The Little Yellow Jacket
The Little Yellow Jacket Podcast is hosted by Verran Rose, Spiritual Psychotherapist, Trauma Specialist, Breathwork Coach, and Creator of the Conscious Balance Coaching Program, alongside co-host Surinder Bains, Level 3 Conscious Balance Coach, Workshop and Retreat Creator.
Together, they explore the path of personal transformation—diving into shadow work, trauma, addiction, abuse, and healing. Through honest conversations and lived experience, this podcast supports deeper self-awareness and the power of reconnecting with your authentic self.
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The Little Yellow Jacket
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Have we lost our way? What is the purpose of life and Love?
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Good morning everyone. Um, I'm here live with my dearest friend Serena. Good morning, Angel.
SPEAKER_02Good morning, V, and good morning, everyone.
SPEAKER_00So here at the little yellow jacket, we're going to do something different. We were kind of blazing last week when we found out the big agenda. And we thought we'd do a part two that's much gentler to explain why this is happening. Like why are we all going through this insanity and continue to go through this insanity where we've got orange men blowing up other men? And you know, it's all kind of surreal and a bit out there. What do you think, Serena, about what we're all going through?
SPEAKER_02Um, well, it'd be good, I think, to zoom out and look at the bigger picture because I think otherwise one feels a bit um hopeless. Um, you just think what you know, what I think people feel like that anyway, don't they? What is the point of you know life and what what what am I here to do? What's the meaning of life? Um, so yeah, I think um I think it's a good thing to look at.
SPEAKER_00So you agree we're going a bit gentler today?
SPEAKER_02Oh gosh, definitely. Much needed, I think.
SPEAKER_00I think it's important because uh I was kind of been out and about chatting to people, and my social battery's down. I mean, that will be it now for six months, but I thought I have a conversation with people, and a lot of people are like, Do you know what? I just don't get it, like I don't understand the point of any of this. I don't what we're working for, what we're all trying to achieve here, but it seems so hopeless that we've got these kind of ruling p people, these elite, aka the lizard faces, and they just seem to oppress everything and make life so hard, and we work harder and we get less. And I thought, do you know what that's a fair point? You know, it's a little bit depressing.
SPEAKER_02Oh, absolutely. And I think also when you don't understand it, I think it's very easy to say it's all um, you know, what the the people who are questioning or you know, the well, let's say the the podcast last week, it's um, oh, then we're conspiracy theorists, you know? So I think it would help if we there was a like just say we um looked at the bro bigger picture and then put all the pieces in the puzzle, lots of cliches coming out there, but yeah, that's what's needed, I think.
SPEAKER_00And just on the conspiracy theorists front, just to say that um when it's proven, it's no longer a conspiracy.
SPEAKER_02Yes, quite, quite.
SPEAKER_00So we're all really clear about that. It is no longer a conspiracy when there's hard facts. So there we are. All right, all right, all right. So let's have a look. These are just to be my feelings if I share them, and then you can share what you think was the you know, then we'll we'll look at it together. Is that alright?
SPEAKER_02Yes, good idea.
SPEAKER_00So I think coming into this world and myself and and being born into just really unwell people, not bad people, but just really spiritually bankrupt and unwell and frightened and just really dense programming. I think I realised from a really little child, probably around three, um my mother saying I would only be referred to as Lizabeth and I'd play classical music. I mean, that must have been pretty scary. It sounds like something out of the shining. And I used to get a lot of visions as a child, lots and lots of visions. I used to get hospitalized a lot for visions. Um I was hospitalized with temperatures and I would be somewhere else, and that went on I think till I was about fourteen. Um yeah, it was a regular occurrence and they didn't have an explanation for it. I mean, I later found out obviously I had a certain amount of giftings, and for those that don't know, I was very much in a psychic medium world for a long time, but I I don't touch that world now. Um for many reasons. But um I think I always was disturbed here. I I remember as a child not understanding why my parents would shout or why my mum would cry or I'd see people shouting at their children or hurt. I could never or the aggression in school. I was I think I was so confused about the way that people treated each other that that's really what what caused me to emotionally split and you know, seek out drugs, alcohol. I think I was just trying to escape cruelty, if I'm really honest. I couldn't I thought, why are we all here doing this, living in these concrete blocks? And nobody tells the truth. And they gossip and they lie and they cheat and they say terrible things about each other. I realised probably uh my first suicide attempt when I was uh sixteen. I realised I was brokenhearted from the minute I got here. And I think a large degree of me part of me continues to be brokenhearted. Now, why am I saying that? I don't think we're all here for the same reason.
SPEAKER_02Right? Yeah.
