Journey To The Divine: How I learned to resonate with the Divine

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So tune in, get comfy, and let's begin. Hey connection seekers, welcome back to the Dun Circle. This is season two, episode five. And before we get started, just want to remind you all or let you all know that I have two retreats coming up. The first one is June 19th through 21st, 2026. That is here in Colorado, up near Grand Lake, which is in the mountains, the Rocky Mountains, Colorado. And I have another one coming up in 2027. That's June 14th through 19th, 2027. And that one is in Quintanaro, Mexico, which is just about 20 minutes away from Cancun. And both two very different retreats. One is the one this year is smaller, a little bit more intimate, uh, just a shorter retreat, a weekend retreat, and the one in Mexico is a longer, more adventure retreat in um uh in Mexico. And so if you would like more information, if you feel called to go on a retreat with me and a group of fabulous women, uh check out my website at www.den. That's d-en d a w n dot com slash experiences for more information or to register. Both are very affordable retreats. And I will also post that link in the show notes. So let's move on with episode five. And I know in season one I talked about the benefits, the healing benefits of Crystal Bowl sound journeys. And I think I want to spend the next few episodes talking about my own healing journey and my own spiritual uh path and spiritual awakening, really, and giving you some examples because I think that sometimes we don't engage in healing or a spiritual awakening or beginning to connect and open to the divine because for many reasons, but I think it seems maybe sometimes scary or just inaccessible that normal people don't do these things, right? Um, that's for the gurus on the mountain, that's for the the advanced yogis or the divine masters or whatever, and that's not true, that's a misunderstanding. Really, uh the spiritual path, the spiritual awakening is for everybody, and it is actually really our purpose on this earth is to awaken. So we come to this earth to learn lessons that help us in the divine realm, that help us in the spiritual realm. That is the purpose of coming to earth is to advance spiritually, and we do that through lessons on earth. And it's really they they call it Earth School, because Earth is really of all the planets and places in the universe that you can embody or or visit as a soul or as spiritual energy, earth is the one considered the most educational, the place where we can learn the most lessons compared to other places uh in the universe that we can uh incarnate on. And so, really, I mean, you're not living out your purpose here on earth unless you embark on a spiritual journey or awakening, or actually make movement towards a spiritual awakening or connection with the divine. So, really, it is for everyone. Uh, and and it's whether we choose to engage or embark on it is whether we will actually learn the lessons we need to advance spiritually, both here on earth and in the divine when we leave our earthly body. So I thought it would be helpful maybe because I was in that place as well, too, as you'll learn in this episode, where I I knew there was probably more than just this earthly experience, but I didn't believe it. I didn't nothing, I hadn't experienced anything growing up that would lead me to believe authentically that there was anything other than this life on earth. And um, but I'm I'm I just was born a seeker of information. I just I have to know the answer. And so one of the biggest plaguing answers when I was younger was what happens when we leave our earthly body? What happens when we die? And it just it was so I was such I was a very existential child, and it just I really just wanted to know the answer, but obviously I wanted the answer without leaving my earthly body. I wanted it now, right? And how do you get that? How do you get that answer? Well, there's there's two things that have to happen. The first is that when we're born into a body here on earth, it's traumatic. We start with the traumatic process of birth as a baby, and we forget where we come from, we forget that we're divine energy because now we're trapped in a physical body, and we have to relearn how to connect to the divine, and that is what growing up is about, that is what the evolution of the physical body is about, is that we can eventually move into adulthood and remember and connect to this amazing divine realm that we can't come from, and thus that we return to when we're no longer in a physical body. But we forget, so we have to remember, and that's the process of life is this forgetting and then going through these experiences of life in order to remember. So that's what we're gonna talk about in my next few podcast episodes, and this one here today, we are gonna talk about. Uh, I'm gonna tell you the story of my spiritual awakening, basically. And this is where it all just kind of began for me. And the first part is a little heavy. I will warn you about that. Um, some things, just as they do to everybody, happened in my life that caused me, that really pushed me into needing a connection with the divine and really pushed me into investigating a way to connect because as you'll see, what happened really left me feeling alone. So I'm just gonna go ahead and dive into it. Um, and uh, if it feels a little bit dark in the beginning, stay with me because it