I wanna testify...

In today's episode, I share a bit of my testimony, talk about my favorite verse John 3:30, and just share some encouragement for any Christian out there as well as reminding y'all that no one is perfect. Also, stay tuned for a bunch of new amazing podcast interviews coming soon!!
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John 3:30 “He must become greater; I must become less.”

2 Corinthians 10:5 "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

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Hey. Hello, you guys. Hello, hello, hello. Um, this was not supposed to come out today. I was supposed to upload a whole completely different episode that's unrecorded on Saturday. But the Lord has this word that's really heavy on my heart, and he just keeps highlighting it, and I want to talk about that. Um, maybe that episode can come out next week, but this one has to come out this week, and I can feel it. First off, I just want to give you guys like an idea of what's going on. First off, I am in my room. My room is an absolute mess because I was doing scrapbooking, so just picture papers everywhere. Um, I think there is an Xacto knife I'm looking for. There's scissors on the floor, it's really not the most beautiful place to be in. And I don't know though, there's something the Lord is working, there's something the Lord is doing, and it's so beautiful. Like at the very like it's it's a type of thing that our children or children's children, generations after us will look at it and go, Wow, there's something that the Lord is doing, there's something that's in the works. And I just want to share about like a bit about what's been going on. Um and Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit, guide this episode. May I glorify you, Lord Jesus. Lord Jesus, may you be the main focus, Lord. May you become greater that I may become less. For what I do is to glorify and honor you, Jesus Christ. Father God, I'd also like to pray for this listener. Lord Jesus, may you surround them with your peace. May you surround them with your understanding, Lord Jesus. May you provide them with clarity on your purpose for their life, Lord Jesus. Father God, we lift you high, we lift your name on high, and we love you. Amen and amen. Where do I start? I've been just talking to my friends, talking to my mom a lot, and something I keep telling them is my mom specifically, we were talking, and I'm like, mama, I keep being in this these situations where I just marvel because there is no human explanation as to why I am not qualified to be in certain spaces, and I am, and that doesn't make sense, and I feel and I am so unqualified. I am so extremely unqualified to be talking to the people that I'm talking to. I am so extremely unqualified to be sharing the word the way I am. I am so extremely unqualified to be sitting here and talking to you guys and speaking the way I'm speaking. People who know me know that before the podcast, I did not speak like this. There is a revelation that the Lord gave me through the podcast that I don't think I'll ever fully understand the weight of. Why am I here? There is no human explanation. I am trying to rack my brain over how I am here, why I am here, and how it is possible for me, someone like me, to be in this position surrounded by these people talking about this. I'm not qualified. That's just been what my conversations with the Lord have been recently. Like, I'm not qualified to be here, to be saying the things I'm saying, to be just doing the things I am doing. Lord Jesus, who am I that you would pick me? That you would choose me. I mean, I'm just like any other person. But who am I that you would pick me to die on the cross for, Lord Jesus? Father God, you loved us so much that you died. And Jesus could have easily commanded angels to just come down and smite these people, but he was like, No. That's how much he loved us. He had the option to, but he didn't. And I've just been asking the Lord, why is that? What type of love is this? This type of love doesn't make sense. This type of love doesn't add up. This type of love isn't logical. Like we do all these things to hurt you, and yet you do all of that for us. You would send your only son down on this earth, on this planet to die for us. Not only that, but because you loved us so much and you knew that we would continue to rebel from you after all of this. Like I sometimes wonder, does God ever just get sad? Because he's like, My people My people don't want me. My people hate me. My people are running away from me. My people are suffering because of this, what is going on? My children are suffering because of this. They do not know my own voice anymore. What's going on? Sometimes wonder does God go through that? Does God genuinely just I'm sure He does. I mean it's happened a couple times in the Old Testament and a couple times in the New Testament. But what type of love is this that it makes the unqualified qualified? And I wish I could preach this with as much weight as I felt it when this word was given to me, when the Holy Spirit shared this with me. There is so much weight in this, Lord Jesus. And I am not qualified to be saying giving this word. But Lord Jesus, you make me qualified, Lord. May you become greater that I may become less. I know I have prayed so many times throughout this episode, but it's because the Lord is doing something. He is doing a new thing. And it's