Fully Expressed Episode #44 - An inside look at my recent Retreat Experience

A special episode where I am sharing my incredible and deeply personal healing journey that I experienced on a recent Retreat in the Noosa Hinterland that I attended. 

You will hear the importance of attending a Retreat and what it can do for you energetically and physically. 

I open up about my personal challenges, reflections, and victories throughout this retreat. You'll hear how the experience provided me with new insights into the power of stepping away from daily routines to focus on healing and renewal.

I invite you to tune in and discover the transformative power of attending a healing retreat. 

Your path to healing and growth may be just a retreat away.

Happy Healing, Carla xox

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Welcome to Fully Expressed. I'm Carla, your guide and host to living a life in your fullest expression. The more expressed we are, the more genuine and honest we are with ourselves and others around us and the less likely we are to feel unsatisfied or unfulfilled with our lives. So it's time to stop hiding And finally overcome your fears around showing up and being seen and heard as the real you. Hello, my beautiful souls. I am so excited to be bringing you this episode of Fully Expressed and it is because I have a beautiful journey and. story to tell you of my healing experience. I recently just came back from Noosa on the Queensland Sunshine Coast and I had the most profound healing experience that I can't wait to share with you because of the magic and the outcome that has come from it is just incredible. So I'm so excited to be sharing, I just can't contain myself anymore. So I will dive in and get started. So I recently booked a trip away, obviously to Noosa, and I, the reason I chose Noosa was because I felt my soul calling me to a specific retreat that was being held there and the retreat was called the sacred remembering and for some reason I was being called to go on this retreat, it was also a celebration, continued celebration from my birthday, I believe I may have looked it around my birthday. and a celebration of me selling out my November raw, wild and free retreat. So as a reward, I booked myself into this retreat and I also contacted my mum. So I said to my mum, do you want to go to this retreat? It's, you know, a little bit out there, a little bit spiritual and I'm so grateful that she said yes, because we had the most amazing, incredible, heart opening experience and it has been really wonderful to be on the receiving end of a retreat and it has been something, the month of July for me was all about receiving. So everything I did had the intention of being able to receive and to be able to have this experience only continued that and really amplified that frequency of receiving because I feel like this is a It's almost a wound of the collective feminine to, we put up so many barriers and, and barricades around ourselves, or we are always in the giving stage, so we're always giving to others, we're always putting other people first before ourselves, and We all know the consequences of doing this because we just end up feeling overwhelmed, burnt out, flat, fatigued, um, all of those things where we just feel like we have hit a state of rock bottom or a state of flatline. And so the frequency of receiving was something that I went into this retreat with because I had already been working on it in the month previously. And I didn't really have any expectations or attachments Potentially I did. I had, I had one. So my only attachment or expectation that I had was around me being able to connect more to my soul language. And for those of you that have been following my journey, I recently have been diving into the world of learning light language. And light language is a universal. It's a language that is spoken that comes from other beings, other spiritual beings and it is a way of us being able to communicate from a soul level. So the light languages can be spoken, it can be transmitted through the hands. Um, and it can also be, um, received in the form of creative or artistic expression as well. So I have already been on this journey of uncovering my own light language and my own soul's language. And so I think this was my main intention for this retreat was to just be able to be more open to whatever that looks like. And It was amazing. It was really amazing. So, the first day we arrived at the retreat in, it was about 30 minutes out of, um, Moussa Heads. We were staying in Moussa Heads for a few days, um, on the coast, on the beautiful coast, and Already we were in the state of receiving and abundance because we had the most beautiful apartment overlooking, directly overlooking the ocean and it was just spectacular. So we also spent the morning before the retreat going to the Noosa National Park, which for some of you that haven't been to Noosa, It is a national park that is on the beach. So it's beautiful tropical palms and overgrown plantation and forest and you're walking along this beautiful track that is viewing out to the coastline of Noosa which was really beautiful. And so we travelled to this little town in the land of Noosa in the mountain region in the hinterland called Ninderi. And we got to the base of sort of where we needed to go. Stopped off and got a few supplies, and then we started to ascend up this beautiful incline to where our retreat was being held. And when we got to the retreat, it was a really steep driveway down and as we arrived, it was just the most spectacular view. of forest and nature and you literally really felt supported and you felt helped by Mother Nature. So the first day that we arrived we met everyone and we were welcomed and made ourselves settled