Stop Hiding Your Gifts

You can feel it in your bones when you’re meant for something different and still keep yourself small because you’re afraid of sounding “too woo,” too intense, or too much. Nikki goes straight at that fear and names what’s underneath it: conditioning that teaches us to distrust intuition, hide spiritual gifts, and follow a life script that often ends in exhaustion instead of embodiment. If you’ve been repressing your inner knowing, your healing abilities, or your desire to serve in a deeper way, this is the permission slip to stop waiting. 

We dig into what intuition actually looks like in real life, from claircognizance and clairsentience to spontaneous downloads, vivid dreams, and the subtle signals your nervous system uses to guide you. Nikki also explains why the theta brainwave state matters for reprogramming and why energetic boundaries are essential, especially at night. You’ll hear a simple protection call-upon you can use immediately, plus a grounded way to find alignment through a somatic yes-no test so you can make decisions that feel clean in your body. 

Purpose comes through as something lived, not performed. Your medium might be Reiki, sound healing, somatic trauma work, yoga, writing, teaching, or quiet community leadership, not necessarily social media. Nikki shares how Vedic astrology helped clarify her path toward embodiment and teaching, and why heart-led creation matters even more in an AI-heavy world. The final push is clear: forgive, release the old loops, get off the wheel of karma, and share what you came here to share. If this hits, subscribe, share it with someone who’s hiding their gift, and leave a review so more people can find this work.

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Transcript

Welcome To The Deeper Circle

SPEAKER_01 0:05

Welcome to Modern Zen Co Plus, our deeper subscription space created to support reflection, integration, and real life embodiment. This is where we share bonus practices, exclusive conversations, channeled insights, and intuitive guidance offered with intention and care. Nikki and I are so glad that you're here.