crazy. It's crazy, it is beautiful. I see a generation that hunger and thirst for the Lord and I find it to be so just like we are searching for something more. We are searching for peace. We are searching for love and we are finding it in the Lord, and I am just loving that. And I pray that that continues. I pray that that continues, and not only does it continue, but it spreads. Like it becomes some type of infectious, oh, like an infectious cold, but in the best way, where it's spreading so quickly, like a fresh fire, and this fire is burning up everything that is around it, in front of it, behind it, you name it, the fire is burning it up. I want that. I continue to pray for that. I want just to say that there's so many times I've been praying and I've just cried. Like midway prayer, I'm crying, I'm bowling my eyes out. I don't know why. It doesn't make sense, but I'm crying. And I am in a lot of I'm in awe. I'm not in pain, I'm just in awe. I was listening to Gratitude by Brandon Lake the other day, and I remember thinking, Who am I? Lord Jesus, that you love me so. All I have right now is my hallelujah. Like all I have right now is my praise. All I have right now is the testimony of what you have done in my life and what you continue to do it to it and through it. Father God, I just A letter to Father God, I love that. I love that. I remember thinking, um, I am so unqualified to be here. Under what circumstances? Why am I here in the first place? Um because there was this place I was in and I had been accepted, and I was like, I don't deserve to be here. I'm not qualified to be where I am. And I think the reason the Lord does that, He puts you in places where you're unqualified is so that He gets the glory. So that people are like, Ain't no way that person got there on their own. There is no way that person got there on their own. That can only be through God. He must become greater, I must become less. John 3 30. And I love that verse. And I think there's so much power and so much oof. There's so much to it, and I wish we could just I wish we could feel the weight of it. Like I dare you guys to just read John 3. Just read it. The type of revelation I know that will come with that verse is insane. There's somewhere in the verse where um it says, Um, you know what, let me get it now. Ooh, okay. So I just wanna read this verse. Um so John 3 verse 20. Everyone who does evil hates the light and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. Let me say that again. Everyone who does evil hates the light and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. You know why? This type of God, this type of love is a type of love that forces us to become more, to become better. This type of love is a type of love that forces us to step out of our comfort zone so immensely, so crazily that it's almost like we don't have a comfort zone anymore. I am not qualified to be speaking into this mic and to be speaking the way I am and speaking into this mic first and to be sharing everything I'm sharing and to be receiving the love I am receiving. I'm not qualified for that. But the Lord qualifies me. I just want to give some context for John 3.30. Um John 3.30, he must become greater, I must become less. I love this verse, it is my favorite verse. I will complete to quote this verse. Wait, okay. This and we take captive every thought and make it admitted Christ. Those two verses, oh, I love them so much. But let me just give you guys a bit of context for John 3.30. So, in this verse, right, John the Baptist, his disciples are coming to him and are like, Rabbi, Rabbi, this preacher, the man you were talking to earlier, he is also baptizing near where we're baptizing, and he's getting more people to him. And they were so mad about this, and they had a whole entire argument, and John says that he's excited for Jesus. Just read the whole entire verse. I'm paraphrasing for the sake of the episode, but he's like, I am excited as a man when he finds out that his friend is getting married, and then he continues to say, He must become greater, I must become less. When the world is saying, You should fight to be better than everyone else, you should fight to be the best. The Lord is saying, No, I must become greater, you must become less. You know why? Because when I become greater, then I am able to take control of those thoughts. We take captive every thought and make it submit to Christ. When I become greater, there is a certain dimension you are walking in that you weren't walking in before. When I become greater, I qualify you. When I become greater, I will bring you divine people, I will bring you divine connections, connections and normally it's impossible for you to attain. But through me, through the creator of the heavens and the earth, of heaven and earth, of course the Lord can do this. The Lord loves to bless us, He loves to give us more, He loves to love us. But we don't want to be blessed. It's like the gift that keeps on giving. That's how I think of um Jesus Christ. That's how I think of the word. Jesus Christ offers this gift to you. If you don't accept it, then of course the gift isn't yours. If you don't accept it, then of course you won't receive the benefits of the gift. That's how I think about it. And I was like, damn. And you know what's even crazier? Is that he gives this gift to you. You might not you might not accept it the first time, and he will continue to offer this gift to