Ep 73: The Energy That Saved Me - Healing My Trauma Through Kundalini Awakening

What if your emotional breakdown wasn’t a sign of weakness but the beginning of your spiritual awakening?

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about a journey I’ve held close to my heart for years: my Kundalini Shakti awakening, also known as the feminine rising. From being betrayed by a teacher I trusted, to experiencing unexplained energy surges, visions, and overwhelming love, this is the raw, mystical, and messy story of how my awakening unfolded through trauma, silence, and surrender.

This episode isn’t just about me. It’s a love letter to you, especially if you're navigating pain, confusion, or feeling disconnected from your body and your truth. You are not alone. You are not broken. You might just be awakening.

We explore: 

✨ The spiritual signs of Kundalini rising and why it often begins with heartbreak or disconnection
 ✨ What it really feels like to go through a Kundalini awakening
 ✨ The role of divine feminine energy in helping us heal from trauma, betrayal, and burnout
 ✨ Why surrendering, not forcing, is the key to activating your inner power
 ✨ How these awakenings shaped my purpose to help women find their voice, their healing, and their power

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Transcript

Today's episode is one I have held close to my heart for a long time. I'm opening up about something deeply personal. It's my own kundalini shakti awakening, which is also called the feminine rising awakening, and how it completely transformed my life. This is not a polished perfect story. It started in the middle of pain, trauma, and emotional breakdowns for me when I was feeling disconnected from my body, my voice and my truth. And I didn't even know what Connoini was when it had first begun. I just knew something powerful was rising inside of me and then I connected the dots. Something I couldn't explain, but I also couldn't ignore. So in this episode, I am sharing the messy, the mystical, the magical details of how awakening my feminine life force not only helped me heal, but guided me to come home to myself.

So if you're going through something heavy right now or you've been curious about Kundalini, but unsure where to begin, this episode is my love letter to you that you are not alone, you're not crazy. You might just be awakening. So stay tuned. Welcome everyone to one more episode of the Dimple Bindra show. I'm your host Dimple Bindra, and I am going to share something super, super personal that happened with me and I'll try my best to elaborate the story because this is something that I have not really shared in public and I may have shared it in my course, but I will try to say this again, because sometimes when you say some things at different times, the story that comes out at one time could be a little different than the other time, but I will try to explain as much as I can about my kundalini awakening.

So I had a teacher when I was about 15 years old and he always implanted the seed in me that I need to practice yoga because I will be going through a lot of changes in my life and he was an astrologer, so me and him, this is back in about 2010. Me and him, we used to connect on a regular basis because I wanted to really heal my issues around forgiveness and betrayal and insecurity, and he had mentioned to me that if I practice yoga and meditation, it will help me raise my kundalini energy. So this kundalini energy was just a concept for me to achieve at that time. I did not know what this means, I did not know anything about it. And all I knew was that when he would guide me on practicing meditations and practicing yoga, and during that time I was already teaching.

I was teaching yoga to my students in California at different corporations, but my weekends were spent home alone. On my bed or on the floor practicing meditation, especially I would wake up in the morning on the weekends and I would say, I have a class to teach. I would go teach the class, come back home and my evenings and weekends were all spent meditating because I was a high achiever and I wanted to achieve something and this achievement was tied to this notion of if I awaken my kundalini, I may get enlightened or I may know so much more than I know now, or I can become the master teacher of yoga and meditation. So I would say this stemmed from ego, the ego part of myself.

And I did not know this then, but I was like, why was I so drawn to this kundalini because it was mystical, it was magical, and I thought if I can just be like other yogis and if I can devote my hours, my evenings, my weekends and not go places, I can definitely help myself achieve this state. So I began meditating and I began practicing and then. And then what happened was I figured out that the teacher that who was guiding me was not a real teacher, he was a cult teacher. I figured that out. OK, that's another story. When I figured that out, immediately the earth under me had had completely split into two pieces, so I literally felt shattered. I felt betrayed again for the 100th time in my life, and I was like, what the fuck, man?

I trusted this person. And he taught me all these things. Thank God all our teachings was over the phone. Thank God back then I don't have a video or nothing, so it was not on on the video or anything. It was always over the phone, on phone calls, he would guide me over phone calls and then later when I figured out that this teacher was just using and abusing me, part of me felt shattered because I was hooked on to this teacher because I wanted to learn about Conalini. And then all of a sudden I find out that he's guiding me through it, but he's not really teaching me the gist of it and that's when when my heart broke and I felt abandoned and I was grieving because this was the moment in my life where I had actually withdrawn from all the places that I was working at.

