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NFL Long Snapper Rex Sunahara on Resilience, Rising Again, & The Price of NFL Dreams
Ever wondered how going barefoot could improve your game on and off the field? Join us as we chat with Rex Sunahara, the Cleveland Browns' long snapper, who shares his unique take on minimal footwear inspired by his father and NFL colleague Mack Hollins. Rex gives us a peek into his pre-game rituals, honing his mental and physical readiness by soaking in the energy of the field. His story is a testament to the resilience and fortitude needed in professional sports, punctuated by his Cleveland roots and a friendly rivalry with the Steelers.
Rex takes us deeper into the art of pre-game visualization and the role of superstitions in a football player's life. He explains how his time in the XFL shaped his preparation routine, emphasizing visualization's critical role in building confidence and performance. With tens of thousands of snaps under his belt, Rex highlights the precision required of a long snapper. He shares insights into his journey from Bucknell to the NFL, underscoring the balance between a rigid routine and the flexibility needed to adapt to the unexpected.
In a world where external pressures often push for a conventional path, Rex's journey is one of perseverance and maintaining gratitude for the support that fuels athletic success. He opens up about overcoming adversity, the emotional challenges of failure, and the significance of self-belief in pursuing one's dreams. Through personal anecdotes, Rex shares how the competitive energy in sports fuels growth and the importance of showing gratitude to mentors and peers. Experience Rex's candid reflections on the sacrifices and mental fortitude needed in professional sports, leaving you inspired to embrace your journey with resilience and passion.
Welcome back to the show, everybody. On today's episode we have Rex Sunohara. Rex is the current long snapper for the Cleveland Browns. He's full of resilience, fortitude and he's got many life lessons to share with us. Today and this episode is brought to you by All Black, everything Performance Energy Drink, the official energy drink of the Athletic Fortitude Podcast, available in Walmart, meijer and select gnc franchise locations.
Speaker 2:And on today's episode, rex sunahara, so you know, so you knew, trap our mutual friend sam, uh yeah, at bucknell, right yeah. So what was? What was he like at bucknell?
Speaker 1:because like he was honestly that he was like pretty quiet, like quiet reserved, uh, just a good dude, yeah, I mean he's the best.
Speaker 2:But like so, when we so I met Sam, when he, when he came to Morgantown and like didn't know anything about him, they were just like, hey, like this, this new dude's like going to come and kick, like he was a transfer from bucknell. Okay, what, like you know, all right, like we'll see how it goes. Dude, I like right off the bat, like me, sam, and then like my two other buddies, like we just hit it off and we have been friends ever since and like it's incredible, the best. I then one of the nicest dudes, oh, my god, he's, he's the. I mean, like I said, he's the man like I'm. I'm like, so we're going to play pittsburgh this weekend. Uh, we're playing steelers, and like I haven't seen sam now just because of, you know, life and stuff gets in the way, but I haven't seen him in, you know, maybe about a year, but like I am so excited to see strap, like it's gonna be great are you guys going out after the game or do you?
Speaker 1:are you guys pretty strict?
Speaker 2:yeah, we're pretty strict, we gotta leave right afterwards. But uh, they'll come, you'll get to see him. Yeah, I'll get to see him. They'll come say hi after the game and stuff, and that'll be good, uh. But no, I I wish we were able to go, you know, go go to the south side or something after the game.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I feel that for sure. Where are you originally from? I'm from Cleveland. Oh, that's right, I did know that. Dumb calling. I have that in my notes, actually.
Speaker 2:Little town west of Cleveland called Bay Village.
Speaker 1:You grew up a Browns fan, right? Yeah, that's pretty cool. I'm going to be honest I hate the Steelers.
Speaker 1:So, I hope you guys beat the Steelers by a thousand. There we go. So, um, a couple, a couple like recording things. Like if you're blurry or if I'm blurry, or even if you freeze, keep talking, doesn't matter, I can hear you, and the reason I use this platform is it like it records from your camera, so like you're going to be clear no matter what and I'll be clear no matter what. So it's pretty cool, oh, sweet, nice, yeah, sounds good. But uh, talk to me a little bit about the. Uh, bare feet in the in the snow, what? What are we doing?
Speaker 2:here so it wasn't snowing yet. Um, so I so my my dad is, is japanese, but he's from hawaii, and so he, like, when we were growing up, like we didn't really wear, like I mean we wore shoes, but like we didn't have, we weren't like playing out, like playing on like concrete or something, we were just like in the grass, like we were just not in shoes, and then also like I, so like that was the start of it, and then I also, when I was playing for the dolphins, I got the chance to be around matt collins a lot that was gonna be my next question.
Speaker 1:Is this a matt collins?
Speaker 2:yeah, so like I used to fish a lot with mac when we were living in miami and he would talk to me about, like, the whole barefoot thing and I was like, oh, like that kind of sounds a little bit like you know why my dad doesn't wear like what.
Speaker 2:I mean, my dad wears sandals a lot, slippers in hawaii, but, like you know, it's very thin, very like you know, it's not a lot of padding and cushion and stuff, and I think that that has something to do with, like, people's feet getting weaker and then, you know, rolling ankles and stuff like that because there's so much padding on shoes. So I try to not wear, like you know, whether it's slippers like I don't wear. No, if I'm going out or if I'm, you know, obviously playing or working out or something like that, I need to wear something. I'll wear them. But if I don't have to, like I try to have as little, you know, cushion on my shoes as possible. And you know, plus, I just like walking around bare feet before the game, just because it's, you know, I do think that the grounding thing is real and I think, you know, you get some type of energy from that and I just, you know, honestly too. I just like the way it feels. So it's, it's uh.
