Freedom Is You Podcast
Your place to find the power YOU have in what has been troubling you, so you can move forward in a way that feels really good! I have this saying, when you change the way you feel, it changes the way you look at it and when you change the way you look at it... you interact with it differently - that whatever has been troubling you, interacts with you differently.
Shadow work and Self healing meets motherhood, infertility & everything in between. Each moment we are feeling troubled by something/someone, is simply highlighting a dysfunctional emotional connection we have to whatever is happening. So lets create a healthy emotional connection in it's place!
Here is to raising humans who feel safe, understood, calm so they don't have to heal from their childhood and have thriving relationships and a life they don't feel they need to take a vacation from.
Here is to navigating fertility struggles from a place of feeling inner peace and if you don't, knowing how to find it again so you don't lose yourself in the journey.
Here is to having a healthy relationship with your partner where you feel understood, calm and safe so when there are disagreements they get resolved in a calm manner so you can feel more connected then ever.
Here is to making your mind a place you truly want to be.
Here is to helping you be able to interact with others OUTSIDE the dysfunction, including yourself.
I fell into a depression in my first TTC journey after having two early miscarriages that I had to take a mental health leave from work. I ended up with a fertility diagnosis and cried for a week straight. I dug myself out of my depression and found happiness in my journey again, three short months later I got the pregnancy that stuff. My story doesn't end there. I ended up with a happy healthy baby girl but here was the problem - hearing her cries felt overwhelming that I would curl up into a ball and start crying. The intrusive thoughts where I felt sure I was going to accidently harm her, I remember freaking out in my psychologists office "I'm going to manifest her death! I can't stop worrying about it!" To daily fights with my husband feeling like we weren't a priority, feeling unappreciated - one day I realized, I couldn't keep going on this way. The way I felt every day, it wasn't something I wanted for my daughter - I wanted her to have the foundation to thrive in life. I had all the material things that promised me happy but inside, I was far from happy. I was forever arguing with my husband, felt isolated from friends and more like a nuisance then anything, my thoughts were hard to be with, anxiety. So I dove head first into spirituality, started practicing mediumship and offering readings, started exploring the science behind spirituality, neuroscience, mindset, hypnosis, NLP, trauma and somatics. Now? I use my daughters troubling behavior to heal unresolved emotional wounds, no longer giving her troubling behavior oxygen to breathe that the behavior completely resolves. You better bet I've applied it within every other relationship I've had too - the best part? It works. Every single time.
Freedom Is You Podcast
EP: 21 Mom rage | "You showed me helping your kids with tough emotions doesn't have to be overwhelming" | How I responded to my toddler having a tantrum
It's been a long time coming getting back to recording episodes & here I am!
In this episode I'm diving into an enlightening moment I had when Haedyn was around 2.5 throwing a tantrum where I discovered what it actually looked like to respond in a *healthy* way and how to do it. On this day my response had surprised me because of asking her to stop and get a grip on herself or yelling back at her, or telling her to go to her room I placed a hand over my heart because I could feel my heart start to race. I had NO idea managing her big emotions could be this easy. The key? Was learning to embody Self regulation.
But sometimes, moments still get you. And I decided to talk about it in this episode too of the flip side where you found yourself screaming at your child and feeling like a bag of sh*t about it afterwards but what it looked like to move through it in a way where you grow instead of getting stuck in the guilt and shame of it all.
There was a summarized quote I shared in this episode from one of my favorite Self healing/cycle breaking books (The Body Keeps The Score: By Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.) I've decided to re-read "one of the hardest thing for traumatized people is to confront their shame about the way they behaved during a traumatic episode, whether it is objectively warranted or not. They are haunted by the shame they feel about what they themselves did. They despise themselves for how enraged they felt."
...As a Mother, I never felt that so deeply.
In case you want to grab the book The Body Keeps The Score, here is my affliate link!: https://amzn.to/47oaQHn
Something I will mention is, it's a book best suggested to be slowly digested!
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