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Kat Garcia Season 3 Episode 6

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Join host Kat Garcia as she sits down with her platonic life partner, Ellie Jones, for a candid and lighthearted conversation. In this episode, Kat and Ellie ramble, chitchat, and dive into the quirks of their friendship, sharing stories, laughter, and honest reflections. Whether they're discussing life’s little moments or exploring deeper topics, their chemistry and humor shine through. Tune in for an episode that feels like catching up with old friends—full of warmth, wit, and genuine connection. 

Greetings and salutations. Welcome to, sorry. That's my inside voice. I'm your host, cat Garcia, and in this episode I get to sit down and talk with my platonic life partner, Ellie Jones. We kind of ramble, we kind of chitchat. We talk about ling, we talk about wine, we talk about firefighting. We talk about lighting shit on fire. It's a very exciting episode. Enjoy.

Kat Garcia

Are you all

Ellie Jones

clipped? I am clipped.

Kat Garcia

Yay. Can you hear me? Yes. Testing. Testing. Yes. It's picking up your voice. Awesome. Do you wanna introduce yourself? What

Ellie Jones

do I say?

Kat Garcia

What would you like to say? Who are you? Oh,

Ellie Jones

my name is Ellie Jones and I'm your Platonic

Kat Garcia

life partner. Yeah, you, you are my platonic life partner. And I'm yours, correct? Um,

Ellie Jones

we've been best friends for gosh long time that I'm not old enough, but I have friends that long. How often? I'm shy about my age. I'm just saying at a certain point, don't. We don't need to. It's just been long enough.

Kat Garcia

It's, it's been long enough that it feels like we were, we've been together longer than we were apart. Hmm. There you go.

Ellie Jones

There you go.

Kat Garcia

Um, we've outlast our friendship has outlasted all of our marriages. Uh, that's

Ellie Jones

so

Kat Garcia

morbid. I mean, it's the longest relationship I've ever had.

Ellie Jones

I know. It's still, um,

Kat Garcia

you know.

Ellie Jones

Yeah.

Kat Garcia

Um. We have a good time.

Ellie Jones

Yes, we do. We play a lot of games. Play a lot of games. Lots of card games. Mm-hmm. We're, uh, we're

Kat Garcia

game humans.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. And board games. Love of 'em. What games? Some of 'em, you know. Yeah.

Kat Garcia

We, uh, we love settlers.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. I'm not gonna play Monopoly with anyone.

Kat Garcia

No, that's, I don't like it. I, I don't really play Monopoly or

Ellie Jones

Life. I played that. I'm over it

Kat Garcia

all. All I like are like the little mini figures, like people get excited about the Lego Mini figs and I like those. But like the Star Wars monopoly pieces, those are cool.

Ellie Jones

No.

Kat Garcia

Not for me. I mean, I'm not gonna play

Ellie Jones

it. I have it, but you can have plate it and I'm happy for you, but I don't want it. My dog would eat them.

Kat Garcia

Your dog eats a lot of things he's not supposed to. Fuck. I know. Um, oh, I said the F word. You're, you're allowed to swear. That's adorable. I was like, oh, you've, I'm gonna get in trouble. You've listened to the podcast. I know. I don't. Was your reaction, you know,

Ellie Jones

I don't know.

Kat Garcia

Love. I'll be like, oh. I mean, there is a button when I upload episodes that's like, is this explicit? Always. Yes. That's

Ellie Jones

good. Always. Yes. That's good to know. Uh, I'm re flat ironing my hair because it was so freaking muggy today. It undid my original flat iron. So, which is so

Kat Garcia

rude. This is the second time you've done that.

Ellie Jones

Yeah, today. I love that. And, and it didn't dry because it was so muggy out. I had to blow dry my hair too. It's a good thing you cut off some of your hair so it's shorter. I actually said that today too. I was like, thank God I cut some inches off. Feels

Kat Garcia

fresh. It's like you knew. Yeah. It's like you um, should we talk about how we became friends? Should we talk? What do you wanna talk about? We have so many options.

Ellie Jones

I know. Where do you wanna start?

Kat Garcia

Um, well let's start with I. I don't know. I don't know. I didn't, I didn't, I didn't do a lot of prep for this, which assumes I do prep for the other episodes. I, I don't usually that's true, but, but like I have a list in my book of topics for us to talk about. But since this is your first episode, and since you are my Platonic life partner, you'll be on mower. I figured we could just

Ellie Jones

wing it. Wing it. I'm a winger. I'm a winger. I don't know if that's appropriate to say. I don't think that. I don't think I can say that. Well, you did. Well, I did. Sorry about that. Anyone? Um. I feel like I need to preface it, but I've been drinking a little bit today.

Kat Garcia

That's okay. I need it to,

Ellie Jones

no, that's not appropriate to say either.

Kat Garcia

Ah, it, it's, it's appropriate to say you're fine. It's okay. I know. I don't, we listen and we don't judge. That's true. I'm a Virgo. I judge a lot of things. She does judge things. Um, but I'm not judging your beverage. No. I myself have really boring wa It's not even salty water today. It's just water, so. Mm. That happens.

Ellie Jones

Let's see.

Kat Garcia

I, we could talk about transitions. You could talk about, um, I move at

Ellie Jones

all my transitions, I guess. I don't know. I guess, yeah,

Kat Garcia

I'm just, I'm just excited. Are we gonna talk about that

Ellie Jones

a little bit? Yeah, I think so.

Kat Garcia

Okay. Um, I'm excited that it's not happening in the dead of winter.

Ellie Jones

Yeah, me too.

Kat Garcia

Ellie has a. Well-documented history of choosing to move in the coldest part of the year. This time you're moving in fall. Yeah, which is like the best time of year because all the Polly things aren't alive usually. Mm-hmm. And it's not too hot, it's not too cold, it's just.

Ellie Jones

I agree. Except today when it was mug as hell and I was cursing it because we live in the Pacific Northwest. I was like, we like all our seasons and they're not allowed to overlap like this. It's rude. It is. Get outta here.

