Ep 2: The Midlife Pause: Finding God, Purpose, and Peace in the Uncomfortable

 In this episode of Midlife Audacity, Celeste gets real about the messy, beautiful in-between of midlife, the burnout, loss of motivation, and quiet discomfort that often precede deep transformation. She shares her personal story of slowing down, rediscovering her connection with God, and learning to see the so-called “midlife crisis” as a divine awakening. If you’ve been feeling stuck, disconnected, or uncertain about who you are now, this conversation is your reminder that the pause isn’t punishment, it’s preparation. 

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Transcript

Hey hey and welcome back to another episode of midlife audacity. I just got back from a fantastic weekend down in Virginia visiting my son who will be graduating. This may it feels completely surreal to have a son. That is graduating college. It seems like it was only yesterday that I was in the hospital. Having him on the coldest day of the year in January. And to look back at these last 22, almost 23 years and think. Oh my God. Where has the time gone is a very eye-opening realization, right? It. It's kind of why I have started this podcast. because when I think about, These last 23 years. So life. Was happening. For me. Within our family dynamic. So, much of life was happening, outside of my family, Dynamic with work. And then later with entrepreneurship, and now that I have entered my 50s, 

I ready for an entirely new. Level of upgrading. And that is both exciting and scary as hell, right? Like I know that it's this time. In the pause that. I have been able to sit and really get clear and all so allow. My feelings and emotions. Around this new period of my life, to take shape. And I want to encourage all of you listeners. To also allow yourselves the gentle Miss. And the time. Necessary to really sit and allow be unsure or to feel lonely or maybe it's this sense of uncertainty. I want you know that that is so normal, and want you to honor that time. If you're like me. You don't want to be in that space for a long period of time because it's really uncomfortable. And that's what the last two years of my life have felt like they have felt completely uncomfortable. Because For the First Time In maybe forever, I was allowing myself to sit with these emotions. And I wasn't bypassing them, which is my normal go-to to put a positive spin on it to, you immediately reframe and to, you know, shift perspectives. That is my go-to response. 

Most of the time. But when I entered my 50s, I have lost so much motivation. I had felt so burnt out. And I truly did feel like myself. And so it makes sense that because I didn't feel like myself I wasn't doing the things that typical Celeste would be doing. And at the time I was beating myself up about it. And now that looking back, I'm thinking wow, what a gift. It's almost like that Seinfeld episode where George Says to Jerry like I'm gonna do the opposite of everything that George would instinctively want to do. Does anyone remember that episode where he does the opposite, right and things like start working out for him and he's like oh God I really should do the opposite of what I instinctively want to do. I literally was doing that for the last two years and it wasn't by choice. It wasn't by design. It was just unsolicited because I just wasn't feeling like my old self. and, Because of that I was giving myself rest. And I was giving myself time to sit on the couch and watch Netflix. And I was not really creating, which is what I really enjoy doing. and it was, Very uncomfortable for me to be in that space. 

But here's what I know. I that that was God's way. Of. Allowing me. To. Be. And we do not allow ourselves ladies. To sit in the pause to sit and the uncomfortableness and be. And I also noticed during this time. My meditations were also different. My journaling was different. I was reconnecting. With God, I was building a relationship actually with God. I was letting go of these. More general terms. With 

Like universe and spirit or source and those might work for you and I absolutely not throwing any shade to whatever term Fields, good to you, in whatever stage of life, you're at. But I knew for me that something was missing with my connection to the Divine and I quite pinpoint it. And when I was in this period of time when I was meditating and journaling and everything was slowing down and there was a lot more quiet in life. It's when I realized that it's God for me, it's God. And I finally was allowing myself to say his name out loud boldly and proudly and I had shied away from that for a really long time. And it was in this. Period. Where I really felt like I was reconnecting to him. This also, Was. The relationship that was missing. During all of those hustle and bustle years. This was the one relationship that I was not. putting forth any time effort or commitment toward I was very focused on. My children and being a good mom. And I was very focused on my relationship with my husband, which we had a of codependency and a of friction that was going on in our marriage. For a pretty long time and I'm going to be inviting him onto this show. 