will get better. But um we are gonna dive into um my first healing modality that I experienced was the crystal bowl sound bath, and I'm gonna tell you how I arrived at that place, and then we'll talk a little bit about the crystal bowls and their why they are so magical and why they are so amazing as a healing tool, and uh yeah, and we'll go from there. So I'm gonna go back to a time in my life that was very difficult. Uh, I was working, I I still do work in the school district, but at this time I was working at a school um that was very toxic. Um, it was a very toxic work environment. Um, and I had been there for eight or nine years, and I just little by little over time, it started out great and it was it was wonderful, but then with changes in leadership and changes just in the organizational structure, it became this toxic place to work. And I hadn't noticed that it had become toxic, I hadn't noticed that it was really wearing on my soul because I enjoyed the work I was doing. I enjoyed working with these students so much that I ignored all the other things that were making it toxic. And um, you know, like I said, I was doing amazing work with these students that I was working with. I was a social worker, um, a school social worker at the time, and I was working with these students and I was seeing a lot of progress. Um, but according to mostly my supervisors, but then also some of my colleagues, I just wasn't ever doing enough. Like it, there was nothing I could do, even though I was doing amazing things with these students, there was nothing I could do to make them happy. It was just, they just wanted more. And they and and it was just it even to the point where they just started nitpicking every decision I made and every thing I did. And it was very exhausting. And I was finding myself feeling lost, alone, um, broken, um, and just completely disconnected from, you know, I was just it was like it was like the drudgery of work. Like you just showed up. I just showed up to work and just there was no joy left in it at that point. And then I showed up at work one day and I was notified that one of my students had died. And this student had died very tragically and very suddenly. And this student had been involved in uh the wrong crowd, you know, a dangerous crowd of people, and I was working with him very hard to to get him out of that situation and get him away from the this crowd of people that were dangerous and not healthy for him. And so we had just that week we had secured a job uh for him and we had a plan for him to finish school, and he really saw this like hope of being getting out of this uh group of people, this gang of people. And the the the next day, um, the day that week actually that I found out he had died, we had had um an appointment for this work program that he was going to get accepted into, and everything was looking really good and hopeful for him. And then I show up to work that day and I find out that he had been killed. And I was devastated. I mean, I was already not in a great place, but this hit very hard for me. Um and I I really just lost my like I just I I I went into crisis. I really did. I went into crisis mode. I couldn't handle one more thing. Um, and so as you know the person in charge for the day, or whatever it was, me and another colleague, we we were basically in charge when our supervisor wasn't there. Um, I made the executive decision to call in a team of people to help uh with this crisis, right? That it was a resource we have in the district to call in the crisis team to help us through this. And they were amazing, like they were wonderful. And I didn't have to hold the weight or the burden of because I was grieving and in crisis myself. I didn't have to do the thing. And a few weeks later, I got called into my supervisor's office, and she uh reprimanded me and wrote me up because I couldn't handle that crisis myself, and that I needed to call in the crisis team in order to handle that. And that was just basically the last straw. I think that was rock bottom for me in my career as a school social worker. I really hit an all-time low in my career to the point where I'm like, I don't even know if I can do this anymore, if I can do this career anymore. Um, and I just remember feeling this deep shame for handling the situation the way I did. Like, why couldn't I be stronger? Why couldn't I be more supportive? Why why did I have to put myself first and my grief and my feelings first? And I why couldn't I be the social worker? Everybody needed me to be. And I just remember feeling that it was it was really hard. Um and um I just I think I just shut down. I just I I just I couldn't do it anymore. Um, and my health started to suffer, and um I remember um, you know, it was it wasn't really just even this this information which was tragic enough, um, but it was the fact that I had not healed from so many things over a course of years that had happened to me in this job, that I, you know, I just like I said, it was this moment, this this rock bottom moment for me. And I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to even claw my way back out. I didn't know how to heal, I didn't know how to, I felt alone. I felt like nobody was there to to help me claw my way out of where I was at emotionally. And a lot of my spiritual teachers uh since then I they call this um or they've called this the hit your knees moment, right? And it's this hit your knee moment in life when you reach your