SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
PART TWO | spontaneous conversation is littered throughout
Being in survival mode all the time, you notice any big or little differences.
When this person who barely talks to me, had a phone conversation trying to gaslight me on the night previous when they ditched someone I knew long before I met them for the bullying---wow---the things said are in YouTube, bits-and-pieces and since ahead of that trauma (not reliving it in sensory) I will not explain it here, but if you find it, it's a doozy---also said out-of-the-blue the very thing repeated in this wedding circuits of bachelors and bachelorettes, I realized, that's what it's all about. THEY EXPLAINED IT & possibly why that person was sick & I was asked to join, but they lied---oh, we thought about it---we really want you to be part of it when I just knew someone got sick. Had nothing to do with me at all.
Lying to face 2x. First time, the principal walking away from the question, "Where's the classroom for my students?" So that NON-RESPONSE is obviously a response.
FENG is not the original closure cunt because they don't want closure---they want to see you trigger & for her, this professional, the weaker member of the NWMH staff imho was so bad, so basically exposed the entire system since she lied about attendance. Changed her mind---said nothing---when I said, "we already discussed this & was told I don't have to attend individualized theory to attend DBT/CBT" & now I'm told, there's been a policy change. What? Is that why you waited 2 months to get back to me so that your booty was covered?
This is abuse NMWH. Why I used the F word---fraud. Now, onto the people who warned me, felt stuck in situations that were making their lives worse as they shared self-harming & I'm horrified. In addition, eating an entire jar of jam for food that day (what!?) & crocs (no socks) in winter were clues, hey! Help these people get proper substance & clothing, the basic needs & the response to one of the worst cutting stories ever & an individual sharing how a neighbor keeps making thunking sounds & it's driving her batty was the exact same words, tone & delivery "You did an excellent job describing. Next?"
You think you'd at least try to respond as if you were listening & why I decided not to share the cuts & burns from fine motor, but instead cooked every day "to dampen" & not lose that skill as it was getting worse & how cooking for the homeless became the foundation for MY ADVOCACY. I told all of them---you are creating the advocacy for me.