Kat Garcia

It's

Ellie Jones

get on outta here.

Kat Garcia

It's so muggy. It, the air's just like, I don't like it. You're not wrong. I don't like it. Um, let's see. You got a dog?

Ellie Jones

Oh yeah, I do. I, let's talk about

Kat Garcia

him.

Ellie Jones

Leonis. I got a dog and I thought I was getting a golden dole, and technically he is a golden doodle. But he's not, he's a bad one, not a bad dog, but like he doesn't even look like a golden doodle in any way.

Kat Garcia

Would you be okay with us sharing a

Ellie Jones

picture of your not doodle doodle? Oh yeah, for sure. I got funny videos. I have documented every second of that dog's life because he is like my second child. Um, he's, he's really

Kat Garcia

the closest I'm ever gonna be to a dog of my own. Yeah. 'cause I got to go with you

Ellie Jones

to, but I want, but I want everyone to know that a baby. Is easier than a dog because

Kat Garcia

that was, that was what she was deciding for. And I don't mean

Ellie Jones

that lightly because we have structures in place for babies and it's still so incredibly hard to have a baby. So I'm not just saying like, go instead of a puppy. Like just don't on both. If you have a choice because life isn't better without him, just go adopt like an old man dog.

Kat Garcia

We're an oldie cat life.

Ellie Jones

Oh man. Yeah. Old man dog all the way. Yeah, that's what I'm doing from now.

Kat Garcia

Um, it's definitely a switch from your last dog. Jesus. God was an old

Ellie Jones

man. Yep. Um, and he, we got him when he, his puppy too. But Leo is the most energetic dog I've ever had. Um, and he needs just like. All the training all the time. And when I first got him, I was working full time ma, majority of the time outta the house. And just by having a remote ish job prior to that. Mm-hmm. And I am. I don't feel like I'm behind on training, but he just has a lot of energy and a lot of energy to manage. So

Kat Garcia

your vet said he was a DHD? Yeah.

Ellie Jones

I mean, they gave me ca gabapentin for him when he was a puppy. 'cause they're like, oh, you got a good one. And I

Kat Garcia

said, what does that mean? What are you talking to me like that he loves everybody. Oh, he does what? His body, he doesn't have an aggressive bone in his body. Mm-hmm. He just, he likes to kiss you, loves you. He loves you with his whole body and, and let's talk about his full name.

Ellie Jones

Oh his name, his full name that we decided is Leonis Cedar. Long Paw Jones and it was just originally Leonis Cedar Jones. But after we got him, we shortly realized that when he likes his belly rubbed, he will put his paw straight up. And if your face is in the way, he's gonna, he does not punch you. Yeah. He will punch you straight with that paw. When he's long pa, I gotta, 'cause you are in the way.

Kat Garcia

Yep. I've gotten a couple fat lifts. Oh yeah. I've had, yeah, I think

Ellie Jones

he popped my contact out once my chin severely bruised. Like to the point that it like swelled. I've had a big bruise down my leg from his nails 'cause he jumped on me 'cause it was scary.

Kat Garcia

Oh my, my super fun leash burn from the beach. Oh, unlimited leash burns. Which it was, I don't know. That was what, like six months ago. And it's still there? Yeah.

Ellie Jones

Um, I've had one, I have one on my finger right now. From him pulling on the lights. He's just so big and I have lost like a hundred pounds and he makes me fly. He will literally make me take off in the air if I don't have my, like, feet set. And it's stunning. I've never been moved so fast before in my entire life.

Kat Garcia

We, we decided last week, last week to do like a test run of recording because lesson. Ellie had never, she had some anxiety about recording, which makes sense. I mean, I just pretend I'm talking to the voices in my head when I do it by myself.

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

But other people have concerns and so I clipped her into the microphone. And then we just talked for a while. Well, in between the talking and the clipping and the young clipping, Leo saw a dog and a person. Who he's probably seen many times in his

Ellie Jones

life, lots of times, like

Kat Garcia

every

Ellie Jones

day

Kat Garcia

of

Ellie Jones

his puppy

Kat Garcia

life. And Ellie was sitting in a bench in like a camp bench. Very cute, very comfy. Not sturdy.

Ellie Jones

I love them.

Kat Garcia

And I was sitting in my rocking camp chair. You could play an excerpt of that. I should, I will. Insert an ext 'cause we have it recorded. We do. It'll be great. I I will add it to the end of this episode. So you walk in here because we were in the middle of talking about like school or something. Yeah. Um, and, and then all of a sudden. There goes Leo Ellie's struggling. Oh. And she's holding a cup of wine. I'm holding a glass of wine. Okay. And then he goes and Ellie's trying to like grab his leash and like hold onto it, but he's going just get a better, and I'm trying to get out of the chair to no. All of a sudden Ellie just goes flipped over All the way over. Like Yeah. All the way, all the way over. She ended up with about an inch of wine in her cup. Mm-hmm. Um, I'm

Ellie Jones

shocked by that.

Kat Garcia

I, I had wine

Ellie Jones

in my eyeball. You did? It was running down my back.

Kat Garcia

Mm-hmm. It was

Ellie Jones

everywhere

Kat Garcia

I had, I got, finally got outta the chair. I was like, shoot, I have a glass shoot. Why did I say, shoot, this is my podcast. I was like, should I have this glass wine glass? Gotta figure out what to do so I don't step on it and you know, cut myself. cause that would happen to us. Um, so I finally get Leo hand over hand and he comes back and he's like, I love everybody. He's like, mom, why

Ellie Jones

are you laying it on the ground? Whatcha you doing? I love, mom. Do you need

Kat Garcia

help? Mom, I

Ellie Jones

can help you. I mean like you in kiss. Give hugs because I love you. And then he spent

Kat Garcia

the next hour and a half staring at us. Through the window.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. He had to go inside. I was done. There's time limits. Yeah. Moms need breaks.

