Episode 6: What Now? What to do when our brains go offline.

What a wild past few months. Maybe you experienced a huge shift or maybe you were spared. Regardless, everyone will experience this type of energy at some point as we move through human evolution. So what do we do when our brains go offline. Listen here to find out!

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Welcome to the Down Circle, a space where we gather to explore the powerful intersection of ancient wisdom and modern techniques. For a fast-paced world, it's easy to feel disconnected from ourselves, from each other, and from deep-rooted knowledge that our ancestors held so dear. On the circle, we'll delve into obstacles like meditation, rock work, sound healing, and phonatic movement, shared in an easy-to-eceive and contemporary manner. Each episode is a journey to uncover tools for healing, growth, and connection, helping us navigate the challenges of today while reconnecting with our ancestral roots. So tune in, get comfy, and let's begin. Welcome back, connection speakers. How's everyone doing? It's been about a month since I have recorded a podcast episode. And boy, what a month it's been. Really, just been a couple months that have just been wild, I'll tell you. And we're gonna you're gonna hear more about it here in this episode, but holy cow, what a wild past few months! And really that's all I can say about it. Uh I try to think of a word to describe it, and wild is just the best thing I can come up with. Um so y'all, I had the weirdest and craziest March in April, and I don't know if you all did too, but there was a lot of energy happening uh globally, and so I do think that contributed to it. So that should make us feel a little bit better if we did have a really wild March and April energetically and just physically, emotionally, mentally. Um, but I gotta tell you, in March and April, about midway through March, all the way through April, my brain went completely offline and disconnected from any higher order information. It was completely locked down from my intuition. It was crazy. My problem solving, my creating skills, and most importantly, my spiritual connection was just gone. It was offline. I couldn't, I couldn't receive or get any messages, give or receive any messages from the divine or spiritually. And yikes, that's such a weird place for me to be in. It was such such an awkward and trying time, especially considering that life was just moving on. It it didn't wait for me to get back online, basically. And I didn't know when I would. I didn't know when or if I would ever reestablish this communication, this intuition. And I didn't, I I I knew something intense was going on on the earth, but I often obviously didn't know why, because I couldn't receive any messages. I didn't have any guidance as to why. Um, and I didn't realize until the fog finally lifted. So good news, the mo the fog finally lifted on May 1st, and I'm back online and I'm back to creating. So here I am with episode six finally. Um, but yeah, I didn't realize what was going on until I was able to reestablish that connection in May. And yeah, it it was wild. Um, so I also wanted to qualify that this is different. I know we talk about on this podcast the idea of hibernating and taking a break from the world and only doing the necessary things. Um, and this is different. This is a totally different, it it might have been a type of hibernation, but it was different than any that I've ever felt before. And so I think I found it different for a couple of reasons. First, during the times that I usually hibernate to rest and restore, it's often a choice I make. Um, or I follow the guidance of my body and my heart that tells me to initiate a hibernation season. It's time to rest, it's time to restore, it's time to go offline. Um, but this time it just happened to me. Basically, I woke up in the middle of March and it was gone. No warning. Like I was offline. There was there was no connection. And then, second, during a typical hibernation, I still have this connection to spirit and intuition. I still can connect. And in fact, I think it I tend to deepen it during these times. I tend to really connect and feel a deepening during my hibernation times, but this time it was gone. I had no connection or ability to connect, and that felt more nerve-wracking than restorative. It was more stressful, so I didn't really get a chance to rest and restore. I it was just awkward and nerve-wracking the whole time. And then also when I hibernate, typically when I hibernate, the world slows down. So, you know, it's that winter times often, the seasons where we hibernate when the world tends to slow down and we have this time to process and rest, and there's not a lot of action going on. Well, this time the world would moved faster, and I had to find a way to keep up and make these major life decisions without the help of my intuition or divine guidance. So crazy. As I'm even talking about it now, I'm like, this is wild, y'all. But I still had to do life, right? Like we do during hibernation. Often we still have to do the things, but we can choose, right? We can, you know, because the world slows down, because we're choosing these times when we're less busy and we have more time to rest and restore, we don't have to do as much. But this just happened suddenly, it happened to me. I didn't get a choice, and I still had to do the things in life, and a lot of things, so much change I had to deal with, as you'll hear later, during this time. And so I still had held my spiritual circles, my full moon, my new moon circles. I