4 - Death But Not Dead

Death. This is my personal journey through loss, adversity, and emotional healing. I've had my fair share of experiences with death, family struggles and grinding to accomplish my goals. People see my success but may not know the work I put in, in the quiet!  I'm not meaning to brag with sharing any of my success. It's to encourage you to utilize this system, with whatever D you are facing, that I have developed through not accepting victim mentality and not blaming the G-O-D.  

03:20 Journey Through Death and Loss

06:35 Achievements Amidst Adversity

09:24 Character Building Years

12:39 Facing Personal Struggles and Near-Death Experiences1

8:32 The Impact of Family Loss

22:13Finding Purpose Through Pain

29:00Developing a System for Overcoming Adversity

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:32

The story of Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Code from the Bible. For those of you that don't know that story or don't share my faith, that's okay. Um, long story short, it's kind of like the Prince of Egypt story where he was kind of like the perfect son, right? Jacob gave him um this technical dream code and he, you know, had this just amazing energy about him and his brothers, all his 12 brothers were envious of him. So they actually sold him into slavery, right? And then he became a slave in Egypt. And then from there, he got accused of actually um having an affair with the um Pharaoh's wife. So he got thrown into jail, and then he had to kind of get out of jail, and he did it by actually being prophetic in terms of interpreting people's dreams. And he ended up saving, you know, Egypt from the famine and everything else, and his brothers came back to him in that famine and he forgave them, right? So I use that story because sometimes, like, and I'm not saying I'm Joseph uh from the Bible on that standpoint. My parents actually named me after um the father of Jesus, right? But sometimes I relate my life a lot. There's a reason why I felt like I heard that story so much as a kid, because what I'm gonna talk about today is fairly morbid. I'm gonna talk about all the different experiences that I've had that I've seen death, experienced almost near death experiences, lost family members to suicide, to cancer, a lot of different things. And yet, still through all of it, didn't I just never blame God? I I was mad, but I knew it wasn't from Him. There was a reason for it. And I want to teach you today the systems that I learned of how to deal with things emotionally, things that I wish I had dealt better on, right? There was a there was a very dark period of my life in my early 20s, late teens that I'm gonna share today. I'm even kind of nervous sharing this because I just remember all the emotions and they start to pour back, and I'm being very, very vulnerable today with a lot of things that I experienced. But before I get into the topic of death today, I do want to share my journey, right? So I was what you call consider like, hey, a good Catholic boy. Like I never partied, I never drank. I had dated girls, but I never had the intent to sleep with them or anything. And that was all the way through like college and my young adult years, just never got involved in that scene. I think fitness actually helped me avoid a lot of it because I just wanted to be very healthy. But I remember being a good Catholic boy, and I would always serve at church, and my my exposure to death was pretty early because I was an altar boy for like all these funerals. So I would literally hear eulogies every single week. I would see, you know, all these families grieving the death of one of their loved ones, and I was like, man, this is tough. This is hard. Not only to realize over the next 10 years, I would be experiencing a lot of that personally. Okay. But before, I never believed in sharing all these struggles before until there was like victory on the other end, right? Like I got through it. You never share your struggle because then it's just you're kind of seeking attention and you're almost like seeking pity. Like you use it to serve people by actually succeeding through it and overcoming it, and they're sharing, then share your story. Okay. So this is my journey from 2007 to 2012, just to give you an idea of the type of things that I overcame and what I was able to accomplish while all this was going on. So I'm going to paint my story a little bit as far as like what I was able to do from 2007 all the way until now, and then share with you over the next probably eight, nine, ten episodes as I go through all these different Ds that I've experienced. Today is on death, right, how I was able to do it, regardless of what was happening around me. So while I was in high school, right, 2007 to 2012. By my senior year, right, I went from basically a no-named athlete at a very top high school in Portland, Oregon, to give you an idea of their program, right? Our senior year, we won 10 state championships at the highest level 6A. Um, I'd say over the last 10 years, um, this high school Jesuit Portland has been ranked the number one high school sports program in the country, probably a couple times in the last 10 years. So that's it's a it's a very high caliber. Like a lot of my peers, some went on to play in the MBA, uh, my track teammate played in the NFL, right? And they're all great people, like absolutely love them. But it was a very high caliber um athletic school. So to finish in the top uh eight in the Portland metro area in the 400-meter race and run three events in varsity my senior year, right? On top of finishing my high school career as a class lutatorian, I had one A minus. Uh not one A minus. It was in uh it was in English, junior English. I got a 92.7, and we don't have weighted grades at that school. So some schools have like weighted grades, and you can have over a four-point. Whether I, you know, I got fives on my AP math classes and all that kind of stuff, but that that wasn't weighted, so it didn't contribute anything. It was like either you got an A or you didn't. So I had one A minus, and I also that year qualified on the tenor sacks for an international band conference. So I was kind of doing a lot of things. I was doing sports, I was doing grades in academics, I was doing music, and on top of that, I was also kind of chosen as a leader to lead different clubs from our diversity club to many of our Jesuit retreats that we had. Um, I was one of the main