EP 113: MAY REFLECTION ROUNDUP - BACHELORETTE AFTERMATH, MY FIRST EXPERIENCE W BEE VENOM, & A WEIRDO IN THE STREETS

We're back with another monthly episode of our reflection roundup series, where I share the crazy stories I only tell on the podcast.. and the lessons they were meant to teach me (so you don't have to learn them the hard way).

This month's roundup includes:

• a bee sting from hell lol
• going down bad with body aches in a matter of 30 mins
• panicking myself into days of horrible digestion post-bachelorette
• the emotional root cause of teeth problems + cavities
• a weirdo asking if I'm a man lolll

Every reflection stems from an emotional imbalance, and the more you learn about this system, the quicker you can shift your emotional imbalances and actually get what you want in life - the money, the partner, the career, the confidence. Whatever you're built for in this life, reflections are just helping you get there quicker.

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Hello everybody. Welcome back to the Alignment Show. We are returning today with another episode in our series of monthly reflection roundups. And if this is the first time that you are hearing a reflection roundup episode, you'll be able to scroll back and see that we've been doing these for a few months now. And these are just episodes with me sharing stories, fun, crazy stories that I don't tell anywhere else, about the reflections that I experience. And uh, you know, hopefully they give you some laughs. But also, really, my goal with these is to help you learn the lessons without having to actually go through these experiences because I went through them for us, and you know, we can all just laugh at my expense. So today we're gonna be doing our May reflections roundup. And if you are not sure what a reflection is, episode 106 will give you the full deep dive on that as much as we can in a podcast episode. I could make a whole course about reflections, probably will someday. Um, but the cliff notes here, so you don't have to go listen to that now, but just to give you a little, little cliff notes, little gist here, is reflections are basically just any triggering situation, any obstacle, challenge. It can happen through people, places, things. They can happen through your body, like anything that is a problem to you is gonna be a reflection. And technically everything is a reflection, but we're not getting into technicalities today. Okay, the reflections we're talking about in these reflection roundup episodes are the funny ones that are not funny in the moment because they piss you off. Okay, now these reflections, they're just showing us where we are out of soul balance, where we are emotionally imbalanced, where we're out of alignment, and they're actually helping us get to our goals faster when we know how to decode and translate the reflections, get the lesson, shift the emotional imbalance, and move forward. So just know that there's nothing wrong with you if you're having reflections, and we're gonna get into where people go wrong here in a second. But um, the whole point of reflections is to reach our goals faster because something is happening that's getting our attention. Then we're figuring out okay, here's where I'm emotionally imbalanced, here's how to shift it, then we shift it, then we're back on our soul path, soul pull, which helps us reach our goals faster in life when you want to create the money, the man, the career, the confidence, the self-image, like whatever it is that you are built to create in this life. Okay, great. Now, let's talk about where people go wrong. So thinking that reflections are bad or they're annoying or you messed up. Basically, if you are judging yourself for having reflections, you are then effectively creating more reflections. So then guess what happens? Your reflections have you got it, reflections. Yep, it really, it really be like that sometimes. So don't do that. Don't be judging yourself if you are experiencing these situations, these triggers. Just means you're growing. Okay. We also don't want to completely miss the lesson of a reflection because if we miss it, don't worry, it will pop back up. It might jump around to different areas of life, but it's gonna get your attention again and again and again, louder and more uncomfortable until you learn the lesson and you shift the emotional imbalance. Okay, cool. So don't be thinking you shouldn't have reflections, because if you're not having reflections, that's when I'd be worried. That's when I would be worried because then we're not growing. And also there's this thing where the second that you think, oh my gosh, you know, life, I'm I'm kind of cruising right now. I've been feeling pretty good. That's your intuitive hit that something is on the way. Okay, so welcome to our May Reflections Roundup episode. Now, typically I give you guys about four reflections in these episodes. I have at least four for you today. We'll see how much I yap, but you might get a bonus fifth one. Okay, so I am going to start off with one of the loudest reflections that I have ever experienced. And this actually happened at the end of April, but I had already recorded the podcast episode for the April Reflections Roundup. So it's going into this episode. So here's what happened. I'm having a good day, okay? As we always are, until something comes along and seemingly screws it up. But this day, I asked Mac, or we both decided, like, hey, let's go for a walk. So we go over to Coronado. If you know, you know. This is my favorite place ever. I'm there like almost every day, except this month has been busy, so I haven't been there as much as I want. Alas, we go over to my favorite walking spot. We're walking on the sidewalk next to the beach. I have walked this walk hundreds of times, okay? And so I obviously just feel safe. I feel like it's predictable. Well, we're walking along, and I have my hair down this day, and I see a bee get close to me, and I'm I'm not freaking out. I'm like, oh get out of here, buddy. Like I just kind of like wave it away and it flies away for a second and then comes back to me, back toward me, and I'm thinking, oh, please no, please, please, please, please, no. And it gets stuck in my hair. Mind you, there's like people everywhere, you know. I'm trying to hold it together. I'm trying to not get stung. My first thought is like, don't sting me, don't sting me, don't sting me. Then it gets stuck in my hair, and I'm I okay, partially don't want to get stung because it hurts, duh. But also I don't want to get stung because I'm like, the bee will die if it stings me. Like, don't sacrifice yourself for me, man. Like, uh, so it gets it gets stuck in my hair, and so I lean my head to the side, so all my hair is like draping down like a curtain, right? And I'm I'm flicking my hand through my hair to try try and help him out. You know, I'm like, get out of my hair. I know you're stuck in there, I'm gonna help you out. And it was in that moment that I suddenly feel the sting, and it was the stingiest of stings because come to find out, this was a different bee than I've ever been stung by before. I've only ever been stung once by a honey bee, and I mean it hurt for like five, ten minutes, but then I was fine, like nothing else happened. So I'm thinking that's what's gonna happen with this