taught my yoga classes, but for the last month and a half, they've been really like flying by the seat of my pants. I've been doing them without any spirit special spiritual flair, you know, that I usually have, that I can usually impart because I have such strong intuition. And y'all, I have to confess, I even had to ask Chat GPT a few times just to get me through because I was literally receiving no information from the divine, from my intuition. So it was it was crazy. I'm like, oh, I hate having to do this, but I have to, and I have to tell you, I I felt, I don't know if my participants felt this, but I felt like it was less authentic, it was less me because I had to do that, right? So that's that's super frustrating. Um and then not only that, um, I I those were the things I had to do, right? My circles, my my yoga, um, you know, take care of my kids and my family, and you know, all of that. Um, but I had to let go of everything else. I had to let go of all forms, other forms of creating. I had I I no longer could create blog posts or social media posts, I couldn't create podcast episodes, I'd sit down and I'd try, and there's just nothing. Nothing would come. I had complete lack of creative force. So crazy. Um, it was so crazy and scary, scary at times, like very scary. Because I'm like, is this gonna ever come back? What is happening? Um, and yeah. So during this episode, uh, like I said, I'm happy to tell you I'm back online again. The intuition is there, the divine connection is there. Um, and I but I'm gonna tell you about my story, about what occurred during this time period, during this month and a half, um, and how I survived it. Because really that's all I did was survive it. And so so many things happened to me during this time, right? Because I was not making things happen, they were happening to me, and luckily good things also came out of it. So, but it was it was very stressful at times. So I'm I'm I'm really wanting to bring this episode to you because I'm also really curious if you all experienced any of this in the month and a half that just happened. Um, you know, or maybe even since the beginning of March, some of you have experienced this. And I'm just really curious if I'm the only one, because that would be crazy too, that this happened too. And maybe not necessarily, you know, losing your intuition or your your divine connection or whatever it is, but just this amount of crazy things and upheaval happening in your world, in your lives, and not having the brain power to respond to it, just having to be in survival mode. And I'm just curious if anyone felt that way. This episode is definitely gonna be for you. And if you didn't, well then you were given a reprieve from the energies that occurred, and that's great for you. However, um, you it's not a reprieve for life. This these energies will circle back around at some point in the next four years, and so this podcast, this episode is also probably helpful for you. Um, so when that does happen to you, when you are in a season like this, uh, you will know what to do, and you'll actually have advanced knowledge than uh we did, though those of us who went through it this time. So that's great. Um so yeah, I'm gonna tell you about my experiences, but first, before I dive into my experiences this past month and a half, I want to let you know about the energies that encompass the earth during this time period. So it's just kind of a um a uh front loading of information before I tell you about my story or my experience. So, first, in March, all planets went direct. So this means that no planets were in retrograde. Now, when planets are in retrograde, the energies that they govern, and each planet governs a different type of energy on Earth, these energies that they govern are slowed down. It's almost like pumping the brakes on a car, right? We're going at a normal speed on the highway, and then all of a sudden we have to put our foot on the brake and just hopefully gently slow down. So sometimes it's this gentle slowing down, sometimes it's this slamming on the brakes where you're just slamming on the brakes and coming to a complete stop. And I really feel like it was the latter for March and April. Um, or prior to March and April, right? Because there were so many planets in retrograde for the past, I don't know, year, I don't even know how long. There's been at least one planet in retrograde at a time leading up to March 2025. And then March 2025, there were none. They were all direct, which means that everything went forward at an accelerated space. So it's like slamming on the brakes and then being stopped for a very, very long time, like stuck in traffic on the highway, and you can't move. And then all of a sudden, you have clear road, open road, and you can just hit the gas pedal and accelerate to like 90 miles an hour. That's what it was like for March and April. This intense acceleration period in a very short amount of time. And so, for instance, so just to give you an example, when Mercury is in retrograde, the planet Mercury is in retrograde, it causes communication systems to slow down. So Mercury is the ruling planet of communication, and it causes communication systems to slow down. So that's where we get miscommunications because people aren't sharing the same speed of communication. And even things like computers and cell phones, anything we use to communicate is either is it's uh disrupted. Um, the speed of communication is disrupted. And when we're used to communicating at a really high speed, which we are now with the internet and computers and all of that, we