limit of understanding on this earth, and the only thing you can do is fall to your knees and pray. Fall to your knees and ask the higher power, whatever, for something to help for intervention. And that was my moment. This was one of my first hit my knees, hit hit my knees moments. Um, and the only thing I the only thing I could think to do was to hand it over to a higher power I didn't even believe in, right? So at this point, I am so spiritually lost. I don't think there's anything other than this earth and this life on earth. And because I hadn't seen any proof and I hadn't felt it, and I hadn't had that connection. Um, and there was no evidence of that. But it was this moment where I just there was nothing left to do. I had reached my level of understanding for why things happen on this earth, for the pain and the grief that happens sometimes on this earth. And the only thing I could think to do was to surrender it to something bigger than myself. There had to be something bigger that could step in and help me. And I remember I was sitting at a traffic light on my way to work, the same job, several weeks later. And that was my moment. I said, I can't I can't do this anymore. I need help. I don't know how it's gonna come, and I don't know who's gonna give it to me, but I'm done doing this on my own and I need help. And two seconds later, I got a ping on my phone for a new email, and I am still sitting at the light, and I open my phone and I look at this email, and it's an invitation for a crystal bowl sound bath. And I know I've told this story before, right? But that is that was that was my moment that I really just like this inkling that I was like, is this a sign? Is this a sign that I need, is this it? Is this what I asked? I asked for it, and then I got I got this email. Is this it? And I knew like it was just this feeling I can't describe. I knew I was meant to do this. This was what I was being pushed to do. This is my sign. Um, this is the help that the divine was offering me. And so I got to work and I signed up. I signed up to take to go to this crystal bowl sound bath, which was happening that night. And I I told my husband, I said, here's what's happening, and I think I need to go to this. And I signed up for it. And um, and yeah, I was just I just knew that that I I felt this this need, this pull towards this event. So I'm gonna pause here in my story and tell you a story, um ancient religious story, about a man who was stranded on an island, and on the first day he prayed to God to rescue him, to magically get him off the island. And that same day a man in a rowboat came by and asked if he could row the man to the nearest mainland. The man said no because he was waiting for God to save him. The next day a fishing boat came by and offered to take him to the mainland. He said no because he was waiting for God to save him. The next day a cruise ship came by and offered to take him to the mainland. By this time the man was gaunt and nearly dead, and he still said no, because he was waiting for God to save him. The next day the man died. When he met God in heaven, he was distraught and asked God why he didn't save him. And God replied, You fool, I sent you a rowboat, a fishing boat, and a cruise ship, and you didn't take any of them. So I always think of this story when I think about this time in my life. Because even though I was at that hit your knee. These moments, and I was at that moment where I was surrendering it all and letting the divine step in and guide me. My brain still processed this as unsafe, this event. And I came up with a million different reasons why I should not attend this sound bath that night. Even though I told my husband, I said, I'm gonna go do it because I think the divine is guiding me. Like I think this is my I think this is what I need to do. And I had told him that, and still the whole day my mind was trying to process what I was in for, and it wasn't great. Um I I, you know, I I can't I was wondering if this was a trap, if I would end up in a cult. Um I I almost worked myself up into a panic, and that night I was getting ready to leave, and I was coming up with all these excuses to not go, and I was near panic attack. And I told my husband, I was like, nope, I can't do it. I'm not gonna go. I was like 10 minutes from leaving for this event. And I said, Nope, I can't do it. I can't go. And my husband said, just do it, Lindsay. Just go. You need this. Like, please just go. And I'm like, what if they kidnap me? What if they sell me into spiritual servitude? What if, you know, I had all these what ifs? He's like, just go, just get on the boat, right? So I did. I went, and I did. I found one of the greatest spiritual teachers on my path. This was the very beginning of my awakening. Um, and it was not only the teacher who led the sound bath, but it was the crystal bulls themselves that became my teacher. And after that moment in the basement of this crystal shop, which I was terrified to go in, I was never the same. I faced the fear, I did the thing. And I often talk about this moment. I've talked about it several times in different retreats and um, you know, uh posts, and I think I've even shared this story in a previous podcast. I talk about this moment as the beginning of my spiritual awakening because it was. As I laid there that night and I listened to the vibrations of these crystal sound bowls, uh, I allowed them to just cleanse and align me. I found this deep inner peace, and it