SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
PART ONE | woke up, had thoughts, said them in ~50 to realize the first sentence in 9 compositions, but gotta know the FIRST ONE FIRST
First one is the Love Letter or Thank You Note to someone (or something) that helped you & the first composition is so SAY THANK YOU to those DURING THEIR WORST TO THOSE IN THEIR WORST MOMENTS.
Without you, seeing how you think, the worst, I would not have believed it. For me, an advocate to assess a support system for people whether it be individuals in the ER after s/a, homeless who were the most at-risk population that I decided to help now walking to NWMH & the first people (after dogs) I said hello, too (first words that weren't me reporting to my doctors/specialists) or individuals with acute SI (suicidal inclinations) or addictions, TO SEE HOW THEY SEE IT WAS INVALUABLE.
Take the shock out, but also why the words I hear most, "no one cares." When you say, "I care," how to make that concrete so it's felt & believed & able to relive? I have the solution. To make better memories over the worst ones, but only if that person has memories or if the trauma is so great, it truly is survival in the moments day-by-day.
There are TWO GROUPS | the one who fake mental health & the ones who are definitely experiencing it (for real) & to know how to react to each, first assess WHO THEY ARE & WHAT IS IN THEIR HEART*
*This is a person who I connected with, downloading What's App for the first time since there was a child with special needs (neuro-atypical in trouble) & I had to connect, but it was all to use me for... yea.. Like I've stated 100x before. I can't not follow through. This is advocacy & whatever I had in my life, like with education, I put into, & thankfully you do get back.