one. But you know, this bee looked a little different. In fact, I left this part out, but I just thought it was a fly because it was this it was like the size of a honey bee, but it was black. Again, I thought it was a fly. And then when it stung me, I was like, oh no, oh no, no, this is not good. So I I'm I'm not yelling, but I feel like I'm yelling at Mac. I'm like, it stung me! It stung me! And like people are all around, uh, they probably feel awkward because I'm like, don't look at me, I don't need your help, just uh carry on. But it stung me like right where your thumb meets your hand, between your thumb and your index finger, so like where your hand kind of folds there, right there on my left hand. And I look at the stinger and it is just it's like zapping me. It feels like it's going sting, sting, sting, sting, like over and over and over again. And I, in hindsight, realized the B's gone. B B gone, dead. I don't know. We looked it up. I don't think they actually die, but his stinger was in me, so I don't R I P B probably, I don't know. But um Mac is like, okay, what do you want me to do? Like, do you want me to help you and try and get it out? I have like a credit card, and I'm like, yeah, yeah, yeah, because I can't, like, with my nails, get I just it was already so painful. So I'm like, please help. So he gets his like ID out and he's like scraping my hand, and I was like, nope. And I just like grabbed it from him and just like snatched it out of his hand, and I started scraping out the stinger. So we get the stinger out, throw it on the ground or whatever, and I'm just looking at my hand and I'm like, damn, that was crazy. And then it's it's quite painful. Like I'm talking like on a scale of one to ten, ten being the most painful. It was like an eight or a nine. And I was like, so we we're we're continuing to walk at this point, but I was like, I need to sit down. Like, I I just need to sit down and like handle this. And he's like, Are you allergic? And I was like, No. Um, but I really this really hurts, and I just need to sit down. So we sit down, we're working through it. I would say after five, ten minutes, it the pain started getting better. Uh, it was like subsiding. I was like, wow, that was crazy. So after like 10 minutes, I was like, okay, well, let's walk back now. And so I'm like on the lookout for all these bees. Don't worry, that was the only sting that I got. But I was like, man, that was insane. Well, guess what? That wasn't even the worst part of it. Because for the next literally seven days, I experienced insane swelling throughout my pretty much my entire hand. So it started off swelling where I got stung, right? So between my thumb and like my index finger and the bones that like go down into your palm from that, that was so swollen you couldn't like distinguish the two, okay? Then the next day the swelling had expanded over to my middle uh finger, like the tendons and stuff right there. So half my hand was just this big blob. The next day it extended to my ring finger. The next day it extended to my pinky. So at this point, my entire palm, like top side, really just the top side, a little bit between my thumb and my index finger, all the way down into my palm, was swollen. You could not see my tendons. It looked like I was just holding so much water, just inflamed, like just gross. Um, my fingers were fine. My fingers didn't swell up, but it was like my whole palm, like from the top side, swollen, okay. Pain, pain everywhere, like okay, not everywhere, not all the way over to the side, but from the sting site, and just throughout that whole like triangle there between like your wrist where your thumb starts, where your index finger starts. Just huge and painful. Okay, so every day it's it's not getting better. And I'm like, shoot, this is not good. I knew I didn't need to like I'm not going to the doctor. Do you know what I mean? Like, I knew I didn't need to go to the doctor, but I was like, hey, if this isn't getting any better soon, like if it doesn't turn the corner soon, and I'm like intuitively testing, and I'm getting like, yeah, it's still getting worse. It's actually not getting better yet. I'm like, dang it, dang it, dang it, dang it. Um, which don't worry, we'll get into like the energetic side of this in a second, but it just it was very horrible for a extent an extended period of time, like longer than I expected, and it was just so shocking. Guess what else? Itchy. So itchy, dude. I woke up in the middle of the night one night scratching it, and the itchiness came all the way up my wrist, like almost halfway up my forearm. So, in hindsight, this literal B venom was just expanding through my whole area here. And I was just like, dude. So I woke up in the middle of the night one night scratching it, and I tried so hard to stop. And I stopped once, I started scratching it again. I stopped twice, I started scratching it again. I was like, I quite literally do not have the willpower to stop scratching this. Like it was just so itchy. I feel like I've never felt anything so itchy in my life. Like, probably chicken pox, but I don't remember that, you know. I was so little. So I had to get up in the middle of the night and get an ice cube because that was the only thing. It was like I just need to numb it. Like I was putting ice on it, so I was trying to help with the swelling. I was trying to numb it for the pain, I was trying to numb it for the itching. So in the middle of the night, one night, I got up, got an ice pack, went back to bed, laid with it on my hand until I could get over it, and then I put it back in the freezer. I probably laid there for like 45 minutes to an hour, and then every day I was just putting ice on it. And if I just like by chance, like accidentally scratched it, even in my palm, like it was itchy, like in my palm, all the way up toward my other fingers. It was itchy on the top, it was itchy on the side, it was itchy on my arm. Like, if I just happened to freaking touch it or scratch it, oh my god. I I'm telling you, I quite literally did not have the willpower to not scratch it. I I need you to understand how uncomfortable this was. And so I was like, damn, talk about a reflection. So, do you want to know what this reflection was stemming from? Well, here's the thing. Anytime that a bug or an animal, like if you see them, like if you sorry, but if you see them die, um or you see them, yeah, you find them, they have sacrificed themselves to teach us a lesson. Okay, animals and bugs, like insects, all of it, they are so so so so special. And even if you're like driving around and you keep seeing like roadkill, it's a reflection for you. Okay. And so with this bee, I'm assuming dying, like sacrificing itself to teach me this lesson. First of all, I'm sad for the bee. I'm like, man, I I'm not I can't just shift this for myself. I gotta shift it for all the future bees. So they stop sacrificing themselves for me. So I was feeling like I was killing pieces of my dreams, pieces of myself that are needed to hit my financial goals. Okay, specifically my ability to get this, hold on to money I receive. Okay. Well, that makes sense with the hand, right, on the left side, because our left side is our feminine side, so it has to do with receiving. Right side is masculine, so it has to do with giving. And this