actually became addicting. I had never experienced a deep peace like I had during this sound bath. And I wanted more of it because I had been so stressed and so dysregulated and so much in fight or flight that I forgot what it felt like to be at peace. And I experienced that for the first time in a very long time that night, and I became addicted. I said, I have to do this as much as I possibly can. So I continued to go back uh to her sound bowl session. I went back several times over the next year, and I just began to grow spiritually and emotionally. I became regulated, I became my body became healthier, I began to connect and feel this yearning to know the divine and be connected to something bigger. And then as it happens, as I began healing, I found myself in a more fulfilling job. So I actually talk about in my last podcast in episode four about how life always writes its course, uh, how the path always writes itself. And I was in this moment where I didn't even have to quit my job. The divine just moved me out of it. My supervisor called me into her office and said, You're no longer gonna be here. We've moved you, we've moved you to a different school, and that's that. That's the end of that. You're not gonna be here. And you know, most people would be, you know, heartbroken, but I was elated. I was like, oh, thank God. I didn't even have to like look for anything else. I didn't have to quit. Like my path just literally righted itself here and now, got me out of this toxic situation. But I wouldn't have been able to see it that way had I not begun the healing process, had I not begun to open myself up to this idea that I am being guided by divine forces, that I am being, if I just listen, if I heal and I listen, I and I follow the path laid out in front of me and I follow the signs, then I am being guided and protected and held. I'm not alone. Um, and so I got a different job. And it was, you know, way, way more fulfilling. I had, I began to have a healthy relationship with my children and my husband, and I really just began to foster this deep spiritual connection. And I began to remember who I was before the world told me who to be, right? Before I was shamed into being the kind of social worker and the kind of helper and the kind of healer that other people expected me to be, which meant basically giving all of myself and not ever taking care or never receiving care for myself. That's the kind of social worker the world wanted me to be. And that wasn't sustainable. And so I remembered that I began through this process of these crystal sound bowls and these baths that I was doing, these events I was attending, I began to remember who I really was. And I I remember that I am part of the divine, I am this piece of the divine in this human body, and it just felt very freeing to begin to remember that. And so before I continue on with my story, I want to tell you a little bit more about the science of the crystal sound bowls. Um, because I want you to realize why they're so magical, why this worked, why this moved me to this next level of my spiritual evolution, or why this even just began my spiritual awakening. So, according to physics, sound is vibration. Everything in the physical world vibrates at a certain frequency. Some are denser than others. So, for instance, the atoms that make up a table vibrate, still vibrate, but they vibrate at such a low or dense frequency that the table appears solid. Even though it's actually still moving, it's still vibrating, it's so dense, the the frequency that it's vibrating at is so dense that it appears to be solid or not moving. And the human body vibrates at a much higher level than a table, and so thus it is constantly visibly moving, right? So the human body is vibrates so much higher than a solid object that it's constantly moving. Like even if you're sitting completely still, you can still see the body moving, like in the breath or in just subtle movements of the body. Sound vibrates even higher. So this idea that sound, we can't see the vibrations of sound with the naked eye. And so it's vibrating at such a high level that it's not even solid, right? Um, it can't be seen with the naked eye, but it can be felt within higher vibrating things, such as the human body. The crystal bowls are tuned to play a certain frequency that matches the energy centers of the body and thus vibrates them into the same vibratory resonance when played near the body. So when you play the crystal bowls, they vibrate at certain frequencies, certain hertz. And when played near the body, it brings both, it brings the body into resonance with that frequency. So resonance occurs when one vibrating object causes another object with a similar natural frequency to vibrate. So the human body is a higher vibrating uh entity, and as well as the crystal bowls are also a higher frequency. And so when put together, they begin to match each other's frequency. The rhythmic sounds of the crystal bowls can influence brainwave entrainment. So that builds regulatory neural pathways. So remember, we talked about the neural pathways and how we build them through constantly practicing regulation, constantly uh replacing our reactions, our fight, flight, freeze, or fawn reactions with similar uh behaviors that feed those neural pathways that feed that regulation, right? So with movement and breath and things like that, we can retrain our brain to regulate in positive ways rather than our ancient systems of