my brain activates, is that I can catch it sooner. So I think it's sort of an impossible feat to kinda go, "Oh, this will never happen to me." It's more if you can catch it sooner, you can do something about it sooner, and reduce and collapse the timeframe around steeping in that energy of being unmotivated or feeling in that creative block, right? And you can feel it on someone. I think you can also feel it when you're reading somebody's posts, when you're seeing them on camera, when you meet them in person. Obviously, you know the energy that I mean. It feels slightly forced. It feels slightly performed, and you know that they've probably done, like, three or four different versions of this and, you know, they've posted the best one that they could possibly get. There absolutely is so much merit in doing that if you're someone who is too scared to put anything out there at all. So I'm not talking to you guys in this episode. For you guys, I think it's amazing that you're just doing it anyway, and you're doing it imperfectly and you're doing it messily. But the line that I am talking to here, and where I'm straddling both worlds, is for those of you that are deadly disciplined but don't know how to identify when the spark is gone and you can't get motivated again. And, like, whilst it's a part that I'm, you know, very proud of, that I can kind of see that it's coming and that I can turn things around from there, you're always gonna feel like you wish that you had clocked it sooner. You know? Like, why, why did I still post the last five posts when I knew that I was just kinda making shit happen? So regardless of that, give yourself grace. If you catch the push energy earlier in the cycle, then the old version of you would notice that and go, "Okay. Well, we've maybe dealt with something like this before. We're gonna reach into our tool bag and work out, like, what we can do." And the fully, fully honest part is that I also feel like- I don't know. Both things get to be true at the same time, and this is the part of me that I have to sort of remind myself that I am still growing and I'm still learning, and this is the season that I'm in. Like, if, if I think about it, and this is a version of me giving myself grace, so I want you to do the same, is like, I've only really been in this daily sales model for 18 months. That's like a baby entrepreneur just starting out, and I've had a stellar run with it, just incredible. Daily sales are coming in every day still. And yeah, there's fluctuations sometimes over the average of the month. It's like a smaller average than the month before, and that's okay. But what I'm really looking for here is consistency with daily sales, that it's still, the activity is still there. People are still landing on sales pages. They're still DMing me about questions like which course to take. They're still using the chatbot on my website. I can see that that's activated. So all kinds of things like this are still happening. But I'm still trying to work shit out myself. Like, I'm still trying to work out, is this where I wanna continue growing and doing the things over the next year? Is this gonna keep me motivated? Am I someone that needs a little bit more creativity, and if so, how? Am I still showing up as me unapologetically? Where have I snuffed my own light? And where is it that I have, you know, in many ways built ceilings above my own success? Where have I compared myself in a way that is an absolute killer of love and joy and, you know, these, like, unbelievable boundless energy, you know, vibes that naturally we think of as entrepreneurs? You know, and I don't know. I just feel like because of the last few weeks, I noticed that I've just not been enjoying being on Instagram And it's felt really heavy, like a chore, like I'm dragging myself towards, you know, something with my whole body and resisting it. But Instagram is my key platform, and it's where my clients come from. It's where my sales happen. Um, in the last 18 months, I have put most of my eggs in the Instagram basket simply because there is so much merit in staying focused on one platform and, you know, putting your all into that rather than splitting energy across all the others. So anyhow, like for a little bit, 'cause I have been off LinkedIn for a while, I just decided that I wanted to change things up, and I repurposed some of my Instagram stuff on LinkedIn, only because I know that it is a cycle breaker of if you're feeling a lost spark, there are other energy sources in which you can find the spark. It's like when you're s- I love these analogies, you know me. But it's like if you're starting a, a fire. You know, sometimes, whatever, like the tinder that you're using just is wet, and it's not gonna catch even though it would do in any other environment. So you gotta find something else that's gonna work for you and, you know, give you that spark back. So LinkedIn is kind of the place that I decided I'd go because it, you know, it's my OG platform if you don't know. It's where I kinda started this whole thing. And I just posted on there, and what do you know? Like, I was talking to my client Jen about it the other day, long-term client. She's been around for years and years. And, um, she's like, "Fucking hate LinkedIn." And I'm like, "I know." We're having this thing. But I'm like, "All right, it doesn't matter. We're gonna go in, and I'm gonna post on there and just not even put that much energy and just, like, take something that I'd already done," you know, ran it through Claude, said, "Make this sound better for LinkedIn," 'cause, you