leaders on quite a bit of those. And even the awards that we'd win every year, you know, I tended to rack up a couple awards every single year, whether it was in like, you know, PE or whether it was in, you know, history class of all things, just really sometimes random, but I would get these different awards, right? And everyone's kind of looking at me like, geez, Joe, like how many of those you got this year? Um that was just kind of what I was used to because I just wanted to win. I wanted to be successful, I wanted to do well in everything that I did. My parents taught me well. There was one award at graduation, right? That's a very special award where our our school, our senior class, votes on one man and one woman who they feel would drop everything to like serve them, be there for them, help them, do anything they could to make sure everyone in the class was okay. I was the guy, and then my really, really good friend Garme, she ended up running track at Stanford, just to give you a idea of the caliber of people I was around, right? They voted us. It was really cool. So I leave high school realizing all these things that I've done. I also get into Marquette University in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. The program I got into, right, typically has on average about a thousand applicants a year. They accept 14 of them. I was one of them. Of those 14, two get selected to have the internship to work with the kind of like uh what do you want to call coveted internship, working with the men's basketball team, their main product revenue producing sport. I was one of the two. And I actually didn't do it. And I'll share why, that's a different story. But I'm just sharing with you all this stuff. This isn't to brag, this is to share with you. I've been kind of a doing the right things. Like I feel like Joseph from the Bible, like I'm doing the right things. I'm doing well in school, I have good grades, like all that type of stuff. Like, why God has all this started to happen to me. You're gonna hear that throughout the next few episodes. Okay, so that's two through 2012. Now, 2012 to 2020 was my character building years. Eight years in like sales, network marketing, very minimal results, working crazy hours. Like I would literally, not even kidding, probably put about 40-50 hours into my sales job at the time, then put about another 40 to 50 hours into building my network marketing business and still holding on to uh the relationship with my girlfriend I had at the time. And it was just a very, it was a lot of character building years. I'm not gonna touch too much on this right now. There's gonna be more of this coming, but just to give you an idea, it's kind of like everyone sees like what I'm doing now with seventh level and training and you know, with working with Jeremy closely and doing all these things and podcasts, traveling to LA. A lot of people see that, but they don't understand the character that was built in the quiet for about eight years with not really much results to show. Now, from 2020 to 2024 was where I finally started to see some financial success, some career success, some business success, right? In my, I would say my from my late 20s to early 30s, um cumulatively, I was able to kind of over those couple year span um make a million in personal income. Okay. From a business perspective, I built three different books of um commercial truck insurance business, right? My first book in two years I built to seven million in premium. My second book, I would say I helped scale a book from about 15 million to 25 million. To this day, that book at the company is still the largest book of business in the entire company. They're probably a, you know, they're a they're a mid nine figure agency right now. And then my third, I just finished. I almost got to about 5 million in one year while also managing and training an office of 30 to 40 sales reps. Okay. I've also been the seventh-level cold call coach for the last couple of years. Seventh level is actually a top 10 um global sales training company. I get paid to go speak for them at all their events. I get flown around the country to train companies in person just a couple weeks ago. I trained almost a 10-figure business. That, you know, that that's just kind of just what I've been able to do now because of the platforms that I have, and I'm very, very grateful for, right? In the meantime, I also probably have become in the best shape I've ever been in my life. Now, I'm gonna go into a whole disease section in a couple episodes of things that I have faced doing all this, and you guys are gonna be like, how was that possible? I think just a big part of it is the GOD. God has a reason here, but I've maintained around a 10 to 12% body fat for the last like you know 21 years or so. I've always fortunately been able to see my abs. That's not to brag. I've never missed. I've never missed. We're we're at like 252 plus consecutive months in counting of never missing the gym and being on a health regimen. So that that's just that's just what I've done. And I've gotten to a level where a lot of the weights that I lift, like I'm like 163 right now, probably you know, max bench, at least like 335. So just to give you an idea, it's not to brag. That's to be like, look, I put in the work, I've been doing it for a very long time, right? Everyone sees overnight success. No, it's not overnight, it's been the last 21 years. Okay, so that's my whole background to give you an idea. So as you kind of have this idea of who Joe is now and what I've been able to do, now let's look at everything I had to overcome to actually get to where I am. Okay. If I get emotional here, I do apologize. I don't apologize, but if I get interrupted or something, it's because um it's because it's been very hard for me. In 2010, my junior year, I just remember getting such a bad fight with my parents. They had different restrictions on me that I didn't understand. I'm the oldest of six kids. We didn't have a lot of money. I had just spent the last three years trying to just make some kind of basketball team because my dream was to one day be in the NBA, and I just I literally was fighting for that dream until I just couldn't, I didn't have the resources the other these other kids did. I didn't have the AAU clubs, I didn't have any of that. I literally had my rusty basketball hoop and outside, even though it was Oregon and in the rain, breakfast every day, and I got cut.