Speaker 1:You know a little bit of both things is this something that you believed in before mac and he amplified it, or is it when you met mac, it it really took off so I believed it before Mac, but I didn't understand why.
Speaker 2:But him talking about the cushion of the shoe and then after that type of stuff, I've learned more about it and you know there's a lot of people that like talk about like the zero drop shoes and just having like that small amount of cushion like before the ground, and so now it's like a bigger thing to wear. Like you know, I, like I said, I try not to wear super cushiony shoes. I mean, I will admit I do have a pair of hokas but like and they're super I'm wearing hokas right now.
Speaker 1:So great, it's a great, oh, they're so comfortable.
Speaker 2:But like I try not to, wear those if like, for like long periods of time, you know, and if I am wearing those I switch right back into my slippers and then we're, you know, then we're good to go doing that.
Speaker 1:Now, is this like an anti sock thing too, like, do you actually feel the need to feel it against the skin on your feet, or would you wear socks as well?
Speaker 2:I'm very I mean, I'm not anti sock, but uh, I don don't.
Speaker 1:I think like just having your foot on the ground is what you know, is where you needed, where it needs to be it's funny because I've been seeing on my twitter feed this type of grounding effect come up more in terms of conversation, the science community. I follow a lot of the science community and I see both sides where people say this is not scientific provable and then the other side's people say this is not scientific provable and then the other side's like no, it is scientifically provable. How deep are you into like the science of it, or is it more of you just feel that innate benefit of it?
Speaker 2:So I get both sides of it, like for me it's one of those things where, like you know, if it is a placebo, you know, okay, cool, like sometimes placebos work. And if you think, it works.
Speaker 1:Placebo is one hell of a drug, I'll tell you.
Speaker 2:Like if you think it works, then it works and that's great. But for me it's like the thing I do really believe in is like if your feet are weaker there are muscles in your foot and there's a lot of different things that you want to try to do with your feet and your ankles that you're going to be more prone to rolling an ankle, and then if you roll an ankle, then you're more prone to stuffing your knees and your hips and everything's connected in that way. So that's where I kind of am trying to have my feet be as strong as possible, because that's where everything starts.
Speaker 1:Is there a temperature where you won't do this?
Speaker 2:I didn't. I didn't. So I really started doing it when I was in the XFL, so like two or three years ago. And the thing about that is is like everywhere we play is either indoors or it was a spring league so it was nice out, so I've never really had to go through the whole winter of doing this. But I don't know, I'll probably do it Because I just like, when I do it, I just I walk around the field, I sit at the goalposts, call my people and then I go back inside. So I'm really out there for like 20 minutes, 20, 30 minutes at the most, and I think I mean, I don't know, I probably wouldn't. There's probably not a temperature I wouldn't do it at, because I mean you don't really play in like super, super, super cold. It's funny because when I saw it I thought it, you don't really play in like super, super, super cold.
Speaker 1:It's funny because when I saw it I thought it was like a mental toughness type thing, like people come out, warm it up without shirts on and things so.
Speaker 2:No, that I Believe me. I, I was. I mean, I'm sure you've seen that picture where it's like I'm wearing sweatpants and a sweatshirt. I want to be warm, but I do believe in grounding and stuff like that. No, it was not a mental toughness thing.
Speaker 1:Do you have a pregame routine that you typically go through?
Speaker 2:Yeah, for the most part, like I said, I'll normally go on the first bus to the stadium and then the first thing I do when I get there is I'll normally like go, you know, whether it's I'll go on the first bus to the stadium and then the first thing I do when I get there is I'll change into my gear and then I'll just walk like you know, go, walk on the field, walk around the outside, just kind of like take in the sights and the sounds and everything, and just kind of like you know, lock in that way, and then I'll go and sit at the goalpost, call, you know, call my family, call my girlfriend, call my people, and then just sit. Then after that I'll like turn my music off, I'll keep my headphones on and then I'll just visualize like the different things that I'm thinking are going to happen. So if it's a certain type of rush that the other department return team's going to run, I'll visualize, you know, a certain type of rush that the other return team is going to run, I'll visualize at different parts of the field, like that type of thing, visualize the field goal snaps and just visualize perfect stuff, visualize just a lot of. So I sit there and just try to visualize the whole game To where it's like, okay, if it's this down in distance or if it's this time in the game, this is how I'm going to go out there, this is how it's going to feel, this is how it's going to look on the backend, this is where those people are going to be. And I just try to, you know, and that's probably five, 10 minutes of me, just you know, sitting there, thinking and like mapping it out, and then I'll go back inside, I'll have peanut butter and jelly and ready to go.
Speaker 1:How'd you get to this routine? Was it trial and error? Did someone point you to it?
Speaker 2:um, so it was a lot of trial and error because, like before, I would like get to the stadium as quick as I could and start like snapping right away, just because I wanted, you know, whatever if I was nervous, just wanted to get that out or I don't really know what it was, but kind of the older that I got, like the more things like you have to, just like I just want to, if I can see it, I can do it, you know, and I just wanted to like the more I see it.