our brains don't catch up, right? So all the communication has slowed down, but we're still impatient. We want the communication to be just as fast as it was. So that's the complication when Mercury goes retrograde. And then another example is when Pluto is in retrograde, it causes the past to resurface. So Pluto is in charge of karmic ties and anything that we any decisions or experiences we've had in the past. Um, a lot of times trauma, like stored trauma, is linked to Pluto because it's things that we happen in the past that we still are reliving. Um, and so when Pluto goes retrograde, it causes the past to resurface so that we can take a closer look at our mistakes and make future decisions. So it's slowing us down in this in this respect of our lives, in this these past happenings or experiences, so that we can take a closer look at our decisions during those time periods. And then when it goes direct, we can make different decisions because hopefully all that trauma and all the things that the experiences and the mistakes we made have resurfaced and we've released them so that when it goes direct, we can choose differently from a more healed place. So if we pay attention to the retrogrades, we will consciously slow down. So we'll make this choice to slow down in the areas that the planet rules over, right? So that we can make decisions when that planet finally goes direct. And some planets are in retrograde together, which complicates things. You kind of have to know what each planet is in charge of in order to kind of follow this. Um, and then some planets take a really long time to go direct. And so Pluto is the longest. And I'm bringing up Pluto a lot because it was it was very prominent during March and April. The energy was very prominent. So Pluto is the longest, it takes about five to six months to go direct. Um, and so that's the longest. Whereas I feel like Mercury takes about three months to go direct. Um, so when Pluto's in retrograde, we get this really long opportunity to reflect and learn from our mistakes and the choices that we made at the past year. Um, and I'm not going to go too into too much further detail about retrogrades, but I just wanted you to be aware that between March and April, those two months, there were no planets in retrograde. So for the purpose of this episode, that means that the energy on Earth accelerated and everything sped up, including time, communication, and all of our interactions. So if you felt like the past two months that you were being asked to make quick decisions or actions, this could be one of the reasons. You weren't given a lot of time to make decisions. Um March and April were not about reflection. They were all about action. And so if you noticed other people making quick decisions and things just information flowing really rapidly, that's why. Um and you could see this happening in the world. So think about what happened over the past two months. We had a sudden war. So the United States got was engaged in a sudden war. Um, we had sudden dismissal of government officials across the world, right? Um, and then we had sudden justice for people who committed major crimes. So all of this in the retrograde periods, all of this, the veil was being lifted. We were seeing all of this stuff come up, and these actions that people had done were being revealed. And then between March and April was when the action took place and all everything moved forward, and people were making quick decisions, whether they were the right decisions or the wrong decisions. It doesn't matter, they were making decisions with not much forethought, especially if they hadn't released or let go of things during the retrograde period. So we could see that happening in the world, right? So then, second, during this time between March and April 2025, the Earth was being flooded with light energy. This was seen by the Schumann Resonance Scale. And if you haven't heard of the Schumann Resonance Scale, I encourage you to check it out, especially if you are an energetic, you know, you are very connected energetically. Um, and it's this scale measures the amount of light and electromagnetic energy on Earth. And so spikes in this energy are often caused by lightning strikes or solar flares, that's the most common. Um, and it's often referred to, especially by energetic beings, as the heartbeat of the earth. So you can really measure what's going on energetically on earth based on this Schumann resonance scale. So when it's measured at about 50%, so when the Schuman resonance is measured at 50% on the scale, it indicates that the earth has a higher electromagnetic energy than average. And then obviously, when it's measured below 50%, then it has a lower magnetic energy or average. They often call it average electromagnetic energy. And so when it tips above 50%, this can have effects on our emotional, mental, and physical health. So we start to have emotional, mental, and physical experiences that are out of the ordinary. You're just maybe in the basement in a dark, not necessarily dark room, it could have artificial light, but you don't have contact with the natural sunlight or the natural outside. And then suddenly deciding to go outside. So you leave the room and you walk outside, and it's a bright, like glaring, like the brightest sunny day you can possibly think of, and it's very warm or even hot. And your your body is going to take a while to adjust. Your eyes and your senses and your physical body are all going to take a while to adjust to this big bright light that you are now experiencing. And so it's an okay analogy, I feel