WhatEvenIsThis's Podcast
Welcome to “What Even Is This?”, the deliciously unserious podcast where I, try to make sense of life, love, chaos, healing, and every random thought that jumps into my head at 3 a.m. If you’ve ever looked at your life and said “what is this nonsense??”, you’re home. This is a space for laughing, venting, reflecting, oversharing, and figuring things out one chaotic chapter at a time. New episodes every week — or whenever life stops life-ing enough for me to talk about it.
WhatEvenIsThis's Podcast
I Betrayed my intuition; What For?
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I turn the mirror inward in this Ep
This episode isn’t about what he did — it’s about what I allowed.
I unpack the moment I realized I was silencing my intuition, renaming red flags as green, romanticizing instability, and confusing intensity for intimacy. From emotional unpredictability and secrecy to the night I packed up everything and left — again — this episode is about accountability, self-betrayal, and the quiet ways we abandon ourselves while calling it love.
It’s messy. It’s honest. And it’s uncomfortable in the way growth usually is.
If you’ve ever made excuses for someone who made you feel unsafe — emotionally or otherwise — this one is for you.
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