Speaker 2:So like, even if it's like watching more, a little bit more film, like if I get to the locker room like a little bit earlier before I go out, like I'll watch a little bit of film or just read my notes one more time, just to get that type of stuff together. And that's really really helped. And you know, like I said, it's it it's been a lot of trial and error of it just getting older and you know, doing this more because you know, even in the xfl, like I would have these, I would try different things and stuff like that, but I really like this routine that I have going right now for these past seven weeks.
Speaker 1:I'm very similar Super visual. If I can see it, I can do it. And like a distinct memory that I have is like at Bucknell we ran a very similar defense to the Michigan State defense when Pat Narduzzi was there. Ultimately pretty cool, I ended up playing with him or for him. But Darquez Denard, trey, waynesnes okay, those were the two corners on that michigan state defense, both the first round picks.
Speaker 1:We watched so much of their film and before the spring game my freshman year going into my sophomore year I just like watched their film over and over again and then when I went out and played it was spring. I had three interceptions, two pick sixes, like just went crazy. But like I targeted specifically because I watched their film. We ran the same play call and I got the same routes. Like just out of coincidence but because I saw and repeated it, like I was able then to go out and do it. And that was when I really first learned how visual I was. Was there like a point where you learned that you were visual or did it just happen over time?
Speaker 2:I think it was really like this year where it was like, okay, I can't just go out there and just like kind of do it, like I have to watch it and I have to. You know you have to see it. And you have to see it a lot of times because then the more you see it, like they you know everyone has their tells, everyone has. You know they might be disguising, doing something, but they're really trying to set this up or there's a little bit of space here or a speeder this way, or you know it's. So that was kind of I knew I was visual, like I and I was better when I was, when I saw it. But like this year was really when I like honed into doing that and I think it's helped so much how rigid is your pre-game routine?
Speaker 1:so I think sometimes we can get trapped in our routines to the point where if we can't hit our routine we can't function. So I think there's a balance between rigid and flexibility. So it's like where do you fall on that?
Speaker 2:So I'm probably more on the side of like it's. You know, like it is like I go and I do this and then I stretch and then, uh, you know, if it's like, maybe I'll get, like, I mean, maybe there's like some variance to it, but for the most part it's like I roll out the same, I band stretch the same way, I do the same like t-spine stuff, I do the same shoulder mobility stuff, um, and then, like I've added, I've added some things in. I don't really take stuff out if I like it, um, but for the most part it's been, it's been the same. For a lot of times it's like, I don't know, I think maybe just because, like it's, it's better for me to be a creature of habit that way, but I don't know, I haven't, I've never not done it one way it's. You know, I've had the same kind of routine that way since college, because we've always worked the same way in college, and then I just took that to wherever I went and I are you superstitious at all?
Speaker 2:Very, Tell me more. So like I sit in the same place like dirt, like. So my teammate in the XFL, brad Wing, was like he was the first one, that kind of like noticed it. But like I am, like I sit in the same place on the bench, I only I stand up after the defense gets to stop. Like if I'm standing up and defense doesn't get a stop, like I think it's my fault because I wasn't sitting down. Okay, it was like I, I'm, I am that way, but like I also don't like to say things, and then I'm like, oh shoot, I jinxed it. Uh, you know, just I don't know why I am that way, but I am like I knock on wood all the time. I, you know, if you still salt throw it over the left shoulder like got it, I don't know, maybe that's just protect, like I just gotta, if there's already a lot of stuff out there that's gonna hurt you, you might as well just have a little luck on your side.
Speaker 1:How do you manage that with the nature of your position being a long snapper, kind of needing everything to go perfect? How do you balance that superstition with that?
Speaker 2:Uh, I don't know, it's just kind of been the way that I've done it. It's, you know, I have been very blessed and lucky to been, you know, been doing well at my position and it wasn't like it wasn't super, you know, easy to get to that, and I don't know it's been one of those things where it's just I just went, once the game like the, once the flow of the game starts going like it, just, it just works.
Speaker 1:It's a wide change if it works, you know I don't think people really understand how difficult it is to be a long or short snapper and how meticulous the details are. What is your off-season routine like? How frequently are you snapping the ball? And if you were to guess, how many snaps do you think you've taken over the course of your life?
Speaker 2:of my life, I don't know way more than, but we used to snap so much in college like ask trap about it. We would snap like all like for probably like four hours straight. It was a long time, like after practice. For like it was a lot, I would say over my life, 50, 000, and that might be on the low end, maybe more, maybe closer to 100, I have no idea like, but it's a lot. Um, but it was. It's it's hard, but it's like it's so fun.
Speaker 2:You know, like there are a lot of things like I mean, you know you played. Like there's a lot of things like I mean, and you know you played. Like there's a lot of misconceptions about like specialists where it's like, oh, they don't really do anything, they're just sitting in there, you know, twiddling their thumbs, but like there is a craft to it where it's like you know everyone's got to be on the same page. You know kickers got to be on the same page as you. And then you know, at this level we're matching laces and we're trying to make sure that.
Speaker 2:You know I'm trying to make sure the older to spin the ball on field goals, and you know, and then in the pros, like college was all you had to do was snap it run. You know, in the pros now we're talking about eight man boxes, seven man boxes, rolling corners. You know waves, loops, everything like it's. You know you really gotta be detailed and take good notes and, uh, just really be on your shit, cause you know, like, if you're not, that is a, that's a way to not have a job, and it's, you know, it is a, uh, it's something that, like you know, you have to not take for granted how difficult is it when you have to interchange between different positions?
