From Diamond Back to Coal

Joy has to be real. Not numbing. Not addictive. Not destructive while thinking it's self care. Whatever brings you joy must move you toward completion, not keep you trapped in delay. If it sabotages your ability to finish this phase of your soul’s work, it's not joy. It's the same old avoidance I speak on, endlessly.

You don't evolve high, drunk, gluttonous, greedy, or marinating in negativity. You don't finish the assignment while poisoning the instrument. Pleasure that disconnects you from your purpose is not freedom. It's regression.

When I say, "it's all you have to do," I'm not minimizing the struggle. Nor am I saying it'll be easy for everyone on this part of their journey. I know exactly how hard it is to shed underserving habits, fake ass identities, toxic people, and ruinous coping mechanisms that once kept you alive, but no longer protect or serve you today and your future. Throwing away parts of yourself that mattered at one point feels violent. But, the clock ran out long ago on overused excuses and the abovementioned things too noxious for even a dumpster. Humanity is overdue for real healing, not aesthetic healing. No more dipping toes. No more curated discomfort. No more spiritual foreplay without penetration. Do the work or stop pretending you want change. We're moving on to other acts in this play if humanity is to survive and elevate beyond the tragedy it is now.

This lesson is brutal because it feeds itself. You can't get better at letting go if you refuse to practice letting go. Attachments you were never meant to carry calcify when you cling to them. Strength is built through release, not hoarding. If you want freedom, you train for it and you do the things that free you from bondage.

This is a two part lesson because growth and release are equal forces. Letting go creates space. Space allows receipt. What you receive aids your evolution and growth. The longer you carry dead weight, the more it costs you. At first, release feels unbearable. Then it feels neutral. Then it feels like relief. That shift happens the moment you stop resisting the discomfort and surrender to it fully. Lightness follows honesty every time.

Most internal conflict comes from imagining life without someone or something you wrapped your identity around. Loss hurts because emotionally intelligent beings do not like rupture. Change hurts because it removes illusion. Grief shows up when release is delayed longer than necessary. But change is not optional. Your soul keeps moving forward while your ego tries to anchor you to what's familiar and safe.

You have unlimited potential. That isn't just a motivational platitude. It's responsibility. Strive for it or accept the consequences of refusing it. Do not choose mediocrity and then complain about feeling invisible.

If you are content being coal, fine. Be the best damn lump you can be. But if you're sick of being compressed and angry, do the work to turn pressure into clarity.  The world does not need smaller versions of you. It needs the most refined one.

Repetition becomes habit. I repeat because listening requires friction. Your mind reacts to what challenges its 'normal'. And if this keeps surfacing, it's because y