know, there's a nuance to how you speak to your LinkedIn audience. And then I just posted whatever was there, and it just took off. You know, like, I grew my following by 100, people were messaging me again. I'm like, "Oh my gosh," like seriously. Funnily enough, um, it's still not really where I wanna be, but it's just funny that that's kind of what you need in some sense to, like, where else can you just kinda, like, shoot the breeze, you know, see what happens, and just give yourself, like, another space to hang out in. For some of you, that might be TikTok. Some of you, that might be YouTube. You know, so, um, yeah, I just think that that's something to be mentioned because you need to have an outlet. You know, it's almost like you've got your... Y- you got your formal work thing, which is Instagram for me, and then you kinda got, like, the sideline after-work drinks with the friends that you actually wanna hang out with, and that's my mastermind. And then you've got just a random place that you go every now and again and just, like, see how those guys are going, so that's kind of LinkedIn. And then you guys here are just like... I feel like I never, ever have to perform for you. Like, you know, you'll message me going, "You're so real here." Like, "Thank you for just keeping it real." This is my little corner where I get to have a beautiful verbal diarrhea out loud with people who actually wanna listen to it. And then you come back to me going, "You know what, girl? Like, I'm going through this. Thank you for sharing it." Like, it's just so nice to have this space. I absolutely would love for you guys to think about where that space is for you where you are completely non-performative. But anyway, here it is. Here's what I decided to do about this, um, loss of creative excitement and all the things. On Thursday last week, so it's now Monday, I decided that I needed to have, like, an old school, proper old school digital detox. So when I say this, you know, asterisk, I do love, like, scrolling on YouTube Shorts and it... I don't know, just is my thing. Uh, so when I say digital detox, I mean, it's not, like, hardcore put the phone away, no internet, all the things. I just meant, like, I'm not gonna put pressure on myself to post anything for work. So I was still, you know, on Instagram and DM-ing you guys back and having the funniest memes and laughs. Like, you guys just crack me up. 'Cause I went, you know, onto socials, on stories in particular, and said, "I'm taking an old school digital detox. This is where I'm at." Um, yeah, like, here's something to watch around why I can take a digital detox and why I can be unmotivated and why I feel like I've lost my spark but still make daily sales. Go and watch this video. And I got so many hilarious responses back, like, in the form of full-on memes, so you guys are so funny. So yeah, that's what I meant by digital detox, just not posting. And the moment, I'm talking about, like, the moment I decided that I'm doing this and, and I'm taking, like, some time off, and I'm saying this with air quotes so you guys can't see me, but it's been three days. I just felt, like, a huge pressure release. I don't know how else to describe it. It was like, oh, yes, I can finally breathe. And it's like, it just made me laugh in one sense because you just sort of go, oh my God, like, who put this pressure on you, babe? No one. The rules and the regulations of being consistent online did. But who let that become my rule? I did You know? And it's like as soon as you decide something... I remember, like, one of my first ever coaches used to say, "Just decide, Ruby." You know, I, I'd be like, "How do I make six figures in my first year?" "You've just gotta decide." And I'd be like, "Uh, how do I charge more?" "You've just gotta decide." And that used to shit me because I'd be like, "What the hell does that mean, I've just gotta decide?" Anyway, it ended up becoming a real mantra of mine that now I've passed that on to my clients. Like, when you decide that you get to give yourself a break, when you decide that you're going to find yourself in your content again, it's, everything starts to shift, and that stuckness starts to feel gone almost, you know? But cast your mind back around the COVID years. Like, everybody was declaring it, remember? 'Cause we were so s- I mean, we still are in one sense, but we were so stuck on our devices, and people would announce it like a public service, you know? It was like, "I'm taking a digital detox, guys. I'll see you in a week." And off they would go. And w- we all kind of either eye-rolled or celebrated them, you know? It's like... And they're, or they'd be like, "Guys, I have been away for a week. I am back, bitches." It's like, didn't even notice you were gone. You know, it's a bit like that. That's why I'm cracking up, 'cause I'm gonna be like, "Hi, guys. I'm back from my digital detox of three days, and I feel so much better." No one's going to actually care, tru- truthfully. But I care, and, you know, call it a form of self-love. It, it's, it's nice to be able to announce that in some way and just let that out. But I have really not seen anyone do that in a long time, and maybe I'm not looking out for it. It probably does absolutely still happen, but I don't know. I think it's sort of funny. Like, even s- funny things like, you know, Gary Vee came out. I don't know if you've seen this clip. And he was doing a talk, and he said, "How many times have you guys posted today? Put your hand up if you've posted once, three times, five times, 10 times today." And it gradually got less and less hands. And he goes, "Do you wanna know..." I'm not even gonna try his accent. But he goes, "Do you wanna know how many times I've posted? 