EP 105: HOW WE'RE SCIENTIFICALLY MANIFESTING ALL THE TIME - CREATOR FIELD 101

We needed an episode dedicated entirely to the creator field - this is one you'll want to bookmark & refer back to later, and is absolutely a pre-req to all other episodes!

Understanding the creator field will change everything for you.

I'm diving into the science behind how our thoughts become our reality, and why we must take responsibility for everything we manifest into our lives... even the stuff we hate.

If you want full control over your life, this episode is a must-listen (and re-listen any time you need to remember who TF you are)!

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Transcript

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What is up, you guys? Welcome back to the alignment show. Per usual, I am so happy to be here with you and also got such great feedback on last week's episode with the reflections roundup situation. It sounds like we are down for the get down to turn this into a monthly series. And you know, I am more than happy to take one or take a lot for the team and share those stories with you to help you prevent creating the same problems in your life. Or even if you do, you'll have the ability to handle them better than I did. So, with that being said, let's get into today's episode. This is one that you're gonna want to bookmark, save the link to it. You're gonna want to refer back to it. This is gonna be a very just like foundational episode that should be a prerequisite to every other episode of mine that you listen to. And it's going to be all about the creator field because we just need one place for you guys to have all of this information in that way in future episodes. We're not going to be explaining the creator field over and over again. We can say, hey, just go back and listen to episode 105 if you're not familiar with what the creator field is. Okay. So that's why we are doing this. It can also be called the manifestation field, and it's doing exactly what we're talking about. It is creating and manifesting everything around you. And we're gonna get into the science behind this, and it's going to change everything about how you see the world, why things are happening certain ways, and it's also gonna change how you perceive your control over your life, over your entire reality. I am telling you, just by fully understanding the creator field, you are going to change your life. This is not taught anywhere else. This is not taught at this level on this like scientific depth and just like guaranteed understanding anywhere else. I don't see it in the mindset books or the podcasts or whatever resources are out there. I just, yes, like you might hear some people say, like, oh, people are just mirrors. Like there's a lesson in everything. Okay, cool in theory, but like I want to know everything there is to know. I want to know why, and I want to know why it's true. I want it to intuitively track, I want it to check out, I want it to be the real source truth. I don't need someone to tell me, oh, everything's just the mirror. Like, find the lesson. Like, okay, give me the process. You know what I mean? Like, I just I need to know everything there is to know. So understanding the creator field is the foundation to literally everything in your life and changing things in your life. And we will be getting into that. So we're gonna start off with basically just walking through the creator field, really defining what it is. Now, I'll be honest with you, the creator field is made up of a handful of things. I'm not gonna go through all those things today, because why? Because you don't need to know them today. Okay, that's like advanced stuff that's just not even helpful for you right now. We're gonna talk about the foundations, and just the foundations are gonna take you like way further. Like, you're gonna be unlocking so many doors and timelines for yourself today just by getting this knowledge, which is very exciting, not only for you, but also for me, because it's really cool to see things change when you start implementing creator field work. So, what the creator field is made up of. Well, it's made up of our thoughts, our beliefs, our actions, we've got emotions in there, and the scientific world will call this the electromagnetic field or EMF. Okay. So that's the energy that is all around us. It is getting broadcasted away from us and going out to the world, okay, and instructing the world what to do with us. So every single action you take, every single decision that you make, every thought that you have, every time you change your mind, every time you change it back, all of this is programming your creator field. Okay. So what's happening as we walk through this whole, you know, start-to-finish process of how we're scientifically manifesting and creating everything is first everything starts with a thought, right? Even if you look at like inventions, you know, you look at your iPhone, like that started out as a thought. That thought became an iPhone through a lot of you know, trial and error and production and blah, blah, blah. But everything starts with a thought. So you have a thought. When you have repeated thoughts, the same thought repeatedly, that becomes a belief. Okay, it becomes a subconscious program that is built into the brain, and the subconscious brain is responsible for creating 95% of our reality. And that's gonna