Kat Garcia

Moms need breaks. Uh, so it was very difficult. Ellie's life advice is if you are trying to decide between having a baby and getting a dog, don't do either one.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. Don't, don't bother. Don't. They're enjoyable, but there's not enough. Not enough energy for all of it. It's a lot. It's a lot. Um, but otherwise he's enjoyable. But he takes up a lot of my time and a lot of my energy. I took him today to run errands, which included going about an hour out of town one way. And we've done that trip more than a couple of times, and he just was like. So stressed. And I was like, dude, you have literally gone in the car with me every day of your life. Like every day what? He's a good car dog. And he was just like, I don't know how to sit down. And I was like, why don't you sit down or lay down? And he was so stressed. I don't know why. So I had to drop him off on the way home. Um, and then I went to Tricia's for a little bit and chatted with her. Oh yeah. Yeah. And then. I decided to come home and have a drink.

Kat Garcia

I love that for you. And Tricia just recorded an episode with me like a week and a half ago,

Ellie Jones

and it's really good. It's actually about being sober and I was like, that's on me. Not right now. I did do a large period of time where I was sober and that was a really good idea. It was a great reset for me. And, um, I don't know, I feel like I had some pretty good self. Awareness grow from that, but it wouldn't have come unless I had gone through that sober period. So I'm grateful for it. Yeah. Mm-hmm. Even though it was

Kat Garcia

hard. Yeah. What was the hardest thing about it for you?

Ellie Jones

I like the social aspect of drinking. Like I really like sitting down, playing a game or two and having a glass of wine while we do it, or a beverage of choice or something. I don't know. It just makes, I don't know. I just, that's what I like to do. It feels good to me. I enjoy it. Taste good. You know, I don't drink bad beverages. Sometimes I'll drink a cider, and I really like supporting local wineries and cider houses because all of our cider houses are gonna go bankrupt in Oregon if we don't support our local people more. Mm-hmm. So I've been. Purposely buying local things. Yeah. I don't know. Like, I'm just like, you lamb survive. I want you to keep Asian cider and, and I can't be the only drinker here, so God, I hope other people are doing this too. Um,

Kat Garcia

I feel like that is such an excellent summation of how I discovered the wineries that I like. Yeah, you were just like, we're going. I'm like, alright.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. And like we used to go to a lot of wineries and hang out and. Do like a wine tasting. A wine flight, and eat some snacks because everyone has different snacks or they don't, and then we'll never go there again. That's true. If you don't have snacks, because we don't have snacks, we're not coming back.

Kat Garcia

That's rude.

Ellie Jones

We're snack people, and if you don't have snacks, you better let us bring our own snacks and be grateful for it. And if you're snooty and you won't let me bring snacks, I'm not fucking going. I'm telling all my friends, no snacks. Don't go there. It's true. She will. I'm so, I'm so offended. You should. I know, I'm not gonna say they're mad out loud, but I'm mad at them still. Yeah, it was. They wouldn't even, lemme bring pre-made package sealed

Kat Garcia

food

Ellie Jones

in

Kat Garcia

and we were drinking and it was someone's birthday. That's bullshit. It was bullshit ing. Um, which is why I did call, so this weekend is my birthday weekend. We're recording the Friday of my birthday weekend and I decided that I wanted to double check and make sure that if I bake the cupcakes that I want for my birthday, that we can take them with us. To the winery and eat them. Bingo for my birthday. And I called Van Douser, who is not on our wine list right now, but we might add them. 'cause timing.

Ellie Jones

Oh, I like them.

Kat Garcia

Um, Trish and I have talked about them. They're great. We talked about the rose. We'll get to the rose, but they said that since they don't normally let outside food in, but if it's for like a special occasion Hmm. They would, I didn't know that. And I'm like, yes. Hmm. Cupcakes. That's nice and crackers, but we'll bring the good crackers.

Ellie Jones

Oh, I found all the Malibu in the cup.

Kat Garcia

Oh, did you?

Ellie Jones

I gotta stir it up a little bit.

Kat Garcia

Um, one of the things I don't, that's up a couple times. I don't drink

Ellie Jones

hard alcohol. I You really don't

Kat Garcia

anymore. I just was like, fucking don't you have that? Because we went. Somewhere we went to for away, for Ashley's, we did birthday weekend.

Ellie Jones

That's

Kat Garcia

correct. And you decided that you would get me alcohol in case I wanted my quick beverage?

Ellie Jones

That's correct. And I had mixed drinks for all, all the alcohol I brought you did

Kat Garcia

you did, you brought, you brought the, you brought the mixed drinks. I did. So. And everybody drank them. I was pretty impressed.

Ellie Jones

Yeah, we are definitely not in our twenties though. 'cause we would've needed that per day. Oh yeah, a hundred percent. Um, and we, I came home with a lot of leftover alcohol and I was like, eh, this is telling our age. Oh God. Yeah. I laughed. I was like, I'm okay with it though, because I didn't have a terrible time. No. Was great. Not even once. So no hang. I'm really okay with it.

Kat Garcia

Yeah. And I slept so good. I slept.

Ellie Jones

I slept a lot

Kat Garcia

and I didn't wake you up with my snoring.

Ellie Jones

I wouldn't have known I was sleeping,

Kat Garcia

which is great with earbuds on. But, um, Trisha and I were talking about this, how you have converted me.

Ellie Jones

I did

Kat Garcia

to drinking Rose. So since we're talking about alcohol, let's talk about that. So it's delicious. Why did you decide that was something that I needed to drink?

Ellie Jones

Well, I'm just saying if we're gonna share a bottle of wine, 'cause they won't just give me a bottle of wine by myself, which I think is rude. You're not wrong. It's cheaper to buy by the bottle and yeah, but they always make me order more than one glass or they just stare at me weird. So I was like, all right, fine. Bring me two glasses. Here you go Catherine. And you can get whatever you want, but pretend. And then you started drinking it 'cause it was in front of you and now you like it because I win.

