Freedom Is You Podcast
Your place to find the power YOU have in what has been troubling you, so you can move forward in a way that feels really good! I have this saying, when you change the way you feel, it changes the way you look at it and when you change the way you look at it... you interact with it differently - that whatever has been troubling you, interacts with you differently.
Shadow work and Self healing meets motherhood, infertility & everything in between. Each moment we are feeling troubled by something/someone, is simply highlighting a dysfunctional emotional connection we have to whatever is happening. So lets create a healthy emotional connection in it's place!
Here is to raising humans who feel safe, understood, calm so they don't have to heal from their childhood and have thriving relationships and a life they don't feel they need to take a vacation from.
Here is to navigating fertility struggles from a place of feeling inner peace and if you don't, knowing how to find it again so you don't lose yourself in the journey.
Here is to having a healthy relationship with your partner where you feel understood, calm and safe so when there are disagreements they get resolved in a calm manner so you can feel more connected then ever.
Here is to making your mind a place you truly want to be.
Here is to helping you be able to interact with others OUTSIDE the dysfunction, including yourself.
I fell into a depression in my first TTC journey after having two early miscarriages that I had to take a mental health leave from work. I ended up with a fertility diagnosis and cried for a week straight. I dug myself out of my depression and found happiness in my journey again, three short months later I got the pregnancy that stuff. My story doesn't end there. I ended up with a happy healthy baby girl but here was the problem - hearing her cries felt overwhelming that I would curl up into a ball and start crying. The intrusive thoughts where I felt sure I was going to accidently harm her, I remember freaking out in my psychologists office "I'm going to manifest her death! I can't stop worrying about it!" To daily fights with my husband feeling like we weren't a priority, feeling unappreciated - one day I realized, I couldn't keep going on this way. The way I felt every day, it wasn't something I wanted for my daughter - I wanted her to have the foundation to thrive in life. I had all the material things that promised me happy but inside, I was far from happy. I was forever arguing with my husband, felt isolated from friends and more like a nuisance then anything, my thoughts were hard to be with, anxiety. So I dove head first into spirituality, started practicing mediumship and offering readings, started exploring the science behind spirituality, neuroscience, mindset, hypnosis, NLP, trauma and somatics. Now? I use my daughters troubling behavior to heal unresolved emotional wounds, no longer giving her troubling behavior oxygen to breathe that the behavior completely resolves. You better bet I've applied it within every other relationship I've had too - the best part? It works. Every single time.
Episodes
36 episodes
EP 36: Second guessing my decision | Staying with myself through the spiral
In this episode, I share a real-time voice note I recorded in the middle of a worry spiral.One book club attendee rescheduled. I offered a new time. And as I was getting ready to leave, the second-guessing it all.
EP 35: What used to spiral into tension and reactive words… didn’t | unfiltered moment from inside my marriage
In this episode, I’m sharing a fresh, unfiltered moment from inside my marriage.A 2:30am wake-up. A simple request. A “no” that didn’t land well. And the familiar edge of disappointment and irritation rising in...
EP 33: Rewriting "I'll just do it myself" in my marriage PART TWO
Part two of.. I didn't realize how much I would avoid asking for help until recently.Then actually asking for said help and feeling like there was push back or annoyance to only find myself saying "if it's that big of a deal,...
EP 32: Rewriting "if it's that big of a deal, I'll just do it myself" in my marriage PART ONE
I didn't realize how much I would avoid asking for help until recently.Then actually asking for said help and feeling like there was push back or annoyance to only find myself saying "if it's that big of a deal, I'll just do it myself!" ...
EP 34: Feeling emotionally held by my husband | Healing the father wound
I found an episode I had uploaded but never published from this summer - it was too good to not share. So here you go!Yesterday was a moment I once craved but didn't know how to name.There was a time when a spilled bowl of oatmeal...
EP 31: What part of me is tempted to override my pace to avoid disappointing someone?
As I go about my day today—I’d been invited last minute to my parents’ place, then my husband asked if we wanted to head into town and go shopping for golf pants together when he’s done work.Normally? I say yes to these things and go wit...
EP 30: Navigating worry spirals | In the past this would have been a fight
A moment where, in the past, unresolved emotional wounds were causing conflict with my husband. I was reflecting on a moment I had this past week where I felt irritated by my husband's absence on something, in the past, I would have...
EP 29: How Self abandonment has been showing up for me
Straight from a voicenote in the thick of an oooof moment that hit me on a cellular level.A theme showing up lately.. That irritation we feel towards others. The resentment of having to do it all. The tension we feel in our ...
EP 28: Managing stress during the holidays | Navigating family dynamics
Christmas shouldn't just be about surviving the holidays - or at least that's not what I want for me! I want presence and to cultivate deep connections. I deeply crave so many of those "special little moments" during the holiday season....