462 times today." I'm like, facepalm. The internet has gone freaking bonkers. Like, honestly. No, I s- I unsubscribe to that way of living. And sure, he's gonna be like, "I've got a team. I've got AI. I've got bots doing this," rah, rah, rah. Ooh. But I will say that the other thing that's contributed to, I feel, not needing to declare your I'm coming off the internet thing is especially on IG now, you can switch around your feed. Do you guys know that? So you can pull something that you posted, maybe it was a top performing post from three months ago, and you can literally just move it up to the top of your feed. People aren't gonna be like, "Oh my gosh, it's been three days since you posted." 'Cause I could just be pulling stuff from, like, 56 weeks ago, and that could be at the top of my feed. So it kind of jumbles up the timeline a bit, which I'm here for. It psychologically takes the pressure off to not be constantly posting, especially if something's gone well in the past, you know? But yeah, I, it just feels like we've all just slipped back into being permanently switched on, all of us. And somewhere along the way, you know, we've stopped giving ourselves that permission to just relax. And I think a lot of people go, "Well, you're part of the problem, Rubes. Like, you're preaching the daily sales thing, so that means being on daily." No, babe, I'm not. I'm preaching that sales get to come in daily, but you only need to post two or three times a week for the daily sales to activate. And that's been part of the freedom that I've noticed. Like, whilst I felt this relief declaring it online, I'm not gonna be online, all through this weekend there were sales dropping in. Even last night I was watching Survivor and I'm back on the Survivor train. Anyway, watching Survivor and it's like ding, ding, ding, three little sales came in. All of them had upsells, all of them had bumps, and I'm like, "Oh my gosh, that's so cool. Thank you." You know? Like, that is so cool to see that. And I don't know, there was sort of a big part of me that didn't wanna make a big deal out of this. It's like, as you can hear, I'm sort of just dissing myself. That's like, "I'm taking three days off." But there was a little voice going, "Ruby, you need to say this out loud. You need to give others the permission to do the same." So here it is, okay? Like it's, it's, it's a, not a big deal, big deal kind of a move where I know a lot of you are just so done with, bleh, like social media and what to do and all the rules and, you know, all the things. Like, just, it's okay. It's okay to just take a minute and take a breather, 'cause it's like a slingshot, you know? You're just, like, going back, back, back. It might feel like you're going back, and then all of a sudden you take three days off, a week off, whatever you decide, and you will catapult back into your sparkly self. And I already feel this, and I've only taken 72 hours off from needing to pressurize myself into thinking about, like, what's next and what do I post next. You know? And I'm, I'm excited. Like, a whole new way of how I wanna create content for the next three months, like 100 days, 'cause I like working in 100-day increments, is, has come in and I'm like, "Oh my God." Like, I'll share what that looks like. You'll probably see it on my feed. But it also came off the back of doing a vibes check. So this is something that I teach inside of my mastermind. If you wanna create demand in your business and you're too close to the content you're making and what you're putting out there, you need to be doing consistent vibes checks. It's like a health check and an audit for your feed. So ask people close to you, ask your business bestie, ask a family member who you actually love and respect, ask a fellow entrepreneur, ask your coach. Like, what do you see upfront that I'm not seeing? And I did exactly that. I always practice what I preach. I messaged two of my really close besties, who are also entrepreneurs. I asked... I polled you guys on stories to say, "Can you help me out with what you wanna see from me?" And that gave me so much clarity and direction. So it was, like, 50... No, it was, like, 67% of you wanted more teaching, handwritten style, notes style carousels. You like that from me. And only 9% of you really like the lifestyle-y things that I post, like my travel, my friends, my family, things like that. And then in between was, like, do you like my talking head videos where I'm teaching, or do you like my talking head videos where I'm inspiring? So it was kind of, like, 20% split between both of those. But what I really looked at there was, like, how my energy responded to that percentage. So I'm never gonna just look at that and go, "Ooh, 67% of people said this." Like, I think it's just more like, "Ha ha, they've said this." But if my energy's going, "Hell no, I'm gonna do this instead," that's how I know. That's how I respond to that, as opposed to taking the poll votes like, you know, Bible, so to speak. But also, you know, I'll also look at, like, who, who voted. So some people who had voted, they like the talking head inspirational story tell videos. They were s- they're some of my clients who have paid me tens of thousands of dollars, and that makes sense because they n- know me so well. They're inspired through entrepreneurial stories, through founder journeys, and that's what I would click, too. Like, I'd wanna hear how