Disrupting Burnout

88. A Crisis of Brilliance

May 03, 2023 Dr. Patrice Buckner Jackson Episode 88
Disrupting Burnout
88. A Crisis of Brilliance
Show Notes Transcript

Welcome to Disrupting Burnout - a podcast where we beat burnout so that you can love your career again! 

Are you feeling lost and questioning everything in your life? You're not alone. Join me, in this week’s episode of Disrupting Burnout, as I share my heart and Holy Spirit's guidance on navigating a crisis of brilliance. 

A crisis is not here to destroy us, but rather to unearth and disrupt everything that is not aligned with our purpose.

It’s Time To Disrupt Burnout:

1:20 - Identify Your Crisis Of Brilliance

08:00 - When To Birth The Gift That You Carry 

12:05 - Surrender To God and Share The Journey 

16:45 - The Process Of Seed, Time & Harvest

22:20 - Why Crisis Is Necessary

Your Crisis of Brilliance Takeaways

  • “A crisis of brilliance comes to unearth  and disrupt everything that's connected to you and everything that’s in you that can not go into your next season.”  - Dr. PBJ
  • “You didn’t do anything wrong.” - Dr. PBJ
  • “The shaking comes to prepare you to walk into your brilliance.” - Dr. PBJ  
  • “Everything that you know as normal is not was aligns with who God created you to be.” - Dr. PBJ   
  • “Just because it feels normal doesn't mean it’s right.” - Dr. PBJ
  • “I’m your midwife.” - Dr. PBJ 
  • “At 42 years old I’m finally living.” - Dr. PBJ 
  • “You are right where you’re supposed to be.” - Dr. PBJ   
  • “I didn’t come to snatch you out of the fire, I came to walk through it with you.” - Dr. PBJ  
  • “Your tears water your seed of brilliance.” - Dr. PBJ
  • “There is no prayer that you prayed that goes unheard.” - Dr. PBJ  

This episode is brought to you by HeartWork Academy!  If you’ve ever felt like you're marching in place, putting in all of the effort, but not moving forward, this program is for you. If you feel buried and you’re ready to move into brilliance, it’s time to join a community of disruptors who understand and who genuinely want to support you and hold you accountable as you show up in purpose everyday. To join the Heartwork Academy, visit:  http://heartworkacademy.com.