Kat Garcia

Mm-hmm. I win at everything forever. Just not all the time. I think there was something

Ellie Jones

that came up for you that said that

Kat Garcia

Oh yeah. One of my Virgo things. Yep.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. No, I was

Kat Garcia

like,

Ellie Jones

yep, that's right

Kat Garcia

Uhhuh, I should get that. I should get that tattooed somewhere on my body. We all already know it. Nobody needs it tattooed. I know it's permanent in our brains. Um, I. I jumped into the, what was your first alcohol? Do you remember what your first alcohol was? Oh, yes I do, because mine was Long Island Iced Teas. This is God, two of them. That was my first alcohol.

Ellie Jones

Mm mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

Um, that was before my grandma got me drunk.

Ellie Jones

It's really unfortunate, but mine was homemade wine. And I tell you, I never thought in my life I would be a wine drinker after that. I didn't drink wine for. Far too many years after that experience and then it was a chore. I mean, my sister really went and tried every kind of wine with me and was so patient for like four years I remember. And I was like, I don't like that. When we

Kat Garcia

met. Well, we were drinking more hard alcohol when we met. Um,

Ellie Jones

it's 'cause Danny made martinis first. Danny made

Kat Garcia

martinis and we worked in residential treatment. It's so good. And you gotta have unhealthy coping skills in your twenties. Yeah. Um, but we bonded and it was great. But when I met you, you were drinking. Your wine of choice was whole cluster.

Ellie Jones

Oh, it's so good from Willamette

Kat Garcia

Valley Vineyards. It's delicious. We honestly, we should get a bottle. I

Ellie Jones

agree.

Kat Garcia

And try it and see if you still like it. 'cause I don't think I've had one in ages and the last time was probably with you. Oh, that's, that's probably fair.

Ellie Jones

I mean, we were think we were drinking like 2013 vintage then.

Kat Garcia

Yeah,

Ellie Jones

maybe. Maybe. No, it was definitely earlier than that. 2009. No, Jesus. Where's my brain?

Kat Garcia

I don't know. 2010. 11. Probably.

Ellie Jones

Yeah, I bet there was a lot. I have a lot of photos. I could go back.

Kat Garcia

Yeah. We, we have well documented wine picture. We do. I tend to take all the pictures

Ellie Jones

with you and I.

Kat Garcia

Yes. We even have

Ellie Jones

our own album

Kat Garcia

now. We do. Um, I like to take pictures of wine labels. Mm-hmm. That I think are

Ellie Jones

pretty. Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

Do I ever go back and buy the wine? Not usually. No, but it's good to know. I liked it.

Ellie Jones

Ooh, I wanna make flower art. We should do that on a girl's night. Look how pretty that is. We gonna do flower art? Ooh, that looks fun. We could put it in our

Kat Garcia

windows. Ellie is like the queen of multitasking because we're talking. It's 'cause my brain won't. It's true. Her brain, her brain needs to do multiple things and she's like, um, ticky talking.

Ellie Jones

I love the tiktoks.

Kat Garcia

She does. She loves tiktoks. I really do.

Ellie Jones

I don't need anything else.

Kat Garcia

She made me read, she made me actually go into the app and look at the tiktoks that she sent me directly in the app instead of sending them to me by text message, because that just makes more sense.

Ellie Jones

I'm not downloading shit for you. It's taking up all my space in my phone. And you can just get the app. It's free.

Kat Garcia

It is free. But then I get sucked into the, there's no wormhole.

Ellie Jones

That's your problem. It's so you set a timer like I do. I have to set timers. Or else I lose my day.

Kat Garcia

My problem is usually when I have time to watch the talkie ticks, I go, I'm knitting.

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

And one,

Ellie Jones

I have an automatic clicker, cannot for my thumb. That way if I can't touch my phone,

Kat Garcia

most, most people use that for reading books, works for your phone, and then works for TikTok. Never even thought of that. It's the same

Ellie Jones

thing. That's why I was like, I got one of those. I love that. I don't even use my Kindle anymore. I use my phone and now I got a little clicker thingy and it works for the tiktoks and I'm like, ah. It's my favorite.

Kat Garcia

I need to find ways to automate more things. When I knit, um, Ooh, the sweater looks like a sweater now. I love it. It looks like a sweater. It's gonna be great. Possibly. Um, oh, I don't think, uh, so I decided this year to make myself a sweater.

Ellie Jones

It's beautiful.

Kat Garcia

And I decided I wanted a yellow sweater. It's really golden though. A Yeah. Like a Goldie mustard. I was like, it's not yellow color. Don't say

Ellie Jones

that. 'cause it's

Kat Garcia

really not. Yeah, it's got like some different yellow, it's like golden. Mm-hmm. Yellowy. It's not orange.

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

But it's not like mustard

Ellie Jones

and it's not like tweedy bird yellow. Yeah. No, no, no. But it's really pretty like golden buttercup and it's very like golden buttercup

Kat Garcia

maybe. Yeah. Butter cup's

Ellie Jones

too yellow.

Kat Garcia

Yeah. We'll, we'll figure it out. I don't know. There's too many colors we'll put out to the universe. Maybe someone will come up with a good name. She got it off. You got from yarn, uh, yarn pdx.com. Go check it out. They're awesome. You can design your own yarn, which is what I did because I couldn't find one that I liked. Um, and so I ordered yarn. By the way, yarn, um, absorbs a lot of water and it ends up in a creek, as we have discussed. Yeah. I

Ellie Jones

what I do? Mm.

Kat Garcia

That was, that was an adventure. But the sweater is looking like a sweater, like I put it on yesterday. Mm-hmm. Because it now has shoulders and arm holes. I love that. And a head hole, but I gotta work on that. Uh, needs more room. Um, but we gotta figure out what I'm making for you next. You said you want a hat? Yeah. Yeah. You want the, the,

Ellie Jones

with the ponytail hole.

Kat Garcia

The ponytail hole hat?

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

You got color preferences?

Ellie Jones

Um, not yellow.

Kat Garcia

Well, that's all my yarn. I might have to order more. That's what I mean. It's like I don't want it to be matching your sweater. That's fair.

