Ep 107: New BIG Impossible Goal HOLY SH*T this is Scary!

Slayer here...I can't believe I'm DOING this! This big, impossible goal, which is exactly how I know it's the GOAL to do right now. I'm keeping an eye on the weight loss, but spoiler alert: this new goal is not directly related to my weight, or appears not to be. I have a feeling they are more connected than we know and are all about to find out. 
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Transcript

Hey heart singers. I wanted to catch you before you head into that episode. I know everybody is always looking for a way to jump in and get started and actually take action. And I've got two things coming up that you can jump in right now. And you know those goals, whether it's freedom from food, more abundance, joy, happiness in your life,

pursuing those things. First up, we have a free fasting challenge in the Heartsing podcast community, which was key on my path of freedom from food. And I'm sharing all my favorite resources and you will have access to that eternally. So I'll hop in there. The second is my abundance circles. Now I'm on this quest to make a million dollars after I've lost the hundred 30 pounds and created the business,

all of that. Now we're gonna make a million dollars and I'm taking you with me. Head over to Addie beal.com and you can get more information there. Enjoy the episode. Do you know that there is something magical inside of you but you don't know how to uncover it? The Heartsing Podcast is dedicated to just that helping you put yourself first and figure out what lights you up.

I'm your host Addie, B aka Slayer Namaslayer. And through my journey of losing nearly a hundred pounds, uncovering the magic of my soul and building the life of my dreams, I'm leaving no stone unturned in the process of self-discovery. And I'm here to share it all with you. So let's get started. Welcome to the Heartsing Podcast. I'm Addie Beal,

also known as Slay of Namaslayer. And if it's your first time to the podcast, I have been sharing my weight loss Quest journey for about four years now. And just sharing all the nuggets I've uncovered along the way on this really spiritual quest, it's become, and in the process Created The MEfirst Guide, the Sisterhood, all of these fabulous things. But I tell you this Because Today I am going to share a new big impossible goal with you,

which from the outside will look like it has nothing to do with weight loss, but it really has everything to do with that still. Because you know what you guys, it's all the same stuff. All the same tools and skills are needed to get no to, no matter what goal we want to get to. And it just became so apparent to me as I was doing my 90 day plan this time,

but to bring you to this point where I'm sharing my new big impossible goal that scares the crap out of me to tell you, I gotta tell you, when I first went live on Facebook in 2018 and I called it coming out of the weight loss closet. And I told out there, because I asked my future self, I said, Okay self,

if you know then what you know now, what would you do? And I said, Well, I would start showing people now how I'm doing it. And I was like, Well, I'm doing it. So I'm just gonna start telling people even when I fail, I'm gonna share with them because I wish I had someone I was following that was showing me all of this too.

I wanna see the ups, the downs, I wanna see all of that. It's very inspiring, right? So to watch people fail somehow it is because it helps us know we're not alone and it's, it's the process of getting back up. So it's been my mission to show up here with this open heart, sharing my journey as transparently as possible no matter what.

And this is no exception because what came outta my planning session shocked me. And I'm scared to tell you about it because it means I'm really gonna have to show up for it. It will change the trajectory of some of what I change share here on the Heartsing podcast with you, with with what I create and what I share on my social channels. But really it all is still about putting MEfirst,

the MEfirst guide process. All of it is that has remained the same, which is why I was guided to create what I was and that it will just become clear. So I am going to start by taking you from this past weekend, which was our MEfirst Guide weekend experience. I do this quarterly event for this sisterhood, which I opened outside the sisterhood this quarter and put on this event about taking us through this process from the future,

self dreaming, all the way to plan implementation. I'm gonna share a tidbit from the spirit guide session here with you because I had a couple fabulous guests come in. Shout out to Renee Spears of the Un Monology podcast, also one of my spiritual guides and mentors in, She's a spirit guide Chandler, and that's who you're gonna hear here. And another big shout out to Jenny Elle,

a good friend of mine who also came and shared her gifts and she's an ascension coach, helping people move from that really 3D stuck in the grind to living as our highest and best selves from that place of love and gratitude, those higher vibrations. So both of these two, they came to our event and shared. And so I wanted to play for you a session that came from that.

