I am listening to this : Sunday, January 28th @ 11:17 PM
There will be an edited version at this YouTube : found another! to plant the seed for VIDEO since I made trauma 3-D (you can see it/hear it & I hope you think, "well this is different," since that's what I thought over & over, knowing difference/biodiversity/not being like anyone else is a good thing since they (everyone is together and a them & will not be using he/she---safer since I do NOT intend to idenfitysaid... <---there it is! The Miscue/The Trauma & now I realize, no. I do not have to make a youTube video. I have to find all the videos I made & are sitting in my computer taking up memory & trust that it's the right step since (1) I have #s back & thus finding these videos will be a lot easier (2) doing this may retrigger those times I did not have #s specifically being quizzed on them---specific dates---and this smirk since "they" (not identifying gender & identity to me is WHO YOU ASSOCIATE/IDENTIFY WITH GENERALLY so for me, teacher, animal activist
Why every GIRL knows what's in their closets unless out-of-sight/out-of-mind & the moment I realized, "This is really different!"
The question was, "How did I get married?" I'm not the type to dream about a wedding, a husband nor a family since that is a symptom of s.a.
S/V/P mentality (I think that's the platform) and tomorrow, I'll be talking to Mr. Baker who will let me know what he's observed since daily medical advocacy is how we connected because he was a patient at NWMH & did not trust the doctors. I totally get that! I'm interested to hear his perspective. I'm ready to accept how baaaaad it was, but only because (a) can hear voice---not shouting over theirs daily/multiple times a day/all day long (b) see face--most recent thing (c) comfort in body--since Oct/Nov 2023 as physical improvements greatly. BTW, this doesn't mean every day was better, but a frenzy of acute, sharp, "new" pain in "new" places, but since I know that's centralization & the fact, I can feel the facet joints in "new" places & Jan 15th 2023 is when "old" pain has finally not returned in areas I've been in PT for for quite a while.
The first interview will be with this PT.
SmarterThanTrauma™
©SMART E MC
I am listening to this : Sunday, January 28th @ 11:17 PM
There will be an edited version at this YouTube : found another! to plant the seed for VIDEO since I made trauma 3-D (you can see it/hear it & I hope you think, "well this is different," since that's what I thought over & over, knowing difference/biodiversity/not being like anyone else is a good thing since they (everyone is together and a them & will not be using he/she---safer since I do NOT intend to idenfitysaid... <---there it is! The Miscue/The Trauma & now I realize, no. I do not have to make a youTube video. I have to find all the videos I made & are sitting in my computer taking up memory & trust that it's the right step since (1) I have #s back & thus finding these videos will be a lot easier (2) doing this may retrigger those times I did not have #s specifically being quizzed on them---specific dates---and this smirk since "they" (not identifying gender & identity to me is WHO YOU ASSOCIATE/IDENTIFY WITH GENERALLY so for me, teacher, animal activist
Why every GIRL knows what's in their closets unless out-of-sight/out-of-mind & the moment I realized, "This is really different!"
The question was, "How did I get married?" I'm not the type to dream about a wedding, a husband nor a family since that is a symptom of s.a.
S/V/P mentality (I think that's the platform) and tomorrow, I'll be talking to Mr. Baker who will let me know what he's observed since daily medical advocacy is how we connected because he was a patient at NWMH & did not trust the doctors. I totally get that! I'm interested to hear his perspective. I'm ready to accept how baaaaad it was, but only because (a) can hear voice---not shouting over theirs daily/multiple times a day/all day long (b) see face--most recent thing (c) comfort in body--since Oct/Nov 2023 as physical improvements greatly. BTW, this doesn't mean every day was better, but a frenzy of acute, sharp, "new" pain in "new" places, but since I know that's centralization & the fact, I can feel the facet joints in "new" places & Jan 15th 2023 is when "old" pain has finally not returned in areas I've been in PT for for quite a while.
The first interview will be with this PT.
SmarterThanTrauma™
©SMART E MC