Getting Over Spiritual Shame

The Cost Of Normal Life Scripts

Theta State And Early Psychic Memories

A Simple Energy Protection Call

Find Your Medium And Share

Use The Body Yes No Test

Vedic Astrology For Purpose Clarity

New Earth Guidance And Soul Work

Ancestral Healing Through Service

SPEAKER_02 0:29

Hello, welcome to another episode of the Modern Zen Collective Plus podcast. Thank you so much for being a subscriber, being on this side of the community with us. We adore you being part of this deeper dive into everything we love in terms of wellness, practitioners, holistic living, channeling, intuition, all of the things. So thank you for being here. We truly, truly appreciate you. This is a solo cast with me, Nikki. So nice to have you here. And what I wanted to talk about today on this is getting over ourselves, getting over ourselves with these spiritual gifts that we have that we repress and that we are embarrassed of, and we think we're not going to be accepted, and all of these things. Because if you're listening to this and the title sparked some interest in you, you are also possibly on this wavelength. Maybe you aren't fully showing up and giving your gifts to the world or you feel weird about it. So I want to pull apart the layers, my journey, talk a little bit about it, and also receiving channeled insights as well as I channel and receive the downloads for what's going on. So we are not taught that we have an intuition, right? So if in school, you know, kindergarten, hey everybody, you know, you're not seven years old yet. So uh we want to teach you about intuition. So this intuition is something that you have and it's a direct connection with yourself. And um, this is how you download it, this is how you access it. No, we weren't taught that. We also weren't taught taught how to balance a checkbook or do taxes, right? There's lots of things that were not taught in school, whether you went to public school, private school, et cetera, it's not in the curriculum. Uh why? Why? We all have it. And if you've looked at, which I love doing deep dives on CIA documents that have been declassified, uh they use this. This is used. This is our intuition, our telekinesis, remote viewing, all of these things are used from the CIA, from the military, from people in power, all of these different ways. And we are not taught how to access and use it ourselves. Um, we're also not only not taught to access and use it ourselves, it's shun. It's really uh given, I don't know, it's making me think of Harry Potter, right? Uh when you have the muggles, like we're all the muggles or whatever, and we're not supposed to use our gifts. So we're it's like frowned upon and looked down upon. Anyone who's Harry Potter, if I'm saying the uh essence of what a muggle is, please let me know. Uh but uh so we're we're meant to just go through and grind. This this is what grinds my gears, okay? This is what grinds my gears. We're all meant to be the exact frickin' same. That is impossible. We're all meant to go to school, go to college, get married, get a job, maybe have some party years, buy a house, get a mortgage that you're gonna pay 30 years on, stay in the same house or move around, try to make a little bit of uh money on the house as you as you sell it and as you buy it, etc. All of these things. Work, work, work, work, work, work, save for retirement, save a retirement, 65, 68, retire, and then travel or do whatever it is you want to do when you retire. You might be freaking exhausted or chronically sick because you've been living in this way and might not be able to do anything after you retire. And that really grinds my gears. Also, holistic, homeopathic, that that's not accessible to us also really grinds my gears because our body is energy and getting back to the root and to the source. I actually just read an article about how Gen Z is getting back to ancient Chinese medicine. And the Arctorians have channeled this a lot about Gen Z and the generations after, that are asking questions. Why do you guys do this? Why do you do this? This makes no sense. This is stupid. Just calling a spade a spade, right? And they're starting to look at, you know, medicine and commercials. And now, I don't know, if you if you're in that zone of where you have begun your awakening, started to have those peaks of interest in something bigger than you, questioning the narrative, all these things. When you see a pharmaceutical ad, how do you feel? Honestly, how do you feel? It feels like, to me, it feels like 1984. It feels like we live in a dystopian society, and it feels like I am a spectator looking in, and I I'm I'm it's like I'm watching a movie. I can't believe this is real life. I can't believe there are uh commercials about drugs for you that give you side effects, and they have to list the side effects. It's just crazy, crazy to me. Uh so the way that we are repressed from our intuition has so many layers to it. So many layers to not being well, not being in tune with our body, not understanding that we have this um intuitive connection. Uh, you know, it's something that we self-explore and we find for ourselves. There are, you know, some of us that have uh ghost stories or stories of um inner dimension, uh stories of astroprojecting or traveling while you sleep, while you meditate, uh, you know, things like that. And maybe you um were able to see ghosts at a young age, you know, before the veil um got thicker after you were seven, eight. I say that a lot. Between zero and seven, that's when you aren't fully developed in your prefrontal cortex. So that's when you are in that theta brainwave state. So with that, you are a completely downloadable program. And as a downloadable program, anything that happens to you around you becomes your truth. Uh and then you move into your era of who you are. So there's those proverbs that say, Show me a boy at seven and I'll show you the man, because what you know has happened throughout those first seven years, that's going to show and be the imprint of who they become. Um, so when you were young, maybe you did see apparitions or you felt things, or, you know, ancestors visited you in dreams, etc. I know for me, um, I never thought that it was uh something that was different or um or interesting, but I have had encounters with the paranormal. Not so much anymore that I do my call-upons and I protect my energy. I call upon my guides, I call upon God, I call, I call upon the my I have my whole pocket of who I call upon to protect me when I go to bed and they protect me when I'm traveling, protect me when I go to a new spot, etc. Uh, but friends and family would always be very interested in my stories about, you