SPEAKER_00I think there's many souls here and those that aren't spiritual. I appreciate you might roll your eyes and think, oh, this is you know the fluffy brigade. But if you actually look at the state of humanity, we resolve conflict by killing one another, we resolve resentment in marriages by sleeping with somebody else, or leaving somebody you know, or we backstab or some of us know that isn't the way. But how do we know that? If if we're all just at the same level, how is it that some people know that's right and some people know it's not right? How is that actually possible that we have a different level of consciousness? How is it some children already have a much stronger moral compass uh than others? How is that so if if there is no various degrees of awareness, if we're just one collective? That doesn't make any sense.
SPEAKER_02No, no.
SPEAKER_00So for some people here, I think they're here to guide, to teach, to heal, to raise vibration, to raise awareness, and I think they go through enormous trauma, enormous depravity, but always bring it back to a place of love that they learn to love themselves and they learn to let go of things that no longer serve them. And I think that's what's happening now through this depravity that we're seeing all around the world and and with Epstein and I think we're starting to realize we're really, really sick. And we're really poorly, and most people will sign up to something to protect their cash, but no one will protest for children.
SPEAKER_01Yes.
SPEAKER_00You have to know we're all very spiritually cold, numb, disassociated, depressed, victim mentality or aggressive mentality, narcissists are on the rise, psychopaths are on the rise, dark triad personalities are on the rise. I think we're here to flush all this out so that we stop enabling.
SPEAKER_02And this is the time that is happening.
SPEAKER_00Yeah. I believe it's a time to choose a side.
SPEAKER_02Oh wow.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, it's it's the difference between good and evil. I think we have to recognise the evil and depravity within ourselves. We have to face some harsh truths about ourselves and what we've become and be accountable for those we've hurt, whether we meant it or not, including ourselves.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, yeah, absolutely.
SPEAKER_00It's almost like a new path is opening. Do you want to keep subscribing to that world where you're going for three, four course delicious meals and steaks, and there's kids dying and starving? Or do you want to realise that you're part of the problem and start really working on yourself so that at least in your home environment, in your social connections, professional connections, that you are something of exquisite value, but you don't enable wrong anymore.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, because I think it has got to, you know, we we we kind of think, oh well, I can't solve all the world's problems, but nobody's being asked to, are they? It starts with you, it starts at home, doesn't it? Home being you yourself, I mean.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, so what does it mean to you? Because listen, I know we've had a long journey. We've just working how many years we've known each other, so you know, how how many years was it?
SPEAKER_02Well, I thought it was at least 13, actually.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, just a bit before 13 years, and we've always had a great love of depravity, as in researching depravity and recognizing turn depravity. That has that has been a shared, I want to call it almost a passion.
SPEAKER_02Well, I think we both realize that actually we've grown up with it, haven't we? And it's been around us. And um we're not we're not willing to um uh you know put a lid on it. Uh, you know, we've been willing to call it out. I think that's the thing. You know, I said to you before, I know I have darkness in me that's inherited, genetic, my own, whatever, but I'm always happy to, you know, scoop it up, you know, go in and scoop it out. I told you like clearing drains. It's like clearing my own.
SPEAKER_00Oh no, I've seen you face down on the floor. I've prayed for deliverance, I've seen it, you know. And and you get back up and you go again.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, I you know, I I um I I think I've all I've always had uh probably a seeking spirit. I don't know, you know, I've grown up in an Indian family despite being, you know, growing up here, very much, you know, um grew up grew up in an Indian bubble in Britain, you know, didn't speak English type six. And but I've always thought that's all I've always thought this is not right. You know, most Indian girls of my generation think they were had an arranged marriage, you know, within a year of being taken out of school. But I just was always thought that, always thought it. And I've had, you know, fainting when I was a child, and I can't remember you saying that dissociation, you know, the sort of shouting and everything around me, but I've always like pushed and pushed and pushed, and I've no, no, there's got to be more that's you know, questioning it, but not knowing what. I mean, I essentially almost grew up in that I have to say it actually, it's a bit like a prison, you know. I don't know what was going on in the outside world. I went to school, came back, and that was about it. Um, and um so yeah, and I know, yeah, I kind of I I kind of knew what I was as well, you know. I could see it outside of myself, but I could see it inside me. So okay, I ended up in a long marriage with somebody who had high, high, high narcissistic traits, but I also know that within it what I became as well, because it bring out bring what brought out the worst of me. Do you know what I mean? And for that, you know, I I had to do work on that stuff on that, because I've passed that on. I've you know, um, oh yeah, all sorts of things. So that's where I've been, just like, let's get it out. You know, I want to live my it's not about living my best life actually, but almost like almost like going through this myself gives me the experience and the um what you want to call it, to be able to help others. That's it really. I took one for the team, I always say jokingly.
SPEAKER_00No, I really hear you in there. Something really like powerful, I think, running through that is when we grow up in these narcissistic families, right? And it's particularly about you know, narcissists is a big, big buzzword, but narcissism to me is just pure self-centeredness and lack of accountability. I think we adapt internal what we call inverted narcissism traits ourselves, where we'll either become narcissistic to ourselves so we don't know right or wrong anymore.