SPEAKER_00 12:11

At the same time, my girlfriend at the time broke up with me.

SPEAKER_01 12:17

At the same time, I just never felt like I could do anything right at home with my parents. I would show up to school being like happy go lucky Joe as a facade. I was embarrassed that we didn't have a lot of money and I had to take you know public transportation everywhere. Um and it wasn't like I was close, it was about 45 minutes to an hour just to get to school, 45 minutes an hour just to get home, and I see all my close friends, you know, and that's it's not their fault. Like I'm not mad at them. But just at that time when I see them all driving their new beamers and Mercedes and you know, the school had a lot of money. It was really embarrassing. And in 2010, I just remember I'm walking along the main road of our place, got in a bad, really bad argument with my dad, and uh I'm just like, you know what? I don't think anyone would care if I just jumped out of a car right now. I don't think anyone would. Everything I'm doing, no one really cares. And then I get a special text from a very close friend, randomly. It was God. But through my close friend, she said, Joe, I love you, and so many other people do. That's all she had to say. So I ended up not jumping out of a car that night. Okay. So that was in 2010. Went through a lot of healing with my parents, but it was still still pretty bad to the point that I just wanted to move as far away as I could, despite getting into that program that I went into. I traveled all the way uh to Milwaukee, Wisconsin from Portland, Oregon to get as far away as I could from just a lot of things. I'm gonna share throughout, right? That's for a different story. 2012. I'm never gonna forget this. This was when I found out I was actually literally selected to work with the men's basketball team at Marquette, that one internship. Remember, thousand applicants, 14 a year make it, to get selected for this internship. I was one of them. We're at this banquet, I get this call from my cousin.

SPEAKER_00 14:28

He's like, Joe, I I don't I don't know how to tell you this, but uh my mom overdosed on alcohol. She's like my second mom. My mom overdosed on alcohol, and uh our other aunt just jumped off roof and killed herself. I remember being there at this banquet.

SPEAKER_01 14:58

I stepped out or whatever, we're celebrating, you know, men's soccer just made it to the Sweet 16. That was my first internship, and uh everyone's having a good time, and I'm sitting there like, what just happened? We're all walking back from it too, and I'm just quiet. Everyone's celebrating, it was a good season, everyone's excited for Christmas, and I'm sitting here like okay, it sucks.

SPEAKER_00 15:32

And then about a week later, I get a call from my mom, and my grandpa is diagnosed with stage four cancer. To be even crazier, I go home for Christmas.

SPEAKER_01 15:54

I remember just going home. I think I can't even remember. Sometimes it's so unclear, but so at this point in time, just to speed this up here, so I'm I'm involved in a network marketing business, and in that business, you have coaches and mentors upline, right? Well, I had a phenomenal mentor. He he's I'm always gonna name him. His name's Darien. The conversations we would have just was like I saw I saw him as an older brother, like father figure to me. He grew up in the south side of Chicago, saw a lot of stuff, played football at the University of Wisconsin-Madison. Just very, very just charismatic dude. He was like an older brother to me. And I get this call. Two weeks after I find out all this stuff about my grandpa and suicide, all this Joe. I don't uh I don't know how to tell you this, but um the Darien's gone. I'm like, what? What are you talking about? Yeah, dude, he uh flew off his bike.