founders, you know, perceive their world and how they move through it. I'm not necessarily looking at a founder for operational style tips. But if someone's new to my world, they wanna know, like, give me the step-by-step. So you gotta look at the nuances of data. But anyway, that's my management accounting side coming out. So I want this, like, to kind of sit with you in a way where you give yourself time to just be in the joyous wonder of things. Maybe that's a little philosophical, but this is how it looks and feels like being in joyous wonder. And this is like, oh, if I could be all of me, not have to comply to an internet-based rule. And to not try and be the next viral sensation, but if I just got to show up and absolutely freaking loved what I got to share and how to share it without putting all of these parameters in around that's what's gonna get most visibility, so that's gone. But just being me, letting the energy come to me, letting the frequency and the magnetism Which is typically attracted through joy, playfulness, connection to who you actually are. What would I be posting today? No judgment. And I had a really interesting chat with a client of mine, Sash, and she's saying she's killing it on Instagram trial reels right now. So is my other bestie. And both of them said something really conducive of each other, like, um, similar to each other. And they said why trial reels has been so fun, and why they've been growing their following and their views and their, you know, all the things, engagement, is because there's kind of like a I don't give an F about what those people think about me, 'cause it's like it's going to a cold audience. Nobody really knows you. So why should I bother curating it too much? Because I'm just basically putting it out there. One of them said it was kind of like a test. The other one said it was a way that she could express more freely, and I love that. So I'm like, why can't we bring that energy into our actual community space and actual follower space instead of just like, oh, psychologically going reels is easier 'cause no one really knows me versus feed, people know me, I need to be more curated. It's funny, isn't it? And I would think the exact same thing too, and they're both motivated me to post more trial reels. But besides the fact, I think that there is something in there around how can we be... find our spark and our joy and our creative flow again just through expressing what we actually want to express, not how we're meant to express it. I, um, had a beautiful hypnosis. Shout out to Leo. Uh, I've actually had Leo on my podcast, and he was an amazing guest, so I'll link his episode underneath this in the show notes. Anyway, I go to his, as much as I can, go to his, uh, monthly hypnosis. He's got an amazing business. And, um, anyway, go to that episode. You'll find all of his links. So he said, "I'm gonna do a group hypnosis on the topic of visibility." And I'm like, "Leo, man, like you just know me. You know that this is what I needed." And he's like, "Yes, the collective needs it." And it was the most powerful hypnosis bec- not in the sense of like deep revelations and seeing, I don't know, like a crystal palace or something in, floating in the sky. None of that. None of that. It was actually hard for me to concentrate 'cause, you know, Teddy was sick, and I had one eye, one ear on human stuff. But let me get my notes out. Okay, got my notebooks here. Can you hear that? Okay, so this is what came up when I was looking at what I was struggling with, and I know this is gonna be the same for all of you. So I wrote down, "The algorithm wants me to speak a certain way versus me being able to speak and share in a way that I used to, which was simply through energetic connection with others. Visibility feels dependent on what the algorithm wants for me. Like, I can't just let my energy speak for itself anymore without being super aware of the rules in which it needs to perform." And I think that's... It's such a simple thing that came out from the hypnosis itself. And, you know, I put it in the chat 'cause I, I'm a chatter in the Zoom room, so I'm always just, like, you know, putting out thoughts for everyone. And if anyone resonates, it's, it's nice to have that connection as well. But anyway, Leo picked up my comment and was like, "You know what? The algorithm is purely a data point. If it's not performing, it's just telling you that your words aren't resonating." Doesn't mean anything like that, and it's, that's the work, you know, from a 3D perspective. But from an energy and spiritual and 5D point of view and your subconscious mind point of view, he's like, "You know when you land on an account and you just go, 'Wow,' like, 'This is so them. This is so them.' Like, there's no one else that could replicate them." And obviously, that's personal branding, but I got what he meant. It was like a sound wave went through me, like whomp, whomp, whomp, like deeper and deeper, and I was like, "So them, so them." And I'm like, "Yes." And that's the part that I'm working on now. I'm in the thick of it. But in this detox, in this, like, finding my creative spark again, I'm like- I've lost that. I've lost that, "This is so Ruby. This is so her." And it's an interesting place to be in because there's a part of me that has kind of, uh, what's the word? Vanilla. Like, it's like it's made... My, my feed has gone vanilla, whatever that verb is. It's like I've vanilla-ized my feed, and I hate it. Like, that's, that's not me, and I brought myself back and, you know, done a few more, like, talking videos