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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
Today is September 17, 2025 & two people in two days have said, "you sound different" & then explained. There's that difference again. WHY difference is a good thing [if you want to assess self & keep POWERFUL data]
PTSD ended YESTERDAY (yes, it's a song, but I couldn't hear it) Luckily, my guitar was tuned by someone who is a very very very big fan and they popped up, & guess what? Their trauma drama rama is gone. Geez. The things people do to each other and let's start with the parents & the complaints & the women.
I met a woman in college riding a bus in Chicago. She was smiling & just staring & I decided to ask her why.
Numbers in seCUREd.
Getting out the house seCUREd.
Suicide GONE (last episode | BEGAN ~5 weeks ago; 1-3x/day; 4-6x/week) | prompting event, asked to show up within 1.5 hours, using email to communicate and relived me dropping everything to support "friends" and them using the words. The last one---was a doozy---she was ghosted. I thought it was an s/a given the WORDS/EMOTION on the phone)
Sharing websites containing words (whatever bubbles up) connected to images (to remove non-consent) & videos that was prolonged exposure therapy (2 years creating before neuropsychologist Woosen Song, UIC, let me know, "ohhh, this is what you're doing. You need a trauma specific program") and a conversation about what PE or PET is that made me realize, ok. I hear you. "Just keep doing what you're doing."
Going back to that trauma program in Chicago that imho doesn't exist without taking care of loved ones, fully holistic, research-based facilitated by individuals who have desire, knowledge, or simply REAL CARE.
The most frequent phrase I hear with those in suicidal situations is, "NO ONE CARES" & why my life has been guided by ensuring others have undeniable evidence that I CARE. My words, my actions & unwavering reminder that I'm the same person in every environment so just replicate it one time LIVE. That's what I'm doing so my support team is what I wrote, what I said & the www to be the timestamp in progress monitoring.