The Wilde Way: Fertility Unfiltered

25. If You’re Afraid to Hope Again, This Is for You

Abi Wilde

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This is a short New Year’s Eve episode for anyone who’s still waiting.

Waiting for a pregnancy.
Waiting for answers.
Waiting for life to look different.

New Year’s Eve can feel exciting and hopeful, but it can also feel heavy when you’re on a fertility journey. This episode isn’t a lesson, a list, or a plan. It’s a pause. A moment to breathe. And a reminder that you’re not doing this wrong.

In this solo episode, I share honestly about what New Year’s Eve felt like for me before I became a mum. The tension between hope and fear. The quiet panic around time passing. The backup plans we make just to feel safe. The guilt, the spiritual questions, and the deep desire to become a mother while still feeling scared to hope again.

We talk about:

  • The emotional weight of New Year’s Eve when you’re still waiting
  • Why hope can feel risky after a long fertility journey
  • The pressure women put on themselves at this time of year
  • Why your body doesn’t need more pressure, it needs more safety
  • A gentle reflection on what you might want to leave behind and carry into the new year

If January feels heavy for you, this episode is here to remind you that nothing is wrong with you. You don’t need to decide anything tonight. You don’t need a word for the year. You don’t need a perfect plan.

As I move into 2026, I’ll be releasing the podcast fortnightly. It’s the rhythm that feels right for this season of work and mamahood, and it allows me to create these conversations with more intention and care.

You’re allowed to want this.
You’re allowed to be scared.
You’re allowed to hope carefully.
And you’re allowed to slow down.

Happy New Year, lovely. Wherever you are on your journey, I’m holding you in it.

If you’re craving a little extra support, I’ve got some beautiful free resources to get you started.

You can grab my IVF Prep Checklist here:
https://abiwilde.myflodesk.com/ivf-prep-checklist

And if you’re in that in-between, the waiting, the overthinking… I’ve also created a Two-Week Wait Support Kit to help you feel more grounded:
https://abiwilde.myflodesk.com/two-week-wait

If you’d like more personalised support, you can book a free 30-minute call with me here:
 https://calendly.com/abi-wilde/30min

We can chat through your fertility journey and what your next steps could look like.

I’m creating something really special… BLYOOM — a supportive app for women trying to conceive, with nervous system tools to hold you through the real moments… the two-week wait, negative tests, pregnancy announcements… all of it.

If that feels like something you need right now, you can join the waitlist here:
 https://abiwilde.myflodesk.com/blyoom-waitlist

And if you want more, come hang out with me on Instagram:
 https://www.instagram.com/abi.wilde

It’s where I share free tips, tools, and fertility support for whole-body healing.

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