reflection, reflections are hilarious. Like once you figure them out, and they they're not that complicated. You just need to have the right formula to figure them out and intuition to cross-check. Um, they're hilarious. I'm like, oh my god. But like how that just makes too much sense because at this time, those were the thoughts that I was having. I was having these misaligned thoughts about receiving money and how can I hold on to it, and like just kind of cr mildly crashing out about finances, even though everything on paper is great. So what triggered this, because we always want to find the trigger thought, is I had a settling moment and I had it, um, I think I had it the night before in the shower, and I had this thought of it's okay if I don't increase my income this month. And I settled. Okay, I slept on myself. And anytime that we settle, ooh, guess what happens? We are already starting a reflection. We are already plugging that into the creator field to go out into the world and create a reflection that's gonna teach us the lesson. So, that poor little bee, he had no other choice than to follow my instructions from my creator field to come sting me exactly where I needed to be stung to learn this lesson. So, there were some other thoughts that triggered it too, but I can't share all my tea, okay? Just know it was misaligned financial thoughts. So, um, yeah, that one took me a bit to recover from. Like at least a solid week. I couldn't, I would not have been able, I don't even remember what happened. I didn't work out for some reason. Um oh, I know, because the next reflection we're talking about kept me from working out. But I wouldn't have been able to hold a dumbbell anyways. Like, it was painful, dude. Like it would just really hindered my ability to like, I couldn't hold the freaking skillet when I was like trying to clean it in the sink and just all sorts of things. So that was a loud one for me. And now I know if I see a carpenter bee is what they're called. If you see a little black bee, well, you should have worked on your creator field already, but maybe you can use last week's episode and toss a prayer out to source for 31% less of an effect from the bee sting. If you know, you know. And if you have no idea what I'm talking about, you gotta go back to last week's episode 112 on how does prayer work. Okay, cool. So that's the first reflection. And I was actually really excited to tell you guys about that one because here's the thing like, not fun while I'm going through it. Definitely not. But when I really like get a crazy one like that, I feel like I'm taking one for the team. And I'm like, oh, I can't wait to tell you guys about this. Like, I don't tell these stories anywhere else. I mean, I told Instagram, like, cool, I got sung by a bee. Here's like my fat hand. It was so not the vibe. Um, but I don't I only tell the reflection stories here. So you guys are getting the tea, and you also get to skip these lessons and just get the ingredients from me. Okay, don't have misaligned financial thoughts. There's more to it than that, but again, I just I just like to tell the stories here and give you guys an idea of how you can apply this into your own life. So, moving into the next reflection, which oh, this happened the next day. It was a totally different reflection, but that's why I said earlier this next one that happened um prevented me from working out. I was like, whoa, this is crazy. Um so this is the next day. I am having a decent day. Okay, wake up, I wake up with the stupid beasting situation going on, but I also just felt like run down. It wasn't that I didn't get enough sleep, but I was just so tired. I felt very run down in my body. And I was like, that's interesting. Like I just felt weird when I woke up, but I was like, you know what? Probably just tired, just frustrated with this beasting, whatever, you know, as we do. We're like, I just, you know, I'm in my luteal or whatever, blah, blah, blah. We don't really think to look into the reflection until it goes downhill, which that's what happened here. So I'm having a normal day, and I believe this was the timing of it. The calls that I'm gonna talk about, they were an hour apart. So I think the first one I had a client call from 10 to 10:30. And I get on there, like, I'm tired, but like I'm good. Like, we have our call, all is well, blah, blah, blah. 10:30 to 11. I am getting back to some other client messages, check-ins, and stuff. About 10:40, I'm like, whoa, I am not feeling good. Like, I was just feeling it. Wasn't even like I I was just feeling run down in my body, is the best way I can explain it. Like, just so tired, like worn out. And it's like 10.4 or yeah, 10.40 in the morning. Like, that's so weird. Like, let me just let me get through these check-ins, like, and then I'll go rest. I have this call at 11, and then we'll figure it out from there. So I'm I'm trying to figure out before this call, like, am I good? Like, because I started to have that panicky feeling in your body, which that's that's been a theme. Don't worry, that's gonna be the next reflection we talk about. Don't you love this symphony that we have going on over here of reflections? So, anyways, I'm getting this panicky feeling in my body because you guys have probably heard me say this before. I don't remember, but my biggest fear, like I'm not even kidding you, my biggest fear is throwing up. It just freaks me out. And I wasn't even nauseous. But the thing is, if I feel even the tiniest bit off, immediately I will manifest, like, oh my god, what if I'm gonna throw up? Like, what I can't be nauseous, I can't do it. And it just, it's really a slippery slope for me. Again, stay tuned. Um, but I start having this panicky feeling in my body. My temperature is dysregulated. I'm feeling, I just get all these physical symptoms where I'm like, dude, uh, this is not okay. I don't know if I should do this call. And I was like, no, no, no, like I'm good, I'm good, I'm good. So I get on the call with another client at 11. And I'm like, hey, how are you? She's like, good, how are you? And I'm like, I'm kind of going downhill fast right now because what was starting to happen was like these body aches. And you guys, you know you've experienced that before in your life in your life. Like, body aches are just so like, mm mm mm mm, this is not good. Something is very wrong. Very, very wrong. They were in my legs, they were in my arms, they were even in my core, they were just everywhere. And so I told her, I'm like, dude, I'm just going downhill fast right now. And she's like, oh my gosh, like we can reschedule if you want. She's so sweet. She's seriously the best. And And I was like, no, I think I'm good. I was like, let's just, let's just, you know, do our percentage check-ins here, because I always pull percentages for my mentorship clients for self-worth and self-love. I'm like, let's get through percentages. But like we're kind of yapping. And I'm like, here, let me share my screen real quick. I was like, I think I'll be okay. But I'll let you know. I literally share screen. I'm trying to talk, but like my brain is not working. Like, I need to leave immediately. I'm like, I can't do this right now. So I share my screen and I go, you know what? I actually think we have to reschedule. She's like, oh my gosh, yes, it's totally fine. I