Ellie Jones

Um, we match

Kat Garcia

most other days greens. Okay.

Ellie Jones

So it can be a forest ferry,

Kat Garcia

a a forest ferry because I'm a forest ferry. Um, Ellie is a little witchy.

Ellie Jones

Yeah.

Kat Garcia

A little. Ah. What those, the fucking wis were burned on my

Ellie Jones

birthday. They

Kat Garcia

were burned on my birthday

Ellie Jones

in 1692. They were, I am offended.

Kat Garcia

I'm offended. There were not many witches actually burned at Salem

Ellie Jones

enough. Mm-hmm. No. They were burned on my birthday and now I don't know what's gonna happen, but I feel offended by it. Do we need to burn something else on your birthday this year? I don't know. I'm gonna go burn them in and burn the woman. I shouldn't say that loud. I'm not really, it's not safe. Don't do that. That's the alcohol talking. I'm not letting anyone on fire. That's not

Kat Garcia

safe. Oh yeah. No, don't talk. We will. We will not light people on fire. Disclaimer, it's not safe. Please don't do this at home. I was

Ellie Jones

like, don't, don't do that. That's a rock. I was just being spicy. You, I know being spicy. It happens. It comes out sometimes. I'm like, that's not real. I'm not doing, I just talk to smack because I'm good at the sch smack.

Kat Garcia

You, you are good at the sch smack. You've, you're also probably the person I know who has had the most, um, varied career of anyone I've ever talked to.

Ellie Jones

I agree. I have. I, I've had a lot of jobs. Big, big girl jobs,

Kat Garcia

very

Ellie Jones

different jobs, and just had a lot of big girl jobs for a long time. Like that's what happens when you were a volunteer firefighter. When you're young, like you have to be super responsible. And then that responsibility shows when you're working at like these minimum wage jobs and then you get promoted and then they can make you more responsible to do stuff, and you're like, this sucks, but okay, I can finally pay my rent. So you just keep going the manager route. And even though. It sucks supervising people at low minimum wage jobs. It's, I had to fire so many people and I'm really sorry about it. It was awful in there. Just rules that I just have to follow 'em and it sucked and I hated it every time. So I just hope they're all okay and I feel bad. I still feel bad to this day, but I had to make the restaurants run.

Kat Garcia

Oh, I love it. I just, you know, you got a task

Ellie Jones

assigned to you,

Kat Garcia

so you gotta do the work. You were, you were at one point the youngest. Firefighter in the state of Oregon. Is that correct?

Ellie Jones

Yeah, there's like a whole bunch of things like that, but I, it is weird. No one has that written down. They just say it. I have it in

Kat Garcia

my

Ellie Jones

brain, my classes,

Kat Garcia

this is the stuff that my brain holds onto. But

Ellie Jones

I took the last old training of firefighter one and two and now it's like a whole different program. So if you go to firefighter school, um, and take the fire science program, you won't get taught the same program I taught and. Mine was very hands on. They were like, this is how you know the bath so you don't blow up your hose and blah, blah, blah. And there was no books involved. You just watched the hose and you watched your nozzles and you watched your, and if it blew up, you did it wrong. No, you weren't allowed to blow it up. They got real mad at you. And then they would be like, no, no, no, no. Turn that. Turn that down. But I had some of the best people in my life as. Mentors and people who wanted me to succeed in the fire science career, that it was really astounding. And there's not a lot of women in fire degrees. And I, for me, I had to step out of it because of how mentally hard it was.

Kat Garcia

Well, you were also like,

Ellie Jones

I was very young, but I also had to like step out of it because of the loss that kept happening. And it's just a hard job. And I also knew that I couldn't really be a mom and do that job because you're gone for 24, 48 hours sometimes. Depends on the shift. And I couldn't do that. Not when my guy was little, you know? So I was just like, I gotta find a job that will allow me to be mom and uh. Then I become a therapist gal.

Kat Garcia

And I mean, if,

Ellie Jones

and I love it. Love it. I say that, but

Kat Garcia

like, if you, if you talk to your child, I mean, if he will speak with you, he's so introverted. He's, he is an introverted hermit. And I love my boy be all my, he's a preteen right now. So add that into the mix. But if you talk to him, he is, he's being raised by a therapist.

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

Yep.

Ellie Jones

We're doing okay. It's

Kat Garcia

doing real good. Doing well. Good. Um, do you think being a firefighter so young and having just that responsibility, how do you think that shaped the career you had, the choices you've made?

Ellie Jones

It shaped everything. Um, being a volunteer firefighter, it gave me like this incredible sense of responsibility for the community I live in and how incredibly important it's to give back. If you have the ability to give back, and that's precious, to be able to go into someone's emergency and be the calm for them. And I felt that every single call and I would just walk in and be like, we're gonna be okay. Everything's fine. You, it's this shit show. Yeah, you're bleeding, you're gonna be okay And have like this 16, 17-year-old girl just walk into your house and just be like, it's fine. What's up? We're gonna get this taken care of. Dude, thanks for calling us. Man, your driveway's long. Do you know how long it took us to get here? Golly, I got outta science class though. So badass. Let's get you on some oxygen. I mean, I was, there was so much bravado back then and I just, it was so funny and I worked with, volunteered with the very best humans ever and we all just like looked out for each other. It was really amazing, the brotherhood and the support and the good, the hard. Yeah, changes you and then you just always want that and you try to replicate it wherever you go. And each environment has their own environment and it's not always replicable. So you're always just kind of reminiscing of the past.

