SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
First Time : plant the seed TONIGHT so tomorrow, I remember exactly the next step.
I am listening to this : Sunday, January 28th @ 11:17 PM
There will be an edited version at this YouTube : found another! to plant the seed for VIDEO since I made trauma 3-D (you can see it/hear it & I hope you think, "well this is different," since that's what I thought over & over, knowing difference/biodiversity/not being like anyone else is a good thing since they (everyone is together and a them & will not be using he/she---safer since I do NOT intend to idenfitysaid... <---there it is! The Miscue/The Trauma & now I realize, no. I do not have to make a youTube video. I have to find all the videos I made & are sitting in my computer taking up memory & trust that it's the right step since (1) I have #s back & thus finding these videos will be a lot easier (2) doing this may retrigger those times I did not have #s specifically being quizzed on them---specific dates---and this smirk since "they" (not identifying gender & identity to me is WHO YOU ASSOCIATE/IDENTIFY WITH GENERALLY so for me, teacher, animal activist
Why every GIRL knows what's in their closets unless out-of-sight/out-of-mind & the moment I realized, "This is really different!"
The question was, "How did I get married?" I'm not the type to dream about a wedding, a husband nor a family since that is a symptom of s.a.
S/V/P mentality (I think that's the platform) and tomorrow, I'll be talking to Mr. Baker who will let me know what he's observed since daily medical advocacy is how we connected because he was a patient at NWMH & did not trust the doctors. I totally get that! I'm interested to hear his perspective. I'm ready to accept how baaaaad it was, but only because (a) can hear voice---not shouting over theirs daily/multiple times a day/all day long (b) see face--most recent thing (c) comfort in body--since Oct/Nov 2023 as physical improvements greatly. BTW, this doesn't mean every day was better, but a frenzy of acute, sharp, "new" pain in "new" places, but since I know that's centralization & the fact, I can feel the facet joints in "new" places & Jan 15th 2023 is when "old" pain has finally not returned in areas I've been in PT for for quite a while.
The first interview will be with this PT.
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