SPEAKER_02That's what it is, isn't it? Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00So when you're around these cruel narcissistic people, it you've normalized it because you're at the same level as them internally. Sometimes I think it's a case of well, if you can't beat them, join them.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Where you know, eat what you kill mentality, where you have to become numb and shut down anything that's intimate or vulnerable or soft or gentle to survive. Or I think you break.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00Drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, food ex. I I think you do whatever you can as some sort of buffer, some sort of armour to get through it.
SPEAKER_02Absolutely, because let's face it, all of us have suffered trauma to varying degrees, haven't we? And this is not to malign parents. I mean, my parents, you know, my mum had been through partition, my dad had been there such poverty they came from in India. And my dad worked in a foundry here, shoveling sand into a furnace, you know, my mum had you know cleaning jobs, and um, but you know, I'd I've and I've you know worked through everything and I've you know I've I've forgiven them and I'm at peace with them. But yeah, growing up in you know, in all that, um yeah, I I and and you know not being valued and I learned not to value myself as well, and as you say, you become that sort of internal narcissist uh as well, and then you make all those sort of erroneous choices going forward. My my sadness is always, and it should be actually more to myself as well, is what I've passed on to my kids, you know. Um, but but but actually I ought to have that same amount of sympathy for myself too.
SPEAKER_00And I think yes, the gift that children give you, it's like I I know I have I began my journey because of my eldest son, because when I looked at him and he was so beautiful, and I thought how am I gonna guide you? Like I can't keep behaving this way towards myself, and that really was the end of uh you know, when I was pregnant, like before I got pregnant, just before I got pregnant was the end of substance abuse for me, so it's like 26 years. Is I just thought I've gotta guide you in this world, and I don't love myself enough to guide you.
SPEAKER_02Gosh, that's a great awareness.
SPEAKER_00Blimey, I've got to get well, like I'm gonna be your everything shorts, and uh mum's gotta get well now. Like, I've got to be on my game in this world that I've lived. I don't want you to follow my footsteps. I don't want you if I hate myself and I have low self-esteem, I'm already telling you that your life is gonna be a struggle.
SPEAKER_02Yes, yeah.
SPEAKER_00That you've come from low beginnings, yeah, yeah. And I looked at him, I thought, I can't do that. And then I think it rocket rocket fuel because Lilyn was premature, he was two months premature, and I looked at him and I thought, all right, whatever's outstanding, I better deal with because you deserve better than this, and you deserve a mum, you need a mum that actually has a high standard of life. Like, you don't want erroneous people around you, or you don't want someone making money, you don't want someone putting you in in harm's way. Like they need a woman of worth.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you see, that's what we miss because you know, whilst I've been at home and a stay-at-home mum and my children had a sort of like I'll say idyllic in inviting commas, you know, in enlightened childhood and whatever, but it was and so you know, they weren't weren't lacking anything, and there was a lot of you know, um, you know, I kind of sort of could be there for them emotionally as well, you know, to talk to them and ask them things, but it was but what about me, you see? You know, we talked about taking uh relationships for um you know for the children, but what were they watching me and my dynamic, my my behaviour towards myself, what I was allowing, you know, that's what I mean. I don't my children haven't stopped beatings or neglecting anyway, but but I'm talking about that level, what have they picked up on that level?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, but you say that, you say you say that they haven't suffered neglect, they have. Sorry, it's controversial because if you're if anyone here is listening, look whether you've got children or not, this is relevant. But I'm just speaking specifically, there is an element of neglect when a mother cannot value herself, doesn't treat herself right, is mixing with the wrong people, is in you know, is in the wrong sort of relationships, is making a lot of excuses, has toxic toxic empathy, toxic compassion, she's not rising up. I'm sorry, there is an element of neglect because what you're what they're not getting is a whole person. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. It's got nothing to do with beatings. I mean, listen, I mean horrendous stories, right? I mean, you know, I've lived that life and I know what some kids go through and what they witness, and even if it's not them, it could be their mother or their siblings, and they grow up with tremendous shame that why wasn't it me? So then they start self-harming constantly because they have this tremendous guilt that they weren't the one that was targeted, right? Yeah, so they go and look for toxic relationships to target them, or they deny relationships where there's real love and accountability because they're still carrying the shame of the unbalanced parenting or unbalanced abuse because maybe they were the golden child. So you got all these complexities going on, and and again the psychological abuse I think that we've we've all endured, even if it's on a collective level with wars and stuff that's on the internet and knowing what's going on in the world and have to face yours yourself, the fact that you're not doing anything to help ease the suffering of the world. Like even at a basic level, right? You might not be able to go out to Africa, India, you know, over to Iran or or Israel, wherever your heart goes when you're seeing these children begging, they're literally begging for it to stop, and you see little children carrying their brothers or their sisters, dead babies, and these children have lost all their parents. Right. Most humans are not gonna go and do anything for that reason, but it's not enough. Yes, they're more concerned if the petrol is running out, yeah. Quite, quite, yeah, yeah. At the bare minimum, you should look at yourself. The bare minimum is to say, what type of human am I in the world? Yeah, what have I become? What have I contributed? Do I make wrong right? Am I one of those people that just avoids everything? But what is my actual contribution to the change in the world? And it doesn't have to be you become an SAS person, but you could be one less arsehole.