fight, flight, freeze, or fun. And the crystal bowls cause create that frequency in our neural in our body, so create that regulatory frequency without us having to do anything, which help build those neural pathways so that we can then begin to regulate just automatically in more positive ways. And then the vibrations activate the parasympathetic nervous system. So that's our rest and digest part of our nervous system. So it's the opposite of fight, flight, freeze, and fawn. It is our rest and digest, and that allows our heart rate to slow, our cortisol to lower, and eventually it tones our vagus nerve, which is the major nerve in our body that connects our brain to all of our essential organs. So by simply engaging in a crystal bowl sound bath, we can do all of these things. We can become in vibratory resonance with these healing frequencies. We can begin to teach our brain and build those neural pathways towards positive regulation. And then we also engage and strengthen our parasympathetic nervous system, which is often shut off because we live high stress, high um just high stress lives. Um, and so we re-engage that parasympathetic nervous system, which then tones and strengthens that nerve, which feeds all of the organs in our body. So we're not only healing energetically, we are also healing on a physical level. So lots of good stuff that can happen in the body during a crystal bowl sound bath. But then if we consider the theta and delta brainwave states that can be accessed through the vibrations of the crystal bowl, because remember, sound is vibrating at a much higher level, we can also access our subconscious, which allows us to experience higher self-consciousness, which is the bridge to the divine realm. So we access our connection to the divine through the subconscious, and the way we access the subconscious is to get into these theta and delta brainwave states. And the crystal bowl sound bath automatically vibrates us into vibrates our brains. We become so regulated in our body, in our brain, that we enter these theta and delta brainwave states, which is what occurs when we are asleep and dreaming. But we can do that without being asleep through the crystal bowl sound bath. So here's, I know a lot of this was repeat from a previous episode, but here's where I really pinpoint the beginning of my spiritual awakening and everything that followed. It just literally attending these sound baths created a fork in my life trajectory. So I was going along this very unhealthy path, and by attending and experiencing this healing practice, my path went a completely different direction. And this is how. So as I continue to go to these soundaths, my fellow participants would often speak about meeting their spiritual guide or accessing the divine when they were in these meditations with the bowl. So we're all in the room together, yet they were experiencing these amazing divine moments and messages from their spiritual guides and angels, and you know, what have you. And I was just not, was not experiencing any of that. And I was like, a little part of me was like, well, they're making that up. That's not right, that's not real, that's not true. They're just making that up. But then a little part of me was very intrigued by the idea that I could actually connect to the divine, because remember, as a child, this was my existential question. What happens? What is bigger than us? Is this it? Is this earthly existence it? Or is there something after this that feels like it could be true, but I need evidence? I need so I have this in I'm listening to these people talk, and I'm like, well, all right, I kind of want to experience that. Like prove it's kind of like prove me, prove them wrong, like or prove them right. I want I want to know, is are they really experiencing that or are they making it up? So I ask, I get up the nerve to ask my teacher, the one who's leading these sound math. Like, hey, um, so people are mentioning that they're experiencing these spiritual things, and I'm just kind of curious, like, why am I not? Or how do I experience this as well? And she was very kind, and she said, Well, honey, all you have to do is just ask. I was like, What? That's what I'm doing. I'm asking you, how do I do this? She's like, No, before you settle into the meditation, at the point where I say, set your intention, make that your intention that you want to connect, either with a guide or the divine or a message, like whatever feels right to you, just set that intention. And I'm like, seriously, like I just think my thought that I want to connect, okay. Just in my head, ask to connect to the divine, and and that'll happen. She's like, try it and see. Like, okay. So I went to the next one, and I'm like, um, I'm like, okay, I got it. I wrote down my intention, so I was prepared and I practiced it. So I was prepared to say the right thing that would allow me to have access to the divine. So I get all comfortable, you know, laying down and get ready for my meditation, um, get ready for it to start. And I'm a little nervous, right? I'm like, okay, I still didn't believe anything was going to happen. So I lay down and my intention or my question that I silently ask when she says, All right, now's the time to set your intention. The thing that I had prepared to say and to ask for was show me heaven. That was the only way I could think of to ask it. Like, because I had no idea what to expect or what was even out there. And heaven was the only construct