like, for what happens when the Schumann resonance spikes really high or goes over 50% on the scale. And so when it does that, this change is extreme and it can be felt globally. So the sun, you know, is a global, you know, it we all feel the sun's rays, right? We all feel the electromagnetic energy from the sun. And so this is something, a global phenomenon, it can be felt across the world. And so if you're curious about the Schumann resonance during these two months, March and April, um, I like the website SchumannResonance.today. And you can go to that, I put it in the show notes, and you can see what the daily resonance is, but you can also go to the archives and see what previous days, you can search by date and just see what previous days are. So I look, I took the this opportunity to look through the archives for March and April, and if you do so as well, you would see that there were very few days below 50%, very few days of calm. Almost every day from about mid March to the end of April was above 50%. And then there were several days, like I don't know if it's a record, so I won't say record number, but more than normal days were over 90%. So now Now we're nearing 100% above, you know, like above what is normal for this human resonance for this electromagnetic energy on Earth. So very elevated levels of electromagnetic energy between mid-March and the end of April. And then if you look at that and you compare it to the beginning of May, which we're in now, it drops significantly. So now it's back to baseline. You can see that every day in May so far, and there hasn't been too many, but every day in May so far, there's been an average resonance of about 30%. So below that 50%. So if you compare those two, we can agree that Earth experienced a huge influx of light energy in March and April. And when you have several days of intense light energy on Earth, that is the process where things are being cleared out of our bodies, of our emotions, of our minds at a very high rate. And then not only that, but things the earth is clearing itself out. It's clearing itself out of things that it no longer needs, right? It's shifting the earth so that it can begin to heal and heal basically the energy of the earth. And so when you have several days, so maybe you know, like a week of this energy, things are being cleared out at a normal pace. It's like almost like, oh, time to clear things out, time to clean the house, time to get rid of the things we no longer need, just the general kind of calm, let's give this away, let's get rid of this kind of thing. But when you have two months or a month and a half of intense light energy on Earth, this intense flood of life energy, light energy on Earth, that is when things are being cleansed, not just cleaned, but like cleansed. So this is where we get the deep cleaner and we really scrub at a phenomenal rate. So in a month and a half, we like it's almost like wiping the slate clean. It's almost like taking a, you know, uh, it's almost like inviting a hurricane into your house and just letting it blow everything out, you know, like hoping that you no longer need it anymore. Um and it does this, and this doesn't happen very often. I mean, it does happen, you know, more often in our lifetime, but it's not as often. But it has happened a lot more often in the last five years, and we have, I think we can all agree, experienced these episodes. Um, but really the point is then of these intense cleansing periods is um to allow our bodies and minds to literally reprogram and evolve. It means we're stepping into a new evolution as a human race. And in order to do that, in order for us to feel, you know, not overwhelmed, less likely to feel overwhelmed, um, or like even that we want to like leave our bodies and not be on this earth anymore, we have this natural protective mechanism in our brain, which we've talked about, where we literally our minds go offline and we are put into a survival mode, so then this cleansing and evolution can happen. So that was also happening in between the middle of March and the end of April. And then third last lane, do you remember Pluto? We just talked about it. Well, it is entering retrograde this week. So Pluto, as I said before, rules karma and our past choices and decisions. So if you put all of these things together, the energies of March and April, were imperative to cleanse our souls and our hearts and our physical bodies and the earth, so that we can now enter this five-month period where we address our decisions and mistakes over the past year, or maybe even over our lifetime, so that we can take this retrograde time to heal and set our course on the right track, both as individuals and as a society. So remember, we have to feel it to heal it. We've talked about that. You have to feel it. If you are experiencing trauma, you have to feel it. You can't hide from it. If you hide from it, it just persists. You have to feel it, you have to let it come up, you have to let it come out in order to begin the healing process. So in the past two months, maybe you've experienced the unleashing of either your trauma, things that have happened to you that were traumatic, or the trauma of others being unleashed on you. Or both, unfortunately. And this is all for the purpose of healing. So this big, all these three energetic elements over the past two months have been to cleanse and remove the obstacles that keep us from healing, both as individuals and as a society. So this could even be, and I think we saw this, maybe even decades or millennia of generational trauma being exposed and released, so that