you. That I just find that to be so amazing. Like he loves us that much. I am not qualified to be where I am today. But the Lord qualifies me. And there's a verse I'd seen the other day. Let me look for it. It's so incredibly profound, and there's so much wisdom in the Bible. I was talking to my friend the other day, and I'd given her some advice, and she was like, Oh yeah, you're so wise. And I'm like, No. It's the something I'd read in the Bible. Um, yeah, because it was literally the exact Bible verse I was reading, and it was about just judging others and how it's not in our place to judge them because we are not the just judge. Anyway, so Psalms? Is it Psalms? No, it's 2 Corinthians. Oh my lord, I love 2 Corinthians, especially 2 Corinthians 3. Oh my god, I'm that's literally the verse I'm gonna study today. I'm so excited. Like, do you know people who get extremely excited over Bible study? That's me. I'm the type of person I come back home, it doesn't matter how late it is, but Bible study is a highlight of my day. I want to know the Lord, I want to listen to Him. I don't just want to speak because I tend to speak a lot, but I want to listen. Anyway, um, 2 Corinthians 3 5. We are confident of all this because of our great trust in God through Christ. It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything in our own, our qualification comes from God. He has enabled us to be ministers of his new covenant. Let me say that again. It is not that we are qualified to do anything on our own, our qualification comes from God. That's that's me. And that is what I pray all of y'all become or all of y'all are, and I just continue to pray this over you guys, where it's I'm not qu qualified to be in this space, I'm not qualified to be talking to the people I'm talking to. Um, I'm not qualified to be around the people I am around, but the Lord qualifies me. My qualification comes from God, and I think that's such a beautiful place to be. Cause when you understand that your qualification comes from God, you walk with a certain type of confidence. Can I shall I say confidence? You know? Um and I find it to be so beautiful because we're surrendering all we are to God. Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these other things shall be added unto you. I love that verse so much, and it's something I've been studying, and it's something I declared over this year. This year I will seek first the kingdom of the Lord, and I will trust that because I'm seeking first the kingdom of the Lord, I know I will be at so much peace. I will be so oh yes, there's so much noise going around me, but when I'm in the word, when I am with the Lord, I am at so I'm so like mmm, you know that the peace that surpasses all understanding, the type of peace that doesn't make sense. I'ma share a testimony real quick, and this is a type of testimony that is like yo. So, um, has the Lord been good to me? Yes, he has. Oh, y'all. Can we just do this thing? You know, take a couple minutes if you're listening on Spotify. Just write a review. Not a review, but like on the review tab, write your testimony, just share how the Lord has been good. Because the Lord is so good, the Lord is so amazing, the Lord is so merciful, it's crazy. And I have a testimony and I'm gonna share it. And this is literally the day before yesterday, that's when this thing happened. So, um, I wake up middle of the night, I'm in so much pain. I have heartburn, my back had been killing me for the past couple of days, and it's just getting worse, and then my stomach is aching too, and I cannot move, and I am crying. I'm trying to call my mom on my phone, she's not picking up. Her phone was on DD. I'm trying to call my dad, he's not picking up, I cannot walk, I'm completely stressed, I do not know what to do. I am just like I'm thinking this is about to be the worst night of my life. I don't know how I'm gonna sleep. And I remember oh I'm gonna get emotional, but I remember the Lord be the Lord, the Holy Spirit um just being like worship. The Holy Spirit was like worship, thank me, and I'm like, Holy Spirit, what? That's normally how it'd be. Normally I'd be like, Holy Spirit, what? I'm in this much pain and I'm worshiping, but there is so much power in worship. So I'm in pain, I'm in so much pain, I can barely move, my pants aren't picking up, I don't know what to do, and I start singing Christ is my firm foundation, the rock on which I stand. And you know when you've just like woken up at night and your voice doesn't sound the best, and I am like the Lord, Lord, you have been good to me, and I'm just rebuking anything that is not of the Lord, you know? Like that, I'm the type of girl to be like, I remember there's this time um I was talking to a couple friends of mine, and one of them made a joke, and it wasn't the best joke, and I remember saying out loud, I was like, I take captive every thought and make it submit to Christ. That's the type of friend I am. Like, I'm not a John 3.16 type of friend in that that's the only verse I know. No, John 3.16 is an amazing verse, but that's no, I'm not the type of friend who just knows that one verse. I'm a John 3.30, I'm a 2 Corinthians 3.16. I'm a 1 Corinthians 10 verse 5. I'm a Psalms 119 verse 11, I'm a Psalms 36, I'm a Proverbs 31. You know, like please if you haven't read those verses, read them. Please read them. So I'm in pain and I'm like Christ is my firm foundation. The rock on which I stand when