was like, I'm so sorry. And she was like, no, no, you're not allowed to say that to me. She's so sweet. So, anyways, we end up rescheduling. I go lay on the couch. So obviously, at this point, it's, you know, five minutes later. It's like 11:05. And I'm like, okay. My bachelorette was coming up like a week and a half after this. And I was like, I cannot be doing this right now. We are not getting sick. We are figuring this out. But right now I just need to chill because I had I needed to regulate. And that's a really big theme on if you are trying to figure something out, you've got to be regulated first, or else your emotions are gonna manipulate it. And it's not gonna end well or be helpful. So I just laid on the couch. I did not look at my phone for a while, no stimulation. I just lay there, just breathing, and I was like, you are okay, you're okay, like we're gonna figure this out. So once I was regulated, I then proceeded to look in at the reflection and figure out what the actual heck was going on. Well, everything, you know, there were a few different factors here, but I was feeling like I had just been so go go go and like I was demanding a lot of myself in business, but also in like my physical area of life, because I got this idea. I got this idea like a month out from my batch of hey, let me like, let me lean out a little bit, you know? Let me put myself in a little bit of a deficit, just tighten up a little bit. Like, I already love my physique. I uh feel like I look the best I ever have. I know that I'm lean, I maintain that because I train hard and I eat well and like there's nothing that needed to be changed about my body, but but I just got this idea that I needed to change my body because I wanted to look my like best for the Bachelorette. And so, well, what happened was I did all this without tracking food because I tracked food for five years, like I'm good, you know. Well, I definitely put myself in way too steep of a deficit. I was definitely restricting myself, and it was making me sad. Like there was one night Mac had like made this cake and it was, oh my god, it was so good. But I told myself, I was like, okay, you had cake for a couple of nights, like you don't need it anymore. And there was one night, this makes me so sad for myself. There was one night where he had a slice of cake and he's like, Do you want some? And I was like, no. And I just watched him eat it and I was like, Oh my god, I really want that cake, just in my head, but I didn't let myself have it. And like that just first of all pisses me off because I have come so far with my relationship with food from like bodybuilding and stuff. I'm like, I can't believe I would do that to myself, but I did, and that's the thing is sometimes you know better, but you still do this stuff to get the lessons, like your human brain will still make misaligned decisions so that your higher self can get these lessons to you. Okay. So I was having those imbalanced thoughts around my physical body, restricting myself, like unnecessarily, okay? I could have probably pulled back like 300 calories a day and like tightened up because you know, we've got a great metabolism, our body's really responsive, we work really hard, I've earned the right to have shit be easy like that. You know what I mean? Like I've been training for 10 years, okay? So, anyways, I just I went I went too hard for sure. So the trigger was it had been ongoing, but it was that night of denying myself the cake. And then the day before this, the beasting day, I wasn't eating enough protein or calories. I and that had been going on for probably like a week or whatever, and it just tipped the scales for this to happen. Because with these, with feeling run down, feeling sick, and like the body aches specifically, well, think about this, I was beating myself up, right? Just like all over. And so that's what manifested into body aches. And let me tell you how quick I shifted this. So that was at 11 a.m. I felt pretty horrible until like 2 p.m. But I as soon as I figured this out, which was probably, I don't know, 11:30, 11:45-ish, I'm remembering slash intuiting. Um I started shifting it and I was like, you know what? You don't have to do anything else today. You're gonna chill, you're gonna prioritize yourself, you're gonna shift this. And by literally 5 p.m., I was like 100% normal again. I was like, ooh, ready for dinner, have an appetite, let's watch TV, let's chill. It was like the quickest I've ever shifted anything. So, you know, we we got a win out of it, and I stopped denying myself freaking calories. And guess what? I still look great on the bachelorette. So, you know, that was a quick course correction with not beating myself up about my physical body. Now, you guys have heard me say probably that when you have a reflection, it's gonna show up in one area and it's stemming from another. So, with this specifically, obviously I wasn't physically hitting myself. It was showing up physically, but it was stemming from mental area. So the thoughts I was having, yes, about my body, but it was stemming from thoughts. So I could hear a couple questions there. I just wanted to clarify that. But again, I shifted that one the quickest I've shifted like pretty much anything. So those two back to back, that was April 28th and April 29th, were very loud. And I was like, okay, we are gonna have a fabulous May. I've got my Bachelorette coming up, and it's it's we can't be doing all of this, like having these imbalances. So that was that. Then I go on my bachelorette, everything is perfect, beautiful, amazing, no notes. Like I used intuition to plan the entire thing, where to go, what to do, Airbnb, outfits, the whole thing, like every detail. And intuition really is that girl because she just over-delivered everything. If you don't know, I went to St. Thomas for my bachelorette. I've never been down there, I've never been to the Caribbean, but I'm an island girl. And I was like, dude, I'm trying to play mermaids, I'm trying to have a boat day, I'm trying to have a spa day. I want to go out, I want to dance, like, but I want it all to be chill. Like, I'm not trying to like go to Miami and have a rager, you know what I mean? Like, I'm just that's not my bachelorette journey, you know? And so the bachelorette was perfect. I could not ask for anything more. Amazing food, amazing people, amazing music, even the music, like they only play bangers on that island. I swear to you, the music was so good. We had a great boat driver, great snorkeling. I got really close to a sea turtle. I gotta play mermaids, I got sick photos. We went out to this place called Duffy's Love Shack and danced. It's literally in a parking lot. Like, if you've been to St. Thomas, this is so niche, you'll know. Um, but Duffy's Love Shack was the shit, dude. It was so fun. I just I cannot even begin to tell you. Like, it everything was perfect. Everything was perfect. I could not have asked for anything more, and I was just so happy about it. Like, I feel like a changed woman after going to St. Thomas. I I there's just no words. Those are the words I've got for you. Okay. So that's all fine, dandy, perfect, great. Then it's Sunday, and it's time to come home from the Bachelorette. Well, this day turned into a big old problem for me. Obviously, I'm fine. Um, but I wake up that morning