From, right almost the very end of our experience. And we were talking to the spirit guides. And during this, I just kept hearing ask, ask for yourself, Addie, ask for yourself. You know, there's a message for you. There's a message for you. And this never happens. And I have Renee come to all our events and you know,

I see her personally so I don't take up the time that other people are having with reading my guides. So we got through everybody and I just had to ask. So I'm gonna let you hear that first and then we're gonna get into how I arrived at my big impossible goal. And I want you to know though we're still on this weight loss quest,

like that is still there. I'm still getting to the 1 62, but somehow this next evolution, this this next big impossible goal, I'm to go for like I know with a hundred percent of my being, this is the next goal that that is going to bring us there and it's gonna evolve my energy work to another level as well. Okay? So here,

let's have a listen into this little segment here. Hey, oh my gosh, my heart, my guides have a message for me. I don't know why, but like what is it For you? For you? I guess, I dunno, Did they tell you that? Yeah. Okay. So when, I love that you are connecting, like before,

you know you weren't as connected as you are now, so your connection is really grown. Fabulous. I love it. Wow. Okay, I'm gonna cry a little Addie cuz this is just so cool. Like we've talked you and I about stepping into your, you know, your greatness. And I think that this weekend is like this huge step forward to you doing it.

Like everything is upleveled and you probably don't, I haven't experienced it because I haven't been here, but you probably know like, man, I fucking up leveled this. But just the acknowledgement that you're doing it, you know, like you need to feel proud of yourself for like doing this, you know? And I'm proud of you. Yeah, I love you.

Thank You. I love you too. I was sitting here listening to everyone, Renee and you and looking around and I'm just so grateful for all of you and for what I get to do and to put into this world and that you honor me with your time to show up and go through this process and to uncover yourselves with me. Is there a greater honor on this planet?

I just, there isn't, you know, Shit Renee, this was supposed to be private. God damn, We need to go cry for a little bit now. Oh Shit. Look at what you started. Golden Thunder. All Of you guys like, oh, I love you all so, so much. And this was really, really special. Renee,

I can't always thank you enough for coming and sharing your gift with us and, and your time and all of you guys for sharing yourselves with me and here and being in the sisterhood's really, really just been magical for me. And I hope for all of you guys. And with that, we are headed out to a break. And so we're gonna come back and we are,

we are believing we're working on those thoughts and we're bringing her home. You guys, we're taking everything you've learned going from that past self to the new self. And we're working the thoughts, and I'm gonna show you the daily plan and bring the logistics into it. But don't forget this energy because it's really truly what's it's about. When we sit down to do the plan,

which Renee calls man of the station on steroids, right? When we sit down and do that and think every day about our daily intention brings us to this space, brings you to a greater spiritual practice, brings you to a greater awareness of self and your direction in life to go from that old self to the new self and healing ourselves in getting new job opportunities and getting new bodies,

even like, you know, all of these things that are po they're, the world is full of these infinite possibilities and each one of us has the opportunity to dial into whatever possibility we want. So that was last Sunday at the event or this past Sunday at the event. I like to keep the podcast as real time as possible so I can share those ups and downs I was talking about.

So I go off to Monday, do this for myself because obviously while I'm leading it, I can't really do it. I'm sharing my history, my experience, all of my input as I go along. But I haven't done it yet for myself for the quarter. And I do this process and this is what's moved me forward. It's how I've lost 130 pounds.

It's how I left corporate America. It's how I've built a business. It's how I've gotten to this space I'm at now, creating a, a guide, you know, a podcast, a planner, events, like I can't even believe it all. But this is the process and this is the path that's made it happen. So I take myself to find out what are my infinite possibilities?

What am I needing to stretch myself to? What goal is going to come out of this or goals, you know? And I've really been on this weight loss goal and last year I had said that I was not going to deter from my weight loss goal again until I was there because I had tried it the year before and everything just goes, you know?

And I gotta tell you, I went through the whole front part of this guide, which takes us through visioning, your career path, your financial, your body health, your personal, your community, your relationships. It takes us through all of this and breaking it down into action steps and small action items. And this is all done easily, effortlessly.

Don't get overwhelmed hearing that if you're not doing this process, oh my goodness, you gotta come do it with us. And so I go take myself through this and you can sit with us and do the process straight through in just a few hours, right? When we do it together at the event, it's a whole nother experience because I'm leading and guiding and sharing and we're all sharing with each other.

So that's another experience. But you can sit and just get it done if you're one of those self-directed people. But it's so much more fun together. Let's be real. It's like scrapbooking by yourself or with a party, you know what I mean? Okay, So I'm by myself, I take myself to resort Addie or I'll, I'll get distracted and not finish.

I know myself well enough, anybody else out there. So I go take myself there and I'm like, you are not leaving, you're not looking at your phone. There's no distractions. I put airplane mode on and I'm not allowed to move until it's done. So I'm going through this process and I go through the career and the financial and the health and the body and I get to the end.