fold into what we're talking about here. Okay, so we have the thought. When the thoughts get repeated, they become beliefs. Those beliefs will then decide our actions. We take actions based on our beliefs, right? And all three of these, the thoughts, the beliefs, and the actions, are coding information into the creator field. So into the energy that is all around us and is getting broadcasted away. It's radiating from us, it's going out into the world. And what it is basically doing is handing out scripts to people, places, and things all around us. Well, then those people, places, and things take the scripts and they play out their roles. Important to note, they cannot stray from the script. They cannot go off script. They're not gonna improv, they're gonna follow it exactly. So then that coded information that we broadcasted via script that they took, now they're acting out and showing us that coded information is getting reflected back to us. So if you listened to last week's episode on the March reflection roundup, you know this. Okay, so that's what we're talking about. The creator field and reflections, they go hand in hand. Now, with handing out these scripts, your creator field and mine too, all of ours, we will pull in the perfect people, places, things, situations, etc., to act out the script, to play the perfect role with the perfect emotional charge at the perfect time and the perfect setting, like it is all happening perfectly. It's happening on purpose for a purpose to teach us things, to teach us those lessons to get us back on path. And that's more of a reflections topic. Okay, today we're really focusing on how the creator field works, but they do go hand in hand. So, why is this important? Well, you say that you want to manifest. You want to manifest more money, you want to manifest your person, your soulmate, you want to manifest a better job. Maybe you want to manifest like random, you want like a free cruise or something. Whatever you want to manifest, it's all gonna come back to your creator field. So you gotta understand the creator field and you gotta take responsibility for all of it. Okay, nothing is by accident, nothing is a coincidence, like every single thing you notice in your life, even if you don't notice it, it also came here, came from your creator field. So even if you're witnessing someone else get engaged, you're an energetic match to see that came from your creator field. Now, obviously, with those two people that would be getting engaged, it's mostly their creator field. But everyone who saw the engagement was an energetic match to see the engagement. Okay, that's getting a little, it's getting a little heady here, but what you need to know is we're an energetic match to everything that is all around us because our creator fields made us a match to it, okay? So even if you see like a car accident happen, you are an energetic match to see that. And there is a reflection for that and all of these things. Or you see anything in between, like you are an energetic match for all of it, even if it's not something that you specifically are going through. So if you're hearing about it or you're witnessing it, it's still coming from your creator field. There's something to it that's still yours because you are a match to it. For example, if you know your partner comes home and they are complaining about someone at work being hypercritical of your partner. Just because you're not going through that experience of someone being hypercritical to you, you're still hearing about it. So there's still something in your creator field that's making you a match to at least hear about it. And you're gonna want to catch it at that level before your creator field pulls in someone else to be hyper-critical of you. Hint, you're already doing it to yourself. Okay. Reflections is a whole freaking world, but there's just an example to help you understand. Like even if you're hearing a story about something or you're seeing it happen, but you're not the one in the situation, still something going on that your creator field made you a match to it. Okay. So understanding the creator field gives you all the power. Instead of saying things like, oh, the universe is testing me, or well, that's not my fault, or like that's not my job, not relevant to me, or anything along those lines. Which brings me to my next point here, where people go wrong. The universe is not testing you, the universe is not punishing you. In fact, source can only amplify the creator fields that we build. So if you build a creator field that's like, I'm just always being tested, guess what you're gonna create? More situations where you feel like you're being tested. Okay. If you build a creator field that's based on you thinking, oh, the universe is targeting me, it's punishing me, you're gonna create more people and places and situations that make you feel like you are being targeted and punished. However, if you build a creator field where you know at a subconscious level in your bones that you are fully supported always, you're gonna create more people and places and situations where you are fully supported always. Interesting, right? It's just it's wild how quickly we can shift these things, but our brains are just wired for the negative. Okay. Another example of where people go wrong, they'll say, Oh, well, that person's just toxic, you know, they just have red flags. Sure, probably