So I was working at like 20 different places teaching yoga and meditation in the Bay Area. I quit teaching at at those places because I said I am going to India and I am going to be under the guidance of my teacher and this is what I literally said to all of my students I even had a farewell party. I had a farewell party at the India Community Center. My students threw me this amazing party. I'm so grateful to them for doing that. I'm so grateful to the manager who, you know, organized everything and the students who organized everything, But then I never went to India because during the time when I had the farewell party to the time that was my my ticket was actually I guess I was waiting for my ticket to be booked because I was waiting for my teacher to tell me, hey, now is the time and you can now come to India.

So I was waiting for this day. This is, I'm talking about years and years and years of practice. And I'm waiting that one day when my teacher tells me that you can now come to India, I thought then my kundalini will awaken. So it's like I've been programming myself and I've been brainwashing myself and someone else is brainwashing me that you will reach the state when you do a certain, when you do a certain practices of meditation. And I remember our conversations with the teacher, he would always say things like, oh, it's not your right time yet, it's not the right time yet. You will get there when the right time comes. So in my head, I'm like, alright, it's 2010. I started talking to my teacher. I was more like 2008 was where I would really start talking to him, and this story when my world shattered was around 2015 or 2016.

Something around that time. So it was like so many years of me practicing. And then when I couldn't go to him and I'm like, now what? Now how do I learnundalini because he literally abandoned me and now where do I learn this from? And that's when I started deeper reflection of my soul and I was like, I need to learn about this so that I can teach it to other women. So I had this quest, and I was, I was already on a quest. That quest met with obstacles. And I thought my savior would be my teacher, but he was not abandoned me, all right.

And then fast forward, I was home alone for almost 2 months, did not call any of my students to tell them what's going on with me because I didn't go to India and I was like, OK, I quit all my jobs. I have all this time and I had savings to like pay my rent and stuff, and I'm like, alright, I need to figure out my next steps. So when I was figuring out my next steps, I came across a teacher in San Francisco. Her name is Doctor Francesca McCartney. She leads an academy called the Academy of Intuition Medicine, and I went to her and I told her my entire story like I'm here from the last few 10, almost I think 6 or 8+ years practicing and I want to really awaken my condoin. I don't know how to awaken it. And then she said, you're already awakening, but yes, in this school you will learn more.

And I would practice the meditations that was given to me and fast forward, maybe a year and a half later. On the day of my, I would say, 2nd kundalini awakening. I'm going into 2 because the first one I did not have this recollection, but the first kundalini awakening that I had was at the age of 10 or 11. I recalled that memory later in life. When I was, so in about 2015, I would say, no, 2016, the day of my kundalini awakening as an adult. I was sleeping in my apartment in San Jose, I was alone. It was around 9 a.m. because that was, I think that day I was not supposed to teach, but I was sleeping and a rush of this energy from my lower back started and again I'm trying to use my words as best as possible for you to understand my awakening journey. Some words may come across today, some may not, but I just need the divine feminine’s help right now to help me speak the actual incident.

So when this energy was rising through me, I started feeling crazy vibrations in my lower back and because I was on the bed, I was moving my body as if I'm doing yoga but on the bed. Because my eyes were closed, I was totally aware, but I was aware, so I was sleeping but I was not really sleeping. Like you know when you're like, OK, I'll wake up, I'll wake up and then your eyes are closed, I'm totally aware and then I started hearing a hissing sound. The sound was just like how a snake hisses. And then I started hearing a train sound and the train is going super fast in speed, so it's like. You know, I'm just trying to make these sounds. And then I also, and again, all the stuff that I'm explaining right now, it's not in order. So whatever I'm saying, it was not exactly in order.

And then I just all of a sudden my eyes were closed and I see the eyes of a snake. And the color of the eyes were red, and the snake color that I see like snake exactly in front of my eyes, I see the snake color as grayish, blackish, shiny-ish snake color. And then the next thing I know is in my lower back, I am getting heated, like a lot of heat in my lower back, where the heat is moving up my stomach area, moving up my womb area, and then it's going slowly, slowly, slowly into my heart space and then slowly, slowly, slowly it's going up towards my headspace. When it goes up to my headspace, I felt this intense energy as if I have over maybe. I'm wearing a hat and the hat weight is over 200 pounds or something, so I'm carrying this heavy, heavy hat on my head. That's how it felt.