we can begin to right the wrongs of our past as we enter this Pluto retrograde and beyond. So, given all that information, this is the energy that is happening on the Earth during this span of time. And I'm going to move into my story now so that we can begin to discuss what we can do when this happens and our brains go offline. Because, as I said, spoiler alert, this won't be the last time we experience a period like this. And remember, we have four more years of Earth restructuring before we move fully into this new energy on Earth that is more about compassion and community and caring for others and less egoic energy. We're moving into this energy of compassion and community. But we still have four more years. So hang tight. But I'm going to start with a fact. So I just to qualify what has been happening in my life over the last year. Um, when I entered the energy of March 2026, I was already in the process of grieving basic life changes, just things that happen throughout the normal process of life. First, my daughter's elementary school decided to close. So they are closing their doors at the end of this year. And we knew about this at the end of last year, last school year, but this was the final year. So we were in our final year this year, and we've been working through together, you know, all the endings and also the celebrations that come with that, plus, you know, just a bit of anxiety about the changes for next year and starting a new school and uh a new routine and all of that. And then, second, my eldest son is graduating high school, and I'll tell you, nobody maybe they tried, but it feels like no one prepared me for the emotions of this final year of high school. Um, and this is my first, right? So just the experience of so many last events and goodbyes and just the natural things that happen in this process, but are hard nonetheless, right? So going through that. And so when I entered into March 2025, I already had a bit of grief exhaustion. Like I had when things like this happen, it's like prolonged grief, right? There's just a new goodbye, or there's a new final sporting event, or there's a new, like, oh my gosh, I hadn't even thought of that as ending. And here it is. And you know, you're a a little you're prepared but not prepared for the emotions, and it just sometimes they catch you off guard, and so it's just this process of little tiny like hits to your heart that you have to grieve through continuously. So it's just like it's a continuous grief process. Um and it's exhausting. Like it I was by the by the time March hit, I was exhausted from these little tiny consecutive sessions of grief. Then in the middle of March, I went to work one day, and by the end of the day, I found out that my job was cut along with 17 of my teammates. So now this is a team that I helped create. And I was very proud of the fact that I was part of the creation of this team, and I helped lead it for eight years. And it is also a team that was highly appreciated and needed in our organization. And suddenly it was gone, like very suddenly. We had no warning at all. So that was intense grief then. There was this, you know, here today, gone tomorrow grief. There was no workup for that. And I was experiencing so much grief around this lost opportunity because we were going in such a good direction. We were really creating systems that were really gonna help this organization and really help people, you know, like it's a a a relationship organization, it's a people organization, and we were really gonna help, you know, feel like we were helping society as a whole. And so there was that grief around this lost opportunity to make a difference as well as in looking around and having to end relationships that you know, working relationships that were created over the past eight years and people that I'd worked very closely with in the creation process and in, you know, the really like getting in deep and people I just I know and are my friends and I care about. And we were all in the same place of collective grief. And so then you think about so then it's like, well, what happens next? What do I do next to you know like I don't how do I even pick up the pieces? Well, I was offered an opportunity to take a different job next year that I was not excited about. It really brought no joy to my heart at all. And um, so I really did not want to take that opportunity. Um, so I began the process of looking for a new job. And now it's been twenty-four years since I've had to look for a new job. Because I've just been able to move within my organization um and just kind of slide easily into new positions. I've never had to actually look for a new position. And I also, you know, I have a lot of strengths, y'all, but being an interviewee is not one of them. I I really struggle with it. I really struggle about talking about my accomplishments and I struggle about um, you know, sharing my uh experiences and I really, really struggle with answering hypothetical questions. It is, you know, which is all an interview question is. It's just hypothetical. What would you do? I really struggle with that. I'm more action-oriented, I like to get in and solve problems in real time, and I can really show off my skills in that way, not necessarily answering questions about it. So I was a little stressed about having to do interviews. And then to compound all of this, two days after I lost my job, my brain was taken offline. And I mentioned this earlier in the podcast, in the episode. But I just woke up in the middle of March and my intuition and divine connection was gone. It was like