WhatEvenIsThis's Podcast
Welcome to “What Even Is This?”, the deliciously unserious podcast where I, try to make sense of life, love, chaos, healing, and every random thought that jumps into my head at 3 a.m. If you’ve ever looked at your life and said “what is this nonsense??”, you’re home. This is a space for laughing, venting, reflecting, oversharing, and figuring things out one chaotic chapter at a time. New episodes every week — or whenever life stops life-ing enough for me to talk about it.
WhatEvenIsThis's Podcast
Letting Go — Why Was That So Hard?
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EP 10: The Aftermath (Season Finale)
In this season finale, I talk about what happens after the chaos.
Moving out before eviction.
Couch surfing with strangers.
Security jobs in winter.
Job hunting like my life depended on it — because it did.
This episode is about rebuilding from zero, finding stability again, and the humbling lessons that come after you think the worst is over.
And just when life starts to look up…
the past knocks — loudly.
Forgiveness. Relapse.
Two unused plane tickets.
And the moment I finally knew:
I was done.
This isn’t a fairytale ending.
It’s a real one.