And then after about a few minutes or so, when the movement of my body stopped, my body was also getting very hot. And it was a normal day, it was not a hot day actually. When I came out of it, when this intense feeling just subsided, when I opened up my eyes, I was like, whoa, what was that? Like, what was that? Was I going crazy? But part of me knew this is Kundalini rising. Because I was already practicing under the guidance of my teacher. And during our practices, you know, she always taught us that this could be one of your experiences so I kind of already knew when this started, when the stirring of my spine started. I knew this is Kundalini and then it's like voices of teachers are playing in my ears like my old teacher, my current teacher, and the word kept on coming, which the word that kept on coming in my ears was surrender.

Surrender to this process. Just surrender. There's nothing wrong there's nothing bad happening. You're not getting under the influence of a demonic force. You're not getting possessed. Just surrender, just surrender and I would just surrender. And when I surrendered it and not fight it, this energy would, you know, slowly keep moving up, you know, and it's moving in like a circular flow is what I felt. When it goes to the head and I open up my eyes and once I open up my eyes, the feeling of being in love. I had never felt that before and I thought, hey, I'm in a relationship and I thought I was already under the impression that I know what love feels like, but I was wrong and I felt during that moment that all the things I knew in my life, whether it's knowledge, whether it's how to do a certain thing.

I actually don't know anything. I kind of felt like I don't know anything. I have no knowledge. But the only thing that felt predominant or dominant at that time was this feeling of being in love. When I opened up my eyes, the first thing that I got a thought or a feeling that I need to get out of the house and I need to go near trees, so I literally wore my clothes. I don't think I washed my face that day. And usually, you know, I would wake up, take a shower, brush my teeth and go. This day I was like, nothing came over me, something came over me said go to the trees, and I wore my clothes and as soon as I stepped out of the house, every insect that I saw, every animal that I encountered.

Every person that I saw on the street, guess what? I felt I'm in love with them. And I didn't know this feeling before. I never knew the feeling that the love that I have inside me can also be outside of me, and I can feel that same love even in a cockroach. And I'm saying cockroach because I'm allergic to cockroaches. When I had encountered a cockroach on the street, I had encountered a spider on the street. I had encountered a little puppy, and I'm looking at them as if I'm looking at them for the first time. So and then when I, it took me about 10 minutes to go to the park nearby near my home. When I went to the park, I went in the middle of the park, and I was surrounded by so many trees, and I think I probably even took a video that day on my phone, and I said, I feel I'm in love with everything around me.

The trees made me feel that their energies inside of me, and that day was my second awakening, right? I mentioned this was my second awakening as my first awakening. I did not have the recollection of my first awakening until the 2nd awakening happened. That whole week, I was feeling I'm in love with everything, every being, every animal, every tree. OK, you get the point, right? Like everything that I can encounter, even a table, even a chair.

Within that week, the next day, or maybe the following days, I had a memory of my first awakening. And my first awakening was 'cause this intelligence, this power told me that you were awakened before too when you really needed it. And I'm like, when did I need this? And then I got a memory, and the memory was in Abu Dhabi when we had our annual day event. So during our annual day event, what used to happen was I used to take part in the Arabic dance amongst a lot of other girls, and there would be a teacher who would guide us with the dance and I was among a group of dancers. So my job during the annual day event was towards the end of the song, go in the front amongst I think 3 or 6 girls, and I need to go in the front of the stage.

This is like towards the ending of the song, so when the song is almost ending, right? The song is ending and it's a very fast beat and I'm supposed to move my head in circles. Yeah, like open hair because Arabic dancing is all with open hair. So I'm supposed to move my head in a circle like I'm twirling but with my head. And during that time something happened in me and even I don't know because I was a kid and I was like, oh maybe I got so much energy, you know, I did not know, but I was going in a circle. I kept on going for, I don't know, 2 minutes or 3 minutes or maybe it was 6 minutes, but all I know is all I recall is towards the end, everyone was like, wow, we got a standing ovation.