And my goal, I don't know how to share this with you because there's so much that went into that writing and the visioning because I've been seeing my vision of my future self, of her overlooking this vista from these big wide open windows doing her yoga and really her morning looks so much like it mine does right now. You know, just having the freedom and capacity to move.

What's different is my location in her freedom financially, her freedom to create more, help more, create more abundance for everyone in everything in her life. Like to have more space to create more space, to be able to do more things, more adventures, more creations, help more people. The list goes on and on. And so what came out of this drum roll,

please. Oh my god, this is so scary you guys to say this out loud that I am going to do this and I am going to show you how I'm going to do this just like I did with 130 pounds leaving corporate America, buying an RV and traveling the country. We are going to create a million dollars. That's right. Can you believe it?

I know. I was like, what? And you know, what comes up for me with that? So much fear. And that's how I know it's exactly where I'm supposed to go. I wasn't feeling fear or excitement about 1 62 anymore because quite honestly I feel really good where I'm at and I feel healthy and I feel like I know who I am right here and right now.

And I like her a lot with her weight and her health and all of that. I do still wanna get to 1 62, but I also saw myself buffering because with food, because I wasn't moving toward this other goal in the manner I should be and showing up for myself and, and my spirit guide session today. Time kept coming up. And which is also interesting because one of the things and tools,

and I'm gonna share with you the tools here that I'm go, I'm putting into place to move myself toward this goal and the actions I'm gonna take, and I'm going to have more on this I'm sure next week, but I had to tell you my big crazy impossible goal. Also, the episode I have on here, episode 26, impossible Weight loss goals is really,

really good, you guys. I listened back to it today. But if you're on your weight loss quest, which a lot of us here are, or you're setting these big goals, please go listen to that and don't also decide to change your goal just because you don't feel the big fear and fire if you are desiring to lose weight still. And this is the difference,

like I don't know where my desire level is with it right now. It's not even an all-in thing. Sometimes you need to find your why and find your desire. Right? Now, when I listen to my heart, like I'm so connected with my energy now, I'm so much more connected to how the universe works to the energy, to the way we are here to create that.

It's, it's just become a different thing. I'm listening on a different level to where I'm supposed to go next, what I am supposed to create next. And in the creation of this money, the money is just the measurement of me moving into this greatness of solve and not because see, and this is where all limiting beliefs about money are going to come up.

And I feel very Brooke Castillo with this podcast. I have to tell you guys, any life coach school fans out there, you know, Brooke's pursuing her a hundred million dollar goal and I'm like, oh my God, I am doing a life coach school podcast, right? Like, but with a million dollars. But I am doing this. And I'm not saying Brooke doesn't,

I guess I don't know that that much. I mean, I know there's a lot about the mindset and using the model, I am using energy and I'm going to use the MEfirst process every single day. This guide I created. And I'll be sharing that in our sisterhood and you know, like I do on the show social channels. And I'm also going to bring in some law of attraction,

more energy work, more meditation like less is more baby, you know? And I think it has the appearance of, I work a lot. I've been talking about this with a couple different people this week. I don't feel like I work a lot, right? And I think it looks like I produce a lot because I, I'm just you guys,

I'm really good at producing shit. I'm just kidding. And I don't want you to get the wrong impression. None of it has really felt hard. What was hard was being trapped in a job that I didn't wanna be in any longer. What was hard was not listening to the calling of my soul. What was hard was continuing to get larger and larger in my body.

Oh, you guys gotta hear this. This came outta my spirit guide session. Where's my notes? Hold on, pause. Okay, here it is. My guide said, weight loss is keeping you small. Isn't that funny? Weight loss is keeping you small. It's a way of belief, right? That, and it's just, this is a bigger me.

It's a bigger thing I'm stepping into. And the MEfirst process is bigger than just wait. And this is why you'll hear like episode 100 where we have the testimonies of the women from our group that are doing so much more than losing weight, right? They're creating these careers, doing these different adventures. Like, because this process takes you through so much more than it just like losing weight,

right? I don't teach someone how to eat right? I teach you how to put yourself first. The guide is your foundation. You are your truth. The answers and the knowledge is right within each of us. It's right within you. It's just allowing yourself to be still and hear it and feel some of the discomfort, both the high vibrations and the low vibrations,

allowing yourself to feel, allowing yourself to dream and ask what could be possible. So in this aspect of whew, man making a million dollars, you guys, you know how much fear comes up around that? And so many like limiting money beliefs that I didn't even really realize I had. And I've talked about abundance a lot here on the podcast because it's been a path I've been on recognizing that this has been a block for me as it is for so many of us that we have to work so hard to have money.

