SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd.
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Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writing! The pre-requisite is (a) hearing voice (b) no fear because when specific threats are made, it’s very real (c) checked with consent & yes, I still believe in the original promise to self & society. I’m a school teacher (my identity) & said, “if I get my voice back, God. I’ll use it for good.” These are not words spoken in-the-moment, but with real power behind it & that cones from faith & trusting we all have a purpose from the bugs that crawl in the dirt, to a soaring eagle, to the laborers that built our world to the highest & mightiest sitting on board rooms & throne rooms.
UPDATE : 10/5/22 : The picture on this podcast (main profile) relates to the fact to GET NUMBERS BACK, one must expose self to numbers, just like TO READ, exposure to what that squiggle is (a letter!) can happen daily, hourly, all the time if an adult/grown up/teacher/parent/willing participant wants to SHOW someone (a child usually, but could be an adult who has never been given that exposure, this being THAT YOU CAN LIVE ANOTHER WAY & THAT YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY DISAGREE [since the original #ptsd #audio #trigger & warning on replay (2 things) is/are the words, "in my family, any disagreement is a confrontation" & my response, "well, I disagree that you cannot disagree without confronting them, but I guess I'll see what you mean," & now, I'll share my observations. 12 years TEACHING SPECIAL ED in Chicago Public Schools (said it, not scared & definitely willing to expose. ya'll since CTU is with CPD & if not, please explain it to me since I will say verbatim what I hear & see since successfully removed all triggers beginning today, October 5th, 2022)21 years advocacy since moving to Chicago in 2000.40 years of just being alive because "in my family, I get the best of everything since they went through it first & taught me what never to do which is what they did (really? Thanks for reTEACHING it to me over & over since those are their words on replay over & over & it's, "I'm confused") & what always to do. Speak.FIRST WRITING WITH FIRST UPLOAD ~ June 9th, 2022 : Sharing everything that helped end trauma including those that HELPED, HARMED, but also have no idea what they did. I am a person learning skills after assaults in 2013 & 2015 so be kind. All I know is that there was a purpose for repeated violence in multiple spaces & I think it was for me to podcast. There is a supplemental video component that may assist to explain or confuse, but it's out there since I changed "their ptsd" & "their suicide" into concrete since you gotta hear it, see it & since you can't feel it unless you go through it, to give YOU the best chance to pick up wha I'm saying/spraying/slaying.We all have an interest in preventing violence since once in the body, it definitely stays in the body. Thanks for listening & if interested in supporting, I'll provide ways to do so since to help me, you must help those who helped me only because the people PAID to care for them (doctors, social services, protective agencies) TOOK ADVANTAGE & I only know that to end trauma, it can not happen again. I'll do everything I can to ensure it never happens again & that is the best I can do.
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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast
This is THE END.
The focus is on getting IT done.
What is IT when IT is no longer indescribable trauma since it's easy to describe now meaning all the past memories disappear & I can sit with the adrenaline that, quite frankly, isn't there?
Sharing a philosophy that I'm on the verge of losing since I'm no longer, for the first time, living with the ptsd that's driven me my whole life & share what helped end that first round since I've been reliving it, this time with EDUCATION & LIFE EXPERIENCE & their words ("I can hear you!") as others around me share exactly what they're thinking & all one has to do is accept or reject once you get the whole picture. Then when those strategies (a) education to fulfill the mental/mind & (b) physicality to fulfill the adrenaline/body were gone, both lost in one act of violence & exposure to a school philosophy about saying one thing (inclusion, differentiation), but doing the opposite, it becomes very clear. Basic hypocrisy. Saying whatever in the moment. No core, guiding principle, boundaries for self & others. Using optics to deceive & most importantly, according to IT, "throwing whatever I know about a person so they stop asking questions," so do the opposite. Ask the question.
Let's try out this RT now. After all, this is RL. Tech in check. Neck no longer a wreck. I said it so I don't forget it. Wrote it to stay devoted. Are we ready to begin? "You bet" since we start there. Audio trigger & heard it for the last time & I know WHO that is. Always the child with severe & profound special needs and the adults around who together, led to neglect & thus abuse.
Mandated reporter/recorder of abuse & neglect. I guess I will never be able to undo what's been done. Let's end trauma for everyone, not just some who use their skills of deception, remorselessness & emotional instability & the FIRST STEP is to never [positively] reinforce the behaviors WE, as a PEOPLE, will never accept.
People trying to "date" me & why the internet has been the timestamp/date & the quantity has been immense, but press in to what the triggers are (later learned it's PET or Prolonged Exposure Therapy) & realize that's it. From the very beginning. The DATE. NO THX. EQUAL in EVERY WAY. "Let's do it differently," was what was said so let's write it today & every day until IT goes away.