I had of the divine, right? So that was show me heaven. And I was almost like a dare, right? I almost said it like a fine. You want me to believe, show it to me. Show me heaven, go bigger, go home. Like just lay it out all out on the line. I want to see it. Make me believe. The sound bowl, the sound bowl started, they started to play, nothing happened for a very long time. And then all of a sudden, I was just immersed in pure light. That's the only way I can describe it. I wasn't taken to a place. I wasn't, I didn't visit a uh, there wasn't a visual representation, there wasn't a place. It was just this, I was just surrounded by pure light. And like I said, I couldn't describe it as a place, but it was a feeling. And there was nothing there but me, but I wasn't me. I was the light, if that makes sense. Like I said, it's so hard to to describe it. I felt this overwhelming sense of calm and peace and love. It was this there was no fear, it was this absence of fear, it was almost as if fear didn't exist. I felt as if I was the most cherished being. I felt like I belonged there unconditionally. There was no pain, no fear, just peace. And it is so hard. This is why I I struggle to even explain it to people because it has to be experienced, not explained. You know, you can't explain it in, there's no words on this physical plane to explain it, no earthly turn. But I definitely felt like I had arrived home, and that's the only way I can explain it. And then as a bonus, a bonus track here, I was shown one of my guides. She just appeared to me, and her name, she said her name was Muriel, and that she would be with me as my guardian through the rest of my earthly life. And that was it. The sound bath ended, and my teacher brought us back into our bodies and the room that we were in, back onto this earthly plane, and I was I mean, I think I was in shock for a very long time. I walked around for the next few weeks, just like, did that really happen? I knew it did, like I felt it in my body, I felt like I was in resonance with this place. And you think about the bowls and what I just shared about them and how you resonate with this frequency, and that's what I felt like. I felt like I was resonating with the frequency of the divine, and that is like to the first time ever. I mean, I really thought I was going crazy because it it felt so real. And the only reason it felt real now, I know this now, is because it was real. And like I said, that was a life-changing moment for me. That's where my path branched off, and I knew in my bones, in my soul, that that was real, and that was what was waiting for me after this earthly life. That is where my energy came from. That is where I where I belong, truly, right? Um, and in the months that followed. I became very intrigued by stories of people having near-death experiences. And I began to like it was almost like the universe was giving me information that I my brain needed to make this seem real, right? To process through this. And so I just ran like people, I like these books came into my life, and this information came into my life about people having near-death experiences. And I just started reading about it. I started reading about uh near-death experiences and um and I realized as I'm reading story after story after story that every experience in every experience that was described in these near-death experiences, the divine or heaven, if you will, was described exactly as I experienced it in my sound bath. And this is the first time I'd ever heard of a near-death experience, right? Not I'm not saying I had a near-death experience because I didn't die, but I was I had what was similar to that without dying. Like be and and I was reading these these stories of people who who were pronounced dead but then came back to life. And what they experienced in those moments when they weren't in their earthly body was the same as what I experienced that day in the crystal bowl sound bath. And so this idea that this was real just really began to solidify. It was like, okay, you know, I guess, I guess this is this is real. And the more information I got about it, and then I started to branch out and read material about um these uh people, these past life regressionists who will hypnotize people, like Dolores Cannon and others who hypnotize people, get them in that same state that I was in with the crystal bowl, that sound bath, that theta and delta brainwave state, and access these periods between their one life and the other. And even those experiences of the divine were exactly the same as what I experienced. And so it was I just it fluidified my belief. There was no way about it. But that I knew that that was really that I had just experienced a piece of the divine. And over time it just it became part of me. It it became um part of who I was. And a few weeks after this, I went back to the sound bowl because I'm like, well, show me more, right? I went out back to another sound bath, and I was still processing a lot of grief about this student that I had lost who had been um killed. And I just I worried then, right? Because then all the question, once I was shown that, then I'm like, well, what happens to the bad souls? Right? This is what your brain does. What happens to the people who made bad choices? Um, is there like an alternate to this, right? Because you think in religion, it's like you hear about heaven and hell, you hear about like the two places, like you're if you're good, you go to