Even if you're scared.
Even If You’re Scared is a podcast about showing up for your life… even when you don’t feel ready.
Hosted by Sil, a Black, queer, transmasculine person, this space holds honest conversations about identity, love, grief, becoming, and everything in between. It’s about carrying loss while still making room for hope—and learning how to live with both at the same time.
Some episodes go into the heavy things.
Other days, we laugh, talk about music, books, culture, relationships, and the moments that make life feel good again.
Nothing here is overly polished or perfect. This is a space for honesty—for the hard, the soft, and everything in between.
Occasionally, there may be special guests where we bounce ideas, stories, and perspectives off each other for deeper conversation and connection.
If you’re figuring it out as you go… you’re not alone here.
Episodes
17 episodes
The Weight Of Softness
I think avoiding first person actually makes the description feel more universal and inviting. Here's a version that keeps the same themes but speaks to the listener instead of summarizing the episode from your perspective.What does it m...
The Quiet After the Flags Came Down
The calendar changed.But nothing else did.A deeply personal conversation about the emotional comedown after Pride Month, the parallels it shares with Juneteenth and other moments of collective remembrance, and the question that's ...
In Good Company..
A guest episode, a loose outline, and entirely too much ground to cover in far too little time.This Pride Month conversation welcomes Veronica—a Black, Nigerian, queer Londoner, former podcaster, and longtime friend—for a funny, thoughtf...
Roots, Rituals, and Remembrance
This episode was supposed to come out earlier.Instead, it arrived on Juneteenth.What begins as a reflection on houseplants slowly unfolds into a conversation about grief, memory, Pride, community, survival, and the stories carried...
Burning It to the Ground Part 2
Part 2 of 2The conversation with Tracy continues.Picking up where Part 1 leaves off, this episode dives deeper into long-distance love, queerness, pansexuality, polyamory, identity, Pride, and the ongoing process of creating a lif...
Burning It to the Ground Part 1
Part 1 of 2For the first guest episode of Even If You're Scared, creator, traveler, storyteller, and digital nomad Tracy joins the conversation for an honest discussion about reinvention, risk, and what happens when a life no lo...
Glimmers
A delayed guest episode turns into something unexpected.Between forgotten keys, a packed bar, awkward pedicure conversations, shirtless selfies, fresh flowers, and a long list of adult responsibilities, this episode explores the small mo...
Happy Pride, Y'all
June holds a lot.Pride. Juneteenth. Community. Identity. Joy.This week, a reflection on first Pride memories, taking up space, finding belonging, and learning that sometimes the most radical thing a person can do is become more of...
Strong Enough
Strength is often celebrated, but rarely examined.This episode explores what happens when resilience becomes second nature—when responsibility, grief, debt, healing, friendship, and survival begin to blur together.From persistent ...
The Quiet Parts
A slow, unpolished, and deeply personal look at what life becomes when nothing is fully finished and nothing ever really stops.Inside a 1,000-square-foot Brooklyn apartment, days blur between routine and drift—waking on a couch instead o...
Somewhere Between Overwhelmed and Hopeful
This week’s episode explores consistency and what it looks like when life feels scattered, heavy, and unfinished.A long distance, open relationship sits alongside deep missing, emotional honesty, and the complexity of staying connected a...
Mother's Day Special "The First Women I Ever Loved"
A special Mother’s Day episode dedicated to the women who shape us, love us, raise us, and remain with us long after they’re gone.This episode reflects on the loss of a mother and sister, the weight and beauty of remembrance, and the way...
It Hurts So Good
Love isn’t always loud. Sometimes it’s longing. Sometimes it’s distance. Sometimes it’s the people who stay on the phone with you while you cry, or the memories left behind by the people who don’t stay at all.Episode 5 explores romance, ...
What's Left of Me?
When caring for everyone starts to cost you... You can't carry everything and still keep yourself.This episode explores what it feels like to be pulled in multiple directions at once—balancing family, responsibility, grief, and personal ...
"Letting It Fade to Black”
What happens when you finally start setting boundaries—and people don’t respond the way you hoped?In this episode, Sil opens up about overgiving, learning to say no, and what it looks like to choose yourself without needing closure.<...