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The crisis of brilliance comes to shake everything that you know as normal. Because everything that you know is normal is not what aligns with who God created you to be. Hey friends is Dr. Patrice Buckner Jackson, but you can call me PBJ. I am coming to disrupt our podcast schedule today. Something is on my heart that I need to say to you, there are more women who define disruption that you're going to be meeting. But now in this moment, I'm pressed in my heart to come talk to you one on one. So you get me today, if you're worried about my voice, yes, I'm a little bit hoarse. I spent the weekend at a powerful Women's Conference. And when I tell you when I tell you that the remnants of my voice, but I'm giving you what I got today, because I know that this episode, this message is for some body, I want to be very, very specific about who I'm coming in and talk to today. And also who the HEartwork Academy is for you all have heard me talking about the HEartwork Academy, if you've been following for a while you've heard me mentioned it before, but I'm here to tell you that it's not what it used to be, because I'm not what I used to be. So I am just going to be obedient. And I'm going to share with you all, from my heart today, as Holy Spirit shares with me, it is pressed on my heart to call out to women who feel like they are in the throes of frustration. I am using a megaphone today, to connect with the hearts of women who know that there's more who know that this something but they don't know what it is. They don't know how to get there. They just feel disrupted. They feel disrupted, they feel disturbed, like everything is shaking. Everything that used to hold you up is now shaking. Everything that you used to lean on is now shaking. Everything that you felt was a support to you at one time. Now you're questioning questioning it. And I'm talking about everything I'm talking about to the point of did I marry the right one? And my in the right church? Am I in the right career? Do I even know who I am? Have I gotten this thing wrong? I'm talking to you today, I'm calling out to your heart. And I need to let you know that you are not losing your mind. You are not crazy, you are not falling apart, you may be breaking apart, but you're not gonna fall apart. Stay with me. Stay with me, I'm gonna talk you through this, I need you to understand that what you are experiencing is what I call a crisis of brilliance. It's a crisis of brilliance. And this crisis does not come to destroy you. But it does come to unearth everything that's in you and everything that's connected to you that cannot go into your purpose. Hear me this crisis comes to on Earth and disrupt everything that's connected to you, and everything that's in you that cannot go into your next season. As I was thinking about this, and this is this is a section that I wrote in the book, but I can't wait until the book comes. That's a few months from now. But I have to say now and I have to share with you. Now, as I thought about this crisis of brilliance. One of the things that came to my memory was when Hurricane Katrina attacked the Gulf Coast, there were so many horrific things. But there was one thing that stood out to me and stuck to me. I remember hearing in the news how when the flood waters came in on Earth caskets. The floodwaters made the ground show unstable, that people in their final resting places, those casting caskets began to come back to the surface the thing that was supposed to stay buried the thing that was supposed to be still the thing that was supposed to have no movement all of a sudden Blood caused the shaking caused the foundation to be soft, and those things begin to rise to the top. And that's what happens when you are in a crisis of brilliance, things that you put to bed, things that you put away things that you thought you would never deal with, again, things that you've never acknowledged, all of a sudden, they start popping up towards the surface, and you can't figure out why you feel this way. Why you're thinking this way, why you are so uncomfortable, why it feels like the pressures of your life, or pulling on all in on you, everywhere you look is just pressure. I need you to understand, you are in a crisis of brilliance. You didn't make it up, and you didn't do anything wrong. Let me say that again. Hear me, hear my voice. You didn't do anything wrong. There is no decision there is no behavior. There is nothing that you have done that has caused this shaking in your life. The shaking comes to prepare you to walk in to your brilliance. God loves you too much to allow you to walk into to brilliance unprepared. He loves you too much to allow you to take these dead things into brilliance with you, the shaking calm so that the foundation can soften. And everything that's under the earth that has no luck should no longer be attached to you has to float to the top so that you can deal with it. You're in a crisis of brilliance, the work that you once loved and you praise God for and you told the testimony and you posted about it. Now you can't imagine staying in your mind. You think what is wrong with you? You're in a good place, everything's fine. Why are you tripping, but it's something in your spirit. That's just prodding you and poking you saying this is not it. This is not it. This is not where you stop. This is not where you rest. This is not the end. But this is not it. There is more there is more. There is more, there is more. There is more. And people around you don't understand because they look at you. And it looks like you got all the things it looks like you have everything that they pray for. And even if you tried to tell them you would look ungrateful. So you keep it to yourself, because who do you talk to? Who do you tell her? I don't even have language. I can't even say what's wrong with me. I don't know what's wrong with me, friend, you are in a crisis of brilliance. I related to a woman who is in the final stages of labor, how she has carried this gift. How she has carried this gift to the term to which it is mature enough to come forth, and begin to learn to live on the outside. How she has carried this gift, and nurtured this gift on the inside of her. Sometimes secretly. For a while it was secret, nobody could see it. And then people started noticing as her belly was growing. But they can still couldn't see they just knew something was coming. They still couldn't see it. And now she's feeling the pain. Now you're feeling the pressure. Now everything in your life is lining up to deliver the thing that God has nurtured on the inside of you. And in that moment, it can be the most painful, the most discomfort, the most pressure in the moment that you want to give it all up. Nevermind, I don't even want to do this anymore. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I'm tired. I'm tired. And even as I'm saying that I'm thinking about when a woman is in labor, the more she fights against what her body naturally knows how to do, the more painful it is. But when she decides to submit to the pain when she decides to submit to the process, no more striving, no more pushing. No Well, you got to push hold on but no, no more just trying to make it happen. Right. No pushing outside of the timing. You have to wait on the contraction in order to push. You have to wait on your body you have to wait on your body to say Now, in order to push that makes your pushing productive, you are just pushing to push because you want it to be over. You want it to be done, you want to be out of pain, you want to be out of frustration, you want to be out of this comfort. But let me tell you, you will cause damage. If you don't push with the contractions, yo, hear me, I'm not just talking about physical birth. But you are in the process of delivering to the world, the brilliance that God has put on the inside of you. And it is a process, it's a crisis, it comes to shake everything that you know is normal. The crisis of brilliance comes to shake everything that you know as normal. Because everything that you know as normal, is not what aligns with who God created you to be. Just because it feels normal, doesn't mean it's right. And when you find yourself in this crisis, if you don't have support, if you don't have community, you can get frustrated. And you might want to think you might want to stop, you want to escape you want to run, you want to get away from it. But I'm here to tell you that I'm your midwife. I feel this thing. I'm here as your midwife to help you pace yourself, to help you push through the contractions, to encourage you to work with your body, and to work with your Spirit to bring your body, your soul and your spirit into alignment. So that you can safely deliver the thing that God has put on the inside of you. And I can only help you do it. Because I've done it. And I am doing it, I am doing it. If you all have followed me for a while, especially if you've listened to this podcast for a while, you've seen the changes. I started out with one name. And then I changed it to another name. And now it's disrupting burnout. I opened the HEartwork Academy a couple years ago, and did it for a little while and then close that. And now I'm bringing it back. What you have experienced what you watched from me is my aligning and learning and the shaking. You watched my crisis of brilliance. You watched it. You've been a part of it. You've been along the journey with me. You've walked with me in this crisis of brilliance. As I've navigated and learned and God, what do you want from me? What do you want me to do? I'll give it all up. All I want is what you want. I lay it all down. You want my career, you can have it. You want my titles, you can have it. Whatever you want, you can have it. You have watched me walk through the crisis of brilliance. And you're watching me walk in the brilliance that God has created me to live in. At 42 years old, I'm finally living. Listen to me. 42 years, 42 years. And after 42 years, I am walking in and all of those seasons were necessary and me. All of those seasons were necessary. So I don't I don't despise any one of them. I'm grateful. But I need to be your example. You're looking for polished. You're looking for pretty. You're looking for cute. And this process right here. This thing right here ain't nothing cute about it. And nothing cute about it. Oh, but it's worth it. Man. Listen, listen, it's not pleasant, but it's beautiful. It's not pleasant, but it's beautiful. It is beautiful. Hear me, sister. Hear me today. You are right where you're supposed to be. The pressure that you feel is refining you. The fire that you're in is protecting you. The shaking that you feel is purifying you and is preparing you to walk in the fullness. You've always had brilliance. You've always allow brilliance to flow in one way or another because you can't help it. But this is the transition into the fullness of brilliance. This is the transition into everything that God created you to be full surrender. full surrender and I know you're you're watching YouTube and you're listening to other voices and you're searching and you're trying to find an answer and you read all the books and you just want an answer. Because if I have an answer, I can make the pain stop. If I can just get a solution, then I don't have to be in this place. And I'm here to tell you that this place is necessary. I didn't come to snatch you out of the fire, I came to walk through it with you. I didn't come to snatch you out of the fire. But I came to jump into flames with you. And hold your hands and put my arms around you. And let you know. I know. You can see it right now. But this is necessary. I know it doesn't feel like it right now. But this is for your good. This fire is making you and when you come out I'm talking pure gold. Pure gold. So if you're feeling confused, if you're feeling frustrated, if you're feeling overwhelmed, if you're exhausted, if you're questioning everything, if if it feels like everything that's held you together as falling apart. Let me share this with you. And then I gotta let you go. God gave me this revelation. And I've heard similar words before. But recently, a family member asked me to speak at his mother's funeral. And as I was preparing for the service, God took me to the scripture where it says, you know, as long as the earth remains, see time and harvest minute goes on night and day. Yeah, go. And he stopped me at seed time and harvest, seed time and