true. And also, you were a match to experience the red flags, you were a match to experience the toxic person. If you shifted your creator field and got rid of the things in there that are making you a match to a toxic red flag person, you're not going to pull in toxic red flag people. And when you fully shift it, you're not even gonna hear stories from the group chat about toxic red flag people. You're not even gonna observe it in your reality because you won't be a match for it anymore. Like you won't even watch reality TV where there's toxic red flag people. You know what I mean? Like that's how this works. Now, another one that's kind of a hard pill to swallow, all of this is not easy, but again, once you understand this and you let it marinate, it's going to be so life-changing for you. Okay. Another example where people go wrong. Even if four billion people share your viewpoint, there is another four billion that don't. So that would just be a collective reflection. It would be a collective energetic match. This happens a lot with politics and current events. I will leave it at that. Okay. The last part where people go wrong. This is not an exhaustive list, obviously. I can sit here and talk about this all day. But people will have like a triggering situation happen. Something happens that they don't like. And they'll go, you know, I'm just gonna take the high road. I'm just not gonna say anything, I'm not gonna entertain it, I'm just gonna move on. Okay. Um, in theory, good, because you know, you're not like confronting someone and like popping off and whatever. But inside, internally, you're not shifting your creator field. You're still a match for this, not necessarily this person, you're still a match for someone to come in, take the script, pick up the role, and play it out even louder. So maybe they're confronting you, they're yelling at you, they're disagreeing with you, they're being hypercritical of you, they're telling you why you're wrong. If you just say, you know what, I'm gonna take the high road, I'm just not gonna say anything, and I'm just gonna try to move on with my life, you're gonna get that reflection even louder. Okay, we want to actually change the creator field. And I am gonna share some stories today that will help illustrate this. So I wanna see what you gather from the examples and the stories that I am about to share. And before I do that, there was one other nugget I wanted to put in here. So, you know how we talked about handing out scripts, and other people are playing those roles perfectly for us. Keep in mind, you are also playing out other people's scripts, and you're playing them out perfectly. Okay, that is a we could do a whole other podcast on that for another day, but just something to keep in mind, okay? So, story number one here. You'll notice a theme as we get into this. This is going to be about my first fitness coach, my bodybuilding coach, who ghosted me after I ended coaching. That's that's the the title here. Okay. So let's go back. If you're like any little sound effect there, let's go back, a little rewind. I hired this person, my first coach I ever hired, my only bodybuilding coach, I hired him in late 2016. I had started law school that summer. I had graduated undergrad in May. The very next day, started law school because I'm an overachiever. And around this time, I knew that I wanted to compete eventually in bodybuilding. And working with him, it was like it was truly a dream. Like I really looked up to him. He coached some really big influencers. Like, that's how I found him. I made a lot of friends through him, and he did end up coaching me my entire bodybuilding career, which was from when I hired him, obviously, that was like fall 2016, I want to say. I first competed in October 2017. And the last time I competed was November 2019. So about three years of working together, a little over three years of working together from 2016 to 2019. Honestly, a little bit into 2020. So let's call it like three and a half years-ish. And uh obviously, this is gonna be anonymous. I don't know if anybody listening to this is gonna know who this person was. And if you do, then you might already know this, or you're about to learn some tea. And if you don't, you're about to learn a lot of tea. Um, but funny enough, this is all public knowledge. It's gonna make sense in a second. Uh, this individual had gotten in some trouble with the law. I feel like an old Western cowboy saying that. Um, he got arrested. Okay, so that's that just like led to a whole other slew of drama right around my last show. I cannot remember the exact timeline. Like, I would have to go back and like look at the receipts, which I'm certainly not opening that Pandora's box. I just I'm good. Um, but at this time, so so now we're gonna jump to November 2019. Things were fine until my show in November 2019. So keep in mind at this point, I had moved to California. I moved here in March of 2019. So I'm on Pacific time. This person was in Eastern time, so three hours ahead of me. And we're doing check-ins every week, which is what you do with a fitness coach. And um sometimes he would take a while to respond. And I'm like, dude, you're in Eastern. It wasn't all the time, I will say, like most of the time, up and up until this situation about to talk about, it was fine. Like the whole journey was not awful, and most of it was great until the end.