this cord was cut and I could no longer send or receive divine guidance. My intuition was muddy at best. It was like trying to receive messages through a bad phone connection. Everything was scrambled um and half information. And I remember thinking all I can do now is just survive. And I remember my brain just moving into this survival. Just to get through this moment, just so I could get through the next moment. Um, I was unable to create or even communicate well. Let me tell you, the brain fog was real. I kept forgetting words, my thoughts were jumbled. Um, and during this time I had to break the news to many of my colleagues as well as prepare for interview job prospects. Holding space and preparing were very difficult without my intuition or divine guidance. And I just had to move into this place where I accepted my plight and allowed myself the time to grieve and do it openly. Now, grieving for me sometimes looks like crying, but most of the time it looks like yelling, screaming, getting angry, or frustrated. Because my brain likes to regulate by fighting. We've talked about this before, with words. Um, and in addition to the whole process of losing my job and the way the senior leadership handled it, also dug up this buried trauma I hadn't processed in a year. So here is the Schumann resonance and Pluto energy bring um coming together, right? Releasing this trauma, situations where I'm releasing this trauma, being flooded with all this light energy to just kind of clean out the house. And I found myself very angry during this whole time. Um, and then I also found myself perseverating on things and not being able to let things go because I couldn't process them fully with the higher parts of my brain. I could only survive through them in the moment and then relive them the next moment. So it was just this this constant perseverating. Um and again, which pushed me purely into just survival mode. So shortly after um I my brain went on l offline, I found a job posting for what I thought was the perfect job for me. And I was very excited and I applied immediately. And I mean on paper, it was almost like this job was created for me. And I thought that I felt in my gut that this was the right opportunity for me. Um and but I couldn't trust it because my intuition was offline. And I got a call for an interview, and I was so excited, and I really believed that the universe was guiding me to this job, even though my intuition was still faulty. And everyone was rooting for me and telling me that I was perfect for it, and even the hiring leader seemed to be excited to hire me, and I went to the j interview and I did very well. Um, however, because my intuition was offline, I didn't have a feeling one way or another about whether I'd be offered this job. And I went into a bit of an anxiety spiral where I began asking or begging for signs from the divine, um, a penny, a feather, a cloud, anything. Because I really wanted this job. And then and I got nothing. No signs. So it just confirmed that, yep, that connection really is cut. I don't know what happened to it, but it's gone. And um and then I got a second interview. Um, which meant that I was in the top two candidates out of the twenty that applied for this job. So I'm like, oh, pretty good odds. Like this is okay. I'm this is this is what was meant for me. And um the hiring leader called all my references, I'm like, I'm gonna get this job. So I was fully committed to the fact that I was gonna get this job. And then I had my second interview and it went great, and I was confident and they seemed to like me and my answers and everything just seemed perfect. And I was waiting for the call to come through, and when it did that afternoon, what I heard from the hiring leader just didn't compute in my brain. She basically said that they went with the other candidate, even though they really wanted me. And apparently the leaders above her chose the other person even though this hiring manager or this hiring leader wanted me. And she said, I don't even know what to tell you. You did everything right. We really loved you, we were really impressed by you, but unfortunately, you didn't get the job. And after that, I think I just went into shock and added to that and my perpetual grief from this year, I just I didn't know what to do. I was so angry about everything and resigned to just take this job that was offered to me but brought me no joy. And I would just do that and be miserable and just whatever. I'm just gonna live this miserable life with no connection to the divine and just tough it out for the rest of my life. You know, I really went I really went dramatic there. Um, but something pushed me to check out the job board again. And I found another job that was a possibility. Um, I wasn't a direct match for it, but it did spark some joy in my grieving heart, so I applied for it. And I mean, heck, why not? I didn't have my intuition intuition to guide me, so I was just gonna have to take this, you know, shot in the dark. And I knew some people who worked at this place, and after talking to them, I got kind of excited about the possibility, but again, I wasn't a top candidate because it wasn't something I'm an expert in, right? I was missing some skills and I would have to do some learning to be great at it. So I didn't allow myself to get excited. Um, I got called for an interview, um, and through that process I I learned more about the job, and I did get very excited because even though it was going to be a bit of a challenge for me, I knew I could do it, right? I did feel confident that I could do it. Um, but I