The Dysregulated Podcast
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told.
This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future.
Episodes
190 episodes
Fortnightly Check-In #44 - The Waiting Game
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 193
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12:09
My Plea for a Medication Reset
After years of trying a myriad of psychiatric medications—SSRIs, SNRIs, NDRI's, Tricyclics (TCA), mood stabilisers, antipsychotics, stimulants, benzodiazepines, and everything in between—I’ve reached a breaking point. Nothing has truly worked, ...
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Episode 192
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48:41
My Journal #6 - The Pressure Builds
The next instalment of the "My Journal" series sees me having a look at a very recent entry. So recent in fact it was written just yesterday. Unfortunately the tone of the writing is bleak. I explain how across all facets of my life there is pr...
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Episode 191
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10:45
Fortnightly Check-In #43 - Road Trips, CBD Oil and the Knights
I’m back! It’s been a little while between episodes, but in this check-in, I bring you along for the ride—literally. I talk about my recent solo road trip to the Gold Coast (via the very chill detour through Nimbin) to watch my beloved...
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Episode 190
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15:49
When Anxiety Terrifies Me
This week, anxiety hit me in a way that genuinely scared me. Not just the usual panic or dread—but the fear of anxiety itself. When it spirals beyond my control, when I’m bedridden for days, sweating, hiding from the world, and feeling powerles...
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Episode 189
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13:28
DBT Skills: Pros and Cons
Discover Dialectical Behaviour Therapy (DBT) with 'The Dysregulated Podcast'! Episode #3: Pros and Cons
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Episode 188
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21:24
Fortnightly Check-In #42 - The Battle Against Anxiety Rages On
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 187
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13:36
My First Kiss: The Spark That Lit My BPD
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I take you back to one of the most pivotal moments of my entire life —my first kiss. But this isn’t just a nostalgic teenage memory; this was the moment that set everything in motion. From h...
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Episode 186
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1:35:34
My Therapy Reflections #8 (Part B) – The Workaholic Under Threat
In this follow-up to My Therapy Reflections #8 (Part A), I take a clearer look at why my workaholic identity is feeling under threat—and why that makes me so damn anxious. Like so many of my parts, the workaholic exists to protect me, ...
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Episode 185
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24:18
Running Scared: Fighting Through Anxiety
Following my last therapy session, my anxiety was still super high—so I decided to run with it! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I share how I went for a run (big deal) to help soothe my anxious mind. Did it fix everything?...
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Episode 184
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5:20
My Therapy Reflections #8 (Part A) - Scattered and Anxious
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I reflect on an unusually difficult therapy session—one that left me feeling worse instead of better. My anxiety has been at an all-time high, and the very foundation of my workaholic sub-pa...
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Episode 183
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13:43
NSW Mental Health Crisis
In this episode of 'The Dysregulated Podcast' I take an in depth look at the problems plaguing the NSW public mental health system. Over 200 psychiatrists in the public system have indicated their intention of resigning from NSW H...
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Episode 182
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46:46
Those Dexy Blues
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I take a look at the all-too-familiar "Dexy Blues"—the wave of anxiety and depression that hits when stimulant medications like Vyvanse and dexamphetamine start to wear off. I share my exper...
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Episode 181
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17:52
Fortnightly Check-In #41 - Negative Warning Signs
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 180
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5:22
Seroquel Shutdown: Sleeplessness, Dependency and the Workaholic Within
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I explore the vital role Seroquel plays in my ability to get a good night's sleep and how its absence leaves me battling through the day. Sleep deprivation exacerbates the negative ruminatio...
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Episode 179
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22:42
Inspired by Nothing: When Motivating Emotions Disappear
Today has been one of those days—the kind where inspiring and motivated emotions go missing. Which is especially tough when you're in an interview trying to present the best version of yourself. That was today's challenge. But that’s the thing ...
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Episode 178
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11:13
Fortnightly Check-In #40 - My Black Eye
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 177
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21:13
Harnessing My ANGER: Turning Frustration into Fuel for Change
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I dive into the power of anger—not the destructive kind, but the controlled, purposeful anger that drives action and transformation. After years of feeling stuck in a career dead-end, trappe...
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Episode 176
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18:06
Fortnightly Check-In #39 - Crawling Towards the New Year
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 175
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16:32
'24 Medication Review
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I take you through my end of year medication review with my psychiatrist. From continuing my taper off certain meds to saying goodbye to others completely, and a revamped approach to managin...
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Episode 174
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11:25
Fortnightly Check-in #38 - Winding Down
Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic acc...
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Episode 173
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9:49
Beyond the Bottle #7 - Stumbling and Relapse
After 11 months of sobriety, I’ve found myself back at square one. In this episode, I open up about my journey with alcohol, the challenges of staying sober, and the reasons behind my relapse. Despite nearly a year without drinking, I struggled...
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Episode 172
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19:02
Putting a Lid on Extreme Emotions
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, host Elliot Waters reflects on a significant change in his emotional landscape: the flattening of extreme emotions. No more crying in the shower or panic attacks in bed. Stability is the nor...
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Episode 171
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21:04
Building Better - Working Around My ADHD
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I reflect on a successful two weeks of annual leave. For the first time in years, my car, room, and even the house is all clean—and have stayed that way for over a week! It might sound silly...
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Episode 170
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15:40
Intake Interviews #3 - Holly’s Journey of Survival and Hope
In this powerful and inspiring episode of the Intake Interviews series, I have a chat with Holly, who I am privileged to call a great friend. At just twenty years old, Holly has faced more challenges than many encounter in a lifetime. ...
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Episode 169
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