SPEAKER_00 16:53

He's gone.

SPEAKER_01 16:55

And I'm like, are you fucking kidding me, God? Are you kidding, can are you serious right now? That was that was the one time where I was like, it felt like I just I wanted to blame God. I wanted to be like, why is all this happening? Like all this good stuff, why? Why had it not been for a major um business conference I had been at, right, when when God plates a b places a big dream on your heart and you go for it, He the the devil is gonna give you an equal and opposite resistance. And I knew then this is where I started to develop the system. The greater the victory, the greater the struggle. This is what I have to embrace. It sucked. I don't think I really absorbed everything that I went through in 2012 until I was about 26 or 27, because I was 19 at that time. I was 19. You didn't understand. What's even crazier is like growing up in you know, my my parents did everything they could. We didn't have the biggest house, probably like a 1,500 square foot house or something. Um, forgive me, mom and dad, for listening. Maybe that's not the size, but it wasn't it wasn't crazy big, like three bedrooms or whatever, six kids, right? But then my two cousins whose mom just killed herself, didn't have anywhere to go, so then they were staying with us. So now all of a sudden an eight-person house became a ten-person house. And coming home and just seeing everything on their eyes and everything else, it just broke my heart. They just lost their mom. Yes, I lost my aunt, but they lost their mom. And it was hard for a lot of us. I remember that. I remember that. I'm gonna fast forward, right? I I don't want this to be like forever because there's a few more stories here. But 2014, there were some very wild, there were there were thoughts of suicide during this time. I'll share that kind of I'll I'll put that part of the like depression despair episode. Um, but there were two specific cases uh while building um this network marketing business where we had a couple instances that were very, very scary. Um, one was during the summer, um, headed on a bus. I can't remember even where we were going, but literally sit in the back of the bus, and this is like late at night as we're on our way on like a Friday night after work or whatever, and the back of the bus caught fire. And we can feel it. It's very hot. We see the flames, and we're just like, oh my gosh, is this like, is this it? Like, is this all right? Well, how are we like, okay, let's start moving up, you know, get get away from the back if this is about to blow up or whatever. Uh fortunately it didn't. The you know, bus driver pulled over, but it was in the middle of nowhere, Indiana. We got escorted by cops to a random hotel in the middle of nowhere. Um, that that was a pretty scary experience because you're just like, oh man, like I'm paying the price. I'm paying the price for my dreams. Like, this is just part of the story. And this is kind of what y'all start to teach you is like it's not what happens to you, it's actually who you become through it. Right during the winter, that was probably one of the scariest drives I've ever had, driving back from Indianapolis to uh Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Normally about a three and a half hour drive, took 11. Why? Major white out blizzards everywhere. We started driving back at probably like maybe it wasn't 11 hours, it was a lot, maybe nine. But after looking at like my Fitbit I had at the time, like it literally said I had basically exercised that whole drive. Because imagine just driving in the middle of the night, not even being able to go 30 miles an hour. I have my girlfriend at the time next to me, and then I got a couple friends in the back. We're all driving back from this business conference, and their semis blowing by us. You can't see anything because it's in the middle of nowhere. You're going 30 miles an hour on just absolute blizzard conditions, absolute whiteout conditions. I was the guy that missed my exit going actually around downtown Chicago in 294 and instead went straight to downtown in the middle of all this stuff. And it felt like a scene out of a movie. Like we were the last car to go on this ramp before this semi-got stuck and like literally was about to fall over and all these other cars. I couldn't even look back. I'm like, okay, God, thank you for protecting us there. All of a sudden we get onto one of the streets on 90 on Highway 94. There's cars spinning out to the right, almost hit um my girlfriend at the time. And one almost hit me, and I'm like, God, please, please, please, please. And we're just in Chicago at this point. We're not even to our destination in Milwaukee. And I just remember like so many what it felt like near-death experiences for about nine hours. Um I was I was looking forward to the day I'd tell that story because it still doesn't seem real today. Nine hours coming back in absolute blizzard whiteout conditions because I was just paying the price for my dream. That's what it was. That's how I Saw it. I saw it as this is this is God making me stronger so that way I can pay that price. But at the end of 2014, my grandpa passes away. I remember telling you about 2012 is when he got diagnosed with stage four cancer. He ended up making it through that, got a bunch of chemo, but it you know, it was only a matter of time I kind of felt before something might come back. And unfortunately it did. And in 2014, um, I remember, and maybe I have the years off transparently, as just sometimes the stories just I wish I had written it all down back then, but um, I just remember that summer actually. Uh it was pretty wild, where we go visit Hawaii. Um, we already know this is probably the last time we're gonna see our grandpa because he has, you know, now bone cancer, it's metastasized to his head. He had the size of like a golf ball on his head, lost all his hair.