Kat Garcia

I definitely think you need to embroider on a pillow. It's a shit show. You're bleeding, it's gonna be fine. Um, I think that if we came up with that design. We could, I don't even know I could shit like that for you. I know. That's funny. That's why I love that we're recording this, but I

Ellie Jones

literally did say that. I'm sure Hunter and I used to get promoted to all the time, all those difficulty breathing. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And be like, oh, you wanna marry me? No, honey. Not today. Let's put your pants on. Why are you always naked when I'm here? You don't even be naked when I'm here. I,

Kat Garcia

I do enjoy lots of naked the stories when you were like. Fancy dressed up or stuff and you had to go to phone. Don't say that

Ellie Jones

when I have a drink in my mouth. I'm sorry. Oh my God. I knew maybe you were gonna almost snort it through your nose. That's funny. I was reminiscing about that. Maybe it was with you. Yeah. I used to respond in whatever outfit I was in. So like if I was at softball, I'd be, I'd respond in my softball outfit and I was. On the Linn County Lemon Warfare Fair Court. We are among royalty. I tell everybody, but she really does. And I have stopped telling people that story, but it is loud now and it's, it's, it's

Kat Garcia

okay. I tell it for her.

Ellie Jones

It was fun. I had a great time doing it. And the other ladies that participated in that were amazing and I have some incredible memories from it. So, but at the same time, there were more than. More than a few times, several of us would respond, um, to a call in our dresses and I'd be like, stuffing my dress in, my turnouts, getting in the back of the track or whatever to take off and I could hear our like. Lady that was coordinating. Oh, your dispatchers? All of us. No, the For the 11 warfare, and her name was Becky. And she'd be like, don't you run your dresses, take your off, don't get it. Bit with the hat. And she was talking about my fire helmet. I just cracked up. I just loved it. It was so fun. It really helped channel my desire for activity. And just funneled my motivation to do better in a really good way. And I really wish that all kids hadn't experienced to volunteer with the police and fire department because we need more of them. And it is such an amazing job, but it's so mentally hard and you have to be ready for it. And if we introduce people to it, I think it could open up the doors for a lot of safety for people that need it.

Kat Garcia

What made you. Not even pick, but excuse me. How did you come into Firefighter Volunteer firefighting?

Ellie Jones

There was nothing else to do in Sao

Kat Garcia

Ellie. Lived in a teeny, teeny tiny town in, uh, pretty tiny in the Li Valley. Yep. Uh, very small. Like how many people were in your graduating class?

Ellie Jones

The population sign for the majority of my life said there were 610 people in the city of Saio, and my family was. Five of those people, five of the 610. Um, so it's just astounding to me how long those population boards can stay out of data. 'cause I'm sure it was bigger than that, but I'm sure it's bigger now. But there wasn't a whole lot to do. We didn't even have a track, you know, like when we went running because of whatever sport we were playing, we had to run on the highway. Which is crazy. It's crazy thinking about that, but you know. Yeah. The nineties for sure. And they're like, don't get, don't get hit by. The tricks ain't coming. Well, no shit, Sherlock. All right. Good idea. Thank you. Um, so there really wasn't a lot to do and you can only ride your bike for so long and there's a lot of shenanigan. If you don't channel those shenanigans, then you're gonna continue to get into more shenanigans, which kind of means you're gonna live in a shit show. And I already was tiptoeing there and I just was like, I got a course correct. I don't, I don't actually want to mess my life up in some way that I probably could if I continue doing things that. I shouldn't do. I was like, yeah. I have not seen a lot

Kat Garcia

like Right. It's like, let's be, let's be as non-descript as possible. Yeah. You know, things like,

Ellie Jones

we're kids in the country and there's like, you know, the nineties, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. In the where I, I can't say it out loud. You have No, it's on recording. It's not

Kat Garcia

appropriate.

Ellie Jones

It, it's not appropriate. Do I need to say it? No, I'm not

Kat Garcia

saying

Ellie Jones

it anyway.

Kat Garcia

Ellie's from the country. Don't

Ellie Jones

say that.

Kat Garcia

That's how she says it. It's not true. And so if you ever encounter her in public and you hear her say, country, I just need you to know.

Ellie Jones

Mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

She's on her best city behavior. I am on

Ellie Jones

a good behavior.

Kat Garcia

Um, I say city behavior, I know a dork. So where was I? Um, we're talking about how tiny, small Assiah was. Yeah. So around the track.

Ellie Jones

So I started hanging out with. The fire chief who was newer at the time, and he had daughters kinda my age and they started school and we all went to the same school and church and everything because there's five churches in the town and like only one had a youth program. So I mean, there really wasn't anything to do but that, or sports and or work. And I worked a lot, so I was like, I gotta play when I can. And I ended up hanging out with. His daughters quite a bit. And so we'd stop by the, you know, the fire district office and say hi to chief and I was like, Hey, what are you gonna, lemme sign up. And he is like, why do you wanna do that? And I'm like, I don't know. It sounds like fine. You need light shit on fire. And he's like, there's so much more to it. And I'm like, nah, to this day, nah, you just light shit on fire.

Kat Garcia

If Ellie knows that she can light shit on fire, she's in. I'm always in. That's so fun. She's in a hundred percent of the time. It's so fun. My birthday, we're gonna have some candles. Are you gonna be in charge of lighting them on fire?

Ellie Jones

No, you're, that's your birthday.

Kat Garcia

I'm gonna blow

Ellie Jones

em out. Birthdays are different. That's not lighting shit on fire.

Kat Garcia

We're lighting some shit on fire. This little tiny cupcake is not the same.

Ellie Jones

Anyway, so I used to razz him about it and he was like, all right, well it's hard and you gotta start coming down to drill. And I was like, when is that? And he's like, Monday after, or Monday evening's, like seven to 9:00 PM and I was like, sign me up. I'll be there. So every Monday night for years I was down stationed six, four to five till about nine 15. Going through drills, learning everything I could learn, getting taught by all the guys and gals down there, and learning how to do a lot of work and save lives. And

Kat Garcia

how old were you when you started showing up for drill?

Ellie Jones

Uh, they let me fill out the application three days before I turned 15. 15. Yeah. For drill

Kat Garcia

or to start volunteering?

Ellie Jones

I don't know, 15 or 16. One of those. I think I was 15 'cause I couldn't drive. I don't think I could drive yet.