SPEAKER_02Yes, yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00You could be that one person that's not sitting at the table of gossips.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00You you could be that person that actually in your community could contribute something, even if you're making sandwiches once a week and you walk around to feed the homeless people that you're normally judging.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, that's true. Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00The amount of food we have, don't worry about food shortages, you just think it's the best thing that could happen to the planet.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00So as a bare minimum, and I think this is what we're seeing in the world why some of us, as I said, are some people here are genuinely here to guide and teach. I think they have a supernatural gift, they have a supernatural ability. And like we love Till Swan, and I know she's controversial. And she never ages. She doesn't, does she? What is it about her? She's getting younger every year. I'm more beautiful. Yeah, oh my gosh, she's so stunning. Um but she has a supernatural gift of words, and we don't listen. And and that's the bit I think we're having to look at now. And I think we've got a choice. Well, we're humans, we have to make a choice. Are we gonna carry on the way that we're we are, or are we actually all gonna stop and look in the mirror and think, what have I actually become?
SPEAKER_02Yeah, yeah. We've lost our humanity, haven't we? More than. Yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00What do you think the original blueprint of a human is?
SPEAKER_02Oh my gosh.
SPEAKER_00Like in your heart, in your spirit, what do you feel is is how humans should be living?
SPEAKER_02I feel well, it's something I've always wanted to do is I feel you know, connection's a big thing. Live in communities. Look out look out for each other, support each other. Um you know, people not living in isolation, old people or single parents, you know, everybody everybody's you know, mucking in, raising the children together, yeah? Uh looking after the older people together. And love. Hearts, you know, isn't it about love? That's what we've we've lost. We've lost our connection. to our hearts, haven't we? We've become very, very intellectual as well. That's another thing.
SPEAKER_00That's a really good point. So your energy's dropped now. Why has it dropped? Because it's so lacking, isn't it? Can you feel it? Can you feel that shift? It was like one minute I'm here and now I'm here.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, no, I closed my eyes, you know, and I felt like where have I gone? And they were two separate things as well. So I've always got an urge to live in community and I was talking to a friend, might have said this last time, that if let's say there was a World War III, would we all muck in together, like have that community spirit and dig for victory like they did in World War II? And I'm I don't I'm not convinced people would come together. I just don't think, you know, because we had a water problem for about six days in January. I mean was everyone looking out for everyone else and saying oh I'm going to well actually my neighbour did but that's one person you know I'm going down we don't have to all drive why don't I go and collect the water for you know 10 households or something. Everyone's so like you know doing their own thing and thinking about themselves. I mean not they're not happy for it. I'm not saying they're happier for it, but that commun community spirit's gone. And also yeah the the other thing I point I was making I've just had a thought about it we we have got all be we all live in our heads don't we we have lost that heart that that and that's why we can walk past homeless people that's why we can tolerate all that stuff as you say it doesn't you know yeah because the I don't know what this the Bible says we've got hardened hearts.
SPEAKER_00Is that how we should put it hardened hearts and a seared conscience ah yes exactly hardened heart and a feared conscience and uh if we want our ears tickled it says lovers of self Well we've become that's what it describes in the end uh when humanity goes through this massive awakening by the way what is happening is in the book of Revelation if anyone wants to look it up even down to the name Trump and the people that are at war with each other and the vaccines in there is and that's nothing to do with religion please is I think we're gonna have to make a choice I really do think we're gonna have to make a choice is humans I think we're late nature people. I think they're land people where beautiful communities with different gifts and different skills whether people spiritual or practical or teachers and you know carpenters and trading and and singers and seamstress I think we have we're so talented and so skillful in so many areas. I watch those documentaries from people living in the most remote places of the world and how they survive. I mean there's that island right I was getting Asher to watch it the other night we just sat there staring at each other because like I get worried if the electric goes off right and these people are uh water people and they make floating islands out of straw yeah and put their huts on it their tents and then they they sold these little islands together and then when it starts to recede because of the water they build another little island wow and you're talking like these are biggest towns all together for really and they fish and they've got boats and they share food and they look amazing. Wow and I'm not saying we're as raw as that but I don't think we're meant to live in concrete blocks and work 40 50 60 hours a week to pay all this money.
