I will update this process as it goes which is DIFFERENT than the first go---with Northwestern Memorial Hospital (NWMH)---since didn't know what to do mostly since in shock, but kept trying to do wisemind (make the best decision for you in the moment considering creative/emotional & rational/logical hemispheres of the brain according to DBT from NWMH, but to me, it's the decision to ALWAYS CONFRONT IT asap since I learned if you wait (even a day), there's more opportunity for "them" to deny, betray & abandon (how suicide thrives). Why, any container is a place to (a) practice speaking (b) hear self (c) contain the quantity --I think it's finally dwindling-- of trauma or drama rama from an anxious mama always asking, "Who pays?" (original rhyme), of ptsd or "p"ictures, "t"ouches, "s"ounds "d"disordered because they lain' (universal language necessary so we all have the same definitions for words connected to mental health which feel we're desensitized to & specialists abuse because have to just believe them [umm, no!] imho) & suIcIde (I'm capitalizing the i 2x to remind self when it comes to pronouns, I is always capital for a reason. It's a proper [noun]. Not a common [noun]. Working on removing the fact what "they" did was try to remove identity*, but they didn't wIn.
*teacher = mandated reporter/recorder of abuse & neglect [of power]
Definitions are next. That's composition 8 or "Words Way Better Than Great! Describe the Triggers."
Thank you to the person who asked me, "What are your triggers?" (before NWMH DBT/CBT asked me to do the same) & I finally figured them out---took 2 years---but I emailed that person & their response to it was "confusing" then, but now, with the behavior being repeated, I think I finally got it.
A little ptsDUH here. I may be a slow learner post tbi, but once I get it, I really get it.
SmarterThanTrauma™
©SMART E MC
I will update this process as it goes which is DIFFERENT than the first go---with Northwestern Memorial Hospital (NWMH)---since didn't know what to do mostly since in shock, but kept trying to do wisemind (make the best decision for you in the moment considering creative/emotional & rational/logical hemispheres of the brain according to DBT from NWMH, but to me, it's the decision to ALWAYS CONFRONT IT asap since I learned if you wait (even a day), there's more opportunity for "them" to deny, betray & abandon (how suicide thrives). Why, any container is a place to (a) practice speaking (b) hear self (c) contain the quantity --I think it's finally dwindling-- of trauma or drama rama from an anxious mama always asking, "Who pays?" (original rhyme), of ptsd or "p"ictures, "t"ouches, "s"ounds "d"disordered because they lain' (universal language necessary so we all have the same definitions for words connected to mental health which feel we're desensitized to & specialists abuse because have to just believe them [umm, no!] imho) & suIcIde (I'm capitalizing the i 2x to remind self when it comes to pronouns, I is always capital for a reason. It's a proper [noun]. Not a common [noun]. Working on removing the fact what "they" did was try to remove identity*, but they didn't wIn.
*teacher = mandated reporter/recorder of abuse & neglect [of power]
Definitions are next. That's composition 8 or "Words Way Better Than Great! Describe the Triggers."
Thank you to the person who asked me, "What are your triggers?" (before NWMH DBT/CBT asked me to do the same) & I finally figured them out---took 2 years---but I emailed that person & their response to it was "confusing" then, but now, with the behavior being repeated, I think I finally got it.
A little ptsDUH here. I may be a slow learner post tbi, but once I get it, I really get it.
SmarterThanTrauma™
©SMART E MC