Speaker 1:injuries right, you have a new holder. You have a new kicker. How hard is it to reset that timing?
Speaker 2:um, so it's, it's, it's not, it's not fun. Uh, it not fun, it's not easy, but like you, just the more you do it. So, like I mean, for me that was my situation this year. Like the guy that was here, you know, has been a staple on the Browns for as long as I can remember, even being a fan, and him and the holder and the kicker, like they were, they're on their stuff. And then, you know, they got me this new guy coming in here who snap, like you know, I snap it differently than Charlie, I do a lot of different, different things, and so for them, I'm sure it was not hard, or I'm sure it was hard for them to like, adjust to me. But you know, for me it's like I just got to snap a good ball and then just keep doing the same thing over and over and over and over again. Uh, just so they know there's no like difference in anything, and then they can adjust off of that how do you actually make changes?
Speaker 1:because, like it's repetition over and, over and over again? How do you analyze what you're doing well and what you need to improve on?
Speaker 2:so, on field goal, like it's field goal, it's like miniscule things. Because, like I want the kicker to see the ball as long as he can, so I don't want to push the ball inside, but I also don't want to push it outside to where you know he thinks it's going to be long or it's just going to be outside and older, not going to get there. Like I don't want, I don't want the kicker to have to worry about anything. Like I want it to just be right down the pipe, catch it, put it down, boom, we're going um.
Speaker 2:On pun, it's a little different because you know, like I said, there's blocking involved with it too.
Speaker 2:So and then you know, on blocking, it's, you know, it's like playing off, that's fine, you get beat, you get beat, and you know you, you gotta get your head up.
Speaker 2:I'm sure you gotta. You gotta move a little quicker. You gotta, you know, uh, get your feet going, because I mean it's it's chaos in there once when there's everyone's moving around, but it's just work, like you said, it's just working and doing the same thing every day, every day, every day, every day, and that's like I had a coach in the xfl tell me that that's what like being a pro is is making sure, like, even if you don't feel like it, like you have to do the same thing every single day. And you know, being a young guy like you were like oh, okay, like whatever, like you know, uh, but like now that is like so true. Like you see, the vets that are have been there forever, like they do the same thing every day. They do the same recovery to do the same pre-practice, they do the same thing post-practice and it's like, oh, that's why they played 14 years in the league. It's because they have their routine down to a science, and it's not even a routine, it's just part of their life.
Speaker 1:What keeps you disciplined like that?
Speaker 2:I guess it's the fear of not wanting to, you know, lose a job and it's, you know. But it's also like it's the fear of that. But it's also like you, I love this, like I love playing football, I love doing what I'm doing, so like, why would I not? Well, why would I not do like every single thing that I can see, you know it's it's not work. You know people, people say, well, you know, we got to work. I do the work. Like it's this isn't work.
Speaker 1:This is us playing a kid's game for money. We used to do this for fun. It's, it's, it's the best. Your story's so fascinating because you go from two sport athlete to then walking on at west virginia to earning a scholarship, to getting cut by yeah, you know the steelers, the dolphins going to the xfl, ufl, and then finally, at 28, you're the guy.
Speaker 2:What kept you going throughout all the ups and downs? Honestly, it was like so no one could say that I didn't Like it was. You know, I just, I just didn't want to have anyone be like oh yeah, like you almost made it, he almost did it, he was almost there, you know. So, like I hope I get to play for a lot longer, but you know, if it's, if it's a year, if it's the next five games, and that's it, like I can look back on it and be like okay, like I did it, I was, you know, I gave it everything I had, I and I, I did it. So you know when.
Speaker 2:Then, if it puts me into the next phase of life, where it's like hey, like I can do, I could do whatever I put my mind to because it's, I mean it's, it was hard, I mean it was, it was not easy, there were, there were people being like hey, like, why don't you just get a normal job? Like, why don't you just start coaching? You know, why don't you just, you know, do this, that or the third? And it's like well, no, because, like, this is what I, this is the dream, this is what I want to do and it's. You know, like I said, that was like what it was. I just didn't want. I didn't want to look back in 30 years or come back to you know, come back to my hometown and have people be like, oh, like, he almost did it, he almost made it. So I don't, I don't know, maybe that's petty, but still yeah, no, that's the the.
Speaker 1:the part I love is the being able to respond to everybody that said do this or do that, or you know why? Why are you chasing this impossible dream? And you're like no, like this is what I'm doing. That's the part I love, because that is the hard part, where it's not only are you chasing something impossible, but it's everybody around you telling you you're crazy and telling you how impossible it is. And for some people, they hear that and they're like you know what? You're right, I'm done. And then there's other people like yourself who's like no, I'm gonna dig my feet in deeper and I'm gonna go how much of that is innate to you versus was that taught to you or where did that come so?
Speaker 2:So it was. It came a lot from from my parents, where it was like you know, my mom was very supportive of it and she, you know, she always was like okay, like you know, you're going to do this, You're going to. Like she always was very, very, very supportive of my dad. The same way, Like he would always say like if you're gonna do it, like don't don't have, like, don't be half into it, like snap a little bit, do this, do that, like you do it, and so that was really great.
Speaker 2:And then also, like I have like great friends, you know, like my, like I, like I have, I have, you know, like Sam and our other, my other three buddies from college, my brother and then like my buddies from high school, like every time I would see them, they're like, oh, like, why would you ever? You know, why would you ever not? You know we're working nine to five jobs, we're doing this, this and this. Like why would you ever, ever not do it? So I think, like having a great support system helped.