heaven, if you're bad, you go to hell. And I'm like, ooh, and not that I was saying that my student was bad, but like I have this fear that he wasn't experiencing this afterlife because of the choices he made, and I was really worried about that. Um, so I made the choice to, in my next sound bath, to ask if he had arrived in this place, and I was um I went into the meditation and I was definitely given the message that he had arrived and that he was at peace and that he too had been welcomed home. And that, in addition to that, in order to assuage my fears that, you know, if we make mistakes on this earth, do we not go there? Is there a different place we go to? I was given the message that we all, no matter what choices or mistakes we make on this earth, we all have that waiting for us. So we will all be called home when we leave our earthly body. And I've learned since then, you know, that there's different processes and different things that happen when we enter into when we go back home or when we leave our earthly body and arrive in the divine. And there's different things that happen, but they're all we all have access to this divine home, and so that gave me such peace because I think that we can come here to earth and we can learn and we can make mistakes and still be welcomed home because the brain, now learning about the brain and all of that, the brain and it's uh how it operates off of fear and um makes choices based off of fear can often make choices for us that our souls wouldn't necessarily choose, right? And so the bad things that happen on earth that people choose to do is because they've lost and become disconnected from this soul, this piece of energy that should be connected and in resonance with the divine, but has not has become not. It's it's resonating at a much denser earthly level rather than at this divine level, and that's where things get tricky on life. That's where people make really off-purpose choices, they really go against their soul and their divine nature and make some really bad choices, and those have earthly consequences, um, but they don't have divine consequences, not in the way we think they do. And I will go a little bit more deep into this in another episode. But really, what I want to say here today about this is that there's there's always time on our path to re-resonate with our soul, to rejoin, to let allow our soul to rejoin this energy of the divine while we're in an earthly body. And once we do that, it changes the trajectory of our life path. The things that we do that were unhealthy for ourselves or others, the reactions we have, the things that we um, the choices we make that might hurt ourselves or others are no longer options for us because that's not what our soul wants. Our soul wants peace and joy and fulfillment, and it wants to help others and connect through compassion and love, and it doesn't want to live in constant fear or density, um, making choices based out of fear. It wants to make choices based out of love, and so we always have the opportunity to heal our physical body and become in resonance with our soul and our divine nature. Um, and one of the amazing ways to do that is with the crystal bowls, and so I became obsessed with the crystal bowls, and that was one of my num my first healing practices that I learned how to do. I learned from my teacher how to share this beautiful thing with other people, right? How to bring other people back into resonance with their soul through the crystal bowl. And now through this process, I I offer crystal bowl sound bath. Um, and I I really feel like this is part of my path is to bring this to other people, and it's really moved me in in this direction. Now that doesn't mean if you engage in a crystal bowl sound bath that you will become a practitioner and share this with the world, no, but I do encourage you to, if you do feel out of resonance with your soul and this divine connection, to try it out because what do you have to lose? Um, and if you've been in a place where you're just really living in fear and you're allowing the world to drag you into a denser level and ignore your soul and your true essence, then this can really help you vibrate into a higher resonance and feel more of that love and joy that we're meant to feel in life. And you it might put you on a trajectory towards a path or a purpose that resonates more with your soul and less with the fear and density of earth. So I'd love to hear about your experiences if you've had any experiences with the crystal bowls or crystal bowl sound baths, um, whether they be mine, that the baths that I've given that you've attended or somebody else's, um, or just answer any questions about um the this my journey with the crystal bowls. Um, I love when people email or message me. My information's in the show notes. Um, and yeah, I just I I I wanted to share this information with you. I know I've shared a little bit about it in uh uh season one, but just digging a little bit deeper in preparation for next week when we're going to talk about another healing modality that I was then kind of launched into after this uh experience and after the shift in my spiritual path. So that's for next episode. We will get into that, go a little bit deeper, and as always, check out my website, email, message me, let me know your thoughts, comments, and I'll go ahead and end for today. So, as always, the light in me is a direct reflection, a light in all of you. Have a wonderful week.