How many of you think that's true, right? That we have to have hard work to do that then, you know? And money is really a frequency. So I asked myself, I was like, well if money is energy and I know I can create anything and I believe this now, right? I believe I can create everything. And I've been proving it to myself.

Why wouldn't I prove to myself this abundance? And I was in some webinar, the million dollars comes from this as in some webinar. I thought it was Renee's spiritual class, but we're not sure. And so I was in this class and they asked what your number is? What is your number that just, you would be like, Oh my god,

you know, that's my thing, I'm free, It's in my, my bank account. Like financially. And it didn't come up. It wasn't like like 500,000. It wasn't 5 million, just a million. I don't know why other than you know, my child's name is Mili and in Hawaiian it means millionth, right? Like one and own a million own,

Own a million a means you own a million, right? So I thought that was interesting. I looked that back up today because it, it, anyhow, it was a long story short. Okay, so back to the million dollars. So I pick this million dollars just kind of rather randomly because seems impossible to me and scary. But yet, is it possible?

Of course, I know it's possible, right? Like people make millions of dollars all the time. It is possible, just like for you, is it possible you could lose weight if that's your thing? Is it possible you could find the love of your life? Is it possible you could heal your body? Can you find proof in the world that other people can do these things?

And then we say yes, okay. I agree. Other humans can do them. Clearly not me, right? But like other humans can do them. Addie, okay, I agree with you. Great. So whatever that big impossible goal is, that is where you find your magic is in pursuit of that goal. So this is my new goal.

We are in pursuit of, and it's much less about having a million dollars than it is about the pursuit of the million dollars. And who I become in that process, just like it was who I became in the process of getting to 1 62. And I say that like I'm already at 1 62 and I know I'm not there, but I also know in pursuing the million dollars I will get to the 1 62.

I don't know how to tell you that I know those, but I, I just know it. I'm already more in alignment and here's why. Here's my tactics to get to this million dollars. Okay? Here's all of the things I have lined up that are going to aid and abed me on this journey. And I've got more common, especially after my spirit guide session today.

So I am, I found a new podcast, by the way called Love Attraction Changed my Life. And it's this chick from Britain and she's hilarious and she throws cus bounds all over the place. If you don't like profanity, definitely do not go listen to her. Which means 99.5% of my podcast listeners are going to go download her stat and kudos to you.

I even joined her book club, which is kind of fun. So I'm got her in my ear. I've got Renee in my ear, of course with theology podcast, getting my weekly energy updates and her special guest she has on. And I'm booking out my Renee sessions and Renee has opened her doors for business for me to send me downloads as they come in.

Since we're working through this together and I'm adding tapping in, I am doing what I'm calling everyday energy magic. So as I head into my meditations, I'm doing some just fun new energy work. I found this geometric energy dude on Gaia freaking love it. If you need to know more about that, you're gonna have to pee on me cuz I don't have it offhand.

And I, you know me, it's like I'm busting out this podcast right now, but it's so cool like dialing into these energy centers all around and within my body and making these geometric shapes and it's tied throughout like history and science and all this stuff. Super fun, right? So I'm like igniting different energy areas with my mind. This way. I am listening to more Denise Duffel Thomas,

who I love, who does this thing called Money Bootcamp. And she helps you really overcome those limiting beliefs. And I can't believe how many of my money limiting beliefs are tied to other beliefs that are affecting like self-worth beliefs. You guys, it's all kind of tied into the same thing. And once we start to see ourselves restrict ourselves or come from a place of unworthiness,

or we aren't whole already, or we aren't deserving of the most abundant gratitude in the world, because we all are, because we are all the divine, right? We are all, all that already. So of course, why aren't we already at that vibration, at that deserving, at that level to where we know we are worthy already, that we are abundant already.

And it's just that reframing those beliefs, those which are the thoughts that are running deep, that we have 60,000 of 'em programmed and a good majority of those negative about these underlying stories we tell ourselves from our environment, from society, all of that stuff. So that rewiring, and you heard me leave in the camp session, right? Then we were going into that part where we were working our new thoughts and I added this part to the MEfirst guide,

to the planner. I added this part right in the daily pages because it's been so powerful on my journey this year, adding this work in and how do I believe this new thought and what comes up each day? And I see everybody posting their plans in this sisterhood, and I'm like, that is going to level up our transformations even more. And we're already seeing 'em like wildfire.

You know, it's just so phenomenal. And this part is all about stepping into Addie Beal about who I am, all of me. The next version, the one that is whole, that is all of it. The weight loss, the financial abundance, the love the community. And I did it with weight and I'm still eyeballing those last 20. They're going right?