Speaker 2:But then also, like I've seen, like I, I see my brother my brother was playing basketball and like I didn't and I was like he just looked like he's still in college or he was in college, he's out now, but like seeing him playoffs, I just I miss that. Like being part of the team doing all that stuff, where it's like you just want to be back doing that. So, seeing him do it all the time like my dad was, my dad is a coach or was the volleyball coach at West Virginia, so like he always got to be part, like he was always doing stuff and like they were just busy being a part of the team, it's just like okay, well, like I like that was the thing that always felt like I was missing, you know, on those couple years where I wasn't and so you know, seeing it and then also it being taught to me by my parents like it was.
Speaker 1:I think it was a little bit of both. What enabled you to maintain?
Speaker 2:belief in yourself when things weren't going your way. Well, I mean it was hard. It was hard because, like you know, it's Because you were on teams before right.
Speaker 1:Yes, I was with the Bills for four days and got cut. That's my famous story.
Speaker 2:I mean so same with me in my first stint in Miami, was there for two days. I got caught like it and and that that is like the worst feeling in the world is. You're like oh, my god, I am, I've made it. I'm gonna like now, we're good, I can take care of people, everything's gonna be fine. Like people are texting you telling you how great you are, it's everything's like, everything's great. And then, like the next day you're back home and it's like well, what happened? You know you're going to the supermarket and everyone's like well, I thought you were here. I thought you were here, I thought you were here and that was like my. That was the worst.
Speaker 2:When I got released from miami the last time, it was like after, like right before training, like right before the first preseason game in like 20, 21 or 22 I forget what the year was. So I came home and like didn't want to leave my house. I was like I don't want to see people, I don't want to like I don't even want to see my friends. Like I was just like, and that was like probably the lowest where I was like, oh, maybe this isn't for me, maybe I just can't, maybe I can't do it. But, like I said, you got to have a great support system where it's like, you know some people are going to say like, oh, are you doing this? And then you know you gotta listen to the people that are like, sometimes you gotta listen to the people that feed the crazy delusional dream, where it's like, hey, like, come on, I'll come, I'll catch snaps for you, like, let's go work out, let's go do this, let's go do this, and that was what kept me going and that was like what was, because that's what got me through.
Speaker 2:Like those darker days where you know, then that happens. Then I have, you know, then that happens. Then I have you know five or six workouts that next year, you know don't get signed, but you know that's fine, your name's in the wire. Go to the XFL, play great. Go to Pittsburgh, have a great preseason Um, you know it doesn't work out there, which is fine. Uh, go to go back to the XFL, have another great year, a couple more workouts in the offseason and then, boom, here I am now going on my 8th week with the Browns and it's, you know it's cliche, but like it's the journey and I really wouldn't have it any other way.
Speaker 1:It's when you're in those like dark moments. It's the voice in your head that doubt creeps in, that tells you maybe this isn't for me, maybe I can't do this, maybe I'm not good enough. I got cut after two days, four days, whatever it is, how do I have a chance? How to communicate with yourself? It's learning how to talk through that and have that support system and how important that support system can be.
Speaker 1:I don't think it can be stated enough, really, how you need people in your corner and you have to learn how to communicate through that doubt and I think, at the end of the day, with the people like yourself who make it in, the ones who don't, is there really isn't an option to quit. Even when you're in those low periods, or it's not going your way, or the extreme self-doubt, it's the little voice in the back of your head that's still saying but well, I'm not gonna quit, right, right, I'm gonna figure it out, I'm gonna do the next step. And sometimes it takes a little bit for that voice to come back where it's like I'm not going to quit, but eventually it does. And then you go and you get it rolling. Yeah, how do you maintain that perspective now with things kind of going your way.
Speaker 2:I always. So I kept. I don't know where it is right now, but I kept a letter from the Dolphins and like, do you remember what that letter like when they cut you? And there's like three options where it's like, oh, you got hurt, or you were like overweight, or like, oh, you just weren't Like. It literally just says like conduct, like insufficient, whatever it is. So I keep, I kept that, I've kept every one of those from when I've been cut and so like I'll just periodically look at that and be like, okay, like I do not want to ever see one of these again and the life of a specialist probably will at some point.
Speaker 2:Like I know that we've, we go all these different places and it's, you know, just the business of, of our, our, our, our position. But like I look at those and I'm like, okay, I never want to see that again. And that's the one thing where it's like that can happen. Like I was, you can be on cloud nine one day, and the next thing you know you're getting that letter at your parents' house and's like, ah, here we are again. So like you, just never like I. That's the way I kind of keep myself, grounded a bit of it to where it's like okay, like let me just let me not even think about what else is going on. Like you know we can be doing, I could be here, I could be doing well, but like gotta keep the phone, gotta keep the blinders on and just keep going, because you know that letter is right around the corner if you don't how do you block out distractions?
Speaker 2:oh, it's, it's hard, uh, especially like you know being from being from the town you play in. You know that's a that's a hard, especially like you know being from the town you play in. You know that's a hard thing because, like everyone wants to ask what's going on. But for me it's just, you know, I just try to keep, you know, doing my thing, like if I'm just, if I'm doing my job, I don't have time to entertain the distractions that you know. So as long as I'm just, I just try to stay as busy as possible, you know, and if I don't, maybe that's not right, maybe that's not. You know I relax when I'm home, I relax when I, you know, on my off days, you know that's that's great. You know, on my off days, you know that's that's great, but it's, you know, whether it's just study film or just hanging out, like you know, just being at the facility, it's, you know, if you're aware, if you're where you're supposed to be, like there's no, there are no distractions in that way.