and I'm like, you know, we have breakfast, we take coffee down to the beach before we have to go to the airport, and I'm like, oh, perfect. I gotta go to the bathroom. Like, you know, girlies, we love like consistent digestion. We love a predictable digestion schedule, especially before you get on an airplane. So, you know, we take care of that, and I'm like, awesome. Okay, great. Then I'm like packing up, and I'm like, oh, I think I need to go to the bathroom again, which made sense because we had a really big dinner the night before. I was like, I'm just full. Like, even when I went to bed, I was like, dude. So whatever, we take care of that. And then um, we pack up the car. I get in the car, we're about to leave the Airbnb, and I'm and the airport is a 30-minute drive. Dude, talking about this just makes me sweaty. I hate thinking back on this. So I'm thinking, you know what? Let me just run inside again real quick, just one more time. Go to the bathroom. Okay. Then I'm like sitting, I go to the bathroom, and then I'm sitting in the chair, like in the room that I stayed in, and I'm intuitively testing, hey, am I good? Like, are we done with this? And everything is pointing to like, you're good, you know, we're done with this. I'm like, okay, great. And it's not food related, by the way. I didn't eat anything bad. I actually all the food there was so good. Um, so I'm like, okay, cool. So we're driving to the airport, and I'm like, I'm good, I'm good, I'm good. We get to the airport, uh, or well, we return the car and then shuttle over to the airport, whatever. And then we get there and we're standing outside, and there's these long lines to like check in, and it's hot outside, and I'm just, I can just feel it right now. Oh my god, I need a little shield up real quick. Um, I just start to have these like spiraling thoughts of like, oh my gosh, what if I have to go to the bathroom? I don't think there's a bathroom out here. I can't, I don't see a bathroom, and I can't lose my spot in line, I can't just leave my stuff here, and there's nowhere to go, and like what's gonna happen? Like, I'm I'm not gonna be okay. So I'm having these spiraling thoughts. Then dark forces cord in to me because I'm having spiraling thoughts and they're cranking it up, and I'm like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I have the tools to get control of this. This is not happening. So I'm standing in line to check in for my flight, and I'm clearing dark forces. I get through that, I shield up, I'm good again. I'm like, oh, that was crazy. Let's not do that again, okay? So I am good, but there's just a lot going on around me, and I'm having these thoughts where I'm really fighting against them. So it's just kind of up, down, and all around. Well, first you do the line to check in. Then you do the like customs line to like declare anything. Then you gotta put your all your bags through the stuff. Then you get to TSA. Then you finally get into the airport. Again, no AC through this whole process. I'm I've been having some digestive issues all morning. So I'm a little sweaty, a little nervous. I'm like, please, body, please don't do me dirty here. Like, I'm good, I'm good, I'm good, I'm good. I'm trying to just hold it together and even just like pretend that I have it all together. If I can just like psyop myself, like brainwash myself to having it all together. So finally I get in the airport and I'm like, okay, gonna go to the bathroom because I have to go to the bathroom. Do that. So then I go sit down with my friend, and I'm not t telling her anything. I'm like, yeah, like I'm so good. Like we're gonna sit here. We've got like two, three hours until the frickin' until we're boarding. And um, so then she like gets up to go get something, and I'm like, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. Like I'm watching our stuff. I'm like, I need to go to the bathroom, but I can't just leave our stuff right now. Like, so then I go to the bathroom again. Like, it's just repeatedly, you know the vibes. And like, sorry, this is I'm not gonna give you TMI, but like everything was fine. I wasn't like horribly having an awful time. I was just like, this is interesting and not supposed to be happening. So if you're picking up what I'm putting down, you're intuitive, you get it. I was like, I know I'm okay, but I'm just worried about this because I just want to feel normal. I hate feeling like that. I'm so nervous, I'm sweaty, I'm panicky, I feel super depleted because obviously I'm not holding on to any nutrients. Like, I know I should probably eat, but I'm scared to eat. Like, you know the vibes, right? So then I sit down again with her. And at this point, I think I had gotten like I don't even know what I a water or something. I think I got it. Oh, at that point I got a Gatorade because I was like, well, you know, if anything, I'll get some electrolytes out of this and get some carbs in me and just like fix my blood sugar right now because I knew it was just like dysregulated. Um, so anyways, skip forward. I I'm telling my body, like anytime my body's like, oh, we have to go to the bathroom, I'm like, no, we're done with that. Okay, we're done. We're switching modes now. We're not doing that anymore. We're not going to the bathroom anymore. You can't. So stop it. Like, I'm really trying to brainwash my body. And so then at another point, I was like, okay, I'm about to get on this like five-hour flight. I know my appetite's gonna come back later, and I don't have like a ton of snacks, which that's a whole other thing with me. I don't like being stranded without snacks because I've had my blood sugar crash before, which is another reflection, and it's it's just a horrible experience because then you really do get nauseous and it's it's awful. So I do my best to stay strapped with the snacks. So I was like, okay, I should probably buy like something, so I just like have it on the plane. I don't have to eat it now. It's okay. So, you know, I proceed to spend whatever it like 30 bucks on waters uh and food for the plane, which I didn't I don't even remember what I got. I don't think I ate it. Oh no, I got a little Greek yogurt or a yogurt thing. I ate like half of it probably on the plane once I was hungry again. And then after that it had been too long, and I was like, I'm scared to eat this. I don't want to, I don't want to make a bigger problem here. So that happens. My appetites I get I get on the Okay, let me back it up for you. Sorry, so much was happening during this story. So at this point, I'm like, I gotta do something to regulate myself. And if you guys remember from a previous podcast episode, basically, whenever we have a thought, the brain will melt down old resources and create new resources in favor of the thought. And within one hour, your brain doubles its resources to support the thought. And so knowing this, I was like, bet, I'm gonna experiment with this, I'm gonna put it to the test. And I just channeled like what I needed to think for this, for me to resolve this in my body to like calm my body down until I could get home that night, at least. Hopefully, like ever. Um, and so with every inhale, I was thinking body, and every exhale, I was thinking calm. So just body, calm, body, calm. And I'm not kidding you. I had that repeated thought for like an hour and a