This is the first time (of many times) I’ll be writing while listening which is the basis for the skill set, note taking. If I write something 3x, that means I heard it & then re-listened or it came in as an echo.
There's a link at the bottom for the rest of the audio/visual together
(:09) SECONDS : SHELLS
(:13) CHIME
(:26) : LArry LAbiak
(02:08) : drop seed for TV (say “tv”)
(2:12) don’t have to say which show (the thought popped up & that was ENOUGH SENSORY—all comes in at once, even the good stuff)
(2:53) threatened specifically, “if you tell the police, I will…” & “your family will believe me because you get dizzy” (IF/THEN statement). Also, continued by saying how sad everyone would be, but they’d understand. A terrible accident)
(2:20) 2 minute & 19 second X upload (now, all topics do no reverberate throughout body
(3:18) rest of 2m & 19 second X upload
(3:58) & (4:18) SHELLS—visual
(4:10) & (4:14) & (4:18) SHELLS—audio…………
(4:33) “gaslighting” (visual) “grandkids” (audio)
(4:40) “story of the cat” (but that can’t be true based on how you treat the cat so what I told the therapist after session one, “he lies.”
& so on & so on.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1r2LJtffeJtOeN2tEcutXwVtZ5t3VIM9sCvoyK4Mj73U/edit?usp=sharing
The Previous Steps in the Methodology
(1) GET IT OUT : reminder to speak since what they want us to be is (a) fearful (b) quiet (c) total acceptance of their stigma, denial & non-response (d) dumb
(2) REFLECT : when capable to "look back" on what came out & (a) think of one thing that was said/seen--record what popped up & this could be the trigger (b) decide which sensory it connects to. I found the intensity/frequency to be audio, visual, audio/visual then tactile which was audio+visual+tactile, but the severity (to do harm) being tactile & when I made a lot of items because my hands could not chill out.
The earliest reminder/cues/mantras after 2013 head assault. For 2 years, this was a physical recovery while balancing the HORRORSHOW in my house, but the purpose was to realize Neptune's abuses/sabotage. Was it worth it? If I get to share his story, YES.
"always pick up," when I'd see any hair tye on the ground. Kind of gross, I know, but it was a rule so if I saw one, had to stop. Look around. Timing since much slower, balance & movement since vestibular damage is the vestibular nerve (learned connected to visual cortex) is when the head doesn't know where it is in "time or space." Time & space become a poem.
"when you walk you stampede," since that was how I described the pain. Specifically great migration of elephants & was asked to describe the nerve pain in more basic terms like burning, throbbing, tingly. Animals are very important to this recovery since I kind of had to pretend to be them in order to get through these horrendous sensations or give myself the non-stigmatizing, non-judgemental acceptance to just do it---who cares---you're a bear & you're just giving your body sensation when you scratch it against a tree. Then "mama bear" popped up because I think that's what those parents thought what they were doing was absolutely within the boundaries of FAIR PLAY. What's fair is giving a child with special needs what they need to be successful! Like a classroom!
This is the first time (of many times) I’ll be writing while listening which is the basis for the skill set, note taking. If I write something 3x, that means I heard it & then re-listened or it came in as an echo.
There's a link at the bottom for the rest of the audio/visual together
(:09) SECONDS : SHELLS
(:13) CHIME
(:26) : LArry LAbiak
(02:08) : drop seed for TV (say “tv”)
(2:12) don’t have to say which show (the thought popped up & that was ENOUGH SENSORY—all comes in at once, even the good stuff)
(2:53) threatened specifically, “if you tell the police, I will…” & “your family will believe me because you get dizzy” (IF/THEN statement). Also, continued by saying how sad everyone would be, but they’d understand. A terrible accident)
(2:20) 2 minute & 19 second X upload (now, all topics do no reverberate throughout body
(3:18) rest of 2m & 19 second X upload
(3:58) & (4:18) SHELLS—visual
(4:10) & (4:14) & (4:18) SHELLS—audio…………
(4:33) “gaslighting” (visual) “grandkids” (audio)
(4:40) “story of the cat” (but that can’t be true based on how you treat the cat so what I told the therapist after session one, “he lies.”
& so on & so on.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1r2LJtffeJtOeN2tEcutXwVtZ5t3VIM9sCvoyK4Mj73U/edit?usp=sharing
The Previous Steps in the Methodology
(1) GET IT OUT : reminder to speak since what they want us to be is (a) fearful (b) quiet (c) total acceptance of their stigma, denial & non-response (d) dumb
(2) REFLECT : when capable to "look back" on what came out & (a) think of one thing that was said/seen--record what popped up & this could be the trigger (b) decide which sensory it connects to. I found the intensity/frequency to be audio, visual, audio/visual then tactile which was audio+visual+tactile, but the severity (to do harm) being tactile & when I made a lot of items because my hands could not chill out.
The earliest reminder/cues/mantras after 2013 head assault. For 2 years, this was a physical recovery while balancing the HORRORSHOW in my house, but the purpose was to realize Neptune's abuses/sabotage. Was it worth it? If I get to share his story, YES.
"always pick up," when I'd see any hair tye on the ground. Kind of gross, I know, but it was a rule so if I saw one, had to stop. Look around. Timing since much slower, balance & movement since vestibular damage is the vestibular nerve (learned connected to visual cortex) is when the head doesn't know where it is in "time or space." Time & space become a poem.
"when you walk you stampede," since that was how I described the pain. Specifically great migration of elephants & was asked to describe the nerve pain in more basic terms like burning, throbbing, tingly. Animals are very important to this recovery since I kind of had to pretend to be them in order to get through these horrendous sensations or give myself the non-stigmatizing, non-judgemental acceptance to just do it---who cares---you're a bear & you're just giving your body sensation when you scratch it against a tree. Then "mama bear" popped up because I think that's what those parents thought what they were doing was absolutely within the boundaries of FAIR PLAY. What's fair is giving a child with special needs what they need to be successful! Like a classroom!