SPEAKER_02Well do you know we've got I mean if you think about the West you know we've got everything everything we might want and you know as you say we've got the possessions we've got the money we've got the beautiful houses we've got the whatever whatever whatever everything we're not like you know some of us you know most of us a lot of us not really lacking in you know certainly not you know lacking in all the basics but we are we are we any happier no we we I bet I I bet the unhappiness has actually gone up hasn't it? Yeah has mental health um suicide drugs alcohol loneliness depression it is on the rise because it's not in things it's in each other yeah yeah and and and actually what we've become is less and less community spirited and um yeah yeah all that stuff you know they do all that you know they did all that slum clearance in London put people in um high rise blocks and then they lost community was the back in the 50s and 60s wasn't it you know but but but women stood on the doorstep and talked to each other you know the men went to the pub together they all went together but what do you know what I mean there was still there was still community and connection.
SPEAKER_00Yeah that community allotment yeah quite yeah yeah yeah there was a lot more coming together but do you know what I was thinking that there was a lot more coming together because there were places to come together in you know forget religion but people would go to church and then you know meet up afterwards or say you know go into the pub the local pub um meet in the local shop all that's gone it's all it's very clever isn't it all the way it's all been eroded and taken away and I think most people live online now we have a digital life yeah and they know lots of people but they're just as much and much unhappy much well also it's poor impulse control if you think our electronics are programmed it it's so that everything's now yes it does the same to the brain as as gamers it does the same exact same as a heroin addict so it hits the side of the brain where you must have an instant gratification but that's not relationships relationships my gosh aren't they a journey I've marked do you know who I really admire so look oh sorry before we go there as we we close doors we're meant to go through this to recognise what we've become right okay so wake up call isn't it for humanity yeah and it's gonna continue so you know July and August are going to be really really intense months for the world is to think have we lost our heart and our soul and our spirit have we become so selfish that it's all about a pan note and a car and a house rather than creating memories and being with each other really being with each other and I'm not great at relationships I'm great in theory and I'm great you know in in my professional setting but I've always been fascinated by love. Yeah if you think about what some relationships take illness you know understanding people's personalities their depth their journey how people move in the world that sensitivity that level of respect I wasn't raised in respect you said saying you know you you you'd either get cut off or you could get a slap yeah but I wasn't really raised in an environment saying oh what is that person actually saying to me and I know we come across that professionally every single day is how do I love people what even is love mmm maybe next podcast could be that yeah but we don't have any answers send in your thoughts people we can talk about what it's not definitely it's not rescuing it's not rescuing people it's not enabling it's not yeah and it's not just saying because someone's in trauma it gives them permission for the rest of their life to be an horrible get either but I think love is so fascinating and I think this is what we've been called to do is return to love but not in that fluffy yeah listen I'm gonna share something with you it's really controversial but I'm still trying to process how I feel about it and I promised it would be light and I'm just gonna take a slight detour sorry about this I'm back on pilgrims I'll be back on pilgrims path in a second but I'm just gonna go down a certain road okay so you know I've got a a very interesting relationship with you know the pro pronoun well sorry I'm not being offensive to anybody who who is transgender by the way it's just that when people refer to themselves as they I kind of realize that they're mentally ill at that point and well it's there's a couple of personalities going on there that probably need some care. And great well put well yeah it's true you know I've had clients say I need to call you day and I'm like I think what we need to do is a clinical assessment first on how many you've got just so I know who's turning up to therapy and how to address each one because I don't know who's coming to therapy.
SPEAKER_02Well by the way they were very clever then using not clever subconsciously using they great great pronoun to pick well it's a personality disorder.
SPEAKER_00Anyway go on so I was watching this video the other day and I do try and limit my time because I find that my pupils dilate and then I can't actually remember my name or the fact I have children and animals and whatever there there's this new thing called uh pedophiles now want to be referred to as map yes I saw that what the what was that I don't actually know so what what what does it stand for No I don't know I saw it flash and I thought I must investigate that.
SPEAKER_02MAP what does it mean?
SPEAKER_00I don't know is it let's have a look let's fact check it you got your laptop there um I can look on my phone yeah come on you keep talking and I'll just fact check it oh my god we're turning into a Joe Rogan pull that up um oh here we go here we are oh you did it already yeah yeah yeah minor attracted person exactly what I thought so the Safer Society Foundation real thing real thing is saying now a a term has now emerged as an alternative to a paedophile because the paedophole's I find it offensive serious like all you can all be like everyone's listening to say stop it you're making it up no I'm serious I'm very serious it's called a minor attracted person oh my gosh and they're campaigning for that dear god oh no no it it's allowed it's legislation no sorry yeah so they want to be referred to as a map now I could give them a map and it would go to a very very hot place very hot so I beat my children but I want it to be called something else I'm not an abuser I want I I want to call it um I don't know angrily aggressively angrily physically addicted. Yeah yeah yeah yeah it'll be something mad so this is where you know we say like what have we become that I'm gonna I can't help you I've got to go controversial I'm so sorry Serena I've got to do it and I just want to say these are my only opinions it's got nothing to do with Syrinda No I'm just saying like that these are not shared opinions well maybe they are but we can talk about that another time. Okay. When I first found out about the the the trans movement I I was terrified as a practitioner okay and I thought I'll actually stop practicing if I have to get into all of this because I thought this is nothing to do with people that are are gay or lesbian. Okay. Nothing to do with people that are gay or lesbian um I believe a lot of that is a genetic thing we could go into a whole story about why people are genetically gay or lesbian but it doesn't I don't think it's something that they can uh do anything about and they need to be respected and loved just as they are okay I think there's a whole story behind that and I think that's a chemical story.
