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What I Didn't Know: Building the Life You Recovered For
In 2018—after years of checking boxes and chasing approval instead of truth—I found myself on a kitchen floor for the first time, finally facing everything in my life that wasn’t working.
That moment didn’t end the struggle; it started the rebuild.
Welcome to What I Didn’t Know: Building the Life You Recovered For—a podcast for the recovering soul who’s ready to move beyond surviving and into thriving. This is a space for getting better together and healing out loud.
We’re here for those who’ve built a foundation of recovery—whether from addiction, trauma, or a painful past—and are now ready to create a meaningful, aligned life on the other side. Using the principles of healing and growth, we intentionally rebuild and redesign every part of life.
Each episode explores the real-world challenges and breakthroughs of becoming your truest self, including:
• Purpose & Direction — building a future you genuinely desire
• Mindset & Patterns — rewriting limiting beliefs and old stories
• Conscious Relationships — boundaries, connection, and self-trust
• Creative Fulfillment — reclaiming passion and expression
This is a space for honest conversations—about letting go, courage, resilience, and the ongoing journey of becoming.
It’s my passion to share what I’ve learned so you can build the life you recovered for.
If you’re ready to thrive—not just survive—subscribe and share with someone who needs this.
What I Didn't Know: Building the Life You Recovered For
EP08: Letting Go of the Need to be Right with Ryan MacFarlane
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“The most surprising thing I found in recovery was myself.”
In this week’s episode, I get candid with Ryan MacFarlane about our unique three-year journey as roommates, revealing how mutual respect was the foundation for success. We dive deep into recovery, with Ryan outlining the three universal anchors: community, a Higher Power, and service. We also explore the complexity of faith, detailing my evolution to a personal spirituality—including a powerful, physical connection that Ryan witnessed.
Ryan opens up about finding serenity in solitude and the work of navigating old patterns of anger and sadness. Finally, we celebrate a life of action: from Ryan chasing dreams like paragliding and his new motorcycle to my emotional first snowboard run, proving the power of embracing the messiness of a full life.
Full show notes at https://www.netanyaallyson.com/episodes/08