A standing ovation, all the other girls probably stopped moving their head, but I was going and I was going in full circle, full speed, like this, if you aren't seeing on video, this is how my head was going in a circle, OK? And if you're listening to the podcast, maybe go check out the video. But I'm literally going and spinning my head and I got a standing ovation. And after that day I was like damn, how did I get the energy? 'Cause I remember up to the day of the annual day I was so worried as a kid because my neck was hurting. During our practices, my neck was hurting. And I was so worried that oh my God, how am I going to do this annual day event because my neck is hurting. How am I gonna do the shaking of my head, you know, I can't, I cannot even look to the left or to the right. My head was in that much pain.

But when the right time came, I got the energy and the energy did the work for me. And this was the Kundalini energy awakening. Which means, and if I'm making sense right now as an adult, this energy has its own intelligence. It will give you the power needed for whenever you need that actual power. So this energy when it came up through me, I was moving in all these directions because I really needed it, you know, and have you ever felt like sometimes you can't speak. It may be in a public event and all of a sudden you have to and all of a sudden you get the power to or maybe someone is sick and you feel like, oh my God, I cannot take care of them, but something you do, you get some sort of a power and all of a sudden you're able to do that thing, that action.

That's exactly what I felt. I felt the supreme power inside me and I never had that memory until my second awakening. And then came my third awakening. So my 3rd awakening for Kundalini happened very recently. It just happened in the in the last one month, and I'm recording this as of April 7th, 2025. It happened a month ago. I was sleeping and typically I have been awakening between 1 and 3 a.m. like most nights I haven't gotten any sleep. So 1 and 3 a.m. I was awakening almost every night and I'm like, what the hell? Is it me? Is it the snoring happening around me? What is this that keeps me up, right?

So something, some energy would awaken me. I'm like, alright, it was a usual 1 to 3 a.m. awakening. I would open up my eyes and I'm like, oh God, OK, you know, I'm trying to put myself back to sleep again and then again, this time, this energy. The kundalini energy, the feminine, the divine feminine in me awakened in a very subtle way. It was awakening as if, and the way I can explain it is, imagine someone has a fan and they turned it on at high speed at your lower back. But this fan is the air is moving from the lower back to the head, from the head back to the lower back, lower back to the head, head back to the lower back, and this flow up and down flow ascending, descending, ascending, descending is happening.

And I was like, and at the moment this happened, I was like, Ma, that's what I say. I have this relationship with the divine feminine now so strongly. That even if I hear the word shakti or if I see something which helps me to awaken the power within me which is if I see something religious or if I hear a mantra or if I see that women are being oppressed and women are being silenced and shamed or they've been assaulted this power inside me comes and I just, I lose control. I literally lose control. I sometimes don't know who I am. I don't know why I talk that way and sometimes this power comes in me and I'm like, wow, I never had this power.

And when this awakening happened. Something told me during the awakening process that. You have to help other women. To heal. You have to be their voice. You have to show them how to use their voice, especially all the women that are silenced, shamed. That have been hurt, that have been oppressed, that have been raped, you have to show them the power. So this clarity came to me during my third kundalini awakening.

And why am I sharing my story? I'm sharing it because you may be awakening right now, and I'm not telling you the stages are beautiful. I had to go through the dark night of the soul myself. I had to cry. I had to hide my tears. I had to hide myself from the world because I was ashamed. I was ashamed. What will people think? What will my students think, you know, but today, as of today, I feel I don't give a fuck about what anyone thinks about me. I am who I am. I'm here on a mission. To spread the power of this energy so that other women can use it for harnessing their own power and use it for their advantage, especially if they are in stuck relationships, especially if they are in bad jobs, bad careers, especially when they're over giving their energy, if they feel burnt out, if they feel like they wanna do something but they can't do it because of XYZ reasons—if you're an overgiver or overthinker.

I feel this is the energy that you need to harness, and this is in everyone. Every man, every woman has this kundalini shakti within their lower back, within their spine, and it's ready to be awakened. You just have to know it. That you have this power within you, and once you start speaking to that power that's within you, she will rise, she will come help you, she will guide you the right way, she will show you your path, she will show you your purpose.

And I was called to do this podcast today, and I wanted to share my story of my kundalini journey, and I hope that it helps you to awaken yours. See you in our next podcast. Until then, always remember—metamorphosis, not medication. Namaste.

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