SPEAKER_00 23:00

And my my grandpa kept her whole family together.

SPEAKER_01 23:02

Like he really did. And um, it was so hard to see someone with such a zest for life, charisma for people, and that's where part of me just feels like I have such a high calling because of a lot of stuff that's in me from him. And uh there was supposed to be two hurricanes that hit that same week that we were visiting um my grandpa. Fortunately, both of them, well, one of them kind of hit. Um, the other one I actually flew out right behind, which is pretty wild. But I just remember like we were bracing for the hit and we're staying in this like rental condo or whatever, and it's two in the morning, and my family's kind of like either eating or playing games, and I'm up at two in the morning, my grandpa's about to pass away, there's a hurricane coming, and what am I doing? I'm actually building my dream on a conference call right at two in the morning for somewhere. I forget what it was. It was very late, it was very late, but I was just like, I have a dream. I have a dream, and I'm watching some kind of conference call to build my business, and um I remember that, but then I remember the hardest part. I don't know if you've ever had to like say goodbye to someone you knew that was gonna pass away very soon. I just remember hugging my grandpa for the last time and just being like, Joe, I love you so much, and I'm just like, I'm never gonna see you again.

SPEAKER_00 24:33

I'm never gonna see you again.

SPEAKER_01 24:37

I cried in the airport, I cried on the flight home, yeah. I didn't even care there were hurricanes going on, if it was gonna hit the plane or not. I didn't even care. I'm sorry, it's the last time I'm gonna see my grandpa. He ended up passing away that fall. I spoke at his funeral, couldn't keep it together because a couple days before his funeral was my birthday, and he would always give me a call on my birthday. It just wasn't the same. That was very hard. That was very hard. But I still didn't give up on everything that I was doing. I was still working, I was still, I didn't I absorbed it, but I just I had to perform, I had to keep going. Like I couldn't I couldn't let it stop me. I couldn't do it. Because I literally sat there and I'm like, all right, now it's for him. Now everything I'm doing is for him. It just kept giving me another reason. Give me another reason. There's a reason why I'm facing all this now. Okay, there's a lot of other things that were happening at this time that I'll share in another episode, but this is just the death side of things. Okay, I'm gonna fast forward to 2019. My girlfriend at the time and fiance at the time, we had not communicated with her family for seven years because during about 20, I want to say 2013 to about 2020, they made up something in their mind that I was a bad influence, that I just wanted to use her to build my business, all this type of stuff. So it was basically she had to choose them or me. She chose me. And for seven years, no holidays, nothing, no communication, nothing. We did not even communicate with her family. Which led to a lot of arguments, which led to a lot of frustration, a lot of hurt, a lot of heartache. And there was one time we got in such a bad fight that I drove off. And this is this is one critical I talked about in a previous episode, critical mistakes. This could have been one critical mistake that God saved me from. Never get in your car pissed off. Never. Never get in your car pissed off because there all of a sudden some kind of energy takes the wheel and it's not you. And I just remember going up this up ramp or whatever, and I got out of control, and it literally, like, I don't know how God, like, I thought my car was gonna flip over, and I thought that was it. And for some reason, my car just stayed on the road. I'm freaking out, I'm hyperventilating. Felt like I almost just died. And I'm like, all right, God, I need help. And that actually started my journey of really seeking counseling and therapy and all the stuff from all the previous years. There's gonna be a lot more that I share, but I hadn't really taken care of it because I just worked through it, and that's a big regret that I have. I didn't feel it, I didn't work through it. But you can do that and so work at the same time. You just I shoved it under the rug for a long time because I didn't want to show people weakness, and that's a mistake that I made. Fast forward to 24. This is just this past year. Actually, since this recording, this is probably this is just over a month ago. So to give you a visual, just give you a visual real quick. I'm driving on a road I take every day to the gym. Here's the main road, right? And this is me right here. I take this every single day to the gym. So I'm not thinking anything of it. There's like a hill here, and there's cars coming this way, typically 40-50 miles an hour. Now, I'm driving here really slow because it's starting to snow, it's kind of black ice, but I'm not thinking much of it because I'm used to driving in Wisconsin, whatever. Well, my car actually doesn't stop. And then all of a sudden I press the brakes and it's still not stopping. And then I'm starting to see these cars coming. I'm like, oh my god, are you serious right now? Like, stop, stop, stop, car, stop, car, stop. I'm like holding, holding the wheel, and then all of a sudden this car is like right here, and I'm like, are you kidding? And I'm like, I hold onto the wheel and I'm like, oh my god, this is it. This is it.