EP 27: From reacting to responding; how to transform anger into clarity
If you ever find yourself reacting in ways you know were *wrong* only to feel bad about it later.. this is for you!I used to have A LOT of these moments too. I thought it was a part of who I was or that something was wrong with me. But ...
EP 26: Feel more reactive or irritable during family gatherings, holidays or childhood home? | Struggle to be the mom you want to be around family? | Family dynamics and triggers | Is it that you're regressing or just becoming aware of the dysfunction?
I'm not sure if it's being in my childhood home or Thanksgiving happening this weekend here in Canada but I found myself struggling to show up at the mom I wanted to be.I was house sitting for my parents the night before I was to be hos...
EP 25: my husband wanted to go golfing less then 24 hours after me + my little were gone for 3 days | navigating triggers | breaking dysfunctional cycles in relationships
I decided to record an episode on a reel that went viral.My husband wanted to go golfing with the guys basically less then 24 hours after I had took the dogs and our little and we were away for three nights. At first it didn't feel like...
EP 24: How I support my mental + emotional wellbeing through fertility struggles | Nervous system support through infertility | Navigating miscarriage + emotional regulation
This episode is LONG over due. I'm sharing with you the some of the SIMPLE yet impactful things that have helped me improve my mental + emotional wellbeing while navigating the unpredictability of fertility + early miscarriages.It has c...
EP 23: I woke up feeling anxious + overwhelmed, here is what I did to support myself | Improving emotional + mental wellbeing | Self + emotional regulation
I had made a post on my stories.."I woke up feeling off, mostly anxious and overwhelmed. This used to consume my whole day and sometimes become days. I'd struggle with Haedyn, I'd feel so preoccupied with what was going on with me my pa...
EP 22: I was judging my husband, turns out I was really just judging myself | Breaking bad habits
There has been this habit Jason has started that I honestly despise. It's something that has been off and on for years and it's been back on again over this summer. He had said the words "I'm in the mindset to stop" and I noticed I was judging ...
EP: 21 Mom rage | "You showed me helping your kids with tough emotions doesn't have to be overwhelming" | How I responded to my toddler having a tantrum
It's been a long time coming getting back to recording episodes & here I am!In this episode I'm diving into an enlightening moment I had when Haedyn was around 2.5 throwing a tantrum where I discovered what it actually looked like t...
EP 20: Honest conversation in the struggles to conceive with Miriam
In this episode Miriam and Alyssa have an honest conversation in the struggles they’ve faced in their conception journeys. Between facing a late first trimester miscarriage, to the struggles that come within close relationships to the hardsh...
EP 19: Shifting “I’m not a priority” or “I feel unappreciated” within relationships
So I had an experience I’m feeling called to share I had not too long ago where I really felt like I wasn’t a priority or not important within my relationship with my husband. To be quite honest I would feel angry, quite triggered around him...
EP 18: When you’re feeling emotionally responsive in a relationship… TRY THIS
In this podcast episode Alyssa shares an experience she had with someone who she’s had a strained relationship with and it was a “holy sh*t this is cool moment”.Imagine getting to interact with someone who triggers t...
EP 17: “I started praying for guidance wondering what I could do to feel better”
If you are in a place where it feels like change is so far off, and you’re looking to find a glimmer of hope that you can make that change happen - this is for you! It’s the classic, “things are good but they aren’t great”.
EP 16: Making The Decision To Rip My IVF Referral Papers
It’s been seventeen months and three miscarriages, with no baby. My doctor said the last route for me was to go through IVF - and I decided to rip up the IVF referral papers. I share my experience of how I came to that grounded decision &...
EP 15: How I Expanded My Window Of Tolerance With Anger & “Mom Rage”
Fuck normalizing mom rage, or anger. Fact is, it isn’t normal. It’s a sign saying you’re hurting and lets fucking heal it so it doesn’t have to be your story anymore.There was one moment I had where the overwhelm, th...
EP 14: “I felt so hopeless and so alone…”
If you find yourself getting stuck in your head with intrusive thoughts, thinking things *should* be different, feeling consumed by the pain in your life, or no matter how hard you try you just can’t help but notice all the shitty things abo...
EP 13: What Is Your Period Telling You with Helen Zee // Period Health / Infertility
When the most seemingly random conversation with a friend and mentor turned into something that was jam packed with a ton of value – you share it with your community!!Helen is a fertility, intimacy and menstrual health practit...
EP 12: “Finding out 8-10 years…” Bobbie (PART TWO)
Part two of a deep AF conversation with Bobbie where she shares her experience of receiving news about her MS and what it means about her future. She shares what going through that experience was like, what helped her get through it but also ch...