Speaker 1:so that's kind of what I try to do how different is it from locker room to locker room in the nfl?
Speaker 1:I, you know, I try to talk to everybody, so like I don't, you know, I don't that's such a specialist thing, though it's funny when I was training uh, to play um terrell prior is someone who I trained with all the time and he would tell me any organization you get into. He's like go to the kicker, go to the long snapper, go to the punter. Those are the first people you talk to in every organization and it's so funny. Every time I talk to a specialist and they're just like yeah, I don't try and talk to everybody, what is it about you specialists that you guys are just so friendly?
Speaker 2:I think it's just because we have such a small group. Our group is only three people. Maybe there's a I've always been that extra guy in the group on the practice squad or whatever, just there for camp, but there's really just three or four of you at the most. So you've got to go and talk to people or you're just going to end up talking to the same people for the whole time. But I think I don't't know, we just try to, we, I don't know, I just try to try to talk to as many people as I can, but that's kind of how I am anyways. I mean, I'm sure sam would tell you I'd talk to a brick wall if I could. You know like it's.
Speaker 1:It's uh, just the way I am. How seriously do you take yourself like? Are you serious all the time? Are you goofy most of the time?
Speaker 2:I'm goofy. For the most part I don't like. I think I take myself like, I take my job seriously. I take my, my craft seriously and I understand the magnitude of what I do like. So, like you know, during a game, during stuff, like when I'm, when it's time to go, it's time to go, but like other than that, I try to be as loose as possible.
Speaker 1:You know I try how do you flip that switch to lock in?
Speaker 2:what is that?
Speaker 1:how do you flip that switch to lock in um?
Speaker 2:I just remember where I like you gotta remember where you are, and for me it's like, so, like art, like for me it's you look like when I, when I'm like, okay, like I gotta go, like I'll look up and be like, oh, like you remember where you like like the whole being where your feet are, you kind of just like, like you remember, you're like, oh, I'm at practice with the cleveland browns right now, like I, okay, let's, let's lock this back in. Or you look up, you're like, oh crap, okay, I'm at, like you know, I'm at mile high stadium, like some great people have played here. Like I better, just I gotta lock this back in.
Speaker 1:And then you kind of, and then it all just kind of comes back and then you're good to go what I love about athletics football in particular, I think, more so than than any other sport is when you're a competitor, you're a totally different person on the field than you are off the field. I think that's a hard thing for people, or fans in general, to understand, is like that competitive nature, the, the seriousness of the job and just that competitive energy that just comes out. Some people there's like a physical switch, they have to do things. Other people, like yourself, which I love, is like that be where your feet are, recognize where I'm at, put myself in the moment. And then some people it's just an emotional, internal sense of emotion that just comes out of your body and it's different for everyone.
Speaker 2:Um, and I get different answers every time I ask and it's, it's such a cool part about athletics yeah, I mean you like there were guys like I'm sure you've seen this video on social media like I had a teammate in college who literally had to beat his head in with it, with his helmet, to like lock himself in yep, it was, and I look, and. But the thing is not like if you were like, okay, this dude is a crazy person, the nicest, the nicest like one of my best friends, the nicest guy you've ever met like talking to he's great. But then you have other guys that, just like you know, they kind of just sit there and they meditate for a little bit and then they go out there and then they just like take someone's head off and you know it's like, well, where was where was that? Like, where'd that come from? It's wild, it's one of the funnier things.
Speaker 1:They're not funny but, like you said, it's like the most interesting thing ever about football because it's so violent and it's so many different walks of life that come in and play this game and it's crazy and I know this is fresh but the Aziz hit like on Trevor Lawrence anyone you talk to in that Texans organization nicest human, yeah, like exactly just unbelievable guy and it's like he wasn't trying to hurt Trevor Lawrence. The hit was clearly not okay, but like it's a different element of your personality that comes out in the game.
Speaker 2:It is such a violent game that you have to be violent doing it, or you're going to get hurt like it is, that's exactly right, or you're going to get hurt.
Speaker 1:That's exactly right. Or you're going to get hurt.
Speaker 2:It's like it's yeah, it is just a. Yeah, it's a crazy, crazy thing. I don't know. I mean, it's you just never like. You just never know. You never know with some of those guys. Yeah, I mean, I've never met his knees before but, like you said, I've been reading on Twitter and everything. Nicest guy, you know, you never know, it's just the game man.
Speaker 1:Crazy. What separates you from other long snappers? Why are you one of 32 people in the world?
Speaker 2:so, honestly, like I, I think I've just, I think I'm just really blessed to be there like I'm. I work my ass off. I come in every day with the mindset of trying to get better. And I think that you know, and I think I, when I was younger, I hated hearing like, oh, you just got to show up and keep doing it and it'll, and it'll all work out. Because, like you and I both know that that's not, that just is not the case. Sometimes, like you can do all of the right things and you can be the be a great human, and sometimes it doesn't work out. And I think that, like I, I'm, like I said, I'm just really blessed that it has worked out and I've, I've done it the right way. I, I've done it the hard way. I, you know, I went to, you know, camps, workouts, everything finally got in, finally got the ability to play, get some film in the XFL doesn't work out in other places, go back to the XFL, keep doing it the same way and then finally get my opportunity.
