WhatEvenIsThis's Podcast
Welcome to “What Even Is This?”, the deliciously unserious podcast where I, try to make sense of life, love, chaos, healing, and every random thought that jumps into my head at 3 a.m. If you’ve ever looked at your life and said “what is this nonsense??”, you’re home. This is a space for laughing, venting, reflecting, oversharing, and figuring things out one chaotic chapter at a time. New episodes every week — or whenever life stops life-ing enough for me to talk about it.
Episodes
11 episodes
Contractor for chaos
What Even Is This… Anyways?What this season is:This season introduces a recurring short-story segment where I share spontaneous, real-life moments with no structure, no lessons, and no healing agenda—just stories as they happen, t...
Letting Go — Why Was That So Hard?
EP 10: The Aftermath (Season Finale)In this season finale, I talk about what happens after the chaos.Moving out before eviction.Couch surfing with strangers.Security jobs in winter.Job hunting like my life dep...
Locks Changed on Me — Who Authorized This?
Locks Changed on Me — Who Authorized This?Four months into relocating, moving in together, and building what I thought was a life… the locks were changed on me.In this episode, I talk about the day I came home and couldn’t get in....
The Relationship Had Terms & Conditions — Who’s?
In this episode, I sit in the uncomfortable space between knowing and leaving.This isn’t the episode where I pack my bags — it’s the one where I pack my thoughts.I talk about what it feels like to be self-aware but still stuck. Ab...
When Love Became a Bill — Who Set Me Up?
In this episode, I unpack how love quietly turned into obligation — when “we’re in this together” became a one-sided financial burden. From going half on bills that were never really half, to carrying emotional and monetary weight that wasn’t m...
Messing My Bed… Who else was in my bed?
EP6: Who Else Was in My Bed?This episode was hard to say out loud.Let’s talk about the infidelity that unfolded right inside my home — the kind of betrayal that doesn’t just hurt your heart, but rewires your sense of safety.
I Betrayed my intuition; What For?
I turn the mirror inward in this EpThis episode isn’t about what he did — it’s about what I allowed.I unpack the moment I realized I was silencing my intuition, renaming red flags as green, romanticizing instability, and confusing...
He Enters the Chat: Who Introduced Me to This Man?
I didn’t plan for him.He just showed up — loud, confident, magnetic — and somehow became part of my story before I realized what was happening.In this episode, I take you through the slow burn that turned into a fast, f...
Diaspora Dynamics & Loneliness: Who Signed Me Up for This?
Moving across the world teaches you a lot — but nothing prepared me for navigating people.In this episode, I unpack the loneliness that comes with diaspora life, the quiet politics of immigrant circles, and the unexpected real...
Starting Over at 40: Who Approved This?
Starting over looks cute on Instagram until the loneliness hits like a brick at midnight. No friends, no familiar faces, no familiar streets… just me trying to rebuild at an age where making new circles feels like auditioning. Here’s the truth ...
Relocating to a New Continent: Who Sent me?
This year dragged me, humbled me, spit me out, then asked if I was done crying. I wasn’t — but I survived anyway. In this episode, I look back at the chaos I didn’t sign up for, the depression that tried me, and the tiny inner voice that whispe...