half, sitting there waiting to start boarding the plane. And let me tell you something, it worked. It worked because obviously it would work. Duh, we have the neuroscience to back it up. And I also knew intuitively, like, once I get on the plane and I'm like in my seat, I'll be fine. It's just like inside this airport where it's like hot and like I've just I've already had this whole experience in here, so it's all I know in here, and I just need to get out of there. And I needed to look outside. I also was looking at pictures on my phone from our boat day because looking at nature like really, really calms me down, as I'm sure it does everyone. So there's a little hack for you too. So I'm just sitting there thinking, body calm. And I'm just watching the videos I took from the boat day. Like, I'm going through. I got my Gatorade in one hand. I'm like, dude, people probably think I'm like hungover. No, no, I'm just stressing myself out into these digestive issues. So, anyways, I get on the plane, get in my seat, we're all good, have a great flight, my appetite comes back, I eat a little bit, I finish my Gatorade, blah, blah, blah. And I'm like real hungry by the time I get to my layover in Texas, and I'm like, okay, I should probably get real food. Awesome. Go in the airport, I've got like 20 minutes layover basically. I find a chicken Caesar wrap, I'm like, perfect. I proceed to spend like 20 bucks on the wrap. And then I'm looking at this wrap and I look at the chicken and I freak myself out about it. It was probably completely fine, but I got so scared. I was like, what if I eat this chicken and it makes me sick? So I ate like two bites of the lettuce. Well, then guess what happens? My stomach starts cramping. And I was like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. This is not happening again. So then I gotta do the body calm thing. My body was like, let's go to the bathroom. And I was like, no, let's not. We're not doing that. So I'm telling myself, body calm, body calm. I'm doing that the whole time I'm boarding this plane. I get in my seat. I'm like, okay, you've got like three hours. Read your book, chill out. You're gonna make it home. You're gonna be just fine. And I was, I was fine. But let me tell you, it took me like five days to recover from this. Like I had no appetite. Anything I ate felt like weird in my stomach. Like it just didn't sit right. I didn't feel like, you know, anything was gonna happen. I was just very, very depleted. And uh I I just got so frustrated, even like three days after, of like, I just want to feel normal again, dude. So it was a whole thing. And I am still just like, I'm I'm still not over my frustration around this because for one, it's frustrating that I felt that way. And then two, it's frustrating that like I literally created that myself, which I'll get into in a second. But it's it's like, damn, dude, can I I I want that lesson to be done because this has been like a recurring theme lately of like if I go somewhere where I'm like, I don't feel like I'm in control, like if I'm in a different setting, or I quite literally I'm traveling somewhere. It's a control thing. So I was feeling like, okay, I feel very out of control. I feel like I'm trapped by travel, like I'm on a plane, I'm worried about getting sick, because that's my worst fear. So that's gonna get my attention. Um, and this had a lot to it. I'm really just gonna read you my notes in real time. I'm gonna give you um sometimes when I do these notes, because I have like a whole folder in my notes of reflection reads for myself. I'll type these notes out as I'm going through the read and like following the vein, and I don't want to confuse you guys. So I'm just kind of filtering here. I want to get to the bottom of this one. Um, basically, what was happening was this was, you know, stemming from my thoughts showing up in my physical body. So there was this whole deal of like, I've got this weird thing of like, oh, if I travel somewhere, I'm scared I'll get food poisoning. Like, do you see? And it's not like that's not actually the fear. The fear is just being out of control, especially with my body. That's why that's my big fear, right? Is this all making sense? So basically, I was just, I wanted to like have a good time, right? I wanted to feel good. That's all. I just wanted to feel good, you know, be present, be happy. But I wasn't allowing myself to just feel good, right? To just be so essentially, I was creating problems out of things that aren't actually problems. Dude, I've had this reflection so many times, and it's been through other areas. The out of control reflection, too, used to happen a lot with uh turbulence, and we had like quite a bit of turbulence on the way to St. Thomas, but I was the finest I've ever been. I was like, no, I'm good. Like we're in a cloud, we're bumping up and down, and usually that's when I'm at my worst. Like I will be like panicking vibes when we're in that kind of turbulence. And I was like, I'm good. I did the inhale-exhale thing for that too, and it worked. Um, but I just wasn't worried about it. I was like, oh, I'm just gonna read my Kindle. Like, we're good, we're going to St. Thomas. Well, the out of control reflection jumped to my physical body with this digestion situation. And even talking about it now, I feel so much better talking through it. Obviously, I shifted this, um, but I'm just like, dude, don't do that to yourself, you silly girl. You are fine. So uh yeah, we uh we started reprogramming that one real quick because I mean that day was really hard coming home. And also just the recovery afterwards, like my god, dude, it was it was a loud one. It was a loud one. So that's those are like three really big ones that I experienced in the last month, but I've got a couple smaller ones here for you guys, too, because basically what I do is I just look at my reflection reads from the previous month when I do these episodes and I pick out the ones that are gonna be most helpful for you. Um, so you just got three big ones, but I want to talk about a couple more here. So this next one I've actually had for a while, and I just I didn't do anything about it. So I went to the dentist for my normal, you know, every six months cleaning checkup situation. And six months ago, they had told me that I needed fillings, but at that point I just didn't feel financially equipped to handle that. And I was like, I'm not gonna do that right now. But we're in such a better place now, financially. Um, so I still have these two cavities, and you know what's interesting is I go there and they always like okay, if you know me personally, then you know this, but I'm gonna tell you guys right now I am a freak about my dental hygiene. It is just something that is a very high priority to me. I have an electric toothbrush, I brush my teeth twice a day, I floss multiple times a day. Like I I don't do the full-on floss every time I floss. I just have this like it's not even a gap, but it's just this part, this like space between two of my teeth where food always gets stuck. And so I always clean that out. And then I'm looking at the rest of my teeth after I eat, and I don't know if it's what I'm eating or if it's just my teeth or both, but I just feel like I have teeth that food gets stuck in really easily. So yeah, I'm a freak with my