July 9 therapy bites five

I'm still in weekly therapy for OCD! And I really like it. I feel better after seeing my therapist. Maybe this is why I got multiple degrees in psychology - because I think the human mind is so interesting. 

These recordings will end August 15th. !! I’ll still have OCD after that point, but the big gainz of therapy will be partially realized by then. And I want to give myself a stop date so I can take a break from recording. 

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Hello, it is July 9th. Still in therapy for OCD. I 10 out of 10 think that I have OCD. Today I looked at the difference between generalized anxiety disorder and OCD just to check if I might have, or like what the difference was, because I'm trying to get it straight in my head a bit more. And yeah, OCD is a bit more about like rituals and compulsions and stuff like that. Even when I say those words, I'm still like, what? But um I do have those things. And I'm so happy. I'm in treatment. It's I feel really good after I see my therapist, even though I let my mind be at its most kind of wild when I meet with her. Um and just, I guess, not do the kind of impression management and politeness that I normally do around people. And yet here we are, still in therapy. Haven't been ejected. Um we talked a lot about work stuff today. And what would I take away from it? I don't know. I I just kind of have the sense of like being injected with, you know, have a bit more of a glimmer in your eye, Brenna. Like get into a little trouble. Um don't hide in the corner. And I also told her I have this podcast because I was um thinking that she would be upset that I am talking about what's happening in therapy. And she didn't blink an eye. She was like, oh yeah, I'll come on your podcast. I'm pretty busy, but we'll find a time. And also, I think because I was like, was that allowed? You know, because I was so got so worried and hung up when I took ethics in grad school in my PhD program, where I was like, okay, I need to very carefully follow all of these rules and remember them always. Um yeah. So she said she goes on other podcasts sometimes too. So um that might be in our future OCD question mark listeners. And that's all I have to say for today. Um I'm still working on things, I still have the depressive certainty come up a lot, but um I th we were talking about fleeting thoughts today, and I think that just for me, uh fleeting thoughts stick to me and cause me distress over decades, and I'm just learning about how to get more unstuck from them, which feels very good.