Easy to Be With, Hard to Show Up For

In this episode of The Energy Xchange, we're getting honest about one of the most quietly painful patterns in relationships — attracting emotionally unavailable people — and more specifically, what role we might be playing in keeping that dynamic alive.

Whether you're someone who tends to over-explain other people's behavior, goes along with things that don't really work for you, or consistently finds yourself giving more than you receive, this episode will give you both the clarity and the permission to finally shift it!

We're diving into:

• Why sensitive people are especially prone to over-understanding the people around them
• How this learned behavior can quietly mask unmet needs
• The difference between being easy to be with and being someone people feel invited to actually show up for
• How hyper-empathy can edit your voice before you even realize what's happening
• The uncomfortable truth about emotional availability
• Why your capacity to see the best in people might be keeping you in dynamics that aren't meeting you
• The small, concrete shift you can make in the next 24 hours to start changing this pattern

The Energy Xchange is a podcast for highly sensitive people (HSPs), empaths, INFJs, and deep feelers navigating relationships, business, and personal growth.

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Transcript

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Welcome to the Energy Exchange, a podcast for deep feelers and quiet leaders. Here, we explore what happens when we start working with our natural energy in both our business and personal lives. I'm Colleen Wallach. I'm a highly sensitive professional who spent years untangling patterns of overthinking, people-pleasing, and playing small just to feel safe. Now, I help others like me step more fully into their power without losing the superpower of their softness. We don't have to be allowed to be seen, and we don't have to push to be powerful. Everything is energy. Let's start this exchange. Welcome into this week's episode of the Energy Exchange. Today I want to talk about a dynamic that comes up for a lot of highly sensitive people, and it shows up in romantic relationships, friendships, really anywhere you're trying to connect with somebody, and that is attracting emotionally unavailable people. And you probably know what that looks like. They go quiet, communication slows down, and you give them space. They show up inconsistently and you don't question it or hold them accountable, at least not right away. And there's a lot out there about why this is so common. You know, childhood patterns, familiar dynamics, the way we're wired as deep feelers, and all of that is real. But what I want to look at today is something more specific, something that took me a really long time to be honest with myself about. Because I used to think that I just had really bad luck. Like emotionally unavailable people just kept finding me somehow. It was something that kept happening to me. And what I came to realize was that I'd become someone who was fairly easy to be with, but really hard to show up for. And I'll explain what that means. It wasn't just about who I attracted as much as it was about what I was participating in. Because look, it definitely takes two people to create a dynamic. There was something about how I was showing up that was allowing this to happen over and over again. And the more I've been able to step away from situations that don't feel good or don't meet my needs, I can see looking back how I allowed certain dynamics to continue for months, even years in some cases. So I want to take a look at a few patterns that create this because these were very real for me. And if you feel like this is a problem that you have over and over, hopefully these will relate for you. One of the biggest things I was doing was over-understanding people. And that isn't a pattern that comes out of nowhere. Overunderstanding is usually something sensitive people learn to do early on in life. So what that looks like is explaining other people's behavior before they do, giving context that they're not offering, you're filling in the blanks, or maybe softening your reaction in real time to smooth over a situation or prevent confrontation. In some of my really early friendships or relationships, I was afraid that putting my foot down or asking questions even would send them running. I didn't trust myself enough to let their response be information that I could use. When we fill in the gaps for ourselves to kind of smooth things over, nothing ever actually gets addressed. And what can happen is our empathy becomes kind of a masking mechanism. And I talked about this a few episodes ago, how hyper empathy can start to edit your voice. You start filtering the things that you say. So instead of very clearly and authentically expressing what something feels like for you, you start managing the situation. And when nothing really lands, you all of a sudden become very easy to be with. There's no real expectation for anything to change. And I always wondered why I felt so lonely in relationships where I was giving so much, like I was in the relationship, but not actually being met in it. Sometimes when we're easy to be with, we are actually hard to show up for. And when I say easy to be with, I don't mean that I was perfect or peachy. I'm sure that I was very frustrating for my partners, but I wasn't demanding anything. I was suffering inside myself, or I was explaining away behavior to make myself feel better about it. So I wasn't asking for sweeping changes. If you had a very specific way of being, you could still have that with me. That looked like going along with plans even when they didn't really work for me, or not bringing things up because I didn't want to make it a thing. And if you're used to regulating the emotional space, you know, adjusting to other people's needs or adapting as you need to, on the surface, it looks like you don't require much. It looks like you're low maintenance, but underneath you have those needs that aren't being expressed. So yes, you're easy to be with. But again, you're difficult to show up for because you're not showing people what's actually required. So they don't do any of those things. There's no pressure to grow, there's no demand for consistency, there's no consequence for that emotional distance. And I think part of why this was so hard for me to see back then is because that behavior was so closely tied to how I saw myself. I identified, and I still do, as someone who understands people, who really tries to hold complexity and nuance. And that made it really easy to stay in dynamics that validated that identity, even when they weren't meeting my needs. If you are a person whose natural tendency is to see the layers in other people, to see the good, the bright spots, no matter what's going on, you'll always have a reason to stay. But you might find yourself offering the emotional depth in the relationship without requiring emotional presence in return. And that can make it easy for someone to stay exactly as they are. You're not speaking up, which means there's no pressure. Why would they adjust? And again, there are two people involved in any energy dynamic. And part of why I attracted unavailable people is because some part of me wasn't fully available either. That unwillingness to vocalize or to cause a stir, there's some emotional unavailability in that. Maybe you go quiet because you don't want to cause a problem, because we'd rather carry something privately for months at a time than risk a conversation that might make someone really pull away. That's unavailability too. It's just quieter and it's dressed up as keeping the peace. So it's really important to catch the moments where we start explaining things for someone else or taking responsibility for their experience. Those are the moments where something feels off, you know, like when someone cancels last minute and instead of saying, hey, that actually really matters to me, you just go, no worries. And then maybe you're silently suffering, right? But they don't know that. Or when their tone shifts and you feel that, but instead of asking about it, you tell yourself that you're overthinking or being too sensitive. Or you come up with a million possible reasons why they're showing up a little differently without asking for clarity. So when we notice that we're explaining things for people, that's the moment to pause. My personal solution, and this is always a work in progress, is that I don't fill in the gaps for people. Let things be unclear for a moment. The goal isn't to become less empathetic, but it's to let it sit right where it is and not rush to resolve it ourselves. Say the thing, ask the question, or maybe you don't immediately respond. So if you have anything like this going on in your world right now, just think of, you know, what's one thing I can do in the next 24 hours to either get clarity on something or express my need. And I get it, it's really easy to feel like, well, if I stop making things easy, someone will leave or it will cause a problem. But that fear is exactly the thing worth sitting in because this is a pattern that you might be perpetuating. If you stop being the one who makes everything easy, you find out really quickly who's actually willing to meet you where you are. All right, I'm gonna leave it there really short and sweet this week. If this resonates with you, I would love a review. If you know of somebody who's dealing with this kind of stuff, please share the podcast. I'd love to get more like minded people in this space. Thank you for listening, and I will chat with you next week.