SPEAKER_02Okay.
SPEAKER_00But a lot of the trans movement is what I saw happening and again this is what we've become that from the age of eight a child could choose an eight year old now I have a 10 year old you've got an and I've got a 25 and you've got grown up children I'm telling you at eight you don't even know what you want for dinner. Yeah yeah you don't even want to brush your teeth and the shower looks like something that's the worst form of punishment right but they were asking these children if you want to I've seen videos on it as part of my training if you want to transition into a a boy or a girl then you just need to tell me and we're gonna start that transition. So they go through therapy then if a a parent was in opposition to that the child would be removed into care. No yep and these children were being chemically castrated it's not reversible you tell me how we live in a world like that and then as part of the transgender movement which a lot of gay and lesbians do not support by the way just so you're clear about that they're they're absolutely appalled by this it is not a true representation of that community it is not and that community is a beautiful community right is when you've got men walking around in frilly dresses and they call themselves day and these are grown men and some of these parades right where they've got their tackle hanging out bits and bobs hanging out and and now you can have people identifying as map in these communities you have to know something's really wrong. Yeah yeah yeah but you have to know we it's weird that it's it it's bizarre and it's heartbreaking when I see these grown men with beards with lipstick and no woman in their right mind would ever wear the clothes they wear that's offensive right off the bat just the clothes I mean where you can buy them where do you even get that stuff from like haven't you ever seen a woman walk around like that seriously I agree and you've got this 20 stone guy in a tutu and I'm thinking there's there's kids out there dying right there's wars going on there's famines and you're offended because we have to call you they in a tutu yeah no I had the exact same thought with um a relative yes yes like it's so self-indulgent and narcissistic and bonkers yeah like it's so off the Richter scale of entitlement that actually contributes nothing to society but what this brings in unfortunately is now you can identify as a map. Oh my gosh and you're not allowed to say anything again did you know they have laws protecting them now pedophiles it's offensive to call them a paedophile I cannot believe that yeah it can hurt their feelings more than their bloody feelings they touch my child yeah and this is why we see an uprising in Poland did you see that video of all those big strong men good lord ladies I'm sorry I've just got to say to you if you've got ovaries even if you've been through menopause your whole body's gonna respond because there are thousands of big strong Polish men marching against these things saying not in our country we don't allow it it's a mental health issue they need proper mental health you know yeah they need the pool they need love we're not gonna be disrespectful but no one's wearing a dress and I respect them for it because they said don't bring it near our children it will not be in our they are ch they are minors they are children and make that decision when you're an adult that's fine yeah yeah yes yes absolutely Poland is saying we all get drafted for war you're not gonna be wearing any dresses then absolutely but see how this whole thing we talk about this demonic agenda has come in slowly slowly slowly slowly that now like we're too scared to say anything we're too scared to be honest we're too scared to tell the truth about our feelings because we're offending somebody yeah no absolutely no no then we're criticized because we're anti this and we're racist we're not racist sorry that's a different thing but we're yeah you know whatever oh I'm sorry brain's gone dead but yeah yeah but no but it's even true about racism you know you can't say anything now with about being something that you're offensive without just saying look listen I think there's an issue here in this community that out of kindness and respect and love we probably should talk about I'm not trying to hurt anyone yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah you know and so I think this is what we're going through now but now that we can see that the masks coming off around the world the masks are coming off off the elite we've got to start taking our own masks off.