floss. Like it's it's pretty much always with me. And so, anyways, I always get like a lot of praise when I go to the dentist. They're like, your mouth looks great, like you're keeping it so healthy, blah, blah. And I'm like, hell yeah, I am, because I really care about it. And also, if you ever go through the Invisalign process, that will make you even more of a clean freak with your teeth because you have to brush your teeth after you eat every time to put them back in, to put your trays back in. So, you know, that just amplified it. But I'm just, I really care about my teeth, okay? And everybody should. If you're not, if you ain't brushing your teeth at night, what are you doing? And guess what? I didn't brush my teeth at night until I moved to California because my parents never taught me that. And that's okay, it's not their fault. Like, I don't, it's whatever, you know. I could have done that on my own volition as a young adult, but yeah, that's just to give you like how much I care about my teeth, okay? So, anyways, they're they told me they're like, oh, you need uh these two fillings. And I look at her and I'm like, are you talking about cavities, ma'am? Like, do I have cavities? Because in my head, I'm like, oh, kids get cavities, you know? They they what do they tell you? Oh, if you eat a bunch of candy, if you eat too much sugar, you get cavities. Bitch, I do not eat a ton of candy, and I brush my teeth twice a day, and I floss, and I'm a freak with my teeth. So that is just some dumbass programming. Yeah, obviously, if you eat a lot of candy, if you eat anything, you should be brushing your teeth. Like, I don't the programming is wild to me, and that's why I love going into the body reflections because there is a source-designed system where your body is always communicating to you. We did a podcast on this. Um, let's see what episode that was. It's called What Your Body Is Actually Trying to Tell You. I don't remember where it is. You guys can scroll back and find it. But anyways, so I find out that I have these two cavities, and they are one of the teeth is my low is on my lower left side, and the other tooth is on my upper left side. So both on the left side. And well, what was happening here is the emotional root cause of any like teeth problems is like having issues breaking down something, like breaking down our ideas, um feeling like so so that's with teeth, okay? With my cavities specifically, I was feeling like I was having issues with like here's the theme: how I was receiving money at the time, how I'm receiving money, feeling like I can't break down my ideas on how I'm gonna make more money. So this was stemming from financial, it's showing up in my physical body. So I just felt like I couldn't break down the ideas of how I'm going to scale my business, my company, and like my finances. I was just, I've had, and these thoughts have been going for a while. Obviously, if I've had the problem for over six months now in my tefers. Um, but yeah, I just like cannot see the path forward. I'm like, how in the freak am I gonna do this? And here's the thing: when you're on your soul pole, you are building something that's never been built before and it'll never be built again because you're the only person who can do it. So there's no handbook, you know, there's not even like a position description of like, hey, what do you do? Like, oh God, I don't even know how to tell you that. Like, it's a soul pole, it can't be defined because it doesn't exist until you make it exist, right? So, like, duh, you're not gonna know every little step of how you're gonna freaking scale it. Like, geez, relax, you know, but those thoughts have been running for a while, and that created these cavities in my teeth. So I'm going in next week to get those filled and taken care of, which I I had, I don't remember how many. It wasn't like a ton, maybe like one or two, like a few years ago, and that was before I knew about body reflections. So, anyways, I've gotten fillings at this dentist before, and it's obviously totally fine. I'm a person that doesn't mind the dentist shocker. Um, but yeah, we're gonna be getting that taken care of. So don't worry, we started reprogramming that as well. So, yeah, that's my dental update. And then I've got one more for you here. This one's tiny and it's just funny. But I want you guys to start to think about. I know at the beginning of this episode we mentioned how the reflections that we are paying attention to and like talking about, they're usually um obstacles and challenges, right? They're they're triggers. But I also want you to realize that even if something, even if you're not like super mad about something is just kind of like weird, it's still a reflection for you. Like, even if I this example came up recently with someone, they're like, oh yeah, we got rear-ended, but like we weren't even really mad about it. It was just like kind of crazy. And I was like, okay, so just because you're not mad about it doesn't mean it's not a reflection. And we actually really want to decode and translate this now so you don't have to get in a worse situation. So, anyways, I want to make that point before I share this one with you because this one, you're gonna be like, that's so weird. That seems so insignificant. I've actually had someone say that to me before when I had a day full of like 13 reflections, which when you have a bunch of reflections like that in one day, it's actually a different reflection. I know there's layers to this stuff, it'll make your head spin. Um, but uh she told me, she's like, Well, that last one seems insignificant. Like this um thing like fell out of a tree. It wasn't an acorn, but it was like a piece of the tree like fell out of the tree and hit me in the head. And she was like, it's just a tree. And I was like, Yes, and our creator fields organize all matter around us. So everything is a reflection, a freaking thing falling out of the tree. It means something. Okay, everything means something. Please, please, please know that. And if your brain cannot get on board with that right now, that's okay, because mine couldn't either. Okay. You will get this more over time, but also you're like so advanced, you're probably like, yeah, that that tracks, that makes sense. So, anyways, getting into this one. I love to, well, I don't love it, but it's convenient for me to charge my car while I train. But at this specific gym where I charge the car is in like a moderately sketchy area. Like it's busy, like I nothing would ever happen there. There's like a restaurant and like a laundromat right there, and there's businesses, like nothing would ever happen, but it doesn't feel good. Okay, there are just um transient folks navigating the area, and it just doesn't feel good over there. So, but I have to walk from my car over to the gym, and it's a little bit of a distance. Um, so, anyways, that's the setting. We've set the scene here. Oh my gosh. Okay, so I get out of my car, I'm walking away, I'm walking toward the gym. I hear this guy calling after me. He's like, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. And I just ignore him. He runs up on me, gets closer than I would like, and he's like, hey, hey, hey, hey. And I turn around and I just look at him in the eyes. I don't say anything. And he goes, he goes, Are you a man? And I'm