How to Identify and Fix Your Energy Leaks (And Reclaim Your Power)

What if you’re not actually exhausted… you’re just leaking energy?

In this solo episode of The FitZen Project, Rachel Fitzpatrick reflects on her one-year podcast journey and the deeper layers of personal growth that have come with it. From navigating major life changes to recognizing where her energy was unconsciously being drained. This episode is a real-time conversation on self-awareness, alignment, and stepping into your next version.

Rachel breaks down what energy leaks actually are, how they show up in your daily life, and why awareness is the first step to reclaiming your power. She also shares a powerful story—the woman and the two buckets—that will shift how you think about where your energy goes.

If you’ve been feeling off, stuck, or like something isn’t adding up… this episode will help you see where your energy is going—and how to take it back.

If this episode hit—share it with someone who might be leaking energy without realizing it.

And if you’re ready to go deeper into your own

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Transcript

Introduction and Podcast Journey

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Okay, hi. Hey. If you're new here, welcome to the FitsIn Project. And if you're not, you already know we don't play small around here. I'm Rachel, corporate project executive by day, yoga teacher and retreat host by passion, and a woman wildly committed to helping you stop outsourcing your power. This show is where structure meets soul, where we regulate the nervous system and scale the business, and where we stop pretending burnout is normal. Quick love to the humans and brands that brought this show. And I actually use all these in real life. One Oak Financial because money conversations should feel empowering. Rage Create for bold creative entrepreneurs. Lotus and Luna, Lifeform Yoga Mats, Ma Ma Ma Rider Die. And Breath Work with Tabitha De Bruin. She is a game changer. Links are in the show notes. Support the ones that support this work. And all right, let's get it. Let's talk about today. Hello. Um wow. Ah, as always, I hope you had a great weekend and welcome in to the Fitzin Project. I am Rachel Fitzpatrick, and I'm so happy you're here. Honestly, I'm really happy you're here today. We are almost a year into this podcast. This season. A year? What? Um, one of my friends, Matt Carroll, he is a um uh CEO owner of Kent Kentucky Bread Insurance Company. And I remember telling him a year ago that I wanted to do a podcast. And I was had my first episode or so recorded, and I was about to put it out into the ether. And he was like, oh, it's gonna be so great. And he was pumping me up and he said, But you know, I heard the other day that um podcasts they don't really make it, you know. They a lot of people quit after the first six or eight weeks. And I gotta tell you, um I hung out with him this past weekend and I didn't tell him that I will be up for a year, but I'll I'll be making sure to let him know. But anyway, uh and like I'm that's not gonna be me. I'm gonna make it for a year. But then I will tell you at about six to eight weeks, it got a little daunting, and then it got great, and then it got daunting again, and then it got great, and then I'm like, why am I even doing this? And I'll tell you, I do this because it brings me a whole lot of joy, and it brings me a whole lot of clarity and a big ass reminder every single week as to what my real purpose and my real goal is. Because I'll tell you another story, and I want to talk to you today about some energy leaks and how easy it is to lose sight of the real purpose and the real goal and where you are in your life and being in the business of yourself. And that's like the whole gist of it all is if you don't know that by now, by listening to the podcast, you know now, is being in the business of yourself, meaning it's making sure I am aligned and living in my alignment where I know that just by me doing me and me being the best version I can possibly be of myself, gives other people that permission or that drive or the want to also do it for themselves. You know, like I got um I stopped drinking alcohol, I don't know, two years ago. It'll be two years, um April 22nd. And it it wasn't because like I got a DUI or something catastrophic happened to me. It wasn't that at all. It was just simply because alcohol started to hurt me, and I just like kind of over it anyway. And then I just wanted to see how long I could go. And then I made it like 90 days and got this big ass tattoo. And I got a big chest piece, my like it was massive. It's massive. It's like my whole left front chest is covered in a beautiful blue or purple flowers. Awesome. But anyway, after that, I was like, well, how much farther can I go, you know? And then I did it. And then after a year, I went to Woodhouse Spa and had this massive spa day. Like spent like almost a thousand dollars at this spa doing all spa things. Like