He's going to be a special co-host at different periods of time when appropriate and he's excited about coming on here and really sharing his side and his perspective to mid-life and also openly share some of the journey that he and have both been on both together and individually, but I was very preoccupied with those two relationships in my life. and then the third thing that I was very focused on was my career and I was a and I had been a for a really long time. But I was being called in this new direction of Entrepreneurship, and I had told you in last episode, I was in world of network marketing and it was new and it was exciting, and I was putting a time and energy into that space. Probably in hindsight. Now I can almost see it very clearly. As a way to distract me from the missing relationships in my life and the two that stand out to me, the most was my marriage because that was not getting the love attention that it deserved because there was a lot of friction and codependency there, and the other relationship that was missing in my life, was my relationship with God. And if you were to ask me 12 years ago, I would have never thought that was the case. I would have never even Thought that that was what was missing in my life. and it wasn't until I hit 50 and I lost all this motivation and I became really quiet and slowed down and 

I would say there little bit of depression happening. I'm going to totally honest. And just wasn't myself. It was in those moments. Where I was able to see. So clearly that this was an aspect of my life, that was missing. And I needed it. I wanted it and I was desperate for it. and so, a lot my I guess. Energy. Was spent in meditation and prayer. And Rebuilding that relationship. So, I'm wanting to really just share this all with you, because In these moments of discomfort. And in these moments of midlife, where we have Society has called this a crisis, right? Like we have, I at least have grown up with, oh, a midlife crisis. I knew very clearly what that was. And I saw parents, you of friends of mine who were having quote-unquote midlife crisis, you know, everything was like, turned upside down and there were divorces happening and people were moving and cars were being bought. And and I remember as child witnessing, some of my friends parents. going through this really unusual new chaotic period of time in their lives. And the connotation was that it was a crisis, right? That it was like this big problem and I am here to say that I don't view it as a crisis at all. I view it as a Awakening and it's powerful, and it is on purpose. It is the Divine invitation for us women. 

To allow ourselves the time to pause and reconnect and rebuild and take inventory. Ladies, take inventory and assess. Where are you in your life? What has been missing? What is it that? You want more of? Where do you? Your true desires? Lie. Because we were brought into this Earth. With purpose. And with intention, and God has put that in each and every one us. And that is our deveined assignment to fulfill that to live out that purpose. And those desires that lie in our hearts. And we get so sidetracked. So sidetracked. because all the things that come at us on a daily basis, And those things at the moment, seems so super important. But can be really distracting to what it is that we are here to do, what it is that we have come here to do. and, I built my first business. In a place where it was hustle and grind. And Work. And I told you, I felt really burnt out. I was burning the candles at both ends and that no longer felt good for me and then you throw in some hormones, right? From our bodies, kind of like going. Haywire the programming is going haywire and That combined, with being overworked. I was. Done. and, I didn't know where. I was going or what was going to unfold. I was uncertain. I was lonely. I was unsure. I was depressed. I was Sad. And I wasn't myself. And like said, That actually is. The greatest gift. And if we can, Together. Help other women to really see the true. Beautifulness of this time. I think we will have lot more women and during this midlife period and Beyond happier more joyful. More. excited about life and really being audacious in what they want and going after it and not giving. Any FPS what people think? And that. Is what we've come here to do, and that excites me to no end and I want that for all women, I want that for all women. and so, That's where I'm at right now in my stage. And if you are in are in any part of that, feeling like some that story, Rings true for you. Then this is a perfect opportunity for you to take that pause and re-evaluate and reassess. and step back from the overthinking and the grind and the doing and lean into lean into the being. And just allow yourself. To be. There is so much Beauty. 

And so at this point, I'm sure you're wondering. Well, how do I do that Celeste? do I allow myself to be? I'm still feeling like the outside world is bombarding me with things that I have to do and life, is constantly happening. And there's noise and distraction and I want so badly to rise out of this fog. But I don't know how and that's such a good question and I want you to be so proud of yourself for being here and listening, and being ready for this next phase. And embracing what comes next? But doing. So, in a that is empowering inspiring and you are taking ownership of this next season for yourself, right? You are creating it. With god with source with spirit, with the universe, whatever, feels good for You You are co-creating that. So be sure to join us next week, where I will be giving you some simple easy to implement strategies. That you can use to regulate your central nervous system. Allow yourself to be in a place where you ultimately get to choose peace over pace and Alignment over auto pilot. If you liked this episode, please share it with friends. I would be so grateful and leave a review until next time. Bye for now.