Kat Garcia

You could drive farm equipment but not cars. Well, that's

Ellie Jones

different. Yeah, because

Kat Garcia

the, I don't understand why that's different, but I grew up in the suburbs. I know, yeah, I know. They would

Ellie Jones

let us drive these giant combines at like 12, 13 years old, but we couldn't fucking drive on the road. Alright, sure. But yeah, we, I mean, but I got my driver's license right when I turned 16, so I must've, it must've been before I was 15 or when I was 15. And then. I was just a cadet, you know, and so I was just learning everything. I wasn't gonna wanna fire calls or anything at that time 'cause I was too young. And then at 16 I was able to start taking the classes and, um, doing more, yeah. Hands on. And I loved it. I really enjoyed it a lot. Yeah. And it just kept growing from there. And I really thought that I would do like a paramedic and. Er sort of rotation or something. I really like the medical side of it, but like fighting fire was real fun too. Um, and I was also like working full time at, um, a company in several different towns and I was having to drive to down in Newport and Lincoln City and all over several times a week and it was just so much, um. And then I got started thinking about having a family and started thinking about what else I could do. And I got my bachelor's degree in criminal justice administration thinking that I would do something like that. Um, and then I did a whole 180 and went to, um, work on my master's in mental health counseling. And I don't regret it.

Kat Garcia

You don't, 'cause you made me go to grad school.

Ellie Jones

I did. I actually just tell everyone to go to grad school, like just do it. It's awful. It's truly the hardest thing ever. Um, and. It sucks. Okay. And you have to drink. Well, I, I don't want a precursory for anyone, but it's better if you drink through it. CS get degrees. I have never in my entire life other than justifying the degree done 'cause it's, they graduated too early to confer it. Um, I've never asked anyone for their class list as long as they have the degree and they can prove it. I good. You, you should know it.

Kat Garcia

Yeah.

Ellie Jones

And if you don't, I'm gonna let you know and I'll find If I'm your supervisor Yeah. I'll know. You can only fake it so long. Exactly. And uh, so it was just really, um, satisfying for me Yeah. To transition that way.

Kat Garcia

Well, and you transition from a helping profession where you could light shit on fire

Ellie Jones

mm-hmm.

Kat Garcia

To a different type of helping.

Ellie Jones

I used to come out of the burglars with

Kat Garcia

metaphorical fires.

Ellie Jones

I used to get outta the burn to learns and check to see if I still had my eyelashes and rub my fingers on there and check to see if I still eyebrows. Do you ever lose either of those? No. But sometimes it get a little cinched. It was so hot. Oh God. I used to get steam burned. Ooh, your sweat would, uh, burn you between the layer of the turnouts. Um, 'cause it gets so hot and gets steam. Burn stink.

Kat Garcia

That stink. Terrible. Yeah,

Ellie Jones

it was pretty rough. I don't like those, those like the worst that, well, that's not true, but that's one of the most frequent injuries I used to get. Ooh, frequent injuries. That's what I mean is he is like, like, you're doing hard shit. You're always gonna get hurt.

Kat Garcia

Well, yeah.

Ellie Jones

Um, but yeah, I enjoyed it a lot and I worked with the very best people who really, really gave a lot. To participate and to do it well. And it's just incredibly hard, especially as a volunteer, 'cause you just never know who's gonna show up. And there's just, a lot of times there's just two or three of us and then we'd wait a couple more minutes and like maybe one other person would show up and we're like, okay, we gotta go. Let's all

Kat Garcia

this is what we got. Yeah.

Ellie Jones

Like we're rolling with two 17 year olds and a 22-year-old, you know, up with

Kat Garcia

some fire shit out. I'm on the

Ellie Jones

way. It gets very

Kat Garcia

exciting. Yeah. Mm-hmm. It sounds like it. Mm-hmm. I'm gonna pass on that. I was very

Ellie Jones

excited

Kat Garcia

about it. Yeah, we

Ellie Jones

um,

Kat Garcia

I'm glad 'cause I could not have done that, I don't think at all.

Ellie Jones

No, it's okay. It's not for everyone. But I do wish more people had the opportunity to experience it early on. 'cause it is so significantly impacting. Well,

Kat Garcia

I don't, I don't remember ever hearing that as a teenager you could go and do something like that at all.

Ellie Jones

I have so much bravado though that I'm just like,

Kat Garcia

that's not a lie.

Ellie Jones

I'll just, I can do it if I want to. What's, I'm old enough. Sure.

Kat Garcia

I, I, I've always said fake it till you make it. Mm-hmm. But until I met you, I didn't know. And this is not a dig, this is at all. No, I know. I know. But until I met you, I didn't know that you could do that and be successful. Oh yeah. Because if you believe you can do it. Can't. It's already done. It's already done. And you don't have to convince everyone else they're gonna see you do it. Yeah. I didn't know that that was a real thing. And then I met you,

Ellie Jones

and now later you can make a bajillion years later. Anything in your life if you want happen. I'm a big, big band fest.

Kat Garcia

Yes, Ellie manifests. I love it when we go places because I drive and she's my passenger princess and she navigates for me. I'm very

Ellie Jones

good at

Kat Garcia

it. She's very good at it. She's djj. You gotta tell me

Ellie Jones

though, if you're. If I'm supposed to be navigating, you have to tell me to tell me, because otherwise I assume you got it. 'cause I'm not in charge.

Kat Garcia

And we, we navigate differently, which we have really only discovered in the last handful of years. Uh, I

Ellie Jones

feel like that's a separate podcast in itself.

Kat Garcia

But when we drive places, um, I get the best parking spots if I'm with Ellie because she manifests Good Park. We're talking like, like every time holiday. Yeah. Time of your parking spots. Yep. We're getting the very best one. It's glorious. It's the one I want. I don't, I I I need to learn more of your manifestation, uh, skills. It's about being

Ellie Jones

in the right frequency. Receiving. Alright,

Kat Garcia

well I'll work on

Ellie Jones

that.