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So, anyways, when you are competing in bodybuilding, you have what is called peak week. And that is the week leading into your show. And it's a very important, crucial week where like you're checking in every single day. You might even be checking in multiple times a day, like sending over pictures to your coach, and they're telling you like what to eat, how much to eat, how much water to drink, like all the all of these variables that are just really, really important to peak your physique perfectly for show day. Well, it's very important because you send your thing, you send your check-in first thing in the morning. So you you're you can't eat or really drink much water until they tell you what your first meal is gonna be and how much water you're gonna drink for the day. I'm not even kidding you. So I'm on PST. Okay, I send my check-in. Let's say I send my check-in at like 7 a.m. That's 10 a.m. Eastern time. I would not get a response until like at least halfway through the day, PST. So I'm like unwell. Okay. I'm already depleted from prepping. I'm like starving. I'm hangry. I have no energy. I feel like shit. And I just don't even have a plan because he's not responding until like halfway through the day of my peak week. So I'm like, okay, the peak is just not, and my peak, by the way, did not go well. I can remember. I was we were taking daily photos, and I was just like holding on to so much water. It was, I don't know, it was a whole thing. Um so, anyways, I end up competing. And I don't like I kind of felt like I was just winging it that day. Like on show day, your coach should be in constant communication with you. Like, literally, photos like every hour of like, okay, you need to carb up. Like, when are you going on stage? If it's more than like an hour away, then let's eat some more carbs. If it's like within the next 30 minutes, let's just do a pump. Like, it's this whole nuanced thing. Like, it's just very important that there's a lot of attention to detail. And on my show day, I just like didn't even really hear from him much. And like that felt like shit. Even now it feels like shit. I'm like, ew, that was so shitty. So, anyways, I compete. Whatever. It was only like not that long after my show. I want to say, so my show would have been on a Saturday. I want to say I got this call maybe like Monday or Tuesday. I get this call from another one of his clients who also happens to be like a pretty big influencer in the space. She was one of the reasons that I found him. Um, so she'd been working with him for years, and I was like, I don't even remember how we had each other's numbers. I mean, we had met in person before, like a few months prior, because she was out here in San Diego for I think someone else's show or something. Must have exchanged numbers then. But anyways, I was so shocked to see her name pop up on my phone. And she goes, Hey, so his name is in jail. And I just thought you'd want to know that since you're fresh like post-show and you're reversing right now. And I was like, What? That would explain why I'm not hearing from this person. So that happens. Anyway, eventually he responds to my check-in, says nothing about the whole arrest situation, has like no idea that I know everything. And I'm like, this is weird, right? This is weird. So, and by the way, Lexi was working with him too. So this is when we lived together. And she had been working with him for years as well. Like, she, dude, Lexi, this Guy, this coach, is like one of the major, major, major reasons Lexi and I met and like got so close and you know did everything we did while she was here. Um so, anyways, after the whole arrest situation, Lexi left coaching with him for like moral reasons, of course, which I totally supported. I needed, or like I I thought I needed him to like reverse diet me out of the show because that is also just like a very crucial time. Like your body is so sensitive and you want to make sure you properly reverse out of a show. So I hung in there, but eventually, like there came a time. This was probably two-ish months after that. Maybe, maybe not even. I don't know. But eventually, um, it was like time for my next monthly payment or like a contract or whatever. And I sent him an email just saying, like, I think the universe is giving me a sign to just like take a beat, like, pull back. I said nothing about the arrest stuff. But this man to this day never emailed me back, never said a single word to me. And it was just wild. I was like, dude, this is really hurtful because we just spent years of like building a coach client relationship. Like I cried over it so much. Lexi and I both did because like coach breakups are so hard. Like, you're used to hearing their voice in your inbox every week, and then like them supporting you through all these different phases and chapters of life, and just like growth moments and keeping you grounded with like your health and your fitness and especially with bodybuilding. It's just like a whole other level. And so, with like the context of this situation, like it was just so rough. I was like, my world is ending as you always feel in like any breakup. I don't care like romantic breakup, yes, but like friend breakups or like coach breakups, like it was just