SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
DECEMBER 10, 2024 | reading study guide
This morning I spent 2 hours creating a final video and have spent 20 hours or more listening to this, knowing it's 100% safe (no triggers are here) since the focus is a study guide. Something I know intrinsically & yet, struggled, but best to struggle with those that are SAFE who never even think to take advantage.
This is PART ONE.
Learning what I did about how to do this project if I have a clear objective : create a study guide, use this as the CONTAINER to hold "the good stuff" just in case it's so good, it reminds me of all the people who will suffer and continue to since that's suicide, too. What a world.
I can already tel the emotion about this is gone, instead memories of the emotion as I watch & hear self since every time, I'm transported back to this moment under so much duress, I knew, it's happening again.
The words "what's happening?" in some of these apps enough to transport. STOP. said this word twice. Nothing connected to that word so first time noticing a repetition without HER, the none who repeated herself to the point where, "wait, it's an act." You're ACTING.
PLAYING DUH.
BOY duh. GIRL duh. Now, WOMAN duh. Finally principal, duh. The worst since it's obvious they've done this before & why the question after the winter assembly was, "have you ever gone through this before." I said no. I was truthful and perhaps I should've said, YEA. I'm 100% AWARE OF WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO DO & NOW THAT IT'S DONE. YOU CAN'T UNDO IT & why the lesson is, never be in anyone's ptsd & why I work really hard every day ensuring others have an opportunity for one act of unconditional kindness to remove all the conditional kindness---yikes. Just didn't know it then.
GOT IT.
It really did work.