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And then the car stops about five feet from where I'm at. And I start crying. I pull over and I start driving.

SPEAKER_01 29:05

I catch up to this car at the stoplight right behind. And on the back of that car it says, Do you follow Jesus this closely? Can't even make this up. And that's when I knew. That's when I knew I had to share this story. That's why I knew I had to share this podcast. That's when I knew that I had to write this book. That's when I knew everything that I've gone through over the last 13 years I needed to share. Because he's not done with me yet. And I there are things that I can teach people to overcome the D's in life and not blame the G-O-D. All right. So here's that system. Okay, and I'm gonna talk about this every single time when I go through a major D. Here's what you need to do. You need to feel what you feel. When the emotions come in, there's pain done into your life, something happened to you or whatever, like you need to feel it. This is the biggest regret I have in my early, early 20s is not actually taking time to feel the emotions. Write it out. Let God heal the rest. If you just feel like you're feeling, but you're just like, where the heck it still really hurts, pray into it. Now, I don't, you don't have to share my faith. Maybe it's something spiritual, maybe it's just some meditation, whatever. Have the universe heal you then. You need to do that. Right? Step number three. How can I use this as a story? How can I turn this into a story to like help other people? How can I turn it into a story that it's like, hey, this is God used me through this, or this happened to me, and now this is my testimony. Right? Because it now the focus goes off you and woe is me and poor me and what I consider quite frankly the dumb victim mentality that I will never stand for, and I will help you guys overcome that because there are there were times where I wanted to play victim. There are times where it was coming at me. There's nothing wrong with that because that's the devil. He's gonna try and put you in a victim mentality. But if you continue to sit there and be like, oh, woe is me, I can't do this and can't do that because this has happened to me. I encourage you, how can you use that story to serve other people? Because then you can also become an excuse eliminator. That's why I start this show. Too hard for the average Joe, just write for me and the listeners of this show. I'm going to eliminate excuses for people. So they can see no matter what happens to you in life, you can be someone else's breakthrough and give them hope by you eliminating the excuses that they don't understand they can overcome because they have a limiting belief, and part of that's just because of what they see. They don't see anyone else that's overcome that. So by you actually taking your experiences, feeling it, but actually getting the wisdom and perspective to then use it as a story so that way other people can eliminate their own excuses, you develop a deeper purpose for your life. You develop a God-given purpose for your life. Because there are people out there that only your story can touch, that only your story can impact, and that only your story can give hope. And if you stay quiet and you don't overcome it yourself, and you just kind of like, you know, sit in quiet desperation for your life and don't use that to go serve other people, you're never going to experience the true blessing that I believe that God has in the calling of your life. Because just through sharing this already, I'm hearing all these stories of people. I've had amazing conversations just a couple episodes in. Because we're at a spiritual war, my friends. This world, we're in a spiritual war right now. Whether you feel that or not, I pray that you find some way to overcome the demons in your life. But this is why I want to encourage you. This is the system that I have used. You're going to see it over the next nine, 10 episodes. This is the system I have learned. It's not from any specific business coach, not from any specific counselor, but something that has helped me overcome it. And that's why I'm still able to perform at a high level, despite what happens to me in the face of crazy adversity. So I know this was heavy. I pray that this impacts you. I pray that you can look at your life and look at areas of where things maybe I need to overcome. Do not feel that if you need therapy, if you need whatever, help, prayer, we're here for you. I'm not a therapist. I can refer you to different ones that I've worked with, right? But just know that despite what happens to you, God's using those experiences, using those stories to build you into something for a greater purpose that He has that you didn't even realize you might have hit. So I love you guys. I will see you on the next one.