it was rough, man. It was rough. And I just felt like he did not care about me at all because one, I wasn't paying him anymore. And two, I wasn't one of his like top competitive athletes. So I could just tell that he put less effort into me, especially on peak week and show day, and even on like some of those check-in days. I'm like, dude, what is happening? I don't know, it was more so toward the end, probably just because he was busy getting arrested. I don't know. So that's the first story here of like, okay, what do we think was going on with my creator field? You can answer that for yourself now, and uh, we're gonna move into story number two. Carrying on with a theme of a coach getting weird after I end coaching. This one wasn't necessarily a ghosting situation. Um but you know, we'll we'll get there. So just continue with your snacks. Okay, so this was in 2019. This actually happened after the story I just told you. This happened probably uh just intuitively what I remember at least four to five months after this, four to six months after that first story I just told you. So, anyways, I hired my first personal development coach in 2019. And I was so stoked about it because the way we met was just like this super like orchestrated by the universe situation. It was like divine, like truly. And he was so genuine, and he really did teach me a lot at the beginning of my journey. And I mean, it was the biggest investment I had ever made in myself, which was so scary because again, like first exposure to investment at this level, but also I hadn't even been living in California for like probably not even four months at that time. And I'm like, yeah, I'm just a crazy entrepreneur, like just trying to survive and make it work. But then I was like investing in, and like obviously everything was fine, but sometimes you ever just like look back at your younger self and you're like, damn, I really had no fear. I'm trying to stay that way. I'm not trying to grow up and just be scared of everything. Do you know what I mean? So, anyways, um I just knew that like I would learn and grow so much from him. There was probably a soul contract there now that I'm thinking about it. Like the okay, when I say attraction, I don't mean like romantic. I just mean like soul family kind of attraction of like I need to work with him. Like I just felt very like safe with him and comfortable, and I I really wanted to learn from him. So that's why I say there's probably a soul contract for him to be a teacher for me in more ways than one, which we will get to. So we worked together for like, I don't know, maybe a year-ish. Could have been a little under, could have been a little over. I I really don't remember the details without, you know, going back and looking at the transactions. But things were going really well. I felt really good about the dynamic and what I was learning and just how I was growing. And at this point, I think, I think I was, I can't remember, man. I don't want to misspeak. I don't know if I was working with him when this happened, but it was around the same time frame-ish when I hit my first 10K month in business, which was like summertime-ish of 2019. So, yeah, I'm not sure if I was working with him, but regardless, I felt really good about like just how I was growing with our work together. And so he lived in LA, which is like a couple hours from San Diego. So I even went to LA to support like this event that he hosted, and it was actually for like a mentorship that he was in, and like things things were just good. Like things were genuine, cruising until they were not. Okay. So also Lexi and I were both working with him because obviously we're like a package deal. We just we had we couldn't do anything alone. Oh, I miss you, girl. Um, so he actually was helping both of us individually. Like we never we didn't have meetings together. We just we were both his clients, and then obviously we like told each other like what we were working on. So um he was helping us with like communication stuff and emotional mastery stuff before we launched alignment. And we always said that like alignment wouldn't exist without him, which like maybe I don't really want to give him that kind of credit at this point. Um, he can have a little bit, but like we still would have launched the business. I'm sure we it might have been bumpier with communication or something. I don't know, but that's irrelevant at this point. So, anyways, that's like the stuff we were working on. We're scaling alignment, and then it I from what I remember, it just felt like this came out of nowhere. And she prepared me for this because he brought it up on um, like their one-on-one call, and then we were gonna have a group call to talk about alignment, and she was like, Oh my god, he's gonna say this, like just prepare yourself. And I'm like, No way, dude. So we get on the call and he's like building up this idea. You could tell he's about to like pitch us on something, and proceeds to tell us that we should do business coaching. And neither one of us wanted to do business coaching. Like, no, just not our path. But he knew that we could make more money that way. Like, we it would be higher ticket, right? So we could scale alignment into a bigger business and make more money and charge higher prices. That