SPEAKER_02Yeah do you know um something just came to my mind I was reading a book review in the paper at the weekend and um a girl um in France she must be it said it was 30 years ago so the French have really been into this actually um I'm gonna call it sex with minors pedophilia whatever but been a bit more sort of acceptable you know um so she was groomed when she was 14 by a man who was from I don't know 4050 or something and he was a novelist and he wrote about it in books and he won prizes he was he was he was um on talk shows talking about this and and uh when somebody criticised him I mean I think he won some some big award in France you know I mean nobody thought it was wrong that he was having sex grooming this 14 year old for a couple of years and apparently there was one interview where a woman questioned him on television and she she got flagged off leave him alone what's he done wrong so now this 14 year old who's now quite possibly 44 has written a book up from her point of view and now everyone's outraged and finally bloody woken up for all those decades it's like um Nabakoff and the literature it's been okay and the French have sorry the French have really been really into that I mean I've heard it I've heard accounts where you know kids are at parties with adults and the kids can take the the adults can take the kids off to have sex with them because it's just like free you know free love and all that you know um it's it's it's okay it's okay it's okay but it's not it's fucking abuse literally there we go now you've gone down a path with me I'm so sorry we've got together but you know um I was uh um you know part of my studies is watching cults and there was this um one called uh is it right Raelian Raelian it's R A E L I A N if you get a chance to look up this dude is fascinating is absolutely off his nut and he's still alive and he's and he had this cult where he it was to do with the Anunnaki you know and he was saying they were trying to bring down these energies from the Anunnaki and they were all sleeping with each other and they were building these temples and did you know he was the first one to introduce clone babies oh really he had a team of scientists team of scientists I mean still going there's thousands of people that have joined it and they were trying to clone them clone these babies to almost make them supernatural but to also then bring deities and people think this is amazing I mean this is still allowed to operate today is it like they're still rolling now and it's the same as that other guy in America um uh latter day you know the latter day Jesus Christ the Warren who was a prolific pause so he started off the latter day took over from his father they call the prophet he was sworn as a prophet and he married his own mother did he fact yeah but look at people like Osho you know not just him all of them all those Indian cults you know um people people people from this country went renounced everything took their kids changed their names to Indian names and lived in these communities and then you listen to the children you know now coming forward and how they would you know yeah same thing oh who is that other that other lunatic what was his name John of God and then the Dalil I mean listen in these practices this is what I'm saying what have we become that that you would actually sit there as a human being and thinking it's normal for a 14 year old to marry a 69 year old or or a 12 year old to be impregnated by a 50 year old man and you as a mother and a father think yeah we'll sign up that's got to be the way to God so I'm saying the world's gone mad but when you watch these calls these calls are massively massively powerful I mean they they own cities yeah no no they supply Amazon and all sorts of people like they're so powerful but they're only powerful because people subscribe yeah yeah yeah so this is what's well well actually we were going back to like what has happened to us that we're all just like sort of blase about it what what how have we become so hard And why?
SPEAKER_00And this is why it's all been exposed now. And that's what I'm saying. That's why there weren't the protests about everything, you know, because I can't believe there wasn't one protest. Why? Because there's so many people doing it. Right. Yeah. You think in how many countries it's legal from the age of is it to ten, eleven to marry a girl and get her pregnant? So yeah, well it's everywhere. It's rife.
SPEAKER_02It is actually. It is. It is. It is everywhere. It is everywhere. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00In so many cultures, in so many cultures, it is absolutely and so many religions. And so many organized groups. It's so normalized now. That's why nobody's bothered about the Epstein.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. Well, I I I'm convinced that every other girl in India has been molested, you know? Especially in the rural communities. Molested, and you know, if they go too far. Well, look at that daily bus rape. And um in India they can it get rid of them really easily. I mean, I know my mum used to talk about it. You just throw a kid down a well.
SPEAKER_00Or you you kill the girl for enticing if it's her fault. I mean, she could be 10. It's her fault for attracting that. It's something in her that's unclean. So not only will we rape her, then we'll kill her.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. Yeah, yeah, quite. Yeah.
SPEAKER_00Yeah. So now we understand the need for God, the real God, not a religious God, but a real God. Now we know the reason why we have to look inside of ourselves and say, why are we not bothered by these things?
SPEAKER_02Um, I don't know if I touched upon this last time, but I I think I I'd like people not to think this is happening um elsewhere and in all these sort of, you know, you know, not sort of I don't know what the word is, in different sort of you know, countries, less than, you know, third world and whatnot, it's happening here as well. And I think I said Andrew Bridgeon, that MP who's um um kicked out by the Tories because he wanted um a commons debate on those excess deaths, that's all he wanted. He wasn't suggesting anything, but said, Can we please have an investigation? So they kicked him out. He got labelled as an anti-vaxxer. Anyway, he said in his time as um MP for North West Leicestershire, he said people came forward with evidence of human trafficking, uh trafficking of children in in this country and satanic cults. He said, I'm sorry, people, it's ri it was real. He said, but he took it to authorities, police commissioners, nobody wanted to know. Look, Google him, Google him, look at look up that interview, please listen. It's happening here. And you know, that Rotherham grooming gang, you know. I mean, they were a bit older, those girls, I mean, no less horrific. And I can tell you that happens. I've grown up in uh tightly knit um South Asian communities where you know it's okay to do that, you know. You followed round and you know, uh after school and all sorts of things. But anyway, um, yeah, it happens in this country as well to children.
SPEAKER_00Did you know that England has um the number one, it's number one for the amount of missing children pro rata in the world? No, America being number two. And I'm saying pro rata because it's a very, very small island. Yeah, but they have something, I think the last statistics were sixty-six thousand children go missing, and that's not even including the homeless people, God knows where they're going. But sixty-six thousand children are not found per year in the UK alone. Sixty-six thousand?
