PURE KAOS Podcast
Welcome to "Pure Kaos," a raw and unfiltered journey into the life and struggles of living with alcoholism. Each episode dives into the real stories, the highs and the heartbreaks, and the kaos that comes with addiction. We explore the complexities of life and death through the lens of those who've faced alcoholism head-on, offering a space of honesty, understanding, and sometimes a little bit of hope amid the KAOS.
Episodes
20 episodes
The Lies We Tell
We talk about the lies addiction teaches us to tell, especially the ones we tell ourselves. We name how denial keeps the habit alive and why honesty is the first real step toward freedom.• calling out the familiar lines like “I’m just stres...
When Addiction Affects Your Job
I tell a raw story about how drinking derails my first gig with a mobile DJ company and costs me the job before it even starts. I break down the excuses, the anxiety, and the shame that show up when alcohol runs the schedule, then I...
The Functional Alcoholic
We talk about the hidden danger of functional alcoholism and why “nothing has fallen apart yet” can keep addiction alive. We share what it feels like to survive on nightly drinking, secret shame, and constant bargaining, and why recovery is rea...
The Lies Alcohol Tells
Alcohol doesn’t usually destroy us all at once, it talks to us first, quietly and convincingly, in a voice that sounds like our own thoughts. We name the lies, trace the hidden costs, and remind you that the pain of sobriety can be your mind wa...
Who Are We Without The Drink
We ask the question most people avoid when they’re trying to quit drinking: who are you without alcohol. We talk about how drinking turns into an identity, what gets taken from you over time, and why meeting your real self is the hard part that...
The "Tomorrow Loop"
We talk about the “I’ll start tomorrow” loop and why it keeps drinking habits alive while making us feel like we’re still in control. We shift the focus from big future promises to a single decision we can make right now, so we can rebuild trus...
I Blacked Out At Fifteen And Woke Up In A Hospital
We ask a blunt question about drinking and memory: how many times have you blacked out, and what does that say about your relationship with alcohol. I share a personal story of blacking out as a teenager that ends with alcohol poisoning and a h...
You Rebuild Self-Trust One Kept Promise At A Time
We talk about the quiet split second before a drink and why it matters more than the dramatic moments. We focus on rebuilding self-trust by closing the gap between what we say and what we do, one small promise at a time. • the “quiet m...
What If Strength Looks Like Saying No
I’m having one of those weeks where it’s hard to find motivation, but I still show up because consistency matters. I talk myself through staying sober under stress and remind anyone fighting addiction that you’re not alone. • strug...
The Not-That-Bad Trap
We talk about the quiet lie that keeps people stuck: “I’m not that bad,” even when something feels off. We name how addiction creeps in, why honesty matters more than rock bottom, and what you get back when you stop numbing. • the “not...
Resurrection Vs Repetition
We weigh Easter’s idea of resurrection against the reality of addiction, where “fresh starts” can become the same loop on repeat. We share how autopilot drinking, shame, and negotiation keep the pattern alive and why real change can begin with ...
Cravings On A Hard Week
We’re honest about a week where cravings feel constant from morning to night, even though we don’t want to drink. We talk through what helps, what feels like a band-aid, and why support matters when we start to retreat inward.• intense alco...
The Question of The Hour: Alberta Separation
We respond to a question we keep hearing lately: whether Alberta is really heading toward separation from Canada. We lay out why the talk is growing, from immigration and public benefits to oil revenue leaving the province, and we share how the...
Cheap Sunglasses! Sober but BLIND!
I get back from Mexico after celebrating my 50th birthday and one year of sobriety and I still have red, puffy eyes even though I am not drinking. I connect the dots to cheap Amazon sunglasses, test the theory in real time, and realize I may ha...
Sober In Mexico
I’m in Mexico celebrating my 50th birthday with my wife and coming up on one year sober, and it has me thinking about how differently I travel now. I tell the story of the time I drank my way into missing my flight, getting pulled off the plane...
Show And Tell Gone Wrong
We tell a PURE KAOS childhood story about show and tell, jealousy, and stealing a rattlesnake tail, then connect it to how lying can feel effortless when we’re trying to protect ourselves. We end by talking plainly about how addiction can fuel ...
The Trigger
We ask a raw question about sobriety and addiction recovery: what single trigger makes you want to say “forget it” and use again. We land on stress as the biggest driver, talk through denial, and reflect on how “just one drink” can turn into a ...
From Big Spender To Clear-Headed Traveler: Choosing Sobriety Over Chaos
Ever tip like Santa, wake up like Scrooge, and wonder where the night—and your rent—went? I’ve been that guy, tossing hundreds across the bar, buying temporary friendships, and calling it “fun.” This time, we pull the curtain back on cravings, ...
What Really Leads To Addiction And How It Hijacks A Life
We ask what truly leads to addiction and map how early sips, bullying, and bored small-town habits can turn relief into reliance. We share ten months of sobriety, why one drink flips a switch, and practical ways to stay out of the spiral.
From Hangovers To Clarity: Launching Pure Kaos
A clear head on January 1 after three decades of hangovers changes everything. We open the door on Pure Kaos with zero polish and total honesty: what it’s like to wake up sober, remember the night, and decide to tell the whole story of addictio...