way, we could keep paying him, you know? And obviously, like it makes sense for a coach to want their clients to be successful, especially in the personal development space, because personal development investment is not cheap. But uh, like for me now, like today, like I want my clients to be successful in their businesses doing the work that they are fulfilled by. I'm not gonna tell them to go do a different business model because they'll make more money. Like, that's so horrific. Oh my god, I could I just can't imagine. So, anyways, he tells us do business coaching. It was a hard pass. And then eventually, like, I don't even really remember the details, but we stopped working with him. Like, nothing really happened. It was just like, oh, like the, you know, our contract like ran out, we completed it, and we're like, oh, we're just like not gonna renew. And like that was a hard decision, I remember, just because it's like you you just get like a coach client relationship, is just every single one is like different and like it's special, and you know, these people are seeing you through like your toughest moments, and it's just hard. It's hard to like stop working together, but you know, we decided like, okay, we're good. So I want to say that this was like summer 2021 when Mac went on his first deployment. So I had like a guesstimate of when he would be back from that, and it wasn't it wasn't like a full deployment, um, it was two months long. Technically, for anybody who is not a military person, a deployment is anything over three months and then in the Navy, and then anything under three months is called an underway. And so, anyways, it was technically an underway, but he went very, very, very, very, very far, like around the world for two months, and it was our longest time apart. So, and the other thing too, with like well, with anything military, especially when they're like moving around, like they can't tell you where they're going, when they're coming back. Like, that's all just like it has to be secret, just for like security reasons. So, anyways, I had like a guesstimate of when he would be back, and it was potentially overlapping with the same time that this personal development coach was gonna have a retreat out here in California. And I remember telling him that I was a tentative yes for the retreat. It just, it was just gonna depend on like when Mac was going to come home. Like, this was our first long stint apart, and I was not gonna go to this retreat sitting in a cabin in the woods where I could not be fully present if my man was coming home. Like, absolutely not. And so the personal development coach was like, yeah, that's totally fine. Let's just have you do a deposit. And he like created this payment plan for me of basically like, if you decide to commit, like, we'll do the payment plan this way, just do the deposit. And so I did it. I did the deposit. By the way, I would not do this now, just knowing how this played out. So time passes, and I just reached the conclusion that like it's not in my highest good to go to this retreat. And like, even financially, it was a stretch for me. So get this. I had this like day from hell. It was like the same day that I drop off Mac for this deployment thing. I fly to Colorado that same day to visit my grandpa. He lives there, and I was like meeting my dad there. Have the worst turbulence of my life. Like, I'm talking the pl like I thought that was the end. The plane is like stuck in the air because we can't land anywhere. Like it's it's what they like switched the runways. It was insane. I just I can't even think about it. It makes me sweaty. So I'm already super dysregulated. You know, like I'm sad. My nervous system is screwed up from this freaking flight that, by the way, was supposed to take 20 minutes and took an hour and a half because we rerouted because of the weather, but then we still were in the weather. It was, I I don't even know why they put put us in the air that day. I could have driven from Denver to Colorado Springs better than that. So, anyways, I'm super dysregulated, and it's that first evening that I'm at my grandpa's house, and I'm messaging my personal development coach because he had invoiced me for the second payment for the retreat. And I'm just thinking, like, dude, today is not the day. Like, I cannot, I cannot handle this. Like, uh, at least I was with my family. And so, long story short, I was like, no, it's like I'm not paying that, like, I'm not going to the retreat. He literally tells me that I still have to pay it because, and I roughly quote, he was counting on that money, and he like already paid like the caterer or some shit. Like, okay, sorry you have poor money management skills. And by the way, this man supposedly had a uh seven-figure business. So I'm like, my little deposit here, if that's throwing you off, what does that tell me? Either you have a horrible money mindset or you have extremely poor money management skills, irrelevant. But it was this whole thing where I just felt like strong-armed and my spineless little dumbass still paid him. So I ended up paying, I don't even know how much. It was probably like$1,500 to$2,000 for a retreat that I never went to. And I was so mad about it, like at him, at myself, blah, blah, blah. Like I'm trying to