know, hearing ghosts, seeing ghosts, knowing that there's a ghost, et cetera. Uh and for me, I think we all have this gift. And I think for me, it was just I always believed in the supernatural, and I always believed in something. I always question the narrative. I'm like, well, well, it can't just be us on planet earth here by ourselves. Like they're like, or where, or like I lost a lot of like grandparents, and I lost um growing up and younger, and and I come from, you know, Eastern European family where there's 10 or 12 kids on each side. So I have a hundred cousins like on each side everywhere. Um, so lots of funerals growing up, and I just knew growing up that they're they go, they they're somewhere else, they're around us. I know they are. And and my grandpap would visit me in my dreams, my grandma would visit me in my dreams, and I just um I felt this really beautiful energy from them. And I didn't think it was unique, but I would have friends and family ask me to tell them the stories about what I saw, etc. Um, and we all have this. We all have this gifts, and it comes in different ways. There's different ways that you have these gifts within you, these gifts of, you know, clear cognizant, just knowing something, getting a download. It's like you get a download of a full book and you can explain something in its full, or um clear audience hearing, um, clear sentient feeling, um, clairvoyant seeing. You know, everyone knows that one for the most part. So we have these different gifts, and they pop up throughout our lives, and they typically slide in through our lives when we are in that theta brainwave state, the same state that we are in from zero to seven. The beauty of becoming a downloadable program is we are in that same state where you can reprogram yourself twice a day, if not more, if you nap or meditate. And you can consciously start to reprogram areas of your life that you are not happy with through that theta state. And through that theta state, you're on a wavelength of bliss and of peace. It could be when you're showering, it could be when you're on a walk, it could be when you're in the um living room, relaxing, etc. When you're in that theta state, there's not a lot of friction to the other dimensions that are in our area. We just cannot see them. There's not a lot of friction so they can access you a little easier. That's why I love um to do a call-upon as I go to bed. In fact, let's do a call-upon now just to protect our energy while we're talking about all of this. Um, you know, sacred divine mother, heavenly father, sacred alliance of divine beings. And they want to bring in beloved Jesus the Christ, Archangel Michael, angels and angels of light, angel of mercy. I call upon you to protect my spirit, protect my soul, protect my body, and protect anyone listening here, surrounding us with white diamond light energy that protects us now, releases any dark energy. It's gone, it's gone, it's not welcome here, it's gone, good-bye, it's gone, and protects us and wraps us in this white diamond light, healing, protective energy now as you listen and as you move forward in your day. Beautiful. And you can do that same exact call-upon or add on your laundry list of anyone or take away anyone. I said, Do whatever you prefer. I add in my parents, I add in family, I add in um Ascendant Masters, you know, I add in the gamut of protection because why not? I can have my protection squad coming in. Um, so I do my my call-upon when I go to bed. And something I love is talking to parents about um either protecting their children, like the parent actually saying the call-upon for the child, uh, or teaching the child to do it for themselves, because the child, as I told you, they're always in that theta brainwave state. And at night they're even more vulnerable. So, where do you think nightmares come from? So that's when dark energy can get into that area, that arena, um, quite easily. So, giving them protection and teaching them protection. And again, this could sound esoteric, it could sound crazy, it could sound like, woo, like I can't touch it, I can't feel it. Well, in 10, 15 years, this is gonna be the standard. This is this is gonna be the standard, and you're just ahead of the curve. That's what this whole bonus episode's about. Stop hiding your gifts because you are meant to be the trailblazer and you're meant to go forth and do it and show them. And whatever your gift is, is it intuition, is it mediumship, is it tarot? Is it um, is it channeling, is it free writing, is it healing? Is it Reiki? Is it um, is it moving the body? Is it somatic? Is it trauma healing? What is it? What is your gift? Because if you're listening to this, you've already started exploring your purpose, you've already started started exploring what it is inside of you that you are meant to do. And the reason why I wanted to record this, yes, talk about all the bullshit that grinds my ears, and talk about how we are repressed from our intuition, but you are meant to share. And as uncomfortable as it is, and as weird as it gonna be, as that person you went to high school with who you haven't talked to in 15 years, 10 years, five years, however long it is, and you start channeling, it doesn't matter because no one's opinion matters but you, but you, but you, but you. And if you have a divine feeling and a divine passion, and that you know you're supposed to be doing something deeper and bigger and something more spiritual or more powerful. I don't even like to call it spiritual. I have a coach, Anahita, and she um has studied Buddhism and she was a coach that really helped me see things in different ways. And when I would talk about being a spiritual person and looking at things spiritually, she would say, everything's spiritual. Don't separate it. Life is spiritual. Like, why are you separating your spiritual life from the life of you going to work? It's all, it's all spiritual. So, since it's all spiritual, why not share? Maybe you share in a pragmatic way. Maybe you share in a way that helps someone get from point A to point B in their career, and you do so from a lens of tapping into their self, their intuition, their soul essence, their um, their dharma, clearing their karma, et cetera. So you have the gifts inside of you and you are meant to express them. And express them doesn't mean everyone's supposed to be on YouTube or everyone's supposed to be on social media or everyone's supposed to have a podcast. You will know what your medium is. Like you will, you will know what it is. If you feel adverse doing things on social, know that 10 years ago that was probably your ego keeping you safe, and it was probably telling you a story about how you're