SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
Documenting my notes verbally until I can get back to writing/reading/use of notebooks & working every day on a recovery of distracting, unrelenting & mentally taxing nerve radiculopathy that currently is hips down. Today is September 27, 2025 and things have significantly changed since use of Grok providing detailed analysis of a tweet.
The methodology will be presented in short videos.
This videos validate prolonged exposure therapy through video editing.
The objective is to end the darkness of SI (& HI when people hurt they hurt others) and change society by teaching self-assessment tools that quantify behavior making it measurable & thus changeable, identify sensory to remove stigma of mental health specifically ptsd & better understand what is a true support/advocate/friend to minimize "noise" (complaints; trauma-bonding when used to manipulate) & increase getting IT done.
Questions welcomed & help tbi to be frank by forcing me to organize language.
Sexualization, bullying & censorship is not & everyone is creating this curriculum. Those that are already in it, just know, I did everything to not have to repeat this verbatim, but honestly, I think that's the only way to end this faster which in turn, ends suicide faster.
Just write what you hear---like note-taking---and don't worry about grammar, spelling or readability. Just *GET **IT OUT.
STEP *ONE IS OVER
STEP TWO or REFLECTION is now COMPARE/CONTRAST [two admins; two philosophies in life. Give or take the most!]
STEP TWO is simply when ptsd ends, nothing really happens except something really does. **IT ends.
**Indescribable Trauma because you've described it.
SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
DECEMBER 10, 2024 | reading study guide
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This morning I spent 2 hours creating a final video and have spent 20 hours or more listening to this, knowing it's 100% safe (no triggers are here) since the focus is a study guide. Something I know intrinsically & yet, struggled, but best to struggle with those that are SAFE who never even think to take advantage.
This is PART ONE.
Learning what I did about how to do this project if I have a clear objective : create a study guide, use this as the CONTAINER to hold "the good stuff" just in case it's so good, it reminds me of all the people who will suffer and continue to since that's suicide, too. What a world.
I can already tel the emotion about this is gone, instead memories of the emotion as I watch & hear self since every time, I'm transported back to this moment under so much duress, I knew, it's happening again.
The words "what's happening?" in some of these apps enough to transport. STOP. said this word twice. Nothing connected to that word so first time noticing a repetition without HER, the none who repeated herself to the point where, "wait, it's an act." You're ACTING.
PLAYING DUH.
BOY duh. GIRL duh. Now, WOMAN duh. Finally principal, duh. The worst since it's obvious they've done this before & why the question after the winter assembly was, "have you ever gone through this before." I said no. I was truthful and perhaps I should've said, YEA. I'm 100% AWARE OF WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO DO & NOW THAT IT'S DONE. YOU CAN'T UNDO IT & why the lesson is, never be in anyone's ptsd & why I work really hard every day ensuring others have an opportunity for one act of unconditional kindness to remove all the conditional kindness---yikes. Just didn't know it then.
GOT IT.
It really did work.