Compounding Daily

EP110- I just wanted my life to have meaning. (15minsolo)

Miguel Sanchez Episode 110

Lets us know your thoughts thru TEXT!

You can wait forever for your life to mean something. 

Or You could work every single day towards giving your life meaning with the actions you take. 

What will you Choose??

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Speaker 1:

Hello, hello and welcome back everybody to Compounding Daily. I'm your host, miguel Sanchez, and thank you for being here for episode 110. I am in disbelief. I am proud of the consistency of the commitment but, most importantly, what I value most is the experience, the conversations and the people that have been put in my path because of the journey from starting this podcast. So I just wanted to say thank you, as always, that's typically how I've been beginning my episodes lately. And, secondly, I want to be before I get into today's topic. I want to be that important reminder.

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There is a specific reason, if you are new to the page, as to why I release an episode Monday mornings super early and my's easy to get overwhelmed with the thoughts of negativity, the thoughts filled with I don't want to go to work and I'm not satisfied at my job and I don't want to go through these motions and I just don't agree with this. But that's okay. And the reminder is simple you, as an individual, get to decide the attitude that you're going to approach the day with and, with that being said, you get to decide if, when you step out that door, the attitude you'll have is one of boo-hoo, today is going to suck. And is it Friday yet? And I can't wait till my next vacation and I don't get paid enough for this and I need a raise. And even though listen some of those things may be true, it does you no good to you, the energy or the people that are going to come across you with you showing up with such negative energy. Believe me, experiment with yourself and see what happens when you become one of the weird people that shows up on a Monday and people are like, hey, man, how you doing and you're just like great, and they're just looking at you, like, but it's Monday, yeah, today's a good day to be alive, yeah, but we're at work, yep, and I'm grateful to be here. It confuses people, and it's not because you're better than anybody. It's because you're in the same exact place as them, standing right next to them, doing the same things that they're going through, yet you're so much happier about it and that throws people off a little bit, you know. So, with that being said, yes, it's Monday and that's okay. You've been given, you've been gifted as I like to see things. You've been gifted another day above earth with a body capable enough to at least listen to this podcast, which probably means that you're in a position of growth, that you're in a position of I'm trying to better myself, allowing the lesser voice to dictate how you show up, especially with the excuse of today. I have a shitty attitude because it's Monday. Think about that, it doesn't make sense. Decide a good attitude and approach the week with it. And, with that being said, let's get right into today's topic.

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Today's topic one is gonna be short. I'm running a little behind on my time today, and that's okay. That's not an excuse, but I look for opportunities and everything, and I'm very grateful that I actually had a good conversation with my fiance earlier this week and something came out of me where we were having a what I would call an emotional conversation, as we're talking about the things that we're doing, the goals that we're setting, the things that we're doing to accomplish them, and I said something that stood out to me and I said you know, I'm going to save this for a morning message or I'm going to save this for a short episode. And, lord behold, here we are, a short episode. So this one is going to be really focused on allowing me to paint a perspective for you. So please bear with me.

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As you all know, I don't write any of this down. As I sit here, cameras are off, lights are off, I have the fish tank next to me and I literally have the one sentence I wrote on my phone and I'm observing it and I just want to share that thought with you, where it stemmed from and why it's so impactful and why do I? And I just want to share that thought with you, where it stemmed from and why it's so impactful and why do I even feel the need to share it? Because you know I could have just been another thought that I let it slip by. But because of who I am, I like to live my life by example and I don't like to sit here and talk to you guys about things that I'm not doing myself or things that don't serve value. I never want to sell you anything that you don't need. I don't ever want to sit here and advertise things just because I'm getting paid for it. I don't want to do any of that. I find pleasure in knowing that, in me experimenting with myself, going out and executing, failing on my own, coming back here telling you guys how I failed and how I've gotten better from it so you don't have to fail in the same way. To me, that is valuable and that is what I hope to give you today.

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So, with that being said, today's topic is very simple. Me and Juliana were talking about how physically exhausted and depleted I am at the moment. I'm currently a little over three weeks away from my first bodybuilding show and the mental fatigueness is 100% caught up, and there's been days where I'm being tested and not being tested by outside circumstances, but being tested because of my own choosing and the things that I'm choosing to go through, which is normal. I'm not making a complaint here, but as I sit here and I reflect on my life and I think about day one where the journey began, where I was, who I've been, and as I reflect on those things, I caught myself in a innate trance, for lack of better wording, and a state of just introspective thoughts, where I'm just reflecting upon the 289 pound version of me and the failed relationships and the good friendships that I thought would last forever. That didn't. And you know, as I'm looking at all of these things, I get to now sit here with, in my own opinion, what I consider the best version of myself.

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And a question that I ask myself is wow, like not, how did I get here? Because I know how I got here has been my journey. But why did you get here? And it's not a oh? Because I was sad and fat, and even though those are my realities, I was sad and fat and fucking miserable with my own existence at the moment. Right, but underlying thought that sat behind all of that, all those fears and anxieties that I had.

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The thought was simple, and this is what I told Juliana this week. I said I just wanted my life to have meaning. I just wanted to know that one day, when my heart stops beating, my existence meant something. I didn't just exist for the sake of existing. I didn't just show up to work and I was a good guy Like I want that when my death hits the door. I want my existence to have impacted people. I want people to have gotten better because of me being in their life.