gonna be judged if you put something out there. If you have that aversion now to social media, it's warranted because there's so much on social media. We are bombarded every single day with news and your algorithm is attacking your nervous system. That there is so much happening on there that you just it might be like that pharmaceutical commercial where you just do not feel aligned with social anymore, whether it be TikTok, Instagram, Facebook, et cetera. So the way you find what it is and how you were supposed to share, just feel it in your body. Do your yes-no test. The yes-no test, we have a podcast about this on um our regular channel. And you just test in your body somatically what feels like a yes, what feels like a no. You can also use a pendulum if you want to have assistance with that for yes and no. You can use your body as a pendulum to see what bought what direction your body falls or leans back when you say yes or no to something. And that's not woo. That's actually done with um, you know, clinical hypnotherapists to find the the crux of what's going on inside of you. Um so finding that yes, no inside of you, your body keeps the score and you'll know how you're supposed to share. Maybe you're supposed to share through pockets, through your community, make little sound baths in your community. Maybe it feels good to start um leaning towards, you know, yoga or um or expressing your body in that way. Something that really resonated with me was I had a Vedic astrology reading with Rita. And if you want a read, a reading with Rita, um, let me know. Send me a DM, let me know, uh, or message us through our website. Um, if you don't have Instagram, um, message us to our site and ask for Rita's info. She kind of flies all around under the radar. She also doesn't like social media, she's all word of mouth, which I love and respect. But I had a Vedic astrology reading with her, which is different than Western astrology, and it was bringing so much clarity. And she said she saw inside my chart how I have this past life knowledge of the physical experience of the body, physicality, teaching others to embody and feel their body, move their energy, and to teach that to others. And she saw that in my chart, and she actually saw it in my chart years ago, but she saw it for like the future and what that would look like. And I went down the rabbit hole, of course, of Vedic after that, because I love learning and I found all of these different ways and levels that that shows up in my chart, which is astounding. And this the first time that I taught yoga, I didn't even have my certificate yet. I felt, it felt so natural. It was in my body. It felt, I felt like I was home. I felt like I was home the first time I taught yoga. Yes, I felt a little nervous because, of course, I'm still in the 3D, I'm still a human, I'm still doing something different. But once I got through those nerves and the threshold, that's like with anything, right? That first, that as soon as I started after those nerves, I was in my essence and I felt really at home in that way. So maybe you explore Vedic astrology. I know it sounds like very specific to find what your purpose is and what your gift is and what you can give to the world, but that really shined a light for me for what that is and how to serve. And I feel very ignited serving with a live audience. I feel very ignited serving and teaching with others and making that community connection and that um that synergy together and being in the same room, et cetera. I also love teaching through, you know, our website and Modern Zen online when we do that. I just get, I'm very much fed from teaching in person. And that's just something that I love doing. So whatever your medium is, maybe you're, maybe it's teaching to a small audience, maybe it's teaching to a big audience, maybe it's social, maybe it's not. Maybe it's um, maybe it's speech. We need writers, right? We need writers. We need writers to maybe is there a book that you've been saying, I want to write this book for 20, 25 years, five years, 10 years, whatever it is. There, it's not for nothing. The reason why you want to write a book is not your ego trying to be an author to have notoriety and to become famous. There's not many famous authors, right? Like authors are authors, they write because they're passionate about it and they're passionate about their craft and they're creating a legacy. And that's the legacy that stays everywhere once they leave this earth. That's a legacy that moves forward so that they can share their gifts after they leave the earth plane. So if you want to write a book, write the book. If you want to, you know, start blogging, start blogging. Even if it seems archaic, something that you want to do, do it. Because we are we are pulling back the layer. We are pulling back all of these things, even though it feels like we're moving into such an era of AI technology, the next speck thing, et cetera, it's really coming down to you understanding and talking to your soul and us getting back to nature, getting back to spoken word, getting back to writing, getting back to the essence of who you are and sharing your gifts. And we know, I know AI can write all kinds of things, but if you are a powerful writer and you write with your soul, it connects soul to soul and it connects from a cellular level, not from a cerebral level. And we're not moving into the new earth from the brain. We're moving into the new earth from the heart. So when you write from the heart, how many people you're going to connect to, right? And maybe writing is your thing because you don't have to show your face on social every day and be involved in whatever it is that you might not feel aligned with on social. Or maybe social is your thing and you get to be the one who says the things and shows face and is more of the instantaneous spiritual um sharer. More of like, I got this download I'm sharing now. I want to give up sound bath for you right now. I want to do this chime now. I want to talk to you about the um forest bathing now. And that's needed also. So we need the quick hits and we need the legacies that are grounded in this earth to help us move forward. So the biggest part of all of this, and it really goes along with the channeling that came through from the Arcturians for March, is life's too short. Life is honestly too fucking short. Just do what you want to do. Write the book, go live on Instagram, start the YouTube channel, start your business, take the yoga class, teach the yoga class, do the sound healing. What is it that you're being called to do? And if you really don't know what that is, Vedic astrology or tap in and start self-write journaling, free