still didn't believe I was gonna get it because I knew there was no way I was the top candidate. If I was the top candidate in that position, how could I be the one in this position, right? Um and I just didn't want to get my hopes up because I couldn't I just couldn't grieve another thing. I was so past grief exhaustion and I just couldn't do it. Um and I also didn't even ask for a sign because I'm like, well, I'm not gonna get one because of this lack of connection. And then the next day, just randomly, a colleague came into my office and asked if I wanted if she could do an oracle reading for me, so a card reading for me, because she got this new deck and wanted to practice. And I'm like, This is strange. And I said, Sure, why not? Um and so my question was to her was if I asked if I was the right candidate for this position or if this was the right opportunity for me. And she did the reading and she drew the dragonfly card. It was a spirit animal deck and she drew the dragonfly card, which symbolizes transition and change. But that's not the kicker, right? That would be great, because it's like, okay, well now you're on the right track, right? This is your transition, this is your change. You can really like hold on to that. Um but the kicker is that the dragonfly is the mascot for this place where I have now applied for this job and now I'm about to interview. And so I didn't receive the sign directly from my connection. It was given to me by someone else and their connection. So very fascinating. Long story short, I got the job. Yay, I got the job. So very exciting. Um, and after several weeks, multiple interviews and bouts of anxiety that I was gonna get rejected again, I'm happy to say now that I know more about it and I've been integrated into the system, it is my dream job and it is the perfect job for me, even though it is a challenge and I d still have things to learn, I think that makes it even better because I need something that's challenging. Um, I I do better when I'm challenged. Um, and so and it was much, a much better fit for me than the job I got rejected from. So long story short, the divine had my back all along, even though I couldn't get the connection um accurately or or I had no connection, it was there behind the scenes helping me all along. So I'm not sure if everyone's brains went offline during this time, but I think it was very normal if they did, given everything I just talked about. Um in addition to all this during March and April, so many I I heard from so many other people and even my own family members. So many other endings. And beginnings happened to my family and friends during this time. Relationships ended, futures were decided, jobs were found, conflicts were resolved, and all during the time when I feel like most of our brains were taken offline, we were put in this survival mode. So that leads me to believe that this evolution occurred during this time that we were taken offline. Because I've heard that I wasn't alone in this, but I am excited to hear if you felt the same way. And things like this happened to so many people, right? Um, that I heard about. And so if you are experiencing this grief exhaustion, I'm with you and I understand. Um and if you're not, then I am happy for you because it was exhausting. But then on May 1st, my intuition and divine connection came flooding back to me. It's like I woke up on May 1st and there it was. It was all right there. Almost like a bad dream. Like I just woke up from a bad dream and there it was. And then right after that, I led a very magical yoga class and then a magical full moon ceremony, and for the first time in two months, I could take a deep breath and feel at peace because my connection was back online, my brain was back online. And I'm so happy that I don't have to also grieve that the divine had forsaken me and taken all my connection away because that would have been really, really awful. And with that, um, I began creating again. So now I'm back, my brain is online again, and I'm bringing these messages to you all. And I hope, I hope the same goes for you. If if it hasn't already at the beginning of May, you know, have faith it will continue to get better. I I really have this hope for all of you. So what now? Well, I do believe I was given this experience to help others either in the aftermath of this most recent energy, if you experienced something similar in the past two months, or to help others through the next one if you were given a reprieve from this one. So here is what I want to tell you. First, when the energies on Earth are intense, like they were in March and April, our brains might go into survival mode. As we've talked about, when we are in survival mode, we can only access a small portion of our brain that controls basic human needs. This means that we cannot access higher levels of our brains that help us connect to intuition, the divine, or even creation of new things. When this happens, we have to allow this part of our brain to take over and ensure our safety and focus only on our basic human needs. This is not the time to create new things. It is the time to focus only on what gets us through this moment so we can tackle the next moment and so on and so forth. It is also the time to be in the moment and focusing on our five senses regularly and what is happening right in front of us, not the past or the future. We only want to try to focus on the present moment. Second, when our brains go into survival mode, we won't get intuitive hits or they will be wrong or murky. So we might need to rely on help from others to see the clear