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And to some people that may stem from a place of ego, but detached myself from the ego a place of ego, but detached myself from the ego. And instead what I was really focusing on is well, how do you want to provide such an impact? And that's how we got here and such a simple thought of I want my life to mean something and my life has to mean something. But where is that meaning coming from? Does that meaning have to come from the acceptance of others? Does that meaning have to come from monetary value? Where does this meaning come from?

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And I had a moment of inspiration when I realized that meaning doesn't need to come from outside resources. You can give your own life meaning. And when I accepted that as my own personal belief and value, I ran with it and I told myself you know what, like you can do the things that you desire, and there is nothing stopping you besides your own lack of effort, your own lack of energy. And that includes meaning in your life. You can tell yourself well, my meaning has no purpose. I just wake up and I go through the circumstances of paying the bills, and I go to work and I eat the food, and I hang out on the weekends and I sleep and I relax and I rinse and I repeat, and I do it all over again.

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Sure, that can easily become what I identify as a hamster wheel lifestyle, where you're just moving, sure, but you're not going anywhere. But at any moment, as an individual, you can wake up and say today is going to be a little bit different. Today I'm going to take a little bit of a different path. Today I've worked a little bit on the vision I have of the person that I want to become and I'm making the choice that today I want to work towards the attainment of that creation that I've envisioned for myself. That's a choice that we all have, and a few years ago, the underlying thought of everything that I was doing when I was going to the gym, when I didn't want to, when I was reading the books, when I didn't want to the underlying thought of all of it was there has to be meaning behind all of this.

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There has to be some sort of meaning behind all of this. And that meaning didn't come until I gave myself a purpose, until I had the courage to write down goals for myself, after I had the courage to set my own limitations aside and say you know, if you really gave it your all, who could you become? And that thought of curiosity has led me to the man speaking to you. Now and again, I always say this I don't need the pat in the backs. I don't want the pat in the backs. I hope that you're not listening to this and comparing yourself to me. I'm just simply letting you know that my journey has been nothing special. My journey has been nothing extremely unique. Sure, I might have been at the right place at the right time. Sure, my, my life? I don't think, because I've met many people whose life was a thousand times harder than mine. So I'm always grateful for my experience and because I've done nothing. In my opinion, that has been exaggerated. I believe anybody can do it and it doesn't have to be so hard. And I believe what I've worked on the most, that has led me to become who I am today, is working on the thoughts that I have in the conversations that I have with myself.

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And at one point, the constant reminder in my mind was the fact that my existence had no meaning. I felt like my everyday actions were just me going through a routine for the sake of the fact that. Well, I guess my heart's still beating, so might as well continue. And as bad as that sounds now that I say it out loud, it was my approach, maybe not with those exact words, but I kind of had like this if this is my life, I guess I'm here and I'll deal with it. And you know there has to be a meaning. You know there has to be a meaning behind this. My existence has to have a purpose. It just hasn't gotten here yet. It just hasn't gotten here yet. Maybe one day it'll show up at my door, maybe Amazon one day will have a delivery option for you know, purpose of life, or something like that, and that's what I was idly waiting for. But after a long period of time in my case 24, 25 years old I eventually caught myself in so much self-created misery that I had to say, okay, meaning's not coming, purpose isn't given. What are you going to do, bro? And boom, my life needs meaning and I'm going to create that meaning for myself. And I did that. And I'm not special, which means that you can do that.

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Stop waiting for purpose to show up to you. Stop saying no to experiences that will lead you to new paths. You never know what's going to inspire you. You never know what might be attractive to you. Should you not put yourself out there and experience?

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Some people say I don't know what I want to do with my life. Well, what have you tried? That's the better question, because, for most people, they don't know what they want, but they haven't experienced a lot. So why not? Instead of waiting for what you desire to come to you, you tell yourself instead, I'm going to go, experience life and throughout that experience, I get to decide what I want to keep, what I don't want, to keep what I like, what I didn't like, and eventually you're going to start finding the things that are meaningful to you. And that's where the self-created meaning comes from. Right, because, as I tell people I'm on the deep end of exercising. Right, I'm getting ready for a bodybuilding show. It's because it's meaningful to me. You don't have to do that to be healthy. Right, I want to be a.

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Well, I am a public speaker, I go to events and I communicate and I share my values and my ideas with people. I've given myself meaning in that environment and in that world. Nobody has given that to me. It's what I wanted, it's what I pursued, it's what I enjoy, it's what I'm currently doing.

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Right now, as I speak to you. Nobody's putting a gun to my head to do this, nobody's telling me that this is great or this is bad. Nobody's telling me any of those things, but I know that when I sit here and I share a message with you that I believe gives you value and puts things into perspectives where you might now see the value in yourself, then this has meaning. Nobody gave me that.

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I painted that perspective for myself and then I said, boom, the things you're doing have meaning, miguel. Meaning to who, meaning to me, which means that what, which means that my existence has purpose, which means that what, which means that it doesn't matter if it's Monday, it doesn't matter if it's Christmas or my birthday or Thanksgiving or New Year's, the day doesn't matter. What I'm grateful for is the opportunity just to be here and live, and I get to give my days meaning because I give my choices something to pursue, and that's today's episode. Do you give your life meaning? Are you giving yourself meaning? Why are you here? Stop waiting, create it. It's within your ability. Thank you for being here. A short episode, as I said, and until next time.

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