navigate life at this point. And so eventually, I don't know, at one point we like have a conversation where he told me like I could use the payments toward like a VIP day, like for a VIP day. So I was like, okay, great. I'm definitely interested in at least some sort of solution here. So I'm not totally losing this investment. So eventually we're texting about it, and he was going to come down to San Diego to do the VIP day. Proceeds to tell me that a VIP day is usually like$7,000 or something like that. And so I would just owe the remaining balance. And I was like, are you shitting me right now? So at this point, again, I feel used. I feel like he did not care about me because I was not paying him. And the money-hungry scripts from his creator field were coming through so strong. It was disgusting. Like it gave me the ick for sure. And I remember so vividly, like, still to this day, this is like a it's locked in my brain. I know exactly where I was on my walk. I know exactly what the weather was. I'm on my walk. And I had just stopped responding to his text because I was like, you are so dumb. Like, I'm not doing this. I think I told him I didn't want to do that or something. I was like, I'm good. And he responds and says, Can we hop on a call? Oh my god, shut up. Probably that was probably some lame ass shit that he heard from a mentor of his, like, oh, just try to get her on a call, just try to get people on a call. And you know what? That day, I grew my spine a little thicker. And I said, No, we can't, actually. And I called him by name. You know when people like call you by your name, they're like serious, like Melissa. I'm like, no, name, we can't, actually. And and I just popped off. I would have to go back and look at the text, which I don't want to do, so I'm not going to. But I just told him what's up. I was like, this is ridiculous. This is this is so stupid. You cannot treat people like this. Like I just laid it all out there, you know? So that was the end of that. To this day, never talk to him again. And I'm not gonna go into this story today. It's a story for another day. But just to add a little emphasis to this theme, I even have a third mentor that ghosted me. And that, like I said, is a story for another day. But I'm playing out this pattern, right? Feeling used, I'm feeling disposable. So what do we know about reflections that was coming from my creator field? Mmm. What do we think? I was attracting people to play the role of user and disposer. This was rough, you guys. Like, knowing what I know now, I'm like, damn, I could have caught that so much sooner, but also it all happened perfectly. So, like, it's good. Um, so after that third one, literally three up, three down, like three mentors in a row. I'm not even kidding you. I'm like, at this point on paper, you would think I would like stop, like should have stopped investing in myself. But I was like, no, no, no. It's it's not, it's not, that's not the problem. I just knew there was something with my creator field before I knew what a creator field was. So ultimately, I solve it. I start treating myself better. I stop using myself. I stop treating myself as disposable. I start rewriting the scripts in my creator field because wow, I was so tired of that. And now we're in the promised land. Okay, we're in the after chapters. We're gonna stay over here. I only have mentors that are quite literally the best of the best in multiple different areas, like in the entire world. And I will stand by that forever. Like I it intuitively checks out, and I'm just like so grateful for such incredible mentors now. And a lot of you know, like Allie is a big mentor of mine. So the way that I found Allie was actually through Lexi. This was, I would guess, late 2022 or early-ish 2023. Lexi left in summer of 2023, but she told me, she's like, Oh, have you seen this girl's videos on TikTok? Um, like her, she probably told me, like, oh, her name's Allie, like she's a blonde girl, whatever. And I was like, No, I don't think so. She's like, Oh, I'll send you one. I think you would really like her stuff. Because I was always more of like the spiritual one between the two of us. It's not that Lexi wasn't spiritual, but she just knew that I would really like Allie's stuff. So I'm like, okay, cool. So that's when I started following Allie. Well, Lexi leaves that summer. And so then later, this was like the tail end of 2023, like the last six months of 2023, truly horrific. Like, I cannot even put into words how awful. Like, so much happened that I'll just not probably never even be able to talk about on the internet because it doesn't belong there. But anyways, I'm having a rough time and I'm like, let me hit up this Allie girl. Like, I think Allie can help me. So I end up booking a one-on-one session with her. I sign up for her one of her courses, then I get into intuition training. Then we're then I'm learning money manifesting. Then I, you know, you guys know a couple months ago I helped facilitate her glow retreat, but I also participated. Like I've done almost all of her programs. I just love her to death and like we're friends even outside of the student teacher dynamic. Like I went to her wedding. Like, she's coming to my wedding. Like, it's just so, so, so, so, so, so special to me. And so I just wonder, you