I got three different types of massages, a facial full body scrub and uh uh full-body Reiki massage. It was cool, it was awesome. And then um, yeah, and now I'm just like it's just like my lifestyle, you know? And it was cool because um that was a big energy leak for me was drinking alcohol. And it wasn't that it was so bad and taboo, and all this like uh Jesus said not to do it. I didn't even care. That's not it's not my MO whatsoever. Um it's about how I feel, and that's about how I show up, about the energy that I release out into the world and who I want to be, right? Like it, it's the vision that I have for myself as a parent. I wasn't gonna be a drinking parent. And I realized one day that I was, and I'm like, oh, this isn't how I want to be. I don't want my son to remember me being the lush mom. All my friends already remembered me as being the lush friend. I don't want to be the lush mom too. So, you know, I had to change my ways. And then when I did, um, it changed my relationships full-fledged. It changed my relationship with my parents because at the time they were drinking. And then I was like, Oh, I don't want to hang out. And then, you know, they quit drinking. I'm like, all right, let's hang out, you know, because and it wasn't because I was like, ah, I'm too tempted. It was just like, I just didn't want to hang out, man. Like, well, it just wasn't what I wanted to do. And then changed relationships with my friends. And I did want to hang out with them. And then when I did hang out with them, I'll never forget, went, I invited myself to uh concert with my friends who were they were going, and I ended up inviting myself to go too. So I was like, I can't believe you're going to a concert without me. And my feelings were so butthurt. They went anyway, and I went, and when we went, they were all drinking, it was cool. They were doing exactly what they've always done, no harm, no foul. And I just like wasn't, and about halfway through the concert, like I was yawning. I was like, this couldn't be more boring. And um yeah, it just changed my whole entire relationship with music. It changed my emotional integrity, um, understanding that I had nothing to blame anymore for anything, uh, except myself and my stone cold sober decisions, right? So there was a whole lot that went into that, actually, now that I think about it, and how it changed my entire life. And now when I go back and I visit my friends coming back full circle over the weekend, I visited my friends with my son, and we all went out to um Buckfest in Louisville. It was really cool. Everybody was just hammered, not my friends really, but I just saw so many drunk people, and I was like, oh my God, am I at the derby? But no, I was just like in a street festival. It was kind of the same thing. And um, yeah, it was just everyone was just, let's see how wasted we can get. And it was like for me, it's like, how many days can I actually make it not drinking? And then for them, it was like, how many beers can I make it drinking months? Like I remember my first time. And I did that all the time too, and I was like two years ago, plus all the 20 years prior. But you know, it just isn't like that anymore. And I just realized like things change, so many things stay the same. And that was an energy leak for me. And it now that I don't do that, I afforded the opportunity to go uh do fight for air with the American Lime Association the next morning and not hung over and feel really great. And then when the kids are screaming their heads off, it doesn't bother me. It's not like sticking nine-inch nails into my eyeballs, you know. So anyway, that's uh one energy leak that we could talk about all day, every day. But another, I want to read this story, and I found my um financial advisor I met with him a couple days ago, and he told me this story, and I had to look it up. And I actually taught a yoga class to this story, and it's really cool. Um, but before we get to the story, actually, I want to just talk about this passiveness, this passive energy leaks. That um, yeah, you can have passive energy leaks with alcohol. But the other day, not too long ago, um, months ago, two months ago, I got the water bill in. And it was like$150. And I'm like, Josh, what is happening? You know, like what is going on? Well, the toilet's been running. I'm like$150 worth of running, you know, and usually our water bill is like 40 bucks, right? There's just three of us that live here. And I'm like, we've got to get this stupid ass toilet fixed. Well, I just started turning the water off every time I'd use it. And I got into that and till Josh would fix it. And he's not a plumber. I mean, you've got to give the guy a break. And, you know, he wasn't fixing it. And then all of a sudden, my um contractor was gonna start on my other bathroom, and he had to remove the toilet out of the downstairs bathroom. So the upstairs bathroom I couldn't fix anymore. Um, so we had to keep the water on so that we could use it. So, anyway, month