Speaker 2:And I think that maybe just the determination is what you know, because there are like and I always tell this story like the guy that was and I'm not guy, that was Nick had a different path. The guy who was ahead of me at West Virginia was the best long snapper I've ever seen. The dude was unbelievable. But the XFL didn't exist back then. He would have played a year in the XFL. He'd be playing right now, but now he's a strength coach and he's going to have a head job here in the next however many years and he's going to, you know, he's going to mold the next generation of athletes forever and it's what I think like just, and he's the one who really taught me how to work. So I really thank Nick for that. That was where I'm like, okay, I just got to keep showing up and I think that's kind of what puts me a part of a lot of guys.
Speaker 1:How much gratitude do you have on a day-to-day basis?
Speaker 2:I have to have a lot.
Speaker 1:I have to have a lot.
Speaker 2:I have to have a lot of gratitude to, especially for me, where it's like there are a lot of people that have helped, a lot of people that have done right by me and you know, can't you have to pay that back. It's not a monetary thing, it's not a something else. It's just like you have to be grateful to those people or to whatever it is, because, like it is, like when you're like, when I see people that are like, genuinely grateful for like, or even when I'm showing gratitude that way, it is like it is such a better feeling than anything that you can receive. So, like I try to make sure that I am that way because I know how great, like I know it's a great feeling, so you have to show that to whoever it is, or whatever it is that has helped you along the way.
Speaker 1:Do you have a process for dealing with failure?
Speaker 2:I mean, yeah, like it used to not be as good as it is now, to where, like I said, like it used to be like, okay, hold up for a couple of days, like, wallow in your own self-pity, and then finally get back on the horse. But now it's like, you know, I can't, I, I can't control that. And now it's like, okay, I, I get ripped in practice because I've screwed up. Okay, like, like, it's your fault. You were the one that screwed up. Why did you screw up? Go watch it and then work on why. So like, okay, I didn't get my head up fast enough. Okay, let's go, and let's go and work on doing that. Okay, I didn't, my feet weren't quick enough. Okay, let's get on the ladders enough. Okay, let's get on the ladders. Okay, let's.
Speaker 2:You know there's that balance of like, okay, like, lick your wounds a little bit, but we gotta go like. We can't just sit here and focus on the negatives of it or we won't. You know, you'll never find the bottom of of that negativity. And it's for me, like I, I've tried it. It's you know, you can't. And it's for me, like I, I've tried it. It's you can't and it it's a lot. You feel a lot better too, like when you find, like when you're working towards, why you fail, and I think that's been what's helped me a lot what's really hard is.
Speaker 1:I don't care who you are. If you fail, it sucks, it's the worst, like it, it's brutal. And you think about tennis players losing it in a wimbledon final. That sucks like there's, there's, there's maybe not a lesson learned, it's. That person was better than me today. I could overanalyze everything, but at the end of the day it's like I know I'll never get back here unless I just get back to work and get back to focusing on what's next. That transition is really hard and different for everybody and at different periods of life you learn how to. I hate the word cope, but cope with it differently. People see athletes move on and it's not that it's easy, it's that it's necessary, and learning how to do that is just so challenging.
Speaker 2:It's like it's one of those things that you'll, you don't even like understand, like it until it. You don't even like. You know, because you're sitting there one day, yeah, this is great, blah, blah, blah. And then you're like just in the bottom and you're like holy crap, like how did like this? You didn't even get a chance to like, you didn't even see it coming, it's it and it. Yeah, like you said, like it's a necessity, because if you, if you don't, then the next opportunity may pass you by, and it just is, and that might even be worse.
Speaker 1:The hard part is the acceptance, even pre-event. I think it inherently, innately, why we love competition so much is because we subconsciously know that there's a chance we may fail, because if we knew we were going to win every time, to be honest, it probably wouldn't be as fun, right? The problem becomes, as athletes, when we are too naive to the concept of failure. We have to understand it's there and not fixate on it like there's a chance I'm gonna miss this. There's a chance I'm gonna lose. There's a chance I'm gonna get cut, whatever it is. There's a chance I'm gonna miss this. There's a chance I'm gonna lose. There's a chance I'm gonna get cut, whatever it is.
Speaker 1:There's a chance of this going absolutely poorly and I have to in advance prepare myself for that. But I'm not gonna fixate on it. I'm gonna deal with it if it comes here, because I've, you know, consciously prepared myself and then I'm gonna pour and focus my energy and everything that can and will go right. Right, so that way I'm not totally cut off guard. Right, like what you do, you have that letter, like you know what that's like, you have that reminder and you're like I'm not going back there, but if I do, I know how to deal with it and it's I'm gonna focus everything into what's gone, right?
Speaker 2:yeah, I mean, that's like I mean. So you said it perfectly. That's the only way because you can, if you focus on the failure of it, say, okay, well, if I, then it might, then that's gonna happen, like because the more you think about it, the more you know, the more it's gonna happen, it's. It's so that thing where you have to just work for like, work like, think like you said, think about it, have it in the back of your mind to be like, okay, this can happen, and if it does, this is how we deal with it, and then you gotta go if you were to give advice to any young specialist right now, what is the number one thing that they can do?
Speaker 1:or it doesn't even have to be young anyone who's trying to play professionally and that's their aspirations. What's the number one thing that they need to do as a specialist?