thinking to myself, like, dude, I got I've got my makeup done. Like, do I look like this? Is this doesn't even make any sense. Like, it was just so shocking. And I'm just looking at him in his eyes, and he repeats himself. He goes, Are you a man? And I was like, Bro, I'm not fucking with you. I like I didn't say anything, and I didn't feel unsafe, I didn't feel like threatened or anything like that. I just felt like, yo, this is weird. So I don't say anything to him, I turn around and I walk away. And I get a little bit further, and he decides he's gonna run after me again. He's like, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. I turn around, I look at him in the eyes, and I could not tell you what this man was saying to me. Couldn't tell you. It did not sound like any language that exists. Like it just it was like alien talk. I was just like, what? It's like you're you're just talking nonsense. Like you make no sense right now. This is crazy. And again, I didn't feel unsafe, but I was prepared to tell him what's up. Like I was prepared to use my outside voice and be like, you need to get away from me right now. Like I was ready. I was ready. Okay, wouldn't be my first time. Um, well, it would be my first time there, but not in San Diego. Anyways, I look him in the eyes to make it very clear that I'm not afraid of him. And I turn around and I walk away and I keep looking over my shoulder to make sure he's not chasing me. And he he goes on his merry way. So then I'm like, oh dude, I hope I'm not a freaking energetic match for him to mess with my car. But it's a Tesla charging station, like it's pretty busy. Um, I don't think anything would happen. And even then, I was like, well, if something happens, I come out here and he's like graffitied all over my car and like called me a bitch or something, then I got insurance and we'll figure it out, I guess. I don't know. I was like, I'm not gonna worry about that. So, anyways, I go train, I go back to my car, everything is fine. Um, but I was like, you know, that was interesting. I I want to look in and figure out what that was all about because what the heck? So again, I was feeling like you're just talking nonsense, dude. Like, again, I don't feel unsafe, I don't feel threatened, but it just made no sense. Like, and he didn't even want anything from me. Like, intuitively, I could tell he didn't want anything from me. And I was like, what's this about? So, of course, I intuitively look in. Uh, well, shocker. It's because I was having these thoughts that are quite literally nonsense. I was talking nonsense to myself, like they made zero sense. I was not making sense to myself in my career area of life, right? It's mental because it's thoughts, but thoughts around career. So I was just having limiting thoughts about career, what else is new that literally made no sense because here's the kicker everything right now is going great. On paper, great. We're growing, we're expanding, we're having a higher output, we're helping more people, we're like providing more value to people, even the free stuff, right? The podcast episodes, the webinars, like, dude, everything's great. Like, that's why these limiting beliefs make no sense. It was straight nonsense in my own head. And he was just the perfect character to take that script and play it out for me. So lol. I literally have lol in my um reflection notes here. So yeah, that was the last month. Um, quite a lot, much has happened, but we're growing at record speed because why? Because we understand reflections and we know how to shift them, and uh that's how you get to a place of loving your life more than you ever have before, and it just gets better from there. So I hope you enjoyed these stories. Please take my lessons and uh install them for yourself so you don't have to go through these experiences. Basically, the takeaways here are every problem has a solution. Okay, I will always remind you of that. A problem cannot metaphysically exist without a solution. That's the law of balance. Okay, a little universal law for you there. And reflections, they aren't even problems. They are actually the quickest way to getting what we want. Okay, so remember that. And listen, the ego will love to say that it's the other person's stuff. It's the other person's problem, right? I could look at, well, dude, literally four of these. Literally four of these came through my freaking body. But the last one, the guy being weird outside the Tesla chargers, I I could so easily be like, oh, that's a him thing. Like, he needs to get it together. I don't have nothing to do with that. No, no, no, no, no. My creator field had something to do with that. My creator field had everything to do with that, and so did his, right? We were an energetic match to have that exchange. So, listen, if your ego is like, that's not mine, that's not ours, listen. You gotta clean up your side of the street. Yeah, there's gonna be stuff that are other people's reflections, but whatever's triggering you, it's yours. It is yours. It is always yours. Okay, even if something just like kind of bothers you for a moment, and then you're like, no, it's fine. Reflection. Please pay attention to those. Okay, and lastly, it's okay to be human. It is beyond okay to be human. That is what we signed up for. Humans experience emotions. Emotions are gonna come up through these reflections. That's the point. That's the system. That is the school that we signed up for here on Earth. Your soul planned all of this, it signed up for it, it knows best. It is genius beyond anything your human self could ever comprehend. Same thing with your higher self, same thing with source. They're all in cahoots to get you exactly what you were built to have. Okay? So, I know we've been yapping for a while here. I am going to close out this episode now, and you guys will have to let me know how this one landed because the reflection roundup episodes are always just so dang fun. Now, the other thing here, I should have mentioned this at the beginning, but we have our next free webinar on this Wednesday, June 3rd. Okay, it is going to be at, let me tell you correctly, 3 p.m. Pacific time. It's actually gonna be after I get my fillings done, hours after, so I'm not numb anymore. But Wednesday, June 3rd, free webinar on dark forces. Come learn why you just suddenly feel off. This is for the empath girlies. Okay, just because you feel something doesn't mean it's yours, and we're gonna be talking more about that inside the webinar. So I'll put the sign-up link below. As always, I appreciate you. And if you found this episode funny, helpful, whatever, please leave a rating and review. I would so appreciate that. And if you think somebody in your life would also find it helpful and beneficial, and you want to feel more seen and understood in your life, you want your people to get you, maybe send them this episode. You don't even have to say much. You can just say, like, oh, we can talk about it after, but like I think you'd like this episode. And that's how we get more of this information out into the world and just help raise the frequency and the consciousness of this entire planet, which, as we always say, really needs it right now. So that's what I have for you guys. Thank you so much for hanging out with me here, and I will catch you in the next episode.