so you can see my energy again, and that's still not it. But I'm trying. I'm working it out. I'm, you know, I'm finding what that looks like. I know I'm very close, and I'm actually enjoying being in the study of it. That's the other thing. It feels fun and playful. It didn't a week ago. I was bitching about it to my bestie, and she copped it. But she was trying to help me out, and I'm like, "Ugh, this really isn't helping." Like, and she she just got that side to me. I'm like, "You're making it more annoying." She's just... She just gets me anyhow. But it, it's part of the healing, in one sense, of visibility, and it's okay to be in it. It's okay to sit in it. And let just this be a bit of a testament to the fact that it's like it doesn't have to take ages. You know? It can just take a few days where you, A, release the need to constantly be on and be consistent. Can't believe that's coming from me, but if that's choking you, if that's got a choke hold on you, you've gotta, you've gotta decide. And then secondly, do a vibes audit. You know, get your people to give you great feedback, and even if you snark back at them, they're doing it 'cause they love you, and then you can grovel and apologize later. And then three, like find the healing modalities. For me, it's hypnosis. For some of you, it may be journaling or getting acupuncture or something like that, or just sitting in prayer and meditation and finding yourself there. And then, like, the last thing I wanna say here is don't force yourself to have to come back with a massive, like, firework, like pew. You know? Just, just be back, and be so you. Like, be so you And I, I, that's what I'm taking from this time. You know, like, it- I'm taking the permission, the permission, the permission, the permission. And that includes the permission to be bored out of your mind for an afternoon or for three days, and resist needing to do shit all the time, and to just be. And permission to step away from the feed long enough that your own ideas can actually cultivate and take root. Like, I have to finish this podcast. It's going really long, but one side note. What this looked like to me was I'd find myself and I'd be like, "Yes, this is so me. I wanna post this. Oh, wait, let me just go through my explore page or whatever and see what the big creators are doing to convey their message across." So let's say I find someone, and it's like, "Oh my God, I'm so inspired. Everyone's yapping at the moment." Uh, or everyone's doing like really, really high quality, um, you know, carousels, so I'll do that, I'll do that, I'll do that. And then before I know it, it's been four days since I posted the thing that I actually really wanted to post on Monday, but I'm only posting it on Thursday 'cause I've been trying to find the perfect vehicle to get this message across, when really the message wanted to just come out on Monday as is. You know what I mean? Like, this is me finding my way back to me. And it's not to say I'm just gonna post shit consistently and not take care of it. It's just like coming back to it as a fuller, truer, more aligned version of me, and that is so worth so much more than another week of trying to get my stuff be seen. I've actually got an affirmation on my laptop and it says, "Being seen is not something that I have to chase. It is something that I am." Being seen is not something that I have to chase. It is something that I am So I've been very present these last few days. I've been walking around my beautiful beach town. Like, the gratefulness has overflowed me, actually. Just driving my amazing car, driving a Mercedes, the sunroof open, and the sea breeze, the salty air. Oh my God, I was like, "I literally live my dream Barbie life. Look at me." And I think even that is a great indicator of, like, what parts of you and your life are you just so thankful for that you've created? And show up from that space like, "Man, I need to share this with you guys." Daily sales, my little 300, $500 sales that's making money for me every day, is causing me to live this life that I love. My $7 sale that leads to a $208 checkout is causing me to live this life that I love, and there's nothing more that I love to do in my job than to teach others how to do that also. Doesn't that just land differently? Doesn't that just land differently? Oh, man. Ugh, I feel so fresh, and I feel like, okay, this is beautiful, and I'm just continuing with the... with this. You know, just steeping in it and enjoying it. It's like when you lather yourself with all the beautiful moisturizers and lotions, and you just let it steep in. Oh, so I hope that this has inspired you. Please, please let me know on Instagram. Come find me, Ruby Lee, the one and only. And, and just send me a DM and be like, "This episode, this is what it said to me. This is what it spoke to me." But okay, that's me. If you haven't already subscribed, I'd appreciate that so much. If you haven't already left a re- five-star review, I would appreciate that so much. It really takes this podcast out to the masses, and somehow the energy travels, 'cause it just has been incredible to meet so many of you through this. And, um, just thank you for being the place where I get to think out loud without ever feeling like I need to perform something for you. I love you so much, and properly, properly, um, sending you all the best vibes as you go through and navigate through your amazing seasons in business. Okay, I'll talk to you next week. Go and listen to past episodes, either last week's or the one with Leo, and I'll catch you soon. Mwah. Big kisses