Speaker 2:don't judge. Don't judge your worth off of the other people or like the other people in that position, because, like that was a big thing for me, where it was like when I came out it seemed like the same five guys kept getting workouts, kept getting opportunities, kept going here, going there, and it was discouraging, but like you just have to, like don't think about that, you like just keep doing your own thing, stay in your lane and just go, and if you want it, you have to be all in about it. You can't just halfway do it. Train the same way you did in college Train, work out, eat, do all the right stuff.
Speaker 2:Because one of the worst things that ever happened to me was I went to Denver for a workout and I had been. It was one of those things where, like I hadn't snapped in a while, wasn't really trained in the right way, and I stepped on the scale. It was light, like way more light than I should have been, and like I looked at the I forget if it was a scouter a strange coach that was weighing me and he kind of like looked back at me like what the fuck is this? And snapped well, but I didn't get signed and like in the back of my mind, I'm like, all right, like I can't have that happen again. So that you know, like you can't, you can't base it off of the other people.
Speaker 2:And that's what I was doing where I was like, okay, I'm not going to get this call, it's going to be boom, boom, boom, these four people that are going to go. It's not going to be me. But then here you are, you get that call and you're not ready and it's that was a painful four-hour flight home. So it's, you know, you just have to all. And you know like, uh, this guy, like another snapper's named matt overton, like he, he kind of, is like coined the phrase of like stay ready in the specialist community and like it's that's the truth. Because, like what, especially in our position? I mean, you see it now there are how many guys this year came right off the street and are now like banging game lands, it's, it's crazy, like so, if you're not, like like that call could come at any moment and it's, you just have to be ready for it. So, like I was just saying, like don't judge yourself off of the other people that are, you know, getting workouts or not getting workouts and then just stay.
Speaker 1:Stay ready as best as you can, because you never know what's coming how do you deal with that unknown piece because, like you said, it may never come, come Exactly and it may come tomorrow. It's hard.
Speaker 2:It definitely gets hard with like your loved ones because, like my girlfriend will always be trying to like plan something and I'm like, well, I don't know. But she's like, well, but you could, I'm like I could, but that very slight chance that it doesn't like that I can't, like I don't want to tell you yes, and then like I can't, so like even my. So my best friend from high school, he's getting married in January. His bachelor party was on like the weekend of his bachelor party started on like it was like Friday to Sunday. So I'm all excited to go.
Speaker 2:That's when I got called by the Browns the first time. They're like hey, we're going to work you out on Thursday. I'm like, oh, shoot, here we go. So then I go and I'm thinking to myself, okay, let's just go balls to the wall here, because if I get it, great, and if I don't, I don't, I won't have time to like be upset about it, because I'm just gonna go, I'm gonna go be with my friends. Anyways, get the call. They're like hey, we're gonna sign you.
Speaker 2:So then I call my buddies. They're like oh, like, because, like you know, and it's it's weird for the because they're like obviously we're happy for you, like because, like, and they're all browns fans too, so they're like hell, obviously we're happy for you, and they're all Browns fans too. So they're like hell, yeah, that's great. But then they're kind of like. A day later they're like oh, wait a minute, that means you can't, we're not going to see you. I'm like yeah, it is so. It's just, you know, it's a weird thing, but it's so much fun. It's like a lottery ticket waiting to happen, and I mean it's, it's, it's undeniable. I guess it's weird, but it's cool. I don't know it's.
Speaker 1:When I got the call from the buffalo bills to come, I missed my sister's wedding and I just my mom, my mom was not even happy for me. My mom just immediately starts crying knowing I'm not going to be at my sister's wedding. My stepdad, too, getting nodding, nodding. He's like, oh my gosh, your mother's going to be devastated Cause I called him. First I was like man, I was like I can't get anyone to say congratulations. But then I called my sister, and my sister and, uh, her husband now were unbelievably understandable and like that's, you know, awesome. You've been working your whole life for this. Uh, but that's, that's the part of it, though, too, like to your point, you will miss out on things. There will be things that are really, really important that you will miss. That's part of it, right, but like what else would you rather do, exactly?
Speaker 2:That's what I always tell myself. Where I'm like, oh, I'm missing this or I'm missing that, it's like, wait a minute, I'm not missing anything. If I was there, all I'd be thinking about is doing this, so why would I even? You know it's a crazy feeling, but it's so worth it.
Speaker 1:To me, it's the perspective of commitment versus sacrifice. It's I'm just committed to this, I'm all in. This is what I'm doing. Committed to this, I'm all in. This is what I'm doing. This is what I love above everything else. So it doesn't really feel like sacrifice. Even though it is sacrifice, it's I would rather do this. It's like what TV show would I rather watch? Right, I'm going to miss out on one to do the other, but I'm not thinking about the one I missed out on, I'm thinking about the one I'm watching, the one I'm living. So just having that reframe, I think is important for athletes who are like I'm going to miss the party or the bachelor weekend or whatever, but it's like, but you get to do something that one of billions of people would be killing to do.
Speaker 2:And that's the one thing that I always like, I always think of where you have to. You have to understand that you know everyone, like every person, like you know maybe not everyone, but 90% of like the country, like when they were growing up. They're like, oh yeah, like I would love to do that at some point, so like that's what you're doing and it is the best feeling ever.
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Speaker 1:Heck, yeah, man, that's awesome. Thanks so much for coming on, man.
Speaker 2:Of course, Colin. Thanks for having me.
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