But I'm going for the big one, you guys, right? So I can't, I don't even know, I don't even know how we're going to navigate this together going forward, but I know it's going to be something special. I wanna play you the final session from my spirit guide session with Renee here today. And I think we'll close out this week.

And I hope you guys are excited to follow this journey with me. I'll look forward, send me your messages, send me your love or your, I can't stand it Slayer, I don't like it when you're off the weight loss, go whatever it is. You know, I wanna hear it all. I love all your feedback and all your cheers,

and even, even when you're not in a agreeance with me, it's okay. You know, I'm here to try new things to follow my heart and my soul and keep showing up for where I'm told to go next and do my darnest to show up with those bells on baby. So here we go. Which is a bitch is a million. So quarter one,

our goal is 50 grand. That's for the end of this quarter, which is like, like, seems impossible to me. I have to write myself out of like frigging craziness every day because it just doesn't seem possible. So just so you know, and then we're gonna escalate from there. So follow along you guys, I'm gonna have some ways you can participate with me too,

I think because of what came out of this spirit guide session. So have a listen here. My gosh, I, okay, let, let me make sure I got everything. Okay. Yeah. So this throat chakra thing, so interesting. I haven't really, I've coughed more in this hour than I've coughed the last three days combined. So this is about you,

this is about Addie Beal coming out, not Namaslayer. Clearly that's part of it. So the little voice before now, this, it, the, you know, I don't even know what you would call it now, it's, now it's all of it. I'm a little teary because it's so overwhelming. I'm teary too. It's really overwhelming. Yeah.

Damn. It's a lot. Because it's a lot of like, it's a lot of like, I know I have big things to say, but I don't know if I have 'em to say, you know, like, yeah, what do I have to say that's so important? And that's the limiting belief, you know? Like, I don't know if it's so much what you have to say,

it's what you have to show. People can say shit all day long, Right, Right, right. But showing it and living it and, and you know, just like you do, I, I, you know, I only lost two pounds this week or gain two pounds. Hey, I only made two grand this week. You know, that,

that's what, that's what inspires people, right? Yeah. Oh, it's not all straight up. When decide to make a million dollars, it's like this, you know, because we don't know, we don't have the experience. So then watching you, So whatever you do, I really do think you should take a group along with you, but whatever you do,

you gotta document this shit. You know? Even if it's just you and the camera recording it, like, this week I only made two grand, or whatever it may be. And then at some point you put it together. Yeah. You know, to something bigger. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Like I didn't have a big list already. I,

That's where I now are. You're going big sister. I'm, I'm listen. Yep. All right. I love it. Thanks Renee. You're welcome. So good to see you. You too. Thanks a lot. Bye. Bye. Bye. All right, you her to hear you guys, I am going to show you how I am going to get up over and over again on my way to this big impossible goal of a million dollars.

And timeline is, that's my annual goal. So by next year, 2023, we will have achieved this goal somehow, some way, and we will get up over and over again and find our way. So stay tuned for how you can jump in on this ride with me, and of course, follow along here on the podcast, all the social media channels,

Namaslayer dot com, Addie beal.com. I'm in transition between those. That's another thing coming up. So as I step in fully to Addie Beale, embracing all of me no longer letting the weight loss keep me small, stepping into the abundance, the money, the love, the joy of living a whole full entire life being me and sharing all of me with you.

And I can't wait. And I'm so, so grateful. You all are here for the ride. I couldn't ask for a better group of witches and bitches, and you wore locks out there to be on this ride with me. So I hope you enjoyed this episode. Let me know what you think about my big impossible goal. Are you excited? Are you all in on this with me?

What are your thoughts? Let me know. Slayer at Namaslayer dot com pm me, Addie Beale, reach out, my friends, I can't wait to get in touch with you and I'll until next week more then Slayer out. Witches and bitches. Don't go anywhere yet. This is a reminder to head over to Addie beal.com, A D D I E B,

all B E A L l Dot, and get your information for the free fasting challenge. We start the fasting timers on the 27th, but we are doing some fast leading up and some other cool stuff. You're gonna wanna jump in and at the very least, get the resources and just kind of gather some knowledge through hanging out and listening. Maybe if you're just fasting curious or you're a fasting guru,

jump in on this. It's fun, it's free, and why not? So that's one thing. And the other is Addie's Abundance Circle. Listen, if you wanna be on this quest, you wanna do the magic with me, jump on in. I'm talking about a little bit more about the magic in this week's episode. October 22nd. October 21st. So if you're not listening real time,

you might wanna hop into that one. Have a listen and see if you wanna find out more about Addie's Abundant Circle, or again, hat over to Addie beal.com. I hope to see you on the inside. All right, let's light it up. Witches and bitches slay out again.