everything around me is shaking. I've never been more glad and I'm singing and I'm like Father God you have brought me out of so much and I am so incredibly grateful to you. And I wish I could put into words how good you have been, but I am in so much pain, Lord, and I know that you hear my pain, and I remember singing, and I am quoting Bible verses left, right, and center. You know what? Not just left, right, and center, top, left, right, center, and bottom. Like that's how much I was quoting them. And I remember I'm like, the Lord has not given me the spirit of fear. No fear is allowed here because I know that sickness is not my portion, fear is not my future, sickness is not my story. Yes, I'm quoting Maverick City. Um, please sue me. Maverick City is amazing. But genuinely, I remember just being like, uh-uh. Devil, you have no legal ground over me. You have no legal ground over my body. I am a vessel for the kingdom of the Lord. I am a vessel for his glory to be shown through, and you think you're gonna play with me? Like what? No. Don't you know who my God is? Don't you know who my father is? Don't you know the type of father I have? Like what? And I remember generally it got to a point I'm in pain, but I'm like, this devil must be so crazy. Like what? You genuinely think I would leave my God like that? No. So I am belting it out. I'm like, Christ is my firm foundation. I'm throwing out these Bible verses. I'm like, in Jesus' name I command my body to stand up. And I stood up. Regardless of the pain, I stood up. And I was like, good, stay there. You will be fine. Utequa poa. Okay. And for those of y'all who aren't Kenyan, because apparently most of y'all aren't Kenyan. Um Utekwa poa means you will be fine. But yeah. That's how I was. And I went up to my parents. I told them what was going on. We got some meds. I was taken to the hospital the next day. Now I'm feeling so much better. But I just wanna I just wanted to testify. Like, you know what? I wanna share some lyrics. You know why? Because some lyrics are so prophetic. Can I get an amen? Thank you very much. But some lyrics are so prophetic. And there's this song, um da da da. I think it's undignified by Duncan Oyakan. And he says, Excuse me if I get indignified, you don't know, like I know what he has done for me. And then wait, just just wait. The number of my scars are the number of my victories. That's why my praise can never be the same as yours. What? I love that. Like my praise will never be like your praise. There's something so beautiful in worship, and Father God, you are moving, you are moving, you are moving, you are moving, you are moving, and I love you so much. Like, you ever just get so fired up for the Lord? Like I'm sitting here and I love him, and I know that he's gotten me through so much, and I need to do an episode on like my full testimony. It's just that my testimony is something that no one besides my mom and dad, maybe my best friend, my mom, my dad, my best friend, those guys know about it. Um, yeah, but then no one else does, and it's crazy, and it's oof, it's something the Lord delivered me from. But anyway, um, we were talking about worship. There's something so beautiful in worship. There's like we all worship with such different posture, I guess. Because for someone they are worshiping because uh the Lord Jesus, the name of Jesus was the difference between life and death. For someone they are worshiping because God was there when no one else was. For me, I'm worshiping because I tend to I used to do these things where it'd pent up my feelings and it would get so bad. And I remember I'd be crying almost every day and the Lord was there and he would meet me at my worst, my broken prayers, where it was not me being like the nicest thing. It wasn't like the nicest. I remember there was a time I was like, Lord, have you left me? Why are you so far away from me? Have I done anything like what's going on? I was so mad. And the Lord met me when I was there. So when I worship I worship because I have so many scars and the Lord just healed them. And the number of my scars are the number of my victories. That's why my praise will never be the same as yours. Those lyrics are so incredibly profound, they have so much weight, they hold so much power. And I hope you guys understand that. I love the Lord, He's my refuge, He's my strength. And I continue to pray that you guys um love him as much as I do. And I hope you guys love him even more. Like, the Lord is so amazing. Can I get a hallelujah? Like, hallelujah, please. Thank you very much. Um Yeah. You never know, you don't know where someone's worshipping from. There was a testimony I was watching on YouTube, and this guy was talking about how he was a former gang member, and the Lord met him, and I was like, oh my lord, that is so beautiful. And then another woman who was saying that she was about to um abort her child, and the Lord just came to her and I was like, and she had an encounter with the Lord, and I was like, Oh my god, that's beautiful. And then Stephanie Ike's testimony where her uncle murdered her father. But when she's finding this out, she loved the Lord so much that instead of being mad at her uncle, she thought, What type of pain are you going through? Like she empathized with him when he killed her father, murdered at that. And I remember thinking, Wow, this is a type of love the Lord calls us into, and this is what I continue to just remind