into the space. We had the most amazing views out of our window in our bedroom. We had the most amazing views out of our bathroom, which was all glass and the most amazing bathtub. Uh, for those of you who don't know, I am a big lover of bath. spas, anything to do with water really. I think I am a, well I know that I am a water baby and because I have been renovating our bathroom and we have been renovating our bathroom, we haven't had a bath for six months. I am one of those people who likes to have a bath every week so when I got to the retreat and I saw the bath was in our bathroom I was like oh wow, I was so It's like a little kid. So the first day that we were there, well the first afternoon that we were there, we got settled and we embarked on some meditation and being able to really anchor ourselves into the healing space. And the retreat was held by two amazing women, or three actually. Uh, it was held by Karen, uh, Teva, it was held by the beautiful Tracy Stedt, and Katie, who is Karen's daughter, and I don't remember too much about the first day because the second day was where everything really kicked in for me, but we had a beautiful meditation which just anchored us into our energy and then we had a beautiful meal shared together around the table and just got to know each other. So the second day is where everything really started to shift and in a big way for me. I think obviously when you go to a retreat I think you already know that something is going to happen or you're almost there. Preparing yourself for that process of shedding and releasing, because ultimately that's what a retreat is about. It's about you diving deeper into that next layer of yourself and being able to connect on a deeper level and gain more awareness and more healing, more insight. So day two, I woke up and I was feeling a little bit uneasy and I think I was just feeling the weight of my emotions and I could feel myself, even before we started the morning, I could feel myself tearing up and just really needing something to, to come out of me and was just sitting in the healing space where we were gathering before anyone else was there and I could feel I could feel this heaviness I was really just trying to sit with it and just see what what needed to come up and I can almost feel feeling this resurfacing but it is just a remembering of what I experienced and The, one of the facilitators, Tracy, came up to me, and I think she could tell, she could tell that something wasn't right, and she came up to me and she said that she couldn't ignore it anymore, so she was obviously feeling what I was feeling, or she was being instructed to be able to support me, and she spoke to me. But she didn't speak to me in English, she spoke to me in light language, so she spoke to me in a dialect that my mind didn't know, but my heart did, and my heart and my soul just broke, it crumbled, and I just turned into a giant ball of emotion and tears and releasing because we need to be able to release anything that is in the way before we are able to receive and so this was really beautiful and allowed me to soften and to let my guard down to let my, my barriers down because I am a hyper independent and strong. I've always had this um, sense that I need to be strong or I need to be brave and this comes from a childhood wound I know of and so for me it was really about the softening and the letting go and just allowing myself to be so raw and this is where the magic happens. So after the first we did a meditation that morning and that really started the most amazing journey that I've ever, ever experienced in my life and after the meditation Um, where I cried again, we did an, we did an activity, um, which involved us connecting with ourselves, creating an intention and walking around in a figure eight around the crystals and really consciously being aware of what our intention was. My intention was to Forgive myself for all of the times that I haven't respected or loved or honoured my body and my inner temple because what I realised is that sometimes we neglect our bodies and we take them for granted and many years I've been disconnected from my body and this is also a wounding that I have become aware of that I created as a safety mechanism when I was a young child because it was too traumatic for me to be able to experience. So this, this retreat was a huge process of me honoring and coming back home into my body and really reconnecting to my body. And so after we did this activity we kind of just came back in and sat around in a circle all together and just went with whatever was coming up for us and it was beautiful it was 12 women in a circle and there was there were tears there were people expressing their soul's voice through sound, through light language. People that have never spoken light language before started to speak light language and it was the most amazing experience I've ever had in my life. But for me it was really profound because I have been learning light language for a little while and I have struggled between expressing the light from here, um, and instead getting sort of clouded or controlled by my mind. So my heart, my heart and my mind were feeling at war or a little bit disconnected. And in this circle that we were sitting in, the facilitators came over and did the most amazing shamanic Just allowing me to release that feeling of the battle between head and heart and allowing me to drop into my heart center and just express from that place. Because I have been expressing my sound through chanting, I've been expressing my light through chanting. sound and just experimenting with sounds that are wanting to come out. A lot of bird sounds, um, I have been experiencing, but nothing spoken. So in this process of me having this healing with