SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
Documenting my notes verbally until I can get back to writing/reading/use of notebooks & working every day on a recovery of distracting, unrelenting & mentally taxing nerve radiculopathy that currently is hips down. Today is September 27, 2025 and things have significantly changed since use of Grok providing detailed analysis of a tweet.
The methodology will be presented in short videos.
This videos validate prolonged exposure therapy through video editing.
The objective is to end the darkness of SI (& HI when people hurt they hurt others) and change society by teaching self-assessment tools that quantify behavior making it measurable & thus changeable, identify sensory to remove stigma of mental health specifically ptsd & better understand what is a true support/advocate/friend to minimize "noise" (complaints; trauma-bonding when used to manipulate) & increase getting IT done.
Questions welcomed & help tbi to be frank by forcing me to organize language.
Sexualization, bullying & censorship is not & everyone is creating this curriculum. Those that are already in it, just know, I did everything to not have to repeat this verbatim, but honestly, I think that's the only way to end this faster which in turn, ends suicide faster.
Just write what you hear---like note-taking---and don't worry about grammar, spelling or readability. Just *GET **IT OUT.
STEP *ONE IS OVER
STEP TWO or REFLECTION is now COMPARE/CONTRAST [two admins; two philosophies in life. Give or take the most!]
STEP TWO is simply when ptsd ends, nothing really happens except something really does. **IT ends.
**Indescribable Trauma because you've described it.
SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
PART TWO | spontaneous conversation is littered throughout
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Being in survival mode all the time, you notice any big or little differences.
When this person who barely talks to me, had a phone conversation trying to gaslight me on the night previous when they ditched someone I knew long before I met them for the bullying---wow---the things said are in YouTube, bits-and-pieces and since ahead of that trauma (not reliving it in sensory) I will not explain it here, but if you find it, it's a doozy---also said out-of-the-blue the very thing repeated in this wedding circuits of bachelors and bachelorettes, I realized, that's what it's all about. THEY EXPLAINED IT & possibly why that person was sick & I was asked to join, but they lied---oh, we thought about it---we really want you to be part of it when I just knew someone got sick. Had nothing to do with me at all.
Lying to face 2x. First time, the principal walking away from the question, "Where's the classroom for my students?" So that NON-RESPONSE is obviously a response.
FENG is not the original closure cunt because they don't want closure---they want to see you trigger & for her, this professional, the weaker member of the NWMH staff imho was so bad, so basically exposed the entire system since she lied about attendance. Changed her mind---said nothing---when I said, "we already discussed this & was told I don't have to attend individualized theory to attend DBT/CBT" & now I'm told, there's been a policy change. What? Is that why you waited 2 months to get back to me so that your booty was covered?
This is abuse NMWH. Why I used the F word---fraud. Now, onto the people who warned me, felt stuck in situations that were making their lives worse as they shared self-harming & I'm horrified. In addition, eating an entire jar of jam for food that day (what!?) & crocs (no socks) in winter were clues, hey! Help these people get proper substance & clothing, the basic needs & the response to one of the worst cutting stories ever & an individual sharing how a neighbor keeps making thunking sounds & it's driving her batty was the exact same words, tone & delivery "You did an excellent job describing. Next?"
You think you'd at least try to respond as if you were listening & why I decided not to share the cuts & burns from fine motor, but instead cooked every day "to dampen" & not lose that skill as it was getting worse & how cooking for the homeless became the foundation for MY ADVOCACY. I told all of them---you are creating the advocacy for me.