SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
Documenting my notes verbally until I can get back to writing/reading/use of notebooks & working every day on a recovery of distracting, unrelenting & mentally taxing nerve radiculopathy that currently is hips down. Today is September 27, 2025 and things have significantly changed since use of Grok providing detailed analysis of a tweet.
The methodology will be presented in short videos.
This videos validate prolonged exposure therapy through video editing.
The objective is to end the darkness of SI (& HI when people hurt they hurt others) and change society by teaching self-assessment tools that quantify behavior making it measurable & thus changeable, identify sensory to remove stigma of mental health specifically ptsd & better understand what is a true support/advocate/friend to minimize "noise" (complaints; trauma-bonding when used to manipulate) & increase getting IT done.
Questions welcomed & help tbi to be frank by forcing me to organize language.
Sexualization, bullying & censorship is not & everyone is creating this curriculum. Those that are already in it, just know, I did everything to not have to repeat this verbatim, but honestly, I think that's the only way to end this faster which in turn, ends suicide faster.
Just write what you hear---like note-taking---and don't worry about grammar, spelling or readability. Just *GET **IT OUT.
STEP *ONE IS OVER
STEP TWO or REFLECTION is now COMPARE/CONTRAST [two admins; two philosophies in life. Give or take the most!]
STEP TWO is simply when ptsd ends, nothing really happens except something really does. **IT ends.
**Indescribable Trauma because you've described it.
SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
It's a new day! A new way to end trauma. Hip hip hooray!
Use Left/Right to seek, Home/End to jump to start or end. Hold shift to jump forward or backward.
This is the first time (of many times) I’ll be writing while listening which is the basis for the skill set, note taking. If I write something 3x, that means I heard it & then re-listened or it came in as an echo.
There's a link at the bottom for the rest of the audio/visual together
(:09) SECONDS : SHELLS
(:13) CHIME
(:26) : LArry LAbiak
(02:08) : drop seed for TV (say “tv”)
(2:12) don’t have to say which show (the thought popped up & that was ENOUGH SENSORY—all comes in at once, even the good stuff)
(2:53) threatened specifically, “if you tell the police, I will…” & “your family will believe me because you get dizzy” (IF/THEN statement). Also, continued by saying how sad everyone would be, but they’d understand. A terrible accident)
(2:20) 2 minute & 19 second X upload (now, all topics do no reverberate throughout body
(3:18) rest of 2m & 19 second X upload
(3:58) & (4:18) SHELLS—visual
(4:10) & (4:14) & (4:18) SHELLS—audio…………
(4:33) “gaslighting” (visual) “grandkids” (audio)
(4:40) “story of the cat” (but that can’t be true based on how you treat the cat so what I told the therapist after session one, “he lies.”
& so on & so on.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1r2LJtffeJtOeN2tEcutXwVtZ5t3VIM9sCvoyK4Mj73U/edit?usp=sharing
The Previous Steps in the Methodology
(1) GET IT OUT : reminder to speak since what they want us to be is (a) fearful (b) quiet (c) total acceptance of their stigma, denial & non-response (d) dumb
(2) REFLECT : when capable to "look back" on what came out & (a) think of one thing that was said/seen--record what popped up & this could be the trigger (b) decide which sensory it connects to. I found the intensity/frequency to be audio, visual, audio/visual then tactile which was audio+visual+tactile, but the severity (to do harm) being tactile & when I made a lot of items because my hands could not chill out.
The earliest reminder/cues/mantras after 2013 head assault. For 2 years, this was a physical recovery while balancing the HORRORSHOW in my house, but the purpose was to realize Neptune's abuses/sabotage. Was it worth it? If I get to share his story, YES.
"always pick up," when I'd see any hair tye on the ground. Kind of gross, I know, but it was a rule so if I saw one, had to stop. Look around. Timing since much slower, balance & movement since vestibular damage is the vestibular nerve (learned connected to visual cortex) is when the head doesn't know where it is in "time or space." Time & space become a poem.
"when you walk you stampede," since that was how I described the pain. Specifically great migration of elephants & was asked to describe the nerve pain in more basic terms like burning, throbbing, tingly. Animals are very important to this recovery since I kind of had to pretend to be them in order to get through these horrendous sensations or give myself the non-stigmatizing, non-judgemental acceptance to just do it---who cares---you're a bear & you're just giving your body sensation when you scratch it against a tree. Then "mama bear" popped up because I think that's what those parents thought what they were doing was absolutely within the boundaries of FAIR PLAY. What's fair is giving a child with special needs what they need to be successful! Like a classroom!