Even if you're scared.
Even If You’re Scared is a podcast about showing up for your life… even when you don’t feel ready.
Hosted by Sil, a Black, queer, transmasculine person, this space holds honest conversations about identity, love, grief, becoming, and everything in between. It’s about carrying loss while still making room for hope—and learning how to live with both at the same time.
Some episodes go into the heavy things.
Other days, we laugh, talk about music, books, culture, relationships, and the moments that make life feel good again.
Nothing here is overly polished or perfect. This is a space for honesty—for the hard, the soft, and everything in between.
Occasionally, there may be special guests where we bounce ideas, stories, and perspectives off each other for deeper conversation and connection.
If you’re figuring it out as you go… you’re not alone here.
Even if you're scared.
Mother's Day Special "The First Women I Ever Loved"
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A special Mother’s Day episode dedicated to the women who shape us, love us, raise us, and remain with us long after they’re gone.
This episode reflects on the loss of a mother and sister, the weight and beauty of remembrance, and the ways love continues through family, ritual, memory, and everyday acts of care. From dressing an altar and sharing a meal to holding space for complicated family dynamics and generational love, this conversation honors motherhood in all its forms.
A deeply personal episode about grief, gratitude, devotion, and the first women who ever held my heart.
If this episode felt familiar in any way—like your mind, your room, your routines, or your quiet—you’re not alone in it.
You can reach out anytime at 7amkingsil@gmail.com or on Instagram @abstract_catalyst. Messages don’t need to be perfect. They don’t need to be important. They just need to be yours.
Everything sent gets read. Even if it takes time to sit with it.
And wherever you are right now—whether you’re moving fast, standing still, or somewhere in between—you don’t have to force clarity out of it today.
Just keep going gently.
Even if it’s messy.
Even if it’s uncertain.
Even if you’re scared.