number two comes in with a$150 bill, and I'm like, you've got to be kidding me. This is an energy leak, and I need this fixed, you know? I've got to have this fixed. Like right now, I'm ready to just buy a new toilet at this point. I've already spent enough money in water bill to have bought two new toilets. So anyway, we get it fixed, and I haven't gotten the new water bill in, but I would assume it's now down. But either way, that was a big energy leak, a financial energy leak. And that really just makes me so mad. I just get really irritated, and it's not because uh it's somebody's fault, but it's like so preventative, you know what I mean? But just that's like the whole definition, right? Of energy leaks, things that really don't need your time or money uh that can be preventative or not even used whatsoever. So um another thing is like unresolved thought loops, you know. I I can't tell you how many times I've spent raw just like racking my brain on shit that goes on at work. And it's like Saturday, and Josh is like, you're giving them free time right now. You know, they're not paying you for this thought process right now. What are you doing? I'm like, oh my gosh, you're right. You're right, you're right. I've got to quit, right? It's literally an energy leak is literally anything that can pull you from wherever you are, right? Without giving back or without your awareness. So it's like unresolved thought loops or emotional residue that you haven't processed. That's a big one. Ooh, that's a big one. Emotional residue that you haven't processed. So for me, going back to Louisville is always a big trigger for me. I had such a life that I loved there pre-COVID. I loved it. I did all the things. And I was so distracted all the time. I was so busy all the time. I got to do all the street fests all the time. I got to do all of the volunteer work you could imagine. I'm dressed up going to work 40 hours a week, like just living the life that I thought was awesome. And it was, I am not discounting any of it. I traveled a lot for work, lived right by the airport. I had a few jobs, it was awesome. And I was just always just on the go. Had a couple dogs, was part of a volleyball team, part of a kickball team, had a whole core group of friends. And when I go to these like street festivals now as a new adult and um post-COVID and not living there, man, it triggers me so bad. Because I start to identify with my old self and I'm trying to put my new self back into my old self shoes. And I'm halfway there and I know the slipper can fit, but it doesn't. It just doesn't fit. It's misaligned, it doesn't work. It just doesn't work anymore. And it's not because like I quit drinking. It's not that. It's not that because I can hang and I could drink non-alcoholic beers and I'm totally fine. But it's like such a um an emotional process that like it was a life that I had as a single person for many, many years. And now that I have a family and I'm about to get married and make a whole ass existence with Josh and Theo, I'm just like trying to fit them into this old life of mine, and it also just doesn't work. It's not, it doesn't work. So I've overthought this all day long, and this is what I really wanted to come in and talk about. And I've replayed scenarios in my head all day long, and it's just been bizarre to me on so many levels where I've gone down these rabbit holes. I've been on realtor.com, like, yeah, we can do this and that, if I can make this X amount of money, blah, blah. And then my mom was like, um, you do this to yourself every time. She was like, every time you go there, it's because you had a life you loved so much and you cared about so much and now you are making a new one that and that you also are gonna love and that you love so much and understanding like they're just not the same, and also understanding that both can be true, that you can love them both. And it's not really letting one go, but it's navigating the new one and understanding you've had multiple identities, right? And then what from adding it all up and bringing all of yourself to the table can you create now with this new life and this new person? So once I realized that and I just started to breathe, coming back to that like fight for climb, fight for air climb that I did, and I just really set with that and started to breathe, and I grabbed some of my stones here. I realized like yeah, it it's um trying to be who I think I should be, right? Versus just being who I already am and know who I am and I am creating something and I'm in the middle of creating something huge, and I'm in the middle of doing the damn thing, and I'm almost at my one-year podcast anniversary, and I'm almost getting married, and I'm so close to all of these finish lines, and then after these finish lines is a blank canvas of now what? And that is where I get to do the real magic. So trying to stay in that identity and staying in that white space, it's kind of hard for me. It is really hard to find