the two facilitators, the facilitator Tracy spoke to me and she started speaking to me in Light language, and another language, another dialect, and I knew what she was saying to me. She was saying to me, she was touching my shoulders, and she was putting her hand to my heart, and she was saying, just connect to your body, connect to your heart, and speak from your heart. Speak from this place of truth, and love, and authenticity, because that is where your truth is. That is where. your most authentic essence comes from and this is the sound of love. So I did that, I really connected him to my heart and I just allowed words or whatever it was that wanted to come out and it came out in the most beautiful dialect of white language that I hadn't spoken before and it was incredible. It was really just incredible to be in such a remarkable space where I was held, I was supported, and I was accepted for being so unique in my sound, in my expression. And that is what it is all about. That is, that is the, that is what this journey is about. And It's something that I have been reconnecting to on a daily basis and just allowing or just playing with this new language, this new dialect and just seeing how natural and how easy it flows out of me. So my experience from this retreat. was really, was obviously about connecting to my body and coming home and worshipping my temple because this is, this is all we get in this lifetime anyway. And we need to really respect and worship our bodies. We really, I think, underestimate how powerful our bodies are. They are this unique, um, intelligence that, that hosts us, that allows us to do incredible things and have incredible experiences. So we really need to honor and worship our bodies, excuse me. Um, we also really need to, well, I'm going to speak from the items because this is what I realized at the retreat that I need to allow myself to feel, feel the pain and experience the pain because through the pain, we are able to release and process and let go. And then after that, we're able to tap into this. sense of inner peace and tranquility and harmony because we no longer are holding onto us or the restrictive feelings or the heaviness and it is just really beautiful to be able to go from a state of releasing pain to then feeling that euphoric feeling afterwards. And the other thing I think that was really clear in this, out of, that I got out of this retreat was that your heart or your soul and your mind don't have to be separate. They are, I think we, or I, I think I in the past have sometimes thought of them as separate or behaved as though they were separate where we might put the blame on our mind, or we might think about the mind as this negative thing because it forces us to be in control, or it forces us to, or it makes it difficult for us not to be present, not to be anchored in our bodies, and it can be hold on to negative self talk or stories that we tell ourselves. But when we are able to realize that the only reason that it's holding on to these things is because your body still feels that. So when you are able to release and let go of the feelings that you are holding and the emotions that you are storing or they're suppressed in your body, And your mind can let go too, your mind can be clearer, your mind can be freer. And then we can start to reprogram, we can start to recreate new stories, new beliefs and create new opportunities, new realities because everything comes from feeling and thought. So if we're able to create a balance and a link and a connection from heart and soul with our mind and our body, which we all know is the trifecta, then we don't have to carry around this heaviness and we can really allow ourselves to step out of the darkness and step into the light. The lights start expressing from a place of light instead of a place of darkness, where we are still hidden in our shadows or our emotional burdens or wounds or stories or whatever it is that you want to call it. And when we're able to release, we let go of that and we can just be, we can just be ourselves. Thank you. So, a little snapshot after the retreat and sort of integrating back in. We were in our little apartment and checked back into my emails and my phone because I just really wanted to try and disconnect from that as much as I could over the retreat. And when I connected back into my phone, I was greeted with the, a couple of emails. I had a client who booked in for events that I am hosting. Out of me doing the work and doing the healing and doing the releasing of old stories or old attachments to past beliefs or past versions of myself, I was able to access a new level of receivership, a new level of openness, expansion, and abundance. And this is why we do the healing work. We obviously do it because we want to feel better. And when we feel better, we put ourselves into a higher frequency, an upgrade of energy where we then become a vibrational match for whatever it is that we focusing our energy or our heart on and so it allows us to feel more connected to the universe and it creates a just creates more ease more flow and just allows you to tap into your true powers and your truth of who you are and what you came here to be and all that you are. So that is my little share. I'm just landing back into my world, my, my reality and I am just going to take it really easy. But, I wanted to share with you and just share the importance of Committing to yourself and doing the work, doing your daily practices, and if there's anything that you feel that you need support with, please feel free to reach out, let me know. I am always up for a chat and I have my free readings available. For anyone who would like one. Sending you all so much love, so much light, and I look forward to connecting with you soon.