SPEAKER_02Where have they gone? Yeah, he said they were trafficked. He said, first of all, I mean, whether they're brought in or here, it's sex, and then when they've been absolutely violated and destroyed, he said they it's for their um organs.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, get harvested. But who's having sex? This is what I'm saying. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Like who's we know somebody, I mean, we were trying to work it out the other day, and we thought from a personal and professional point of view, I would say probably 70% of people I work with have either been molested, sexually abused, or have a relative that's been sexually abused, or know of someone who's being sexually abused. I know we said we weren't gonna go down this route, but it's part of people know and they're covering up.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
SPEAKER_00Like they know something diggy about these people, they've got ditch vibes, and yeah, this is what we've got to stop making wrong way. If you know your friend is being domestically beaten, right? It is your business. Yes, absolutely. That is your business. If you know a child who's been hurt, that is your business.
SPEAKER_02I know, but V, look at the incidences. There was a case in Ilford where this girl got attacked, you know, she was a budding lawyer or something, she was Asian, it doesn't matter whether she's white or brown or black, and um screaming, you know, uh, but no uh uh you know, midnight or one o'clock in the morning or something, and nobody nobody came out, nobody, nobody checked it. You know, everyone goes, Oh, you know, nobody wants to know.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, it's none of my business. I'll just you know it's behind closed doors. You don't want to get involved. Right, and now we see why, and I think this is a a time of revelation. I do think this is this is a time of we're in revelation where we're being shown what we've become and we have to make a choice, and I think humanity again has to decide what we're gonna learn from this and can't keep saying, Well, I'm alright. No, you're probably nasty, you're probably a gossip, you're probably friends with someone you shouldn't be who is awful. You're probably at home talking to each other in the most appalling way, or you're raising very entitled kids, or you hate yourself and you're secretly people pleasing. There'll be a million things that's going on right in your domain that you can start dealing with now. Today, today, start dealing with it today.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, well when you're allowing yourself to be abused, you know, verbally or emotionally or physically abused, you know, and then or letting yeah, yeah, allowing your children to be. I mean, yeah, all sorts, all sorts. So that's our happy podcast.
SPEAKER_00That was really gentle.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, how that wow how did it go down that route?
SPEAKER_00Start talking about they, and that's it, you know, it's a huge trigger for me. Me too. Me too. Start talking about multiple personalities inside people. Uh these people need help, loving.
SPEAKER_02Oh, no, you're right, you're right. It is it is a time um for us to wake up, actually, and I think we've got to, we've got to. Um, I who did I was somebody close to me. I um what did they say about a film? Have you seen that film? There's a film in Gaza, isn't there, about a girl who phoned the security service, the police. Did you hear about this?
SPEAKER_01No.
SPEAKER_02They've made a film and she phoned um the police or whatever, and their car had been hit, and she's pleading with them, come and get me or something. And anyway, um, they've made a film about it. Um, and um I somebody said to me, Are you gonna watch it? And I said, Oh yes, I ought to. I'm not gonna watch it, it'll make me cry. I'm worried it'll make me cry.
SPEAKER_00Oh, great.
SPEAKER_02That's the least of your fucking worries.
SPEAKER_00You've caught the swearing thing off me today. You've turned into little Miss Pottymouth. What's going on there? You're always the one that speaks so much nicer than me. Remember, I'm an East East London girl. I come in the streets and you've oh I'm liking this.
SPEAKER_02I'm from the Midlands.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, you've got an East London now, you're throwing him down. Gangster, gangster surrender out there. That's what's gonna happen to us. So we're raising an army of of spiritual warriors that you know gonna be out there, and that that's why understand all these guys are out there now. Like, they're I love them, they're on the tube, they're on the buses, they're patrolling at night. I'm like, go on, lads, go on, that's it. That's come on. Come on, that's it. Protect your women, protect the children, protect each other, come on now. We've got to start taking our lands back.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, yeah. No, absolutely no. I think I've just been fired up from what we're talking about. Oh, crazy.
SPEAKER_00I just want to apologize for Serena's profanity today. I'm absolutely appalled by it. Um, I never swear, and I I never use foul language, and uh, I don't quite know what's become of you today. A bit more, I think. All right, so we'll leave it there, everyone. We're gonna wish you a beautiful day. Oh if you can, if you can, just have a little word with yourself and think, am I loving the people around me the right way?
SPEAKER_02Yeah. Um if you can't, I just want to make a recommendation. Marks and Spencer's have got these amazing biscuits at the moment. You go mad. That's what I want to do. When I want to dissociate, I go, okay, I better go and eat some biscuits. I found some amazing biscuits of Marks and Spencer's. I'm not being paid for this. Extremely chocolate chocolatey rounds, they're called go get some.
SPEAKER_00That's the NF of Sorinda's advice. Okay, everyone. I don't know what's happened to her. I'm so sorry. It's a public announcement. Sorinda's gone, but we love her. All right. Until next time, everyone, much love. Oh goodness.