Kat Garcia

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Ellie Jones

That's another podcast we can talk about. I know. I'm, I'm big into manifesting. I recently challenged the universe and said, show me how good it can get. 'cause I was at like rock bottom. And then. And then it did, and I am still just like stunned every day since then and or the meds are working. You know? It's both.

Kat Garcia

I think it's both and it's literally be careful what you ask for when you tell the universe,

Ellie Jones

my God. What you got. Wow. Because you, you did that. I did it. I did. And I, I said it like a challenge too. I was like, alright, fuck you bitches. She literally was

Kat Garcia

like, you know what, fuck you. Show me what you got. And I was like, maybe, maybe don't piss off the universe. No. Maybe you don't say that to the universe.

Ellie Jones

God, I'm still stunned. Like every day. It's been a month and like a couple of days since I said that. And I am stunned every day since then.

Kat Garcia

It's been a very transformative summer.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. Oh my God. Yeah.

Kat Garcia

It's a lot of transition and it's a lot of, a lot of big change.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. And I didn't, it's a lot of big change that wasn't expected in any way.

Kat Garcia

Yeah.

Ellie Jones

I didn't, I couldn't for told any of this, even though I think. I was having a lot of body issues in conjunction with it, and I just wasn't willing to see it because I'm hardheaded What I know. I just counter it to like resilience, but sometimes being resilience is awful and like you should just prioritize whatever you want because you're replaceable.

Kat Garcia

Yeah.

Ellie Jones

And I think that is the grossest part of it all.

Kat Garcia

Yeah. And I

Ellie Jones

think

Kat Garcia

it's hurt my heart. It, yeah. It's, it's been rough. And at the same time, you have rediscovered something that you've loved, that you hadn't been able to do for a while. Yeah. And it's, no, it's not anything inappropriate. No. Could you outta the gutter? It's, it's a different podcast. It's different episode. Yeah. No, I am, I'll do that one day.

Ellie Jones

I'm just back to providing therapy. Yeah. And I love it. Like, it's not like I'm back, but like I'm back bitches. It's like that, like it's so, it's literally so fun. I, I do the majority of remote and there are some sessions that I'm like, dude, that was like the best freaking therapy session ever. I'm like, you know that like I'm telling my clients that and they're like, yeah. And I'm like, yeah, I'll see you next week. Bye. And it's just so fun. I'm just like, yeah, these people are amazing. And there's like, ah, it's just so fulfilling to see them be beautiful humans and to like try when I was surrounded by people who are beautiful, but I was also surrounded by people who. Weren't really trying to be beautiful humans.

Kat Garcia

Mind I say catty bitches. Those are my words. Catty bitches.

Ellie Jones

I'm just surprised. I'm surprised by it all. Yeah. I still can't like conceptualize it all. Yeah. I'm just, I'm truly surprised by the outcome of all of this, and I never expected it to happen, but I'm here and I am walking forward into a brand new chapter. And it feels right. I feel more in tune with myself than I have in a long time, and I'm ready. I think maybe that's the simple as it gets is like I just ready Yeah. For whatever's next, because my pre-designed life is no longer predesigned. Yeah. Everything is up in the air, literally, and I'm just like. I'm moving forward with what feels right with my sacral response and my heart, and I'm not gonna let my anxious mind ruin it. And my anxious mind has actually been very quiet, so I know that it's a good decision. Yeah. And I'm moving forward with like hope. Yeah. But I don't

Kat Garcia

know for what yet, but just hope, which is. Huge on its own. Mm-hmm. Having hope is hard, having, having a positive outlook of any kind right now is, is just hard in general. But yes,

Ellie Jones

I, I can watch some political things now, but I had to go for a period of time and like wean myself off 'cause I just had so much of a mental and physical reaction to it all. Um, it was dysregulating me throughout the day and I couldn't get regulated in like a mental sense, I guess. Like I was able just to go through my day and still like do the laundry and make dinner and all that shit. Right? But like, I was mad about the state of the universe and I was, you know, I'm like, I have no fucking control over any of that, so who cares? Yeah. So now I'm more in this like passive, just like I'm just a participant on this rock. That I wish everybody would quit ruining. Mm-hmm. Quit throwing their shit away. Yes. And Ashley Recycle Act. I'm still, it's fucking stayed in Nevada. I am never gonna forgive them. They don't even have any fucking recycling centers and they're the number one vacation place. Rude.

Kat Garcia

Ellie went until Vegas for the first time, time last summer, and I'm still not okay. She's still not okay about it. It was very upsetting. I got multiple text message was, was it last

Ellie Jones

summer?

Kat Garcia

It was last summer.

Ellie Jones

No.

Kat Garcia

Yeah,

Ellie Jones

I

Kat Garcia

think

Ellie Jones

maybe Tuesday. I don't even know. No, I

Kat Garcia

think it was last night.

Ellie Jones

I don't even know, but I'm never going again.

Kat Garcia

You can't say

Ellie Jones

never. Well, I still feel bad about the amount of recyclables that I left there and they're in their landfills.

Kat Garcia

We can bring in extra duffle bag, put, put recyclables in and bring them home and recycle 'em.

Ellie Jones

I know that recycling is not end all, be all, blah, blah, blah. I've read the statistics, I read the apple, but it still helps, but it's better than nothing. And it's like the number one vacation spot.

Kat Garcia

I love that. You just tact old fucking people on the pause. We call that edactly. It's what happens.

Ellie Jones

I get all mad about it.

Kat Garcia

Mm-hmm. It's, it's a good, it's a good uh, uh, energy release. It pisses

Ellie Jones

me off.

Kat Garcia

It does that too. Click, click, click. Well, thanks for, uh, thanks for chatting with me today. We're gonna chat again. Are we done? Yeah, we can be. Oh, we don't have to be, I mean, you know, we hit, we are at 49 minutes. Oh. So, you know. Wow.

Ellie Jones

Yeah. I, well, what should we talk about next? I don't, we always have a lot of things to

Kat Garcia

talk about. We do. Well, let's, let's wrap this one up and then we can talk again. Okay.

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