picture, to see the bigger picture. We might have to ask for help. However, from physical beings, right? Because we can ask for help from the divine, we have to ask for help on earth. Remember that these physical beings might not be correct either, because we're all in this muck together, this energetic period. So we may just have to try different things. We may and have to be okay with making mistakes and having faith that the divine does have our back, even if we can't feel it at the time. Third, regulation is key. Looking back over the past few months, I had moments where I was very dysregulated and found myself fighting everything and everyone. It was a big challenge to find ways to regulate when things got intense. So I did more yoga, I took more walks, I sang or screamed out loud in my car, I dissociated with mindless shows and books. These are all things I know work for me, and so I did more of them. I made sure I spent time doing more of those things. And I worked to forgive myself or give myself grace when I made mistakes or I overreacted or things didn't go my way, or I maybe unleashed some trauma on others. I worked hard to forgive myself, give myself grace, and try to make amends when those things happened. Fourth, um turning off the news. Turn off the news during these times. Don't click on sensational posts, disengage from activating media during these times. I cannot stress this enough. When we cannot access our intuition or our divine connection, we are very prone to absorbing fear. When we are in that part of our brain that rules survival, we have there's nothing bigger than survival. And we are very susceptible to absorbing fear. Um and we the big um yeah, and so I highly recommend when your brain goes offline like this um don't engage in anything that is meant to create fear. It will only make things worse. So have a hard boundary. Don't do those things. Don't engage in that information. Fifth, have faith. Um, this is the last one. Trust me, it's scary to lose your connection, it's scary to lose your intuition and to the parts that make you whole and help you feel safe. I know I experienced it with you and it was wild. But through it all, I know, I knew and I know now that I was being held. I knew that the divine was still there guiding us all. And perhaps the greatest lesson when everything goes dark is to blindly trust that we are protected and being guided. That's the true measure of faith, and it will, I promise you, carry us through. I hope all of your brains are beginning to come back online. We might experience some consequences of our actions over the past few months, both as society as well as individuals. So I want you to be prepared for that. But as Pluto enters retrograde, we can begin to heal the things that came up or the things that occurred during this intense period. Remember, we have to feel it to heal it, right? So remember that. Now we are in a time where Pluto is slowing down and we have this opportunity to begin to heal and make different choices, re-um structure our lives in this kind of new evolution. Uh and um we will also I you know, there will be less electromagnetic energy, so it's more back to the baseline where we can just kind of take a breath and be calm and heal. Um I recommend checking out the Schumann Resonance every once in a while. It's been really very helpful for me. I put the um link to the website I like in the show notes, but you can find there's others out there. Um you can find one you like if you don't like that one. Uh and it's especially when you feel like you're going into this survival mode. When your brain, when you wake up and you're like can't connect or your intuition is murky, or you can't feel your divine guidance. I suggest checking it out because it could be because of something electromagnetic happening on the earth. Um but most importantly, uh give yourself and others grace when these this these type of things happen, when the energy is so intense that our brains are put offline. Um because really what's happening is we're all blindly leading each other through this time. So if things happen during this time, you might need to be able to work on forgiving others or forgiving yourself or giving people grace for um some mistakes that might have been made uh during this time period. And it doesn't mean you have to um, you know, be okay with with if you received any sort of abuse or if somebody really lashed out at you or unleashed their trauma on you in a really awful way. You don't have to be okay with that abuse, but you can forgive to put some ease in your own heart. It doesn't excuse what anybody did to you, but the forgiveness is really a gift for yourself so that you don't hold on to it anymore, right? You can set it aside and acknowledge that they were going through something and it wasn't fair that they put that on you, but also you don't have to carry it with you into this next season. So I also offer you that as well. So that is our show for today. That is our episode for today. I'd love to hear your thoughts. Um, it feels so good to be back and creating again, you all. It was a really hard time not being able to share things with you all as they come through my intuition. So um hopefully I'll be on a more consistent schedule with creating episodes. But in the meantime, take care of yourself, take care of others, and heal. That's that's where where we're at right now. I'll go ahead and set uh close our session, or close our session, that's what I say in yoga. I'll go ahead and close our episode for today. The light in me is a direct reflection of the light in all of you.