harvest. A seed never looks like the harvest. The seed looks insignificant, most people toss it away. Only those who know how to sew can see the value in a seed. That seed in order for what's in it to come out, must be planted in good soil. A seed outside of soil is no good. It must go into the dark place to be planted, not buried, to be planted, it must be planted into the dark place. And when you plant a seed in the dark place, it doesn't look like anything is happening for a while, so you got seed. Now you need time. In that soil, there's a process that's going on in the dark that you can't see. That process the soil puts pressure on the seed. And that pressure causes that outer layer the outer coating of that seed to fall away, to disrupt to this disintegrate to go away. And now the seed is exposed. The thing that used to protect it no longer covers it is gone. And the vulnerable thing that was the own the inside of it. That is the thing that is coming forward. And the inside of the seed continues to go through the pressure of the soil. And in order for that seed to come forth. It needs son. It needs light and it needs water. Jesus Christ has already provided the light he is the Son, your tears. Your tears provide the water. People will tell you Don't cry. They will say oh no What's wrong if you're crying, wipe your tears. I'm not here to hand you a tissue I'm here to rub your back as you cry. Your tears water your seat of brilliance. God says every tear that you cry you pop he bottles in heaven. He is not miss one seed. Every every moment every sorrow you gone through he records in a book in heaven. He journals your son rolls. He has not forgotten you. Listen, listen. He has not forgotten you. In this season. You may feel like he's not hearing you. Like your prayers are just hitting the ceiling. Because I can't see anything is so dark. I'm praying, but I don't think anybody hears me. I'm praying but I don't think I'm heard. And I'm here to tell you that There's no prayer that you pray that goes on hurt. He is documenting all of your sorrows and bottling all of your tears, but he loves you too much to let you out one day early. He loves you too much to leave you there one day later than you need to be here that he's not going to let you out one day early. And he's not going to leave you there one day late. The soils necessary, you need the pressure. Because before you know it, there's going to be a little sprig that comes up above the soil, and you'll be able to see light again, vulnerable, may be tired, may feel a little weak. And that's why you need community to hold you up. That's why you need people around you, to hold you up and to surround you when you're in your most vulnerable state. But if that seat continues to be watered and nurtured, before you know it, it's going to be a mighty force. And it's going to bring forth a harvest. And the harvest is not just about the fruit. But the magic of the harvest is there's more seed in the fruit. So you may have started with one little insignificant seed. But if you continue to water that seed, if you continue to expose that seed to the sun, before you know it, that seed is going to be mighty in the land, and that scene is going to produce fruit. And that fruit is going to be more seed is going to be more seed. And it's going to be replicated over and over and over the blessing. The blessing is passed down to the third and fourth generation, what you're what you're going through is not for you. It's not just for you, but you allowing yourself to be buried you allowing everything that used to protect you to fall away you staying in the process, until it's time to come forth. Not only is that a blessing to you, not only is it a blessing to the people that you're assigned to in the earth, but it's a blessing to the third and fourth generation of your family. There are great grandchildren and great great grandchildren that you may or may not meet, but their lives will be blessed because you stayed in the process. Your crisis is necessary. It's not destruction. It's not a lack of love. It is not punishment. But this is a crisis of brilliance. And the purpose of this crisis is to transition you into the fullness of brilliance that God created you to be. I want to offer you support. I want to offer you love. I want to offer you community. And I want to offer you revelation of what's actually happening to you and what's going on. When you understand you can change your perspective. It doesn't mean the pressure stops, it doesn't mean the pain stops, but at least you understand. At least you know what's going on. When you don't know what's going on. Your thought process is the hardest part is the most difficult part. But when you are aware, and you know that this process didn't take you come to take you out and it won't last forever, then it gives you that extra stamina to stay right there. It gives your hope back is time for your hope to rise. It's time for your hope to rise. Friend, the HEartwork Academy is open. Go to heartworkacademy.com Everything will be in the show notes. Join us join us the price is low. But the benefits are out of this world. The harvest is great. You need to get here. I'll close with this guy has been very specific with me. He's told me to go back and get my people, your his people, but you're my people because I understand. He said go back and get them. Don't walk into brilliance alone. PBJ don't you walk into this brilliance by yourself. But go back and get some folks and have them walk with you so you cannot walk in brilliance together. And that's what I'm offering you. Don't do this by yourself. Heartworkacademy.com Those of you who is for you know, you hear it and if it's not ran. No love lost all is well. There's no pressure here is my responsibility just to make the call that's how I'm just making the call. I gotta let you go. Come join us. We kick off this month and I pray that you will be in the room so you don't have to do this by yourself. This crisis did not come to destroy you. It came to transition you into the brilliance that God created for you created you for as always, you are powerful. You are significant and you are loved. I can't wait to see we don't do this thing. Oh, we're gonna do this thing together. Love always PBJ