you guys. This this walk, it is not in our place to condemn anyone, it is not in our place to judge anyone. You know why? Because if you were in their situation under their circumstances, with their problems, you probably would be doing the same thing. Unfortunately, but you're not so don't judge a person when you have not walked the whole journey in their shoes, a whole journey in their shoes. Y'all just don't judge people. Don't I know there's so much like Christians trying to find people that love the Lord as much as them, and Christians trying to just get as many people to learn as much as they can about the gospel, and just Christians trying to minister, and I love that. I think that's so beautiful. But the way to minister is not to go up to someone and be like you are an absolutely terrible person for what you are doing, it is not to condemn them, that is not in your place, and that is rude and disrespectful. Okay. Also, just lead with love, you know. Ask ask the Lord to show you like how how do you want me to go about this? What do you want me to do? Like, you know, just the vibes, you know. Um yeah. Lord Jesus, we love you so much. Honestly. Um, yeah. It's important. It's so important to seek for the Lord's advice when you're looking to minister to someone and to tell someone about like how amazing the Lord is. And you know what I'm learning? This is coming from someone who's ministered a couple times and a couple times has done it the wrong way and now just leaves it to God. Just breathe. I know it's crazy, but just breathe. You are not the Holy Spirit. It is not your job to completely alter them. It is not your job to completely reform them, you know? To make them uh um Romans 12 too. So nope. It is not your job. You are simply there to tell them of God's amazing, unchanging love, his truth, his kindness, his faithfulness, his mercy, and then from there on you trust him. Like God, I've done my best, and I will trust you to do the rest. And I know that my life is in your hands, so I trust you. I know you. I know my God, I know how he works. And sometimes I don't fully understand it, but I want to know more of him. Also, I just want to say that if you're a non-Christian listening to this, us Christians aren't perfect. We're humans. We're humans saved by grace, we are not perfect, we won't always say the perfect things, we won't always act the perfect way, we won't always be nice. But I can say I don't know if it's everyone, I pray it's everyone, but I can say for me I am constantly striving to be the embodiment of what the Lord calls a woman of God to be. And I hope that's all of us just striving to be who God calls us to be. I've always said that we're all doing the best we can to be the best we can in the way we know best, and that was something I was praying yesterday and I got that, and I was like, just think about that though. We genuinely all are doing the best we can to be the best we can. It may not be the best way, but it's the way we know best, and that's what I love about the Bible. It provides us with what is best. This is the best way to go about something, this is the best way to talk to these people, this is the best way to help these people. The Bible is so highly accurate, and the Lord hears your prayers as small as they may be. Like I was reading through my prayer journals from maybe three years ago, and I had made the smallest prayers when I was 10. Oh my god, I'm 14 now, that's crazy. But when I was 910, I wrote it in my prayer journal for my 10th birthday. I was like, Lord, I pray for a squishmallow, right? And I remember I made that prayer so many times, and then the time had passed, I'd completely forgotten about it. And then last week, the week before last week, and my mom comes home and she's like, Oh, yeah, I found the squishmallow. Do you want it? I'm like, Yeah, sure. And I'ma give you guys just some idea. Okay, my favorite color is green. This crishmow is green. My second favorite colour is white. This squishmallow is green and white, it is extremely big, it's like a goat, right? My favorite cute animals are goats. Y'all, the Lord is so incredibly specific, and this is a prayer I made some time back, but it's just that where I live, we wouldn't have known where to start looking for a squishmallow. Like, it's just something that would have been so hard to find, and the Lord had the prayer, and he was like, Okay. I had that prayer, and I'm still gonna you're still gonna get it. Another thing is my favorite thing about I'm using it as a pillow, I'm using it as um a laptop pillow thingy so that when I need to do my work, I'm using it as my neck is hurting, my back is hurting. Um Yeah. Yo, the Lord is so incredibly amazing, and I just wanted to testify because the Lord has been working, not only in my life, in my friend's lives, um, I continue to pray that the Lord will continue to work in your life. And if you have any prayer points, just put them in the review thingy, or you can go to the podcast Instagram, keep it clean and describe the podcast. And just um I love you guys so much, and I will continue to pray for each and every one of you. It's been something I've been doing a lot, and um I pray the Lord just gives you direction on whatever you're worried about today, or whatever you just whatever has been taking up your headspace. I pray that the Lloyd gives you direction on that. Um yeah. I love you guys so much. May you be blessed. Bless and goodbye.