that I have these money leaks and water bills, or I find that I have these energy leaks with overthinking stuff and trying to find a new identity when really all I need to do is just sit with where I'm at and lean into the things, right? Like asking the body, like what feels heavy that shouldn't, or where am I saying yes, but feeling resistant and what am I thinking about on repeat, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I just named all that. So but my body knows before my mind does, anyway. And when I really am honest about it, like all of those thoughts, I get into this awareness where my chest was tight, my throat has actually been uh constricted like all day long. And then as soon as I read like I need to breathe from my mom, I felt the full exhale. So here's the story also that I want to give a different perspective to. So it's called the woman in the two buckets. If you've already if you already know it, then just follow along. But there was a woman who walked the same path every single day. Across her shoulders rested a wooden pole, and on each end hung a bucket. One bucket was whole, strong, steady, and always full when she returned home. The other had cracks in it. Every day she would walk the river, fill both buckets, and begin her journey back. By the time she arrived home, the perfect bucket still carried all its water, but the cracked one only half. The cracked bucket began to feel ashamed. It said to her one day, I'm so sorry. I'm not like the other bucket. I leak. I fail. You do all this work and I can't even do the one thing I was made to do. The woman smiled and she said, Have you noticed the path you walk on? And the bucket hadn't. She continued, look down your side of the road. And for the first time the bucket saw it. Wildflowers blooming all along the path where the water had been leaking. The woman said, I planted seeds there, and every day you've been watering them. So different type of energy leak perspective is you think you're leaking, but you don't even realize what you're feeding. Because yeah, some leaks are from misalignment. For sure. Yeah. Absolutely. But then some are places where your energy is going unconsciously, or places where something is growing, but you never chose it. So not all energy leaks are bad. And but all of them are, or all of them should be intentional. So how this applies to me and my desires of my old self and trying to be with myself in now and today is when I woke up this morning, I thought that my life here wasn't good enough. I needed to go back to Louisville, I needed to create something. I needed to do something bigger and better and be with my friends and have this community that I loved, loved, love, and just sends me in a telescope. Every single time I leave. But really, when I got to breathe and I had that exhale and I had that reflection and that mirror back from my mom. Man, I have built so much here in the past five years that's totally irreplaceable. And when I really give it its attention and its love, I'm about to be one year into this podcast that was slated to fail from before even starting my first release. And one year into this podcast of giving people permission to just be their best self. And I've just done a lot of great things in five years that I wouldn't have otherwise given myself the opportunity or the white space to do it. So I'm really, really grateful for my mom yet again. Yet again. And I'm also really grateful for the life that I get to create with my son and with Josh as we move forward. And I'm even more grateful for you guys for listening for a year, for being with me through all the ups and downs, the weird people that I've had on here, the great ones, you know who they are. And if you don't go listen to them all, I might be the most weird one out of all of them. And yeah. I just hope you know that when you have these energy leaks, perhaps you can learn a little something from me. Is the question isn't just where is your energy leaking, but did you plant anything worth growing while you were there?

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So I'm gonna leave you with that. And thank you so much again for tuning in for a year with me, for being here with me through it all. And if you love it here, I just want to invite you, you know, go down to the show notes, check out how to subscribe to my newsletter. You're gonna love it. I've got a giveaway going in the month of April for my one year, and I'm only advertising that through my email list. So to get to be part of the giveaway, you have to be part of my email subscribers. And yeah, that's all I'm gonna say about that. So let's bring your hands in, let's do this, let's close this up with a beautiful ohm and honor the fact that we can be conscious about all of our energy leaks and grow something even if it's not conscious at the same time. Take a breath. The light in me season honors the light in you. We share this same light. And remember, you are your most important project. Namaste.