know, like I probably wouldn't have found her if all this hadn't happened the way that it had. Although, except we probably still would have found each other because like soul family, everything is a setup, blah, blah, blah. But I'm just really grateful. So I have my energetics, like spiritual mentors that I learn from. I have strictly 3D like business mentors that I learn from. And I'm not investing in everyone all at once. Like, I'll kind of pop around, I'll pop in, I'll pop out, I'll jump around, I'll learn this, I'll learn that. And it's all intuitively tested. Like I always test what is gonna be best for me in like my next chapter of like learning and growing, and especially with like my soul growth, but also my business growth. And you know, I'm just I'm just popping around. And every single one of these mentors that I have now, they all treat me with like the highest level of love. Like I trust them on extremely deep levels. I'm not worried about them mistreating me or blocking me or ghosting me, like that would just, it's just not even in the realm of possibility because my creator field does not make me a match to that, you know? And that's all because I shifted my creator field to only match with the highest integrity mentors who genuinely care about me and my progress and only empowering me. Like they don't make me reliant on them, they don't get mad when I stop paying them. And that is just a huge testament to uh, you know, a high integrity mentor and coach and just like person in your life. And, you know, they they teach me so much, not just about being a human or like growing a business, but also like me being me and offering my services and like being a mentor to other people. Like I do not want people to feel reliant on me. I don't want people to feel like I'm getting mad at them if they're not paying me. Like, that's so stupid. That's so just not the vibe, you know. And I've been through it enough times, I'm like, okay, I know exactly how I don't want to make people feel. And so now I'm just in this beautiful world and life of incredible mentors, and I'm I'm just very, very grateful. So that is my final story for you today. I've gotten really good feedback on the story times, by the way. I'm glad you guys are just like here for all the tea. The podcast, you guys are the only ones hearing these. Like, I'm not telling these stories anywhere else. I can't yap anywhere else like this, and I don't want to, anyways. I want to just share them with you. So, um, takeaways for today. If you get nothing else from this, please take this away. One, you are creating all the time, which means two, you are more in control of your reality than you think. Okay, that's it. Like, that's really what this comes down to. And that's all we all want, right? If we have a problem, we want to be able to find the solution ourselves. We don't have to rely on anyone or anything outside ourselves. If we have a problem, something we don't like, we wanna be able to change it. We wanna create the life that we love and not just tolerate the one that we don't, right? So you're creating all the time. Even the stuff that you don't like. If you don't like your relationship situation, creator field problem. You don't like your money situation, creator field problem. You don't like your health situation, creator field problem. You don't like your self-worth, your confidence situation, creator field problem every single time. It applies to everything. Okay? All eight areas of life. And yes, there are eight. Now, while that can be a really hard pill to swallow, of like, well, now I'm pissed at myself because I manifested all this stuff that I don't want. No, no, no. This is giving you all the power back. Okay, because when you understand the creator field, then you can change it. And when you can change a creator field, you can change your reality. You can always change something, even when it feels like you can't. Okay. Every problem has a solution. A problem cannot exist without a solution. And all creator field problems have what do we think? Fill in the blank. Creator field solutions. Yes, yes, yes, yes. And there are absolutely ways and methods and formulas to get your creator field programmed in a way where it's doing the heavy lifting for you. Okay? It's making the money for you, it's attracting friendships and partnerships for you. It is making you more quote unquote magnetic, which that's, you know, magnetic's a fun word, but that's not what's happening. Your creator field is just organizing matter. So don't tell yourself, like, oh, I'm so magnetic, or like, oh, I'm just blocking things. I'm just pushing them away. It's just your creator field is just organizing matter. Okay. That's more empowering than being like, oh, I'm blocking myself and pushing things away. No, no, no. We're only about empowerment here. Your creator field is just organizing matter in a way that you don't want it to. So let's get it wired to organize matter in a way that you actually want it to. Okay. And again, that applies to everything. All the things that you want. Just need the creator field for it. Okay. So that is what I have for you today. Thank you so much for tuning in. If you could leave a rating and review, that would be so helpful. 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