SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, itās very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. Iām a school teacher (my identity) & said, āif I get my voice back, God. Iāll use it for good.ā These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
HEALTHCARE : 2nd go & this time, we don't wait for NWMH/neurologist to respond (are you going to testify or not? You said, "I'm on the side of kids with special needs," yvonne š) We do it LIVE (in-the-moment) since learned, they want you to lose it/die. S
I will update this process as it goes which is DIFFERENT than the first go---with Northwestern Memorial Hospital (NWMH)---since didn't know what to do mostly since in shock, but kept trying to do wisemind (make the best decision for you in the moment considering creative/emotional & rational/logical hemispheres of the brain according to DBT from NWMH, but to me, it's the decision to ALWAYS CONFRONT IT asap since I learned if you wait (even a day), there's more opportunity for "them" to deny, betray & abandon (how suicide thrives). Why, any container is a place to (a) practice speaking (b) hear self (c) contain the quantity --I think it's finally dwindling-- of trauma or drama rama from an anxious mama always asking, "Who pays?" (original rhyme), of ptsd or "p"ictures, "t"ouches, "s"ounds "d"disordered because they lain' (universal language necessary so we all have the same definitions for words connected to mental health which feel we're desensitized to & specialists abuse because have to just believe them [umm, no!] imho) & suIcIde (I'm capitalizing the i 2x to remind self when it comes to pronouns, I is always capital for a reason. It's a proper [noun]. Not a common [noun]. Working on removing the fact what "they" did was try to remove identity*, but they didn't wIn.
*teacher = mandated reporter/recorder of abuse & neglect [of power]
Definitions are next. That's composition 8 or "Words Way Better Than Great! Describe the Triggers."
Thank you to the person who asked me, "What are your triggers?" (before NWMH DBT/CBT asked me to do the same) & I finally figured them out---took 2 years---but I emailed that person & their response to it was "confusing" then, but now, with the behavior being repeated, I think I finally got it.
A little ptsDUH here. I may be a slow learner post tbi, but once I get it, I really get it.
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