writing, like hello, soul, I'm ready to talk, let's talk, let's chat. That's what the Octorians gave as their suggestion this month. If you want to really get down to what your soul wants and desires, and something else that they talked about that I really loved hearing because it brought a lot of clarity was there are people that you might see all over social saying they've been looking for a job for a year, two years, three years, or no, no traction, nothing's happening. That's by design because they are not in their soul's purpose and the new earth. Earth is only soul's purpose. So you cannot move into the new earth in darkness or in that density. The new earth is light. We're going to start eating a lot less. You might already be eating less. I'm eating less. I know I am. I, and I feel so much more clear in my head. I feel so much less inflamed. I feel so much better in my body now that I eat like one meal a day or two, if that. And I know there's lots, like controversial, there's lots of things about women and our cycles, and that we're not supposed to do that, and that we're supposed to have fat first thing in the morning, et cetera. And I've experiment experimented with all of this. And I do have a little bit of fat in the morning, but the rest of my day, fasted state, which is what our body's designed to do, to burn. And I have so much clarity from that. So getting back into what your soul wants, what it needs, what it desires, peeling apart those things, it's going, they're going to fall away anyway. So if you're in a job, in a relationship, in a home, in a city, in a car, in a quantum entanglement, in a karmic situation, whatever it is that's not serving you, it's going to resolve itself if you don't resolve it. And an easy way to do that is ho'apona ono, tried, true, tested, amazing. We carry so much burden from past relationships, from arguments, from thinking someone doesn't think we're good enough, from trauma in our family, et cetera. And that festers in our body, the body keeps a score. And that resentment, there's actually been teachers who've talked about how resentment equals cancer. So clearing that through ho'apono-no. And even if you argue with your spouse all the time or you argue with your friends all the time, that's natural. Right now we're we are all growing and evolving. And it's just about that foundation, that soul that you have connected with that person that keeps you moving through the hard times. And ho'apono on is a beautiful gift you can do, even as you're going to bed, just saying, thank you. I love you, I forgive you. Over and over about someone, about a situation, whatever it is. You need to get off the wheel of karma, as Dolores Cannon says, get off the wheel of karma. You can't take the karma with you in the new earth. And when the new earth, when the earth splits, there'll be an earth full of war and negativity and pain. But if you're listening to this, you're already on the wavelength for the new earth because the new earth is light, it's inner exploration, it's healing, it's following your soul's journey, it's your purpose. And the beautiful thing about your purpose is that once you know your purpose, if you give your purpose in service, that's when the universe completely rewards you. So if you find your purpose and you give it in service, whether it's to one person or a room of 400 or 4,000 people, that's when the universe rewards you. So imagine since kindergarten, you haven't been told how to tap into your intuition, nor about the female cycle or about taxes, or about to balance checkbook, but that's another, that's a whole other podcast. So you're not taught at all about your intuition. And then you're given layers upon layers upon layers upon layers of conditioning about what success is supposed to look like. And it probably never felt right in your body. And now you've you've woken up, you are questioning the narrative, the norm, you're looking at things from different perspectives. You're focused on your healing, you're focused on your inner health, you're focused on your wellness, you're tapping into your soul, you're tapping into your intuition, and you're peeling apart all those layers to find who you truly are. What a gift to this world. And the fact that you're even starting the exploration, the first, the first iota, the first instance where you start to think, oh, that story doesn't add up. That seems wrong. I want to ask some more questions about that. Or the second that you feel, I need to explore this or explore my soul or explore what's going on a little bit more. That's when you're on the path to the new earth. You don't have to do a lot of excess healing with trauma that comes up naturally. When you start that exploration, you're on the path to this new earth. And the new earth, you cannot take your karma, get off the wheel of karma, forgive people, let it go, release it, and move into your purpose. And for goodness sake, share your gifts. Whatever they are, share them at a macro level, at a micro level, whatever it is that you are sharing, share. Because even if it's with one person one-on-one, or if it's with a stadium and an auditorium, you are impacting the evolution of this world. And as you grow and evolve into the next era, and it is a beautiful, beautiful gift you are giving to your family, your lineage. You are you came here to heal the karma of your ancestral family, which is lifetimes and lifetimes and lifetimes of your family with this karma. And how brave you are that you were the one who volunteered to come to Earth during this freaking chaos to heal what's happening inside of you, inside of your family unit. And in turn, you heal the world. So share your gifts, step into it, start writing the book, take that yoga teacher training, whatever it is, or put out into the universe. Hey, I want to do this, I want to do that. If this is a line for me, let's do it and see the magic happen where someone says, Oh, I have one more spot for yoga teacher training. I don't want it to only be three people. Can you do it for free? Those kind of things happen. Magic happens everywhere. Just believe in it. Know that you are divinely guided, you are divinely protected. And when you follow your path and your purpose and you do it from service, you are greatly rewarded. Sending you love, sending you healing, sending you protection. Thanks for staying till the end, and we'll catch you on the next one. Bye.

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Thank you for being part of